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Loverly
can't get better than thatJazzy what's happened to the music on youtube. Nothing will play for me? I read that Google was going to do something, but didn't pay attention. ......Comgrats on new work
I should be in bed.... off to Moffit tomorrow and to see DS..........typically can't sleep before a trip. Bummer
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Jazzy and Mags- it is depressing to see so many people struggling with cancer. Sassy may have a point, in that we are over run with chemicals. Filthy air from China crosses the ocean and dumps on the Pacific Northwest which has some of the highest rates of breast cancer in the country. I have read it's because of low sunlight and rainy cloudy days and low vitamin D levels, other readings talk about toxins in air, water and food. Maybe these are triggers that switch on cancer. Bottom line is we all share the air and water- prevailing winds move it all over and no escape. Chevy those pictures of foam churning in the rivers and blowing on the roads.. ugh.. imagine all the dead fish and birds and wildlife.. no where to drink that's safe. That is pitiful for all living things.
Just saw your post Sas. Good luck tomorrow.
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Thanks Rosie.... should be decent. It's the things I'm being worked up for at home that are scarier. Testing, testing, testing, always testing. Will know in a while.
Rosie did you decide to take the Ibrance? Is it still in a box? What the heck try it.
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Going to be getting my flu shot soon.
Only have a small load of dishes and a load of laundry and then I'll be done for the day.
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A photo from the balloon fiesta where the balloons touch down on the river in a move called the "dip and dash"
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Good morning ladies- I have a busy day ahead but just wanted to wish all of you a good day.
Sassy- my laptop will play music on Youtube links. Check all your settings to make sure nothing got muted? Little red X on videos? Do you have virus protection on whatever device you are using?
Wishing you a good trip and apt today.
Rose- I can very much relate to your story about going to China and seeing the poverty. For me it was going to the Middle East in the late 1980s and seeing the poverty there. In the group were were in, we were asked to bring #2 pencils for the children at one stop we made in Israel. We did that, but those children needed way more than that. There were small children there begging us for food, clothing, etc. I remember this one little girl, maybe around age 4 wearing these gigantic adult shoes just to have something to protect her feet. I also remember as we left how they ran after our bus. The whole thing just broke my heart. I have seen similar things in many other countries I have visited since. Those kids are etched in my mind forever.
The pink Halloween outfit sounds way cute!
Have a good day folks!
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Sass...I'm not having trouble either... check out this video with Taylor Swift....
Such a nice refreshing change from some of these other little "singers"...!
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Chevy- I LOVE that video. Will have to share with my sister who is a huge TS fan. Filming on that was really well done. She looks cute in dark hair too!
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Thanks Jazzy and Chevy---somethings wrong, but need to go
Thanks everyone who donate to BCO. It's my THING for Pinktober. BCO is here for us. Giving back is a good thing
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In the backyard this morning! It has been spectacular here. Trying to get ready for a meeting, but highly distracted! LOL!
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Half-way done with my busy day.
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nice distraction!
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Hey gals!
Just popping in to say hello
Good to see patty around...I saw her on the other thread and was so happy to see her
So glad it is Friday ya'll, my job is mentally overwhelming this week and I'm wondering if I bit off more than I can chew by volunteering to do this new position. *sigh*Dh is going camping with some guys from church so it's just going to be me and Izzy around the house this weekend. Hoping to go for lunch with an old friend tomorrow!
Older dd, Sophia...my almost 23 year old came home this week to tell me she and her new boyfriend want to get married. I haven't me this guy, she's been keeping him a "secret" for the most part. He's from Jordan and I know she is thinking he won't be well received by some of our family. but marriage??
Anyway, overall everything is just fine.
((hugs))
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Oh Tang.... I don't even want to think about it.... especially when it's been her little secret.... She must have known from the beginning, that her "choice" is a little different.... but who can say? I just hate surprises... especially one like this........ I didn't like some of the guys our Daughter's went with either....
And some that we DID like turned out to be real jerks.... Janie had a Husband when she was in her 20's, but it was only for 4 years.... THAT was just a plain mess.... You don't really KNOW someone until you are married... because these kids don't go with them long enough to see what it's all about.
