INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Hi ....I cannot sleep.

Hi Bcky. Welcome  I know how it works and the people here

wonderful. They are so full of love and caring. You are never alone here.

Faith is doing wonderful and taking care of mom.

I had the Lumpectomy on 10/31. Friday I went in for the Pathology. Now I am waiting for the Oncotype. By far this is some kind of frightening situation. Like a bad nightmare I cannot wake from. The Surgeons Assistant is asking to see if I am open to Chemo if my Oncotype is high. I do not want chemo but they found tumor cells on a lymphnode. I had a small frontal headache today and immediately I thought it could be a tumor cell migrating to my brain. The cancer treatments they offer are horrifying. The whole thing is beyond my minds ability to cope. They thought I had rib mets in a Cat Scan but Pet Scan proved I did not. I think the waiting and what ifs and toxic treatments are beyond my resiliance really.

How is it in 2014 almost 2015 they do not have a cure for this? I got a bill from the Radiologist for her consultation. It was 500 dollars. I have in my heart rage that the modern medical system is criminal. They charge 5 hundred because they can. Why is the US not like Canada. The Free Market of Capitalism should never be allowed in health care. I have two college degrees and have worked so hard all my life to have modern medicine offer me poison for a not really cure and to financially devastate me. I am sad angry and scared. It is all outageous and I simply cannot acclimate to any of it.

Hello, I am Jenifer and I am awake AGAIN. I have had 2 primary tumors in the past 2 years. I am about a year out of chemo. However, I am now healing from a torn rotator cuff. The surgery and rehab for that requiresme to have my arm in a sling for 8 weeks. I hope to be out of the sling around Christmas.

Bcky…The waiting will always be the worst part of treatment. I will keep you in my thoughts for a low onco score. And when you get that result, then you will be able to make the best plan. If chemo is best for you, so be it. It is doable and life WILL get back to normal. I went through everything this time last year. But I found the strength to be the mother of the bride in May '14 and I will be back to normal as soon as this shoulder heals.

Just wide awake and listening to my DH snoring. I have a physical in the AM with my PCP. Will be glad to get that over with

I love a laugh, so I hope Ya'll will enjoy some of my Southern humor.

((hugs))

Long day today, needed to do laundry and the rest of the day I relaxed.

cause I am still fighting as You know.

I have IDC and have had high chemo and 3 surgeries and

am still enjoying life. Trying to think of all the wonderful help

we didn't have years ago. I count my blessing

Please do not think that, we all have been there, and people did

help us too. God bless You and keep You in the arms of His love

Please let us know how You are doing. Hugs and prayers.

OMG I just wrote a whole post and it went poof, yes poof on me how dare it.

I'm sorry again for being MIA--I'm just goofy and floopy--I did read about the UTI's that what I have been having on anti0B's now and got called 3 x by my Dr. something to do with the culture so I start again this week, I don't know what's going on and I get the all the time too???WTF

Welcom all the newbies and Bcky I know this is all hard to digest, but when u know the whole story and they have a plan, sometimes everything seems to go in place, and u'r fear subsides, just don't google and we're all hear for u and don't ever apologize for anything u say, unless u call me a name that disgusting like others do. U'll find strength where u never thought u had it, so if u need something for nerves ask u'r Dr. and tell them exactly how u feel. Most Drs. are very helpful in that way so use that to u'r advantage--it will help u immensely.

Blondie always (((HUGS)))

And Chevy always ????? and a raspberry, the sound doesn't come thru on a computer.

I didn't read all the thread yet, so I'm just going on what I read so far. And u gals are great.

my friend and I at Heathrow!

Here is the link to our first day: https://plus.google.com/photos/114548905958190217046/albums/6080002776904966881?authkey=CJjb56ak8dS2fQ

Morning gals! Hah! Blondie.... thanks! You should HEAR some of my stories.... AND Cammi's! Of which none of them are true.... well maybe some parts maybe.... but we tend to expound on them.... a little.

Now Spookiers, no, wait.... I don't know either... I think her head is on her feet... I think I can distinguish an ear... a pink ear... possibly?

Mema.... Yes, it was the BEST exhibit I have ever seen! And set around all the gardens, like the glass sculptures were PART of the ponds, etc. Something I will never forget! It is here through November.... I can't imagine how they will dismantle it all....!

