I'm going in for my oncoplastic lumpectomy on Thursday. This will be followed by 3 weeks if radiation, and then.... An aromatase inhibitor. They caught this early, and everyone is telling me how lucky lucky lucky I am.
I'm terrified. Not by the surgery or the radiation really-- in confident that this part will go well. But by the drugs which, based on what I'm reading, will cause my blood pressure and cholesterol to skyrocket, destroy my bones, leave me at risk for early onset dementia, and make me feel like I've aged ten years.
It will decrease my chance of cancer returning-- but at the price of utterly destroying my physical and mental health. Is it worth it?
I'm healthy. Really healthy. I want to stay they way. I worked hard to bring down my blood pressure and cholesterol since heart disease runs in my family. I cannot afford to lose that ground. Maybe some people live with all kinds of ailments disability and cope-- but I don't want to join that club. I'd like to go back to two months ago when my biggest medical problem was a slightly achy knee. Is this wrong?
Otoh, I hear other repeated stories: "I didn't have any side effects. It all went without a hitch." Which is it?? Wth? How do you do this?
My doc insists that I "have the best kind of cancer," but I am not convinced. This is really terrifying.