Waiting again - the unknowns are bliss and welcome this time.
I visited the Orthopedist due to hip and knee pain (walking with a limp). It came about suddenly after standing up from a sitting position and didn't go away. It is on one side of my body, and I have numbness in my leg and foot. I let it ride out, thinking it must be from my AI. After a short time, I caved and went to the Ortho, thinking I tore up my knee or needed to be proactive for arthritis. The Ortho said it was coming from my back, not my knee, and ordered MRIs. MRI showed multiple areas concerning my L5, L4, and L2. After reading the MRI Report, I went down the rabbit hole straight to Dr. Google. Luckily, it was a short visit to Dr. Google, and I decided I didn't know anything until I got the results. My risk odds are in my favor. I sent the report to my MO. The MO ordered new scans and told me I must return quickly for a visit. While I initially wanted to rush it, I pondered it for a few days and realized today that I am NED and like the NED quite a lot. I am happier to spend my days mentally processing NED instead of considering and stressing it could be a different result. Today, I decided that for waiting for this go-round, I'd rather spend my days enjoying NED than worrying about an unfavorable outcome. The results could not be bad at all. I am crossing my fingers for benign results on upcoming tests. Today, for me, the unknowns are bliss and welcome.