Just been diagnosed I'm only 37 waiting on Cat scan scared it's spread
Hello everyone never in a million years did I think I would be writing somewhere like this at 37 years old but here I am in what seems to be a club nobody actually wants to be in. All this started less than three weeks ago.out of nowhere I found a large lump under my armpit I went straight to the GP and was referred and seen 3 days later in the breast clinic had a biopsy scan and CT done a week later the biopsy has come back and is grade 3 triple negative what ever that means. They are testing me for the general because I'm so young and have asked for an urgent CAT scan. The lump has just come out of no where I was fine then bang I feel like I'm riddled with cancer the waiting for the biopsy was hell i physically felt and honestly the waiting not knowing was worse than when they told me I had it.now I have to wait again for a scan then results and I'm even more scared of this one what if because it's so aggressive out of nowhere it's spreading like wildfire and I'm waiting on a scan cant they just get in and treated while testing I know I am working myself up to the point I have given myself every diagnosis under the sun right now
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@willtash202537 Im so so so sorry that you find yourself here. You are not alone in this fight. What you are feeling is normal, the beginning of this journey is so very scary. Once I had my test results and a treatment plan it helped a lot. You will have the answers you need and a plan of action. It’s easy to let our minds go to that dark place of what ifs…but try not to go there ( I know easier said then done). I understand you wanting to just start treatment right away, it’s like they are wasting time with this cancer in your body and they aren’t doing anything… totally get it. There’s a feeling of urgency in wanting to start fighting this battle. Hang in there…. Support where you can find it will help get you through this! There are many resources out there, talking to people who have gone through this helps immensely!!!! You are not alone. You are strong and whatever the tests show you will fight. We are here for you! Hugs!
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Hello thank you for your reply I am pleased to know that these feelings are normal and as you said it is exactly how I feel word for word. The waiting is just hell there is no word for it I go through a hundred emotions in a day I thought waiting for my diagnosis would be the worst part and I could deal with what ever else but it just never ends with the waiting worrying sick. If I'm honest I have no idea what help and support I need I'm not sure what's out there partly my fault because I think if I accept this help that's it it's real if I see other people having treatment it's real at the moment I am very much the same mentally and physically i haven't begun the treatment for this to feel real if you get what I mean.
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@willtash202537 what you are experiencing is very normal! I remember it like it was yesterday and it was hell. Looking forward to sleep so I could forget, then waking up with this terrible sickness in my stomach. It does get better I promise you…… it may take some time to process, go at your own pace. When you are ready there are groups on here specific to your cancer type -Triple negative, zoom meet ups, Facebook has a bunch of groups on it as well if you want to go that route. Your cancer center may even be able to hook you up with a local support group. When you are ready! It’s a shitty journey but there are many positive stories on here and you are not alone in this . Hang in there…. You are stronger than you realize!
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Thank you so much I really hope I am strong enough for this I am so grateful for your response it's comforting to know I'm not alone
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@willtash202537 oh gosh no thanks necessary.Its just a really crappy thing to go through and my heart goes out to you! You got this! You don’t realize your strength until you are faced with something like this! I am sending good vibes, crossed fingers, prayers, whatever you need for the most boring, uneventful CT scan ❤️
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@willtash202537 I'm so very sorry this is happening to you. I am a Triple Negative thriver and there are many TNBC postings with good info or just support. We all know the waiting is absolute torture and our minds definitely play cruel tricks on us. Take a breath and take this one day at a time. You can do this if you don't look at the whole staircase but just each step. It's so crucial to have all the pieces of the puzzle together to get the right recipe for success to wipe out your cancer. You will feel so much better once you have all the info and a plan of attack. Sending you positive vibes and strength. Keep us posted we are all here for you❤️
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Thank you for your reply omg does your mind play tricks on you I have had everything wrong with me since diagnosed the normal pains now feel life threatening. I wonder if I will ever not feel like that or I will forever be paranoid. I had my pet scan yesterday I was dealing with everything ok up untill that point I don't know weather it was because the scan lasted so long but it was the first moment I felt like a cancer patient I felt sad and scared and just felt like I didn't belong here it's the first time I have had that thought. Got the dreaded wait now while I try to convince my self I'm not riddled head to toe with cancer.
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@willtash202537 Your feelings are totally normal. I was in your place 16 years ago and I was totally freaked. I had no idea of what and where etc. I would do. My mother died of breast cancer so that added to my fear. What happened is that I found a great surgeon, a great radiologist and a wonderful oncologist. Don't settle for a doctor if you are not comfortable with them. Please feel free to check in here everyday and let us know how you are doing. Prayers coming your way.
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