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MRI Radiologist Has Me Terrified

I was recently diagnosed via an unconventional route, dermatology, due to spots on my nipples. I've since seen a surgical oncologist and a medical oncologist. Initial thoughts were likely stage one as they could feel no swelling in my lymph nodes and my mammogram and ultrasound were clear.

But my MRI came back a couple days ago and the radiologist did not hold back. She said she could not believe my mammogram and MRI was from the same person because while she could see nothing on mammogram, "cancer is everywhere" in my breast. She said there's a spot behind my nipple that looks to be 10cm. She said there's another spot in the upper quadrant and one lymph node that is enlarged. Although she did say that could be from my recent biopsy.

She kept calling it cancer, in those other spots. Not suspicious spots but cancer. She said there's one spot in my other breast that we will biopsy just in case but she's not concerned about that spot, as it "doesn't look like cancer."

I went from thinking I have stage 1 cancer to thinking I'm going to die. I have a tumor on my finger that has had an MRI that said it's likely a giant cell tumor of the tendon sheath, which are almost always benign. My orthopedic surgeon says he's quite sure it's not cancerous and not mets but we can't know for sure until that's biopsied. And we can't do that right now because he would need to take it out which we need to address the BC first.

Now I'm having abdominal pain. My hip started hurting a couple months ago. I thought it was muscular and treated it as such. It's improved but not gone. My back has been hurting more than usual over the past 6 months.

And all of that has me terrified! I know how pain works. I know fear increases it. I can't help it. I'm having trouble sleeping since the radiologist called me. Now I fall asleep and wake up 30ish minutes later in a panic, actually gasping. I was doing great before her call. Now I'm a mess.

This is hellish.