Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Well I think this is the best thread ever! I love reading it everyday, because it makes me feel like I'm not alone in this. My complaint could go on and on but I'll stick to the current issue. I just had a core biopsy yesterday on my bc side reconstructed ped. tram flap side. Five months ago it swelled up and started leaking gross orange and chunky (sorry to be so vivid) fluid. Six different doctors had six different opinions. Some just said I don't know what it is goodbye!! Have been asking for a biopsy since Nov. 07. US in Dec. suggested biopsy. Dr. forgot to order MRI, I asked for 3 months to have one. Finally did, suggested biopsy. My PS treats me like I am bothering her, sure she doesn't have a leaking boob that hurts everyday and reminds her of bc. Just sick and tired of all of this cancer shit. My recons are horrible, the left one is under my armpit and is shrinking!! My right one has a big dent from the leaking. I just want to look normal again and get on with it. Traci I am so with you on the hair, I won't even get started.
Wow, I feel better, thanks.
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Terry,
That's why I started this thread. Cuz, anytime I posted anything bad on any of the other threads you get a 100 "you can do it's" or,"everything happens for a reason" "it'll get better" "you're so strong" and my all time favorite "it'll grow back"! (not that there's anything wrong with that)
Sometimes, I just don't want to hear that $hit! When my sis sat down on the floor and started crying, all I said to her was "I love you sister" and I sat down beside her and cried with her. Then, we shook it off. I mean what else are you gonna do? You can't cry for ever...although, sometimes it feels like you could. Right Deb? (((((Deb)))))
My dad died of lung cancer in 7/07. It really sucks being bald from chemo and watching someone you love die from cancer.
Yes, we tested. So far Debbi and I are +, My sis that had uterine cancer - and my other sis hasn't tested yet. My brother just had skin cancer cut off his face. Oh and I had bi-lat (even tho bc was only in one breast) and a total hysterectomy. No baby for me.
EVERYTHING SUCKS!
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Terry, wow you have been through the ringer and yes honey you can bitch and moan just like the rest of us. Honey I went through some of your comments and read about the costipation. I here you clearly. there was a time I was on 20 to 30 pills three times I either had the screamin "shits" Pardon the language but it was the truth. and the bad thing I was bedridden. then I would be so constipated. I would have to wait for my husband to come home to hold me to go to the bathroom i was to weak to stand by myself. I couldnt sit on the toilet because i had open wounds do to scleroderma. I was so constipated I would shake and just cry, my husband bless his heart and sense of humor and my little girls were laughing there little heads off. because of what we went through we allways made a game of it. this time It was so bad the many glyceric suppositoires would fly out because i was so compacted, the flushes just would not work, I was afraid and embarressed to go to the ER. So my husband put on his rubber gloves had his spoons, vaseline and perceded to do his job. the whole time saying "I think we could go into the business of masonry and even make some money if i kept this up. Now thats a guy with a sence of Humor.
Terry YOU ARE STRONG we just need the reassurance we can do this and thank GOD for this site and all these wonderful ladies, We can really draw stength from one another. Your in my thoughts and prayers Im sending you a virtual HUG. Heather0 -
traci
Sorry about things for you. Its just that I use to be so sure of myself and that I could get through it no matter what the it was. But now things are so different . I kept my left breast so sure nothing more would happen. Then chemo and I learned that so much more can happen its beyond words. then a year later in the surgeons office he is ex me and that look happens. Didn't have to say anything I just knew here we go. Another lump another biop. another couple of days in hell. But nothing to worry about so I had tha lump out any waay. After that , that positive s--- yooou can put that where the sun doesn't shine. How are you two getting through this. MY sister has a daughter and I have a son. Need to be here for them . I use to set my sights on making it too his wedding. Now after this last lump now thinking high school graduation is more real. ( AAAnd no I not BEING NEGATIVE I think I"M just being real).
