Feeling foolish and waiting for biopsy
Despite being 39 w/ 0 history of breast cancer in my family I went in for my 5th mammogram and ultrasound in 5 years on Monday. Little background - I started finding so many lumps that instead of continuing to go in for tests all the time I was referred to a breast specialist who was basically like "Hey, learn what normal lumps feel like for you but if something feels different come in" so I haven't had an issue since 2019. In 2021 Ifound another lump, this one didn't go away after a few months like the others, I waited longer / got busy, and then when I saw a dent in my right breast I made the appointment to have it checked out. Now I'm scheduled to have an ultrasound guided core needle biopsy Monday (1 week after my ultrasound/mammo)
Reasons I feel foolish - 1. I had absolutely 0 worries about this lump, I was SHOCKED when the nurse said I needed to come back for a biopsy. I mean, I was joking around that they were gonna find Jimmy Hoffa's body in my breasts (they are very, very large), so I feel stupid for not even thinking a biopsy would be on the table. 2. I feel foolish for being ill informed - I had no idea what a BIRAD score was until I read this forum, so I have no idea what mine is, I'm worried it's high maintenance to call and ask and wonder if it would just freak me out so maybe I would rather not know. 3. I feel foolish for being as nervous as I am (Rationally I know I don't have a history in my family & most biopsies come back as noncancerous), almost like I'm co-opting something that doesn't belong to me and being worried is illegitimate, and 4. I feel foolish for waiting to get this checked out, work was super busy blah blah.
Waiting for the biopsy is bad enough and I only have to wait a week. I suspect waiting for the results will be even more unpleasant. Thanks for listening to me ramble.