My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

Some good news to report. I was able to reschedule the appt at Memorial Sloan Kettering, so I flew to New York for what turned out to be a 20 minute consult. I really like the doctor and she has agreed to do it. Only complication is that she will soon be on maternity leave but since my case is a little complicated, I prefer for her to do the procedure since she is an expert. Next step is to get an MRI, ultrasound, then we'll see. I can tell I'm not as young as I used to be. Flying back and forth to NYC used to be no big deal. Now with this hip issue, travel is grueling and I'm kind of wiped out today but I'll be working and hopefully that will perk me up.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend whether it involves playing with grandchildren, spending time in nature or just relaxing at home.

I am sorry to hearr about exbrnxgirl passing, my thoughts are with her family and friends, here and in her real life. I did not have much interaction but knew her name from reading different posts she made.

Chicagoan, glad you got your appointment, I am wishing you the best of luck as well for your case. Get some rest between the travel and appointments.

Tanya, thank you. I have replaced the food and set the total on a 6 month payment plan, 20 bucks every two weeks, will not affect my normal budget. Nice to have staples like eggs and sour cream. My brother is working a lot and he is getting closer to 60 and 12 to 14 hour days will take a lot out of anyone. I hope he is resting. I have talked myself out of being sad about them, do my own stuff.

I slept better last night and woke at 11 am. No real plans for today other than the household stuff. I am planning to wash up some clothes. Got one of the skorts on. SIL suggested a size up from what I usually wear and it is really loose, lucky there are ties to keep it on. They will all make fine pajama cottoms or look up the style of skorts and yoga pants and capris.

Laundry will be for sure and possibly using a couple of the smallest washers since they are gentle on stuff. Using a mini blower to blow some of the dust out of my fan, planning to blow everything out, do a sweep and vacuum and perhaps a quick mop.

Not sure about meals, I did have the mexican nutrition bowl from Great Value but did not enjoy that and wound up disposing of about half of it which is OK, can't know if you will like something without trying first. Everything else is fine, I do want to try to make some quiche type things, I have the eggs and cheese and could possibly use a bit of the jiffy cornbread mix to dress it up. Use the magic bullet to whip up the eggs, some cheese with sour cream. Possible to chop in some beans and fill the muffin pans. Idea is because I picked out egg bites instead of meat pies accidentally, perhaps make my own. I have a lot of different choices anyway, could just make a quesadilla with a pre cooked egg and some garlic and cheese as well. I will post when I decide.

The other two skorts are going through the smaller washer first, they do smell mildewy because I honestly forgot them for a few days so using the oxy clean odour blasters. I wish we had the liquid version here in canada but the powder will be OK. Wee machine is struggling a bit but is still agitating them. Plan to soak first and then put through a normal cycle. Plan to just hang from the drying rack on my bedroom door after spinning.

I do hope everyone has a good day, in pockets for all who need me and will post later what I decide to make for food, lots of different options to have.

@goldensrbest I can relate to your post. When anniversaries/birthdays come, sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I didn't have cancer. I feel like it has aged me so much-both the cancer and the treatments. Relieved to hear that you are still stable. Can understand why you don't want anymore operations. Here's to an uneventful August.

@goldensrbest Belated birthday wishes from me as well. 🎂

I could not sleep last night, sure I dozed a bit on the couch but that is OK, nothing particular on the agenda. I am presently trying to stop colour bleed, looked it up on youtube and supposedly you soak it in cold water with dishsoap vs laundry detergent so I am presently using the 2nd largest of the washers, will leave for about four hours and try again. The orange skort is the culprit. It is a PIA for sure. I am stubborn and a PIA when needed too. I am grateful that it was washed on its own, should move the stuff out of the tub in case draining will allow extra to come out.

@candy-678 - Yes, those anti estrogen drugs really do promote and aggravate arthritis! I feel like my parents seemed to me when they were 10-20 years older than I am now. I think no matter what age we are, these drugs makes us feel much, much older. It's such a shame!

Irishlove - if only your sister could walk in your shoes for a day or too. What a gut punch to lose her support. Our oldest daughter always asks me how I’m doing. Our youngest never asks but she sees my demise on a regular basis (at least a couple times a week).

It’s ironic that we all complain about our arthritis getting worse on our meds yet there is never any clinical correlation! When I saw my oncologist last week I complained about the anastrozole affecting my joints. She negated that theory and said that drug makes for a more generalized ache all over. Not sure I believe her….

@irishlove I am so sorry that your sister has withdrawn her support, that is so hard to hear. To say you are on opiods getting relief means she does not understand. Hugging you from here and in your pocket. I am glad you got out and glad you are enjoying the FACTOR meals, may need to look at the recipes and replicate some of those.

I am debating a walk, want to start training to walk at least one way to the mall, I miss the long distance walking I was doing even from the start of this disease, used to walk while my brain was swollen as well. I could probably start with the walk to my favourite burger joint, sit down for lunch or dinner and get home well, bring my neck fan and other cooling supplies though it is not that hot. The burger joint is about a half hour each way. The mall will need to be a different route due to road construction for a bus rapid transit system. I just have to actually get around to doing it.

