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Good afternoon all, slept pretty late but was in bed late, not sure why but will force an early bedtime tonight and tomorrow night for sure. Stop eating by 6pm so better make sure it is a good size dinner.

Nothing on the agenda, got plenty of laundry to do which is always good, floors, sweep and a vacuum. Mop at later date I suppose, need to get cat food for my SIL to give cats while in hospital and that is about it. I told her not to worry about any organization yet because my mind could change on a dime.

Probably air fry a couple of hashbrowns, set timer to 4 mins check the crisp and flip again. My thought is to have hashbrowns, a hot dog cut up and air fried at same time and either an egg or lentils added in, not sure yet. I do have the option of using the air fryer at same time as small griddle since both together use max of 1300 W. That may be helpful to do up an egg and some hash browns and eat up. Later, crispy beans or lentils added in crumbled up chips and use up some queso of my own. Debating a shop from Walmart before surgery, make sure enough eggs and frozen macaroni and beef are in the fridge, meat pies are good too. Will not cost too much. I have a while yet, but think some may be a good idea. I will see what I think.

Anyway, I hope all have a good day. I am in pockets for us all, hopes for good holidays whether with people or spoiling ourselves as well. Not sure what I will have Christmas Eve or Christmas but I will figure it all out.

@irishlove I will join you in prayers for your DD situation and that your DSIL can make things work. You deserve better and need support for you with all the physical challenges you are going through. My DD and DGD live with us too but it is entirely different as my DD is an emergency room night nurse and we help care for our DGD when she is at work and/or sleeping. Still, there is an added amount of stress with two generations living together.

Hi all of my sweet friends. I try to picture each of you and wish I could just hug all of you. You are my strength and my courage and my fearless crew that keep one moving forward with hope. I am so blessed to have each of you in my life. Thank you is just not enough to say how I truly feel. Perhaps this is the "coping" that was written into my goals by some unknown.

@threetree Belated Happy Birthday wishes. I hope you had a grand day. May your progression stop and stability re-enter your health. @mara51506 Mara I am amazed at how you plan and deal with life's needs. You think ahead and manage to stay focused on what's to lie ahead. I admire you so much and wishing success with your surgery. You better have a very large pocket for all these gals to climb into! @sf-cakes Your summary of so many of these ladies is wonderful. You sure are a character regarding the response on "Coping". I need more of your sense of humor to guide me thru this journey. But I also know that a piece of your heart is missing this Christmas. He is looking down and loving you from the heavens above.

DH asked our DD to please move back to her camper. She's been here since end of Nov. DGD spends her time in the bedroom up all night creating computer content. Then she sleeps all day , just like her Mom. She does not go to school and frankly, we are beyond stressed out. So DH spoke in a non-judgmental tone, asking for DGD to be in school and DD to find employment, but it didn't land well.

We are just worn down by all the support we give them, financial, meals, cleaning, well sure you understand

I'll miss DGD, (age11) but in reality I never saw her, as she stayed in her room 99 per cent of the time. This situation is complicated . We've contacted many sources who repeat the same phrase, no rights as grandparents as long as child is not being abused or neglected. She's been out of school 2 years now, suppose to be home schooling but Mom has not followed thru. DD's husband is a great young man, but doesn't speak up. Today he did trying to convince his child she must go to school and Mom must get a job. Tomorrow he will take his family home with him. Prayers that our efforts pay off.

@cookie54 I am feeling good about getting the surgery, pre admin appointments and the last CT and MRI again. I think difference for me not having any particular fear is that I am not hopped on on steroids that I was the last time since they were keeping brain swelling down. No steroids yet. Having been through it all before and being right about what will happen helps too. Even if I need radiation, it will be a local area of the brain. Do I want to be in hospital, of course not but I will pack in a tablet full of movies, sneakers to walk around the hospital once given permission to do that.

I also got a text from DB actually checking on how I feel, told him the same but did admit feeling like a burden to him and SIL who are dealing with serious issues but SIL told me on the phone not to worry about her at this point. Worry about myself she said. I appreciated the conversation and I appreciate understanding that when we were not text or talking much, had nothing to do with me, they were dealing with their issue. Taught me not to make assumptions, I do feel closer to them both. I will feel best when the surgery and hospital stay is over and see what happens from there. I still am optimistic that all will turn out well, planning to buzz cut remaining hair, no need for me to look like uncle fester, bio hair looks quite strange so figure it should be safe enough to trim it up before hand.