This "husband" is STILL a mess.... And he is in his 50's! Funny thing is, I have stayed good friends with his Mom for all these years! Drugs, and alcohol, and no incentive to grow-up and be responsible makes him stay home with his Mom now. Of course he had a heart-attack, and then his Dad died, but old Joe is still sponging off his Mom..... and she can't say no..... for whatever reason.
I danced with a guy from Jordan one night... when I was visiting my folks in San Francisco... He was really nice, but just someone to have fun with.
Here is Jordan.... and he probably has his own Camel.......and get your Daughter one too.....I would look into this further.... just sayin'........
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This is him right here.... Well those Camels are cheaper to drive than a Chevy......
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Oh my goodness, Ms. Chevy! You always stir up the laughing urge in me.
Tang, he might turn out to be a nice guy. Don't worry until you meet him, then you can decide. Hopefully, they are not unequally yoked. That would be tough for everyone.
Ms. Sas, thinking about you. Hope all goes well with Doc visit.
Jazzy, I am jealous!! Wonderful distraction!
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Google just posted that the dog ate their homework. Google drive is down. That might explain some problems.
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Hi, I'm at DS's. Visit at Moffitt fine. Cut loose to year visit. They have it mixed up as to what their plan is, but it's okay. I'll straighten out latter. I survived Tampa traffic. Good choice on travel time. Left 11:00 here to DS's by 4:45 after Moffitt.
Hoping to meet with the friends of DS's that I collected a full dinning service of Federal Windsor pattern for about 18 months. Started out as a plate and bowl--snack set. It grew. If they don't have the room, I'll figure something else out. Brought a few things for DS. He has NO understanding of old value. The last things I brought him are still not put away.
So far, he can't find the Airtwist glasses I gave him. If they are Georgian worth 200-700 each-- five of them I think-- 1700-1800's . If they are copies, they were made around 1920. Blenko tried in the 60's , but didn't come close. I didn't realize their value when I gave them to him. Only found out later. SPCA 50 cents a piece
Serious google Airtwist and Georgian. Mine are a nice even v bowl to the stem. Some suck.
DS home
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Oh Chevy....you are making me laugh and want to cry too. *sigh*
Loverlife-that is the biggest concern, the yoke thing.
We are going to meet him next week, so we'll see. I'm planning on keeping an open mind and being gracious and welcoming, that's all I can do. DH on the other hand, pray for him lol.
happy Friday ya'll!
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Tang, they are as frightened as you are. Wish the world was different. Remember Jordan has been our friend for decades. The are sunlight in the desert
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Sass, sometimes our kids just aren't in to the same things we are.... But in that case, I would just hold onto the stuff you think would be important to them..... If they mean a lot to you, just hang onto them, and display them where it makes you happy....
Find something else he likes.... His tastes may change.... I kept so many of my Mom's things.... A lot were in her China Cabinet, and some were scattered in her drawers, in mirrors, etc.! I kept her poems she clipped out.... then I gave some of the little things to my girls, and they mean as much to them, as they did to her....... I have a big plastic bin with our "old stuff" from them.... Even this dress my Mom used to wear all the time... It still smells like it used to! And I have 5 of her diaries.... Each one is 5 years worth of her memories when she was growing up, and when she was dating my Dad... I've read them a few times.... I have to get them out and read them again.... And her high-school ANNUAL! The old cards and letters Mom and Dad gave to each other...
THOSE things are who I am.... I feel so close to them when I can see and touch their "things".... I kept their Drivers Licenses... Dad's old Navy pin... So it's alright if your Son isn't as excited as you are when you give him something "special".... He is STILL so young!
Brandon saved this rock, taken from the Warden's House on Alcatraz... I met him in San Francisco when he was 11... And we both have so many special memories of "our trip".... He kept that little rock all these years.... AND a fork he took from "our special Restaurant" we went to on Pier 39. It was a little crab-fork.... Ha!
It meant so much to him, because we went to a nice EXPENSIVE restaurant! He fell asleep driving back across the SFOAB bridge that night.... Geez, I wish I could go back to that time...........
