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Alicia - Maybe add snack - like a carton of your favorite ice cream.  That will help with the calorie intake.  I hope you are feeling better soon.  You will get past this - we are all here for you.  (((ALICIA)))

Juli/Tink- why am I so accepting of this....???what the hell is wrong with me that I don't get angry? Have to work on that for sure...went to a movie and laughed at in appropriate stuff last night...managed to get through the day and wen to cardiac gym class and then to the chiropracor where i promptly burst into tears when she started to readjust my back....dear god....will call my Dr. tomorrow to ask if they can call in for the results and I will go to them Friday if they have an appointment for me.

Jo - Does it never end? yowser!!! I am soooo sorry you have more health crap to deal with....when I was driving home form the chiro today, I was trying to think on the positive side of these past two years and came up with - ah well...best to get it all over and done with while I am young an dhealthy....easier to fight right now....how about that? Want to borrow the thought? hugs to you!!!

Sandee I told my Dr when she called that I said to DH last night that I hope I have arthritis. Who would have ever thought I would want that.  She laughed and said yes when you get cancer it is amazing how your perspective on life changes.  I said no kidding lets see arthritis or cancer which do I want not a hard choice.  Hope you are able to get your results tomorrow

sandee, I know you didn't mean to be funny, but that DID make me laugh??       Perspective indeed....you are in my thoughts, girlie.   ~juli

SAndee you made me giggle too.  It is funny the way we think now.

Just a little something to brighten our day.

Hi, Guys:

Been away for a while and read your posts to catch up. A lot going on. Amazing how this can feel like there's no let up. I was depressed at the beginning of May since I had a medical event scheduled each week in May. And now, since every medical event is a potential mine field, I started to unwind at the end of April just thinking about it! Got through gyneco/oncologist, finding of really high estrogen levels and then first Lupron shot (not so bad...though the hot flashes are wicked, sudden chemical menopause...still, it's just sweat, can deal...trying to keep perspective...) which brought the E2 levels down to normal. Then MRI and preliminary read all clear, then ....not so fast: biopsy of suspicious cyst, which turned out to be benign (Thank G-d, and of course, the waiting for that result was hell...) then colonoscopy and gastroscopy (ok.) Just got second lupron shot, still OK (I know people who said they couldn't stay on them as the SE's were too bad, weird kidney stuff happened, but if I can't take them, I've got to have an oopherectomy and really want to avoid that if possible. That surgery would be a bit more complex in my case as I have scar tissue from previous abdominal hysterectomy.) 

Jo, I don't know if this will help you, but I was the Fibroid Queen. Had one pre BC that grew over 10 years to be the size of a 4 month pregnancy. Ultimately had a hysterectomy 3 yrs ago at age 47, but it was all benign (just big and annoying.) Fibroids are mostly benign so please try to calm down if you can about this. Worst case, honestly, having a hysterectomy wasn't so bad. I kept my ovaries as in the big picture they're supposed to be good for long term heart and bone health. And mine seem to really want to hang around and stay active It's just too bad that you have to have all this stress. Ironically, this is one of the advantages of having had the hysterectomy. At least there's one less female body part to worry about!

 SherryC, glad your hip is ok. I do understand the worry, though. 

 Alica, I think about you and your post scan depression. I understand how that level of stress can tip you over into a depression. But you can climb out as time goes on and things are actually...OK. I bet your stomach issues are stress related. Not eating and taking meds on an empty stomach can wreak havoc. They did with me. Try if you can, to eat more and coat your stomach? Really sending you good wishes.

I was feeling a bit down today, too. Heard of a few bc deaths (of women I had known were very sick) of college classmates and then someone local, here. I know that every disease is different but it's still hard to hear. I try to remind myself that each case is different and many of us can live to old ages, dying of something completely different, but then irrationality takes over...Oh well. Good to vent. I can't do this with family so easily. Don't want to worry them or be overly morose. Please forgive me for being a downer - just need to be able to let this out. On the flip side, I just read about great new statistics for bc survival thanks to earlier detection and better treatmts. Those women had been diagnosed years ago.

Wishing us good results and good health!

Love, Shari

Alicia: I've been having a craving for caramel rolls/stickie buns...I grew up in central PA, and it seems that no one in the northeast knows how to make them.  They are buttery, cinnamony, sugary pastry goodness.  I'd hit the local bakery if I were you! Cinnamon is good for what ails you! And so is pastry. And so is butter! At least that's the way I look at it!

Yesterday was such a hectic day here at work.  Had deadlines for kids so they were in and out all day.  One of our organization of volunteers are not seeing eye to eye and were in and out yesterday to talk to my boss.  Thank goodness I don't have to get involved with the politics.  Reports due and Newsletter to build.  Just finished the newsletter and it is on the printer.  Maybe today I can slow down.  Was so busy yesterday that one of the volunteers had just come in and sat down at my desk when my Dr called.  Had to get up and walk across the room so I could talk to her. Did not want him hearing my conversation about cancer and MX.  Anyway today will be a much better day.  Not so stressful

sgreenarch-you have been busy with Dr's.  Hope you can tolerate the Lupron shots.

I am here.  Been trying to get as much done as I can before Saturday.  I have been doing research on the internet and the gyn is going to do a hysteroscopy.  From what I have read it takes less than an hour and I should be able to get back to doing things by Sunday.  I have a whole list of questions for the gyn tomorrow.  I am not going to be rushed into anything.  Felt so rushed for cancer surgery - not going to let that happen again.

heartnsoul - You crack me up - That is a thought - HMMM!

Sherry - I would dread a bikini cut.  Many years ago, I had an ectopic pregnancy and I would cut from the belly button down.  Two years later, I was cut in the same place - the doctors tried to repair my left tube but it was too damaged from adhesions.    Will just have to wait and talk to my gyn tomorrow.

worldwatcher.. so glad to hear you are doing well!!!! great news!

heartnsoul that is hysterical love it!

Hi JO/SHERRY...Been a crazy week here DD has finals so she is getting out of school all different times then DH leaves me honey do lists to run errands during the day lol...

being outside is horrible right now... the temps here have set records and the air is so heavy!! yuck

JO..I am packing up my wings as I will be there with you tomorrow!!!!! hugs!

JO//Left shoulder it is!!! you got it!!!!! 

Hi all!  Its a beautiful night out tonite.  Its not to hot out.  You sit outside and not sweat like crazy.  I dont have a problem with the heat.  I like it hot.  Now the cold is a differnt story. 

My hotflashes I had with chemo came back with a vengance.  WOW did it ever.  I did get a few weeks in between the chemo and the tami taking.  This will pass I know.  

Tink dont ya just love those list.  Guys complain when we do it, so fare is fare.  

Jo good luck tommorrow.  Make the doctor take his time.  This is something that cant be rushed.