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Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
I’m sitting quietly tonight, enjoying the silence. DH reading. Earlier I was listening to stand up comedy on YouTube and laughing out loud. Didn’t even notice that Jordan (big black cat) was waiting for me to move so he could sleep on the couch on my spot. And Igor (younger tuxedo) was gazing at the stars lol. Perfect. Sleep well all.
Re: A place to talk death and dying issues
Did the pre-planning of the cremation/burial arrangements last week. I was expecting to feel relief after doing it, and I did, briefly, but then I had a down day afterward… it was hitting home. Grief and loss, they come and go in waves during this illness. It seems more real now, even though I still hope to have some years ahead of me.
After my diagnosis last winter, I got busy, I knew that I could get a few important things taken care of while I still have the energy. I even downsized and moved this summer, into a studio apartment in a building with an elevator. Did it all solo. It was exhausting but I was glad to get that done.
So all of this planning and arranging is done, except for the DNR (or whatever the equivalent is where I am, Ontario).
I guess it is a relief. It was just stirred up more emotions when I got it done, than I was expecting it to. Thought I'd gotten all that emotional stuff behind me. It's a long process though.
I wish more people pre-planned this stuff when they hit middle age, at least. I went pretty cheap with my arrangements, but some of the prices at cemeteries nowadays are mind-boggling. I won't be going out in a limo, but I'm OK with that…
doodler
Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
@sondraf i loved your philosophical statement “ Like we found the secret to life and people want to know what it is. Who knew it was advanced cancer! haha” ❤️❤️ One of the gals on another forum stated her observation that if it’s the last thing I do, I’m going to die happy. Lol. Life is such a journey! @shanagirl rest and heal, and know you are loved. @mara51506 you are a force of nature, stay warm and safe and keep calling them on what they need to do . I’m inspired by your fortitude and energy.
Not snowy here, but cold. Have a fireplace video on Netflix and classical music WQXR playing in the background. The cats are grooming and Im prepping to teach my last meditation class of the semester tomorrow. Ready for the weekend of food shopping and pulling out the Hanukkah and Xmas decorations, I have blue and white star lights and a mini tree that the cats actually leave alone. Next week start a new treatment line, and sitting with the uncertainty of it all. Today, Feeling at peace.
Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
@threetree I’m here!
Sorry, didn’t realize I’ve been absent so long. I’m doing well though, just hanging around the house, listening to podcasts and doing jigsaw puzzles.
Big hello to all 😁
illimae
Re: STEAM ROOM FOR ANGER
Thank you everyone for your condolences. Still have tears but finally pulled out some photos and found a nice one of him with us probably our last visit and last time saw him.
Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
@threetree @illimae @irishlove @mara51506 @chicagoan @sondraf @cookie54 @kbl @intolight @tougholdcrow @divinemrsm @micmel @candy-678 I’m checkingIn with you all and so many others here. I’m thinking of you all but not commenting on anyone’s posts. Im. Just not feeling well.
Hi ladies. I love 💕 You all too. Im just too sick to type & post with you guys today. It’s just been a very bad month for me, although yesterday DH & i put the 🌲 tree up and decorated it yesterday. Today I was so sick. Couldn’t move and a lot of pain and a really bad barky cough headache nausea & 🤮. will post when I get over this whatever it is.🩵
Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
@illimae - in was thinking of you last week. I finally made it to a consignment shop and picked up several jigsaw puzzles. I hated the idea of paying $15-$25 for a puzzle I would probably only do once. Most of them were a dollar, but I paid a little extra for two Thomas Kinkades ($3 and $4). Besides that, I found a pretty tablecloth to fit my table with the leaf in for $3. I love a bargain.
Our Thanksgiving was good, but I was exhausted by the end of the day. It didn't help that I had "the Verzenio effect" starting at dinnertime. My DSD was a sweetheart and put up all my high Christmas decorations - the ones that need a ladder to put up. It's usually my DD, but she won't be up until just before Christmas, and she's not too keen on ladder climbing at the moment anyway.