Meow, we are supposed to get cth weather here tomorrow.... That is "colder than hell" for those of you who don't have a clue what that means, as if in Florida! Rain would be good, but that bitter cold, is just.... well BITTER!

Foots! Yes, we are warm.... Ha! I love to snuggle up on the couch with my warm blankets that I make...

For those of you in Florida, who don't know what a blanket is..... oh never mind.

Oh Teka, you found a BCKY! That must be short for Becky.... I'm pretty good at these things you know... She can't sleep!

Bcky, we will take care of you... I can't do it at night, because I'm one of those that sleep...Ha!

Don't be afraid Bcky... You have to wait until the final pathology report, to see what is going on... Remember, we are here for you... If you have even one little positive node, which I see, you did, they will want to protect you with radiation, and maybe chemo! So many of these gals did not want to do it either, but if it helps them, and keeps things from getting worse, then at least there are ways to fight this...

You must be scared! We all are/were too.... You just can't help it. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

It's like every little ache or pain, or twitch, you will naturally think of the worst... but just get it checked out... You are Stage 1.... that helps.

And don't cry Bcky.... then you get us all a-cryin, and it puffs up our face, and our eye-liner runs...

Yes... Teka said a stress head-ache... so we'll go with that. Yes, take someone with you... Find some handsome thing, if you don't have one of your own.... okay?

Just don't worry... do you have insurance? I know it is ridiculous... don't tell Sassy, or she will be all over this like honey on a bee... wait... like honey on toast... or something.

And so now we have a Jennifer... and she has Doxies! Yeah! OH MY DOG! A torn rotator cuff? Can't you find anything simpler? I went through this with my Daugher#2... Yes.... Aw geez.... that's all I can say....

Yes, we need low onco scores.. Mine was 19... a "low intermediate" but I whined and said no, I don't want to do that, so I didn't. So I didn't go to chemo-jail.

So Doxie.... don't stay away too long... Your husband snores? Damn! Put a pillow on his nose... or kick him in the butt... maybe hum to him... If all else fails, banish him to the stair-well... THAT should do it... Hah!

BCKY! You are still awake? Get some sleep girl! Are you alone? I mean is there anyone like family that can be there for you? This will all get easier.... and don't be mad.... these are all things we have to go through.

Lots of disappointments, sure, but we want you to think every day will have a bright spot....

Just don't go tearing your rotator cuff, like MomoDoxie die, or fall and break your hip, like I did... Or then there is Spookie, who did a face-plant on the floor... doing some crazy dance move... It COULD be worse!

See? Foots is your cheer-leader! THAT gal is tough!

And there is Cammi! WTH Cammi! You lost a post? SURE you did! You are feeling puny? What's going on here little girl? You must need some Chicken-soup! And Milk Toast... GO TO THAT DOCTORS OFFICE FAST! You don't sound healthy to me! And so what IS this....? You say "and u'r fear subsides.... " Well at least you spelled "fear" right.

You sound like Charles Dickens or someone with this "fear subsides" stuff. (She don't know how to spell YOU, so she just says "u". She thinks she is texting or something)

Oh WAIT until she says "recockulous".... Ha!

Morning Blondie girl! You are in PA? It's supposed to get down to around ZERO in a coupld days! DAMN! That's all I can say...

Morning JWOW! Good Pic! And what's going on Blessings? A melt-down? That's not good... What are TBI's by the way... Okay.... just try doing 10 minutes.... get through that, and then go on to 10 minutes more. How is your head doing, by the way?

And I love your picture of the Owl!

Good pictures JWOW! Like telling us your story! Your friend reminds me of Mariska Hargitay!

Morning Momom! I'm having coffee with you! Have a good day gals!

xoxox

I DO TOO KNOW WHAT A BLANKET IS!!!!!

I'm wrapped up in one now, it's fricken freezing out!!! It's 57!!!!!! My feet were like ice cubes last night, had the heat pad on them. Must find my heated BLANKET today. This winter stuff if for Northerners. Or people from Colorado

lol

Holy crow! Just flipped over to the Weather Channel and I am seeing the storm that my relatives are getting back in Wisconsin. Even my brother who lives east of the Twin Cities is getting it! The local station said this morning that its gonna be colder here in the coming week and a couple chances for us to see flurries!