TERRIFIED day before mammogram yet 12 years with no recurrence

It’s the day before my annual mammogram and I’m terrified, with no specific reason but fear of recurrence. Go through this every year. HELP!

Age 54 I was dx’d in 2010 with Stage 1, T1, N0*, M0 (Left-sided Infilrating Ductal Grade 2, ER/PR positive. (*Sentinel lymph node biopsy found one node with < 0.2 mm micromet which doctor considered insignificant.) Tumor was excised in 2 pieces during surgery to get very clear margins, so tumor size is somewhere between 1.0 - 1.9 cm. Treatment: lumpectomy, radiation, Arimidex for 4 years. No recurrence in 12 years.

My year 13 mammogram is tomorrow and, as always, I’M TERRIFIED. I was always told I had a good prognosis, but I’m a zombie sitting in the mammogram waiting room. I have no symptoms anywhere in my body, eat a strict healthy and broad organic diet, walk a brisk treadmill for 30 minutes each day, ideal weight. I’m now 66 years old.

I had a complete hysterectomy with ovarian removal pre-menopause due to fibroids. Does that help?

Do I have reason to hope or is the fear always the same? I used to think the longer without recurrence, the better. Now I don’t know. HELP, sisters. xoxo