How do you deal with the anxiety
I have a biopsy tomorrow for some loosely grouped microcalcifactions that have grown and have a slight pleomorphic shape since the last mammogram. My radiologist told me that he would be surprised if it was anything but due to my high risk background, needed to check. He also said he has been surprised before. I had a MRI in August that was clean. I've previously had two biopsies that revealed PASH. I'm also high risk due to Mom, 2 Grandmas, 2 aunts, cousin on both sides of the family with breast cancer.
I'm freaking out - my rational mind will tell myself that the odds are in my favor, radiologist seems confident etc but I can't keep my head from going to dark places. I've had a two week wait for the biopsy and have lost 7 pounds, can't sleep or focus. Obviously, this isn't good for me and being high risk, I either need to be better prepared to handle this going forward or pull the trigger on the prophylatic mastectomy.
I've read about mindfulness and trying to live in the moment. Has anyone had success in dealing with these awful waiting period with these type of techniques? Any suggestions on how I can better deal with this anxiety? I'm afraid if it comes back positive, I won't sleep/eat/etc for the next month while everything gets sorted out.