Cancer changes everything! anyone that kept living normal?
Maybe I just need to vent or maybe I'm just mad!
But I feel like cancer has changed everything!!! I look to see if a lotion contains hormones, I am terrified to have a few glasses of wine, I'm scared to eat certain foods for fear of feeding the cancer. And trust me I ate healthy before cancer, I was never a big drinker, and tried to use good cosmetics and lotions!!
I feel like I research everything I do! I have lost all freedom. I spend my days lately planning around Drs appointments and getting ready for chemo. Going to pick out wigs, microblading my eyebrows, fearful of dying. Had some crazy lady tell me last week not to do chemo or I would for sure die.
All of this just stinks and I know everyone here completely understands where I'm coming from. That is why I feel safe to vent here.
If you have advice or think I'm over thinking things please please tell me. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Maybe it is just part of the process of being diagnosed. I don't know. But whew. I sure could use some people that can talk me down off this imaginary ledge I feel like I'm on. I feel like if I do one thing wrong I'm going to make it worse and die.
I know these thoughts are probably irrational. But I also know I'm probably not the only one that has had them.
Thank you all in advance for letting me vent!!!!
I truly love it here. I feels safe.