Laundry is on the agenda, decided to get rid of the skorts I purchased as I hate them. Another purchase not needed, sticking with the stretchy yoga points. I do like the Tshirts I purchased, pink and light blue which is great and I have both pair of black capris. I have an older pair of black capris as well.

Budget boosting through mobile games is profitable as well, will be ordering 10.97 peanut butter for 1.97 with the gift cards earned on various sites. This may be the way to get stuff that is wanted vs needed and save some money too. I ordered some kraft caesar dressing with bacon, both from Amazon, both less expensive which is good. Paid 4.00 for two bottles of dressing and the peanut butter as well, coming tomorrow.

I don't know what I am having yet, need beans and rice, might throw in eggs as well but not too sure. I know I plan to add some of the garlic mayo or garlic parm while water heating up, give some flavour, option two could be queso with the rice.

Decided on an easy one, made up 1/3 cup of rice which I added garlic and parm mayo, will chop 1\3 cup black beans and cheese dump in the frypan, was debating baking cheese on top but decided to just chop cheese into beans, add some queso to the frypan, heat a couple of minutes and turn it off. Quicker and they taste just as good. It is heavily garlic and will use some sour cream in there as well. Used up mcdonalds garlic mayo style sauce in there as well. Will let it sit on a burner that was high but turned off with lid for all flavours to get in there. I don't think there is anything else to add but a little sour cream to give some zing and salt. The rice and beans with cheese done up as above was delicious by the way. I also crumbled some queso flavoured chips as well, filled me up and I had a chocolate bar. Yummy.

Other than that, earn some more on the games if I want to buy other stuff. I hope all have a good day, for those struggling, I am in your pocket if you need me and in everyone's pocket as well.

@eleanora Glad to see ya and glad you’re feeling better! Hmm I’m not on a clinical trial must be a mixup. Thanks for asking, I’m ok. Trying to enjoy the summer since here we are in August!May you continue to improve and never deal with diverticulitis again!

@goldensrbest Happy belated birthday to you! Hope you had a nice day celebrating you. I know what ya mean about mixed emotions with each birthday and milestone. Hugs

@irishlove I’m speechless that your sister would act this way. I’m sorry that must have really broke your heart. With you dealing with the effects of two diseases I have no idea how she came to her conclusions. Keep on doing you and focus on getting some pain relief. In your pocket for MR this week.❤️

@intolight @threetree Agree with meds and various therapies our eyes take a beating too. So far hasn’t happened again, fingers crossed.

@mara51506 I hope you get back to walking its so good for our mental health too. Since the humidity has dropped I have been trying to take advantage of it to walk.Looking forward to walking in the Fall.

Hi to all here, thinking of many here❌⭕️

Dozed on the couch from earlier last night until about 4am so decided to stay up, did not do anything much except sit on my butt. Bit tired today but I will survive it as it is not the end of the world. Waiting on my peanut butter and caesar dressing to come from Amazon. Had to get two of them and they are Kraft dressing not the renee's which is my favourite but not needing a full order. Had gift cards that knocked the full price for both items to about 30 percent of what it would have been which is great. 7 dollars off.

More budget boosting will happen I do believe as I may want to add more to my grocery fund, got a rewards balance on another grocery card for paying off other monthly stuff that I spend on. I am also done with buying anything off the top of my head and just save the money instead after thinking about something I may think I want. I don't incur debt as it were but some of the stuff I get could be better served to go toward groceries or saving up for something that makes sense.

First meal will be different for me. Put two eggs, some beans and queso along with sour cream in my magic bullet. Whipped up smooth and plan to use my muffin tins to bake them up. Already sprayed the muffin tin, will fill maybe half way and bake at 375 in the breville. If these work out, can add peppers, beans and other protein source. Once done, not sure how many there will be. I will post if successful. Later on will likely have meat pies IF the caesar salad dressing arrives from Amazon before then.

Nothing else to say, I do hope all are having a good day, in pockets for appointments, scans or general things for everyone who needs me.

The whipped egg in the muffin pan was good. Due to beans, it came out a brown colour but still really good, would make again I think. Got the peanut butter and caesar dressing which I prefer with meat pie, got two chicken and veg mini pot pies and will add some caesar and bacon salad dressing, should be pretty good as well.

Relating back to the last post. I did lightly toast a buttered tortilla, oven goes up to 7 but I chose 3 instead. After it was done toasting, put some black beans into the spice grinder, they turned to refried beans sort of texture. I mixed up those beans with peanut butter and put on top of the toasted tortilla. It still folded, was kind of like a big mac in that the inside peanut butter and bean wanted outside but overall, surprisingly good and I would eat it again. No measurements on the beans, about 3 spoonfuls of beans and a good helping of peanut butter, full to the point of skipping my regular chocolate bar. Now going to let the butter melt leftover in the pan to get dry so I can either dispose of it or reuse as a degreaser when cooking again.