@chicagoan I've never heard of freezing laundry. You'll have to let us know how it works out.
@sondraf - that just sucks being back in the hospital again. What is up with no muscle relaxers?! - I know you've commented on it before. Either way, I hope they get your pain under control. Score! on the Lego sets. My DSD was talking about her freebie sets, too... and trying to track the delivery, so a friend would save them from porch pirates.
@irishlove good for you healing yourself after your last colitis flare. I keep picturing your house as a wildlife sanctuary. You could be Snow White. Lol
Waving to everyone else in Mel's Living Room (we miss you Mel)
Catherine
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Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
Wow, hard to believe we are in December already, November went fast. Hopefully winter goes fast too. I will be interested in what happens with the weather next week and the property manager's response to the weather too. I still plan to salt the front for myself. I do not go out much so that will help. Just have to have a path for the garbage and the Paratransit as well. They are talking quite a lot of snow but we seem to be avoiding the snow squalls for now which is good. They are calling for large amounts of snow. I will peek out front.
Cat drank too much water and overfilled his belly. The only plus side is I have a wet dry hand vac to clean that up and I can clean the inside well. Also busted out a vileda spray mop, fastened a couple of microfibre pads with elastics on both sides and did a small floor mops. Just have to wash out the inside and all will be well. Apartment smells great though. I have the microfibre pads in the wash already. Going to refresh the spray bottle as well. I love the wet dry hand vac for these kind of messes. Easy enough to clean up and disinfect the vac. Smells fresh now.
I am planning to make similar meals to yesterday. Just had a mini pizza with olives on top, it was good, quick meal. Beans will follow along with an egg and beefless ground. Not sure about seasonings yet.
I do hope everyone has a good day, in pockets for anyone who needs me, shouting out to Irish, Mel, Candy and Goldens as well.
Re: My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
QuiltyCat, my condolences about Mom and Dad passing and the stress of dealing with two cases of cancer at the same time. I can empathize as my Mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer and it was stressful with my cancer and dealing with stress of losing Mom. In your pocket. I do love that Spookie is still with us and in your loving hands.
Goldens, glad you enjoyed your Thanksgiving for sure, I am sorry you are dealing with frequent UTI, I know you will discuss with MO, there must be something they can do besides cranberry juice and meds to keep them away. In your pocket. Glad your dog got to go on the trip too.
We did get some light snow which may stick or not. Next week, few days of a few centimetres of snow. I am prepared and will keep watch to make sure there is a space dug out for garbage and ice melter on the front stairs. I am not doing both but doing it mostly for me, cleats are at the ready, spikes on canes at the ready too. I am leaning toward the midsole spikes as they do not cause me to slip on smooth floors and can be reversed pretty easy.
Typing this on a sticky note as I keep forgetting that I have to sign into the site and have lost a couple of posts but oh well. Got laundry going, doing some budget boosting, want to save money on Amazon for the cat litter and my sour cream and onion seasoning as I am addicted to it. I have not come across the same seasoning at the regular grocery stores but that is fine.
I had a good meal earlier today. I sprayed a big bowl with cooking spray, cracked an egg, whisked it then added 1/4 cup black beans and some beefless ground as well. Heated on high in microwave for 2 mins 30 secs. Pulled out and added some shredded cheese on top for another 60 seconds to melt it on high. Cut the stuff up and added a generous amount of sour cream and onion seasoning and some salt. Put a spoonful of mayo as the binder and just mixed it all together. It was very good, really was a nice cheeseburger without the bun. I will do stuff up that way. Also other than the cheese and bit of mayo, nothing was really high calorie as the beefless ground does not have many calories but loads of protein. I was very full and feel good it was nutritious. Not sure what will be on the agenda for tonight but I will have to see. I can't say I love the crunchy peanut butter so I will see if my spice grinder can handle making it smoother. I could not get mooth peanut butter at amazon. If I can smooth it out some way myself, that would help a lot until regular smooth peanut butter in the brand I like comes back.
I do hope everyone has a good day, in pockets for everyone who needs me as well.