Trying so hard to shake it off. Sorry had to tell yoou . You wooould understand how I feel. My sister and I are only 16 months apart in age and have always been there for each other. Thanks for listening to me. I just really need someone to hear me and not feel sorrrry for me. TERRY
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Traci, you are so right and im so glad you started this thread it has really helped letting things out and has let me laugh, cry. and just know that everything will be okay. Thanks again oh by the way about being bald. i havnt seen you bald but i bet your smile and your charisma out way any baldness. i know you hate that from your statements from before. but i see that in your picture you are a very beautiful young lady i see you have that sparkle in your eye, according to my uncle as long as you have that sparkle in your eye you will go far. Have a good day Heather
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IRS, Constipation,Genetics Test scares,A/C and car breakdowns, worrying about the kids getting into schools, man don't you all think it's just about time the universe gives us a break. I'm so sick of this fkg disease and all it brings with it. Now I'm afraid to eat, so I eat tiny little bits, but still fiquired out even with all the oil caps and laxatives my body will only go once every three days, and I'm in the process of moving so have to be careful about food. I hate it, I hate, I hate it. Oh well thanks for everyone listening. Have to get back to my slow moving. What shocked me yesterday and really pissd me off was the amount of work I did yesterday. When I thought back I could have done that amount in a couple of hours it took all day and I was exhausted. I want my old energy back. Pearl
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Oh yeah and will this damn winter ever end. Its the end of March and expecting snow today, sick of it. SO BAD. Pearl
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Hey Japan! Last week, we got the same letter from IRS saying we owed 17 grand for 2006!!! Come to find out, damned CPA had all the documentation we supplied back in '06 but FORGOT to add the damned mutual funds as income!!! Bastard! HE should have to pay, not us...ends up being not as bad as we thought, "only" 2300 and change, and he's going to pay any penalties or interest.
We pay these Motherf**kers, and they screw up?! I can see if *I* forgot to submit something but the idiot ADMITTED he was looking right at the documentation and didn't have a clue as to why he didn't include it!
Now, *that's* something to bitch about....talk about panic....I literally felt myself get weak in the knees and dizzy when I opened that Goddamned letter.
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Yes, I was the one who had a Marilyn Monroe with twirling tassles on her boobs!!! I'm flattered you remembered! Do you remember my potty mouth? There used to be another Tracie on here (from New Orleans?) and me, her, and Marci Beth would curse like sailors and no, we didn't use **** either!!!
I love, love, love, this thread, and will try to brighten it up with humor....and cursing.
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Terry and Staci: You can add me to the sisters with bc list. My one sister passed away at the age of 46 from cancer of the ovary. I was diagnosed with bc 10 years later. Im er/pr negative, BRCA2+ and her2+. Had bil. mastectomy and removal of ovaries. My older sister was diagnosed with bc 3 months after me. She had the same surgery. We both had reconstruction - I got silicone, she got saline. She is er/pr + and her2-. But she also had the brca2+. I needed chemo. She didnt. She took Aromasin. I couldnt. I took Herceptin. She couldnt.
OK - thats my gripe. This is all too crazy and unbelievable. When I try to tell my story I laugh because I cannot believe any of this is true. And I so agree about enough is enough. I have had it. Im done. I dont even want an ingrown toenail.
I feel like Im living in the twilight zone.
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My turn...
My gripe is the postal service - and customer service in general. I went in today to mail 15 small envelopes and the stupid clerk acted like it was too much daggone trouble to wait on me. Even asked me if I could separate the packages by content next time to make it easier for her (nope, sorry - I have a job, and it ain't working at the post office. SEPARATING the packages is what the hell they pay your sorry behind for). She was rude and nasty to the lady in front of me for no reason other than that she could be. Then, for my measly $30 purchase, she asked - in a really snotty voice - for ID for my BUSINESS check! I mail things from that and every other post office in my area all the time and pay via business check and NOBODY has ever once asked for ID (personal check, yes, business check, NEVER). I asked to see her supervisor who said "Well, we're supposed to ask for it, but not every clerk does. And we have been having a ring of bad checks." It was all I could do to keep from whipping out my ATM receipt to let this chicken head know exactly how much is in the account. Smart a$$ clerk says "I guess I'm the only one who is doing my job!" Now I know why they have a big ol' plexiglass partition at that PO - to keep the customers from reaching over and yoking the crap out of one of their lazy tails! See, this PO is in "the hood" (it is near the college I teach at), and I went in sweats after working out - not in my normal teaching attire - which is why I guess she thought she could be as ugly as she wanted to be.
So, I got the number of the Postmaster and will report her tomorrow. I HATE rude service people!! I understand that people have bad days, but it was only 10am, which means she'd been working for 60 daggone minutes. B*TCH!
