I don't know how to start this topic
I am still waiting to see the surgeon Thursday and I can't tell you how the waiting time feels like...
every single cell in my body is literally aching, I just go to bed and sleep to run away from the current moment..
I have been posting randomly under several sections in this forum to get some hope and answer...
it all starts when we find out through the annual checkup that my Mom cancer came back in the opposite breast and so the doctors ordered all kind of tests..
to see her eligibility for surgery one of these is the PET scan ..
can you imagine that I am blaming my self for accepting those scans ? just because the feeling I have currently ..
why should I know ? is it really the right thing to know ? why cant they just do the surgery and give her hormonal therapy that make since as per the cancer type ?
I spoke to a friend and he told me its good to know so she can get a right treatment plan so she is not under or over treated !
for me and her we will be living the rest of our lives in anxiety and fear from each single symptom and related it to the disease ..
I am trying to convince my self that even with worst case scenario there are treatment options available to support her for long time ..
my mom is my best friend and I can't imagine my life without her ... I pray to die before her .. I hope I can kick away the horrible misconception that cancer is dead sentence