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Hi ladies- good day today and another call for new work. Can I clone myself? About to get VERY busy. But busy is good!
I had a massage today and my gal told me she is closing her business. Not surprised, as she has gone back to school to get an accounting degree and told me she may have to do this and guess she has decided the time is now. We will do one more short massage for my feet later this month and that will be that. We have become friends so I hope to be able to see her from time to time, but think it is totally great she is doing something for her longer term career needs. I am always reminded nothing is permanent, right? We have like 3000 massage therapists in the state, I bet I can find another!
Tang- I have been to Jordan and much of it is more developed than most people realize. It was that way almost 30 years ago when I visited. Amman Jordan is a very cool city. I hope you like the young man, and think most couples can overcome cultural differences. Sometimes it is important for young folks to know how their partner feels about moving back, which many want to do.
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Sassy- glad to hear things went well. No I never tried the Ibrance and it is still in the bottle sealed. Anyone know of Patty's address? I think she takes it now. The onc I have now didn't think it would work anyway- well I said I didn't think it would work and she agreed sort of. At any rate it never got opened cause I lost my motivation once the maligant ascites set in. Anyway on Tuesday we only drained 550cc and I got all excited thinking maybe the herceptin was working, since I always fill 1200. Poop. Today 1200cc off.. so 1750 for the week. About the same. Always the same... treading water. I do so love this catheter and need the stitches out. I nap after the draining.. makes me tired. Weird. I never feel good, just worn out sore knees and joints. sigh... Next dose Herceptin Wednesday, hoping no chills and shaking. My eye sight is going and my night vision really is scary. No night driving at 57..ugh. I feel kind of numb emotionally.
I think the Halloween dress will be really cute when it's done. It's something I can do, sit and sew ribbon and lace and doll it up. DD1 will just love it and enjoy being pinkified! She loves pink and regularly gives me pink ribbon posters to "have courage and be strong Momma"... these drawings break my heart too. My DD3 is giving me much heart ache. SHe is trying her best but the deaf school here has low numbers of normal kids and high numbers of special needs kids - resources are tight. My kid has struggled with English and basically has stalled out in 3rd grade for 6 years... we keep telling the school to try new things and stop doing the same things/ approach cause it isn't working. She does better in math,unless it's word problems. They blame my daughter for failure to progress; nothing they can do. There are just a few kids at grade level and a huge swath below grade level. The standards are low and Oregon is a poor state with no sales tax and 120 kids at the deaf school can be written off. It makes me so sad. She's a good kid and worthy of support and education and I am sure if we could find the right way in, we could crack the "English code." ASL (American Sign Language) is her first language and is not written, so English is a second language. But my DD3 said to me over lunch.. " I will never get a diploma Mom, no college no school; why bother trying? Why study? What for?" I could have choked on my soup. To be just 14 and feel like there is no hope? She's basically right.. too far behind to ever catch up and meet standards to get a regular diploma. I don't have the stamina to homeschool her and she needs deaf peers for socializing and sanity. When I visited in Jacksonville (November) I drove to St Augustine just to see the school for the Deaf in Florida. It's so much bigger 600 kids, more resources and beautiful and has a good reputation. If I had my health I would move there just to get DD3 access to a better school more opportunities. Life is hard. Cancer sucks.
Thanks for listening. DD2 is doing really well at work (got a quartly bonus) and in her sophmore year at college. Yeah! Thankful for that!
I kind of agree with Sassy on Jordan being sunlight in the desert, progressive and good to it's people. Hope this new person is a winner. I love all the balloon pictures. be well. Have a great weekend.
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Chevy, I'm the same way. I have so much of my mom's stuff, and boxes of letters she and my dad exchanged while he was at sea in the Navy. And treasures she collected when we lived in "Occupied Japan" in the 50's, and that my dad picked up in China (before the Communists took over). And out of 6 kids, I am the only one who wanted anything except her jewelry. I have some wonderful things, but what good do they do?
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Rosie, we have friends who sent their deaf child to a " bonding"?school fir the deaf. Don't know if I could have ever sent my daughter away. Such tough decisions.
We are about the same age. Me too...cried yesterday...tired of treating sideeffects.