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Felicia: Haha that is a good one. Customer service? Hmmm I think many have forgotten what that means. And while we are at it, what are you spending for gas? $3.48/gallon to fill up tonight here in Chicago. Blah blah blah blah blah.
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I had my stage one in July, thought I was finally getting my stage two next week. Just found out today that the secretary gave away my surgery date because I had to go for a biopsy yesterday that the PS assured me is nothing. Just the latest in a long list of screw ups at that hospital. It was the straw that broke this camels (although I look more like a hippo these days) back! I'm done, saggy deformed breast mounds and all!! This sucks!!
BTW I am still waiting to hear about my genetic testing. No sisters but my mom had bc and is a 7 year survivor! I have a daughter too and a long family history of colon, breast, and ovarian cancer. I'm scared.
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Hey Nicki - I paid $2.95 a gallon for gas tonight - eat your heart out!!!
Love ya,
Valerie
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Valerie....did you find "black Market" gas??? we drill for the damn oil up here and we are paying $3.65 a gallon! Something is not right with this picture!
Deb C
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Felicia,
Loved the postal attack . That story is why I come here. I'm still laughing
Thanks I just needed that . Terry0 -
Nicki,
You are in the twilight zone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I'm there with you.
So sorry about your sister...........Doesn't seem to be any words to express some of the sorrow I feel for people .KiKi,
Girl its time to kick some butt at that hospital.
TERRY
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Hi Gals,
Just catching up on everything after being away 2 days. Whew! Everything Sucks. Too much misery. Makes my nausea and vomiting seem simple.
Heather, had that happen to me at home. I was only wearing a bathrobe and no panties so I left a trail to the bathroom. Of course, my cats came to look (with disgust). Made their hairballs seem like small potatoes. They were so smug.
So many loved ones lost to this disease. Too sad. I want to zip into the future to see if they have found a cure and if this barbaric treatment has ended.
Traci, loved the pic. I never had a sister. I am so jealous of the close sister stories. My only brother and I are estanged thanks to his bitch of a wife.
Debbie
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Felicia - I guess now we know why people go "postal". I'm with you on the lack of customer service EVERYWHERE! I'm shocked if someone IS courteous and does their job without complaining! GEEZ!!!
I don't have any big bitches for today (so far), so I'll get off here and let someone else go!
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YOU ladies make my day, Im glad im not the only one that have bad days., Thanks Heather
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I know Heather! It's turned into a good thread! Bitch all you want (as long as it's not about another member.....or what they said, or how they looked, or their political position....we don't get in to all that here....it's just bitch and move on)!!!
I'm bitchin' tonight for my sister's bad tram-flap. Other than that right now, I have no bitches. (But, I can't prove it.)
Do love you girl thugh!!,
Traci
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Why the hell am I up at 3:30 pain, if I can't shit then the back goes out. I just read the threads about bad clerks I hate that and have had temper tantrems over it lately. I think I'm just jealous that they are working and don't have a clue how lucky they are. I just want normal back. NORMAL.
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I just read Carlins' post and loved the ending, "just need someone to hear me and not feel sorry for me." Thats why I love this thread in a nutshell. My cats are staring at me as if I've screwed up there sleep, going to try have to see my rad onc today.
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Felicia, I'm with you on the postal system...our workers here are military and have to be polite (mostly), but the system itself is a mess. I ordered some books from Amazon...they were shipped Feb. 20. They didn't come for what seemed like an eternity, so the middle of last week I emailed the co. and asked them to resend, which they did. On Tues., the same day I got the fat letter from the IRS, I got two boxes from Amazon...the original order, and the new one. Sheesh...timing is everything.
My house is a mass of paperwork as I dig through stuff trying to find what I need to send to the financial planner to send to the IRS to get me out of paying almost $20K that I in no way owe. Ltb, I don't think my situation is as easy a fix as yours (glad you didn't have to pay really big bucks), but I'm cautiously optimistic. Oops...sorry, this is the bitching thread. :-)
Pearl, sorry your back is hurting...I can only hope that the sh*t flies soon.
Traci, you and your sister are too cute! Love the sign...
Lynn
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Pearl - I am sooooo sorry you are going through this. I really hope your rad onc has SOMETHING he can direct you to....even if they stick you in the hospital for a (eeeewww) enema!
JapanLynn: Good luck finding those papers...how come everything else gets held up in the mail but the IRS always gets their mail thru?
Nicki: Maybe life in the Twilight Zone would be better than the freaking crap you're going thru here.
