FML - ready to throw in the towel
I feel burned out by the bi-weekly infusions, fatigue and stress from this fucking disease. I get anxiety and cry at every needle prod. Being on medically induced menopause changed my personality. I am so depressed that I can no longer be reliable to go to my appointments on time. I am losing the desire to work out. Last week I got injured doing yoga. All of this bullshit is taking a toll on me and on my marriage. I just want to sleep on my days off. I wish I had better meds that would give me more energy. My tumor markers are going down. This disease is ruining my life. Just want to eat Chinese food all day and play Skyrim. I feel I have no energy for relationships at all. Hubby can't understand I am just tired of everything and want to be left alone. I started therapy, but I need help with my medication. My marriage is going down the drain. I an praying my husband can wise up and dump my ass so he can get a happier, healthier wife/girlfriend.