Post-Op Pathology Feels Like Being Diagnosed All Over Again
Last year June (2021) I noticed a dent in my right breast and upon inspection I found a lump. Was diagnosed with stage 2A IDC as there were a few lymph nodes involved. All tests showed that the tumour was 1.3cm. I underwent chemo August-November and it showed that it shrunk to 0.8cm. I then had a mastectomy on Jan 6 2022 with a sentinel node dissection (they took 4).
Yesterday I went for my follow up and discovered that it was upgraded to stage 3 since the tumour was actually 3.5cm and all four nodes were positive. It felt like I got diagnosed allllllll over again! I broke down there in the room and because of covid they weren’t allowing any visitors and my support person had to wait in the car. The nurse was nice and comforting but I’m just feeling depressed about all of this... how could something like this be sooo off? I’ve had 3 mammograms, 2 MRIs and countless ultrasounds. Both my oncologist and I are baffled and the only thing we could come up with is how dense my breast tissue is. Everyone has always had a hard time finding it.
However, this really doesn’t change anything. I would still had to do chemo, I would still have to do the surgery and still have to do radiation. I’m trying to be ok with this, but starting to feel depressed and trying to find the positive things in my days. I’ve decided to have my ovaries removed with my next surgery in a few weeks to remove the remainder of my lymph nodes. I don’t have children and the fiancé and I were planning to start a family but that looks like it’ll be on a serious hold right now. I did freeze a few eggs before I started my journey, just in case. Just feeling depressed and overwhelmed right now.