Now my bitch.......Today is day 3 at the radiation center. 1st day they "reprimand" me for not looking the same as I did pre-chemo - yeah I lost my hair just to fool them! Day 2, they were running 20 mins late....ok. Day 3 - I get there this morning 20 mins early. No women are there - just men on the other side changing, getting zapped, dressing. I am the ONLY woman sitting in my gown. Now a tech comes and gets a guy, doesn't look at me and I figure no big deal but after 15 mins and still no other female patients I think hmmmmm - maybe I'd better check. So I go into the back and there is my tech and another gal who both look surprised to see me. I say "where is everyone...is the machine down?". She goes "oh, yes, I called you - here look at my log". I ask if they called my cell# which I make sure is all over every page....I tell everyone in every office 'IF YOU NEED TO REACH ME CALL THE CELL PHONE. I am in the gym at 6am, out by 7:30 and I always check my cell phone to see if I have any messages....then I drive all the way from gym to the hospital. They grab my file and she goes "oh, gee if your cell phone is one here, I'll just....". And she flips thru and there it is - ON EVERY PAGE WHERE IT SAYS 'PHONE #'. She had to search, I'm sure, to find the home#. So gee, I've had one session this week - don't know if the machine will be fixed today and if not I'm out again tomorrow.
Where is that picture, Traci, I need to figuratively punch my rad tech in the nose.
I'm totally rattled and it's only 9:30am......hope the rest of the day goes ok.........thanks for listening
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" Here you go!!!!!!! 
Hope everybody's day isn't too crappy!!!
((((((((Hugs)))))))
Traci
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Guggerty - That SUCKS!!! Hello, call the right phone number!
Here is my bitch for the day. Taxol dries me out like a potato chip! I have a constant taste of blood in my mouth from the dry nose/sinus issue.....talk about GAG! I have saline nasal spray and gel, but it is not enough. we can put a man on the moon, but we can't find a cure for my dry bloody nose? Grrrrrr.....
Oh, and here is another one. I read that SO FAR the presidential campaigns have spent 200 MILLION dollars on advertising and campaigning.....200 MILLION, and it is not even April. Just think what could have been done with that money! Just think of the cancer research that could have been done.
OK...I'm done....Who's next?
Deb C
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Well, I have just a teensy weensy moan today.
I have a nearly 10 year old Sausage dog ( well, bitch actually)
She has been getting unusually fat, in fact her tum is trailing along the floor as she walks! I have prodded and poked at her, and made excuses for not taking her to the vet, as she's fit as a lop, and eating like a little pig!
Today my conscience got the better of me, and I went.
Got a very dreamy Polish vet, he was so sure, just like me, she was not pregnant, he took her off for xray, came back for me, and told me she IS pregnant.
How this has got past me I do not know, and how a ten year old bitch will cope with puppies I do not know either.
I just never have my eye on the ball these days!!
Never mind, if I need the vet again, I shall make a point of asking for my McDreamy Polish one ( I think its the accent that had me all of a flutter!!)
Isabella.
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I just finished up my tale of woe with the IRS - they didn't like the fact that I inadvertantly overstated my sales tax deduction a couple of years ago
, so they cancelled out all of my deductions other than mortgage interest. It took 2 months of backing and forthing before we got the 2 letters that (I think) let us off the hook. Two days after getting a notice that the file had been sent to Austin for review, we received a letter saying we hadn't sent backup & we still owed. Two weeks later we got a letter saying things were ok & cleared up. Two days after that, another letter saying they'd review before March 31. $3.66/gallon - and that is down from $3.75 - new competition, I think.
I read something and it pissed me off. WHY do some people deliberately misunderstand? WHY don't they wait a bit instead of sending out stuff that's going to change in a day or two?
Deb C - Vaseline? I think that's what one of the kids had to use. One of mine had allergies and the SE of the meds - spontaneous bloody noses - made her decide to live with them.
Traci - every time I see the bitchslap I wonder what brought it on?
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I'll have another moan about petrol prices.
Today I paid just over £5 per gallon (about $10 dollars) when I called to fill my car.
I just got my bill for my last fill of heating oil, it was £645 which would be about $1200. I am afraid we will be shiv ering when this runs out in 3 more weeks. (We need about 8 fills a winter)
Threequarters of the price goes to our government.
Isabella.
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