36F Waiting for Results of Biopsy BIRADS 5
I'm really worried to be here but also glad there is a community I can vent to and share my fears with as I wait for my biopsy results to come back.
Long story short, last July 2023 while I was breastfeeding (pumping only) I noticed a lump in my right breast. I brushed it off for a few days, then got really worried and scheduled an ultrasound. Results came back as likely fibroadenoma - follow up in 6 months. I had a bad feeling about the lump at the time and was incredibly relieved to hear it was "just" a fibroadenoma".
FF to December 2023, I noticed the lump felt a bit bigger, and starting around Dec 20 it felt significantly larger than it had before. I touch my breasts enough, and had kept checking on them, and this felt like it grew quite quickly, not slowly over the course of the few months.
Once again, I felt super worried so I scheduled a follow up US at the 5 month mark. The mass had grown 3x the size and now I had a BIRADS 4 rating.
I immediately got myself referred to a nearby cancer centre, was triaged and had an appt within 2 weeks for more imaging and a core needle biopsy.
In between the Ultrasound in late December and waiting for my appt in mid Jan, I felt some discharge from both nipples, squeezed my right breast, and to my surprise, a LOT of milk came out. I had weaned August 2023, but I was shooting a lot of milk 1-2 feet out from a single duct and getting more drops from the others. The first few streams of milk were slightly thicker and fattier than my normal milk was, but after a few squeezes it looked and also tasted exactly like my breast milk.
I felt a huge of a sense of relief, almost like I had popped a pimple. The lump also felt a bit more oval after I did this, so I started to get some false hope that maybe this was lactation related, since this same breast had a horrible bout of mastitis in late January and clogs almost every week or two while I was BFing. I was pretty convinced this was a benign abnormality.
I finally had my appt yesterday, they did a mammo, ultrasound, and ultrasound guided core biopsy of the breast mass and a fine needle biopsy of an axillary lymph node. Results came back as BIRADS 5 from imaging, I am just waiting on pathology results from the core biopsy now.
I am absolutely kicking myself for not pushing for a biopsy last year when I first felt the lump, and I feel upset with my primary care physician for brushing off my valid concerns because I was breastfeeding and my lump is tender.
So my question to everyone is, has anyone gotten a BIRADS 5 and came back benign?
Has anyone had a similar situation with milk discharge like this from a breast lump? I am trying to hang on to any shred of hope that this is a weird abnormality.
And finally, for a tumour growing this quickly, am I basically staring down the worst kind of breast cancer if it does in fact come back cancerous?
I have a 15 month old baby and whenever I look at him all I can think about is how I might not be there to see him grow up and it's absolutely crushing me.
Thankful in advance for any responses, support, or just listening.