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@goldensrbest You are right, I am planning ahead. There are finite scenarios this could turn into. If benign, will require draining or outright removal. Would require brain surgery and I move on. If it is cancerous then would still have some brain surgery and radiation to the location, not the entire brain. When I had the local rads, no SE from those. I will not guess which option it will be but grateful it is in a part of the brain that does not really do much, the right parietal lobe.

The other thing was that I have discovered kindness from other cancer patients noticing me crying quietly while waiting for my ride home. They were very supportive and of course my family here are really supportive. I do have good supports as it turns out, SIL is blunt but pragmatic, not emotional so she will be good to have if I tense up or cry.

Bring shoes. Use my phone to listen to my hypnosis rain as well, walk around those halls with a cane. I also mostly listened to the same song from star wars and watched the first trailer for Rogue One. I was a huge Star Wars nerd.

I've largely become more pragmatic as the shock of the news has worn off. Just have to go as normal, get the appointment with Dr Hebb, he was the bomb when it came to the first surgery. I also do not have the same level of fear as the first time around and realize that I did not freak out when a met showed up again in the same place because it was expected. Really pushing my mind to feel the same way.

I do worry about SIL because she dropped she is going through difficulties, really wish I could find out more but have to respect her desire to not talk about anything on the phone and not asking DB. I will find out later.

As far as today, I do need to get more organized. Have a lot of containers, need to figure out organization, first step is to see if there is the ability to put them in closets, keep cat food and supplies in bedroom closet. Have a container in front of of the living room closet, keep stuff for recycling in there and see about other things to store out of the way. It will keep me fairly busy anyway. Life still goes on no matter what happens. I am still lucky not to be affected at this point and I will take that as lucky.

I am in everyone's pocket, I do feel much better than yesterday, not thinking too far ahead either. The area of the brain is the same as when the big met showed up. That is very good. If I have surgery, I have already had similar as before. I will still try to get out of hospital quick if that is the case and mow down on good food. I am sure cats would be looked after by SIL and DB. Ava will hide, they have never had more than a glance of a black and white cat running away. She is nervous about strangers and growls when someone walks by my door.

Thank you mods and everyone. I am feeling better with the news. Will take one step at a time. Wait to find out what will come next.

Things are settled with SIL as well. I misunderstood her intentions on the last call. They are stressed. Something is going her health, she will let me know once we see each other. She will come with me to see my brain surgeon which is good. He did a great job the first time around. So should be the same

Will wait until I hear about appt etc and post later.

@mkestrel

🤬 To cancer! I know that some members here have had liver progression that was treated locally so they could stay on systemic with no change. Threetree did some research on that topic.

Rooting hard for you that there's a good solution. 💕