Oh well...cancer world is a rollercoaster
Hope I can sleep tonight. So tired but can't sleep. Spent the day in the bathroom. I'm exhausted
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Wow, you ladies are busy. It has always been hard keeping up here.
First, those items....you keep those items because they are so very dear and I get that 'cause my sister is like that. But, there's always a but with me, someone will take them out of your home someday so you have to figure out where you want them to go. My daughter's stuff, it's time her children get to enjoy those memories and what better way than all those pictures and toys and items that would never see the light of day with me other than to cry over. Her childhood lives in my heart. My mom and dad, I have kept the most important items but only a few because nothing can remind me of their smells, their ways or anything that important so again, it's in my heart. I don't want to see things buried under dust and high up on a shelf. I want them out and in the light so I'm giving everything, but two or three small items, to my grandchildren. When I die, those items I'll leave to them but I might just have them cremated with me. Nothing says I can't!
We are hosting a baby shower tomorrow. Good heavens, I so dislike this work and it was not my idea. My stepson (love this kid) and wife are having their first child, a son. It's my DH's first grandchild other than mine. My DD is being such a toot to me that I haven't seen them in months so this has been a distraction along with a new kitten. I forgot to take any meds today until about 4 pm as we have his late Dad's girlfriend visiting from Palm Springs. I would prefer to be the visitor instead of the hostess. When I get cranky I'm tired and had 3 ladies here tonight giving me directions on what to do. I just wanted to tell 'em all to shut up and do what I say! Guess I shouldn't have missed those meds! But I didn't however I'm not speaking much to DH. I hate when he rolls his eyes with this old rich biatch. He gets too much "yes sweetie" from her. Her ass is headed back to CA Sunday.
Sass, glad to hear you clear for a year but I know there is more to that story. And you keep your pretty stuff for you! Kids don't really appreciate things the way our generations do/did. Don't save anything - put it on display!
Better take a few pills and see if I can start to shut down. Glad to hear Patty is up and running, sort of. I'll BBL....
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Susan- Hugs to you on this miserable path. Great big hugs. What wouldn't give to offer you something more potent to make the cancer creeper go away. Lovingkindness and hugs to us all.
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Ah Rosie.... I know you'll find a way............ Can you find some kind of ombudsman, or advocate, or just someone else to help you find more resources? Or going on a different path to get where you need to be?
Don't want your little girl to feel this way at her age.... SURELY something else can be done, or found to help out... Have you ever thought of writing an open letter to your newspaper? Or do you have a TV channel, that helps people get out of a situation? We do here... when someone needs something done, and no-one will help them......... Or wait.... Is there some sort of private tutoring that the deaf school knows of? Since THEY aren't helping, maybe just SOMEone knows who can help break through to your Daughter!
It's just that when it comes to our kids, we don't want ANYbody holding them down, or making them feel "less" than what they are! And as Mom's we feel like shaking the holy hell out of anyone or thing taking away their dreams! Damnit!
Good Morning Susan......... hang in there kid.... some days are worse than others, as so many of you know.... but just keep thinking tomorrow will be better....
Memma... You are right... Those memories mean so much to us..... After my Dad passed away, and my Mom the year before, it was like I had to put so many of their things on the walls or dresser! DD came over once and said "It looks like a shrine in here".... And then our little dog Lacee was gone, and I still have some of her things on a stand with her ashes.... It's okay.... if it makes us feel closer to them, that's alright.
And go take your pills! You are going to scare those people.... If I was there, I would just look at you and say... "Oh! We forgot our pills, did we?" But I would hold your hand and bring them to you... with a glass of water... or Vodka.... same thing. ANY company is sort of a strain after awhile.... We need peace and quiet.... and a chocolate coke.
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Good morning friends
Susan- I am sorry things are hard for you right now. Sometimes a good cry gets out a whole lotta frustration. That being said, I am sorry you are not feeling well and hope you were able to sleep and have a better day. Hugs sister.
Mema- I can relate to your desire to not host a party. I definitely don't enjoy having parties anymore, too much work and being single, not really much help. I like to have dinner parties with friends here, got one next weekend.
I hope things go okay today and that you can veg tomorrow.
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