My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Welp, had a sick feeling in my stomach. I only ate the ramen with other stuff put in, even with two immodium before eating, I managed to poop my pants. Total yuck, needless to say, need to wash them up and take more immodium. Yuck is all I can say.
Still pooping which sucks rocks, I really hope it stops, I have the appointment tomorrow.
After about 8 immodium I am still pooping myself, the floor, couch and blanket. Worried about going to the appointment I will have to book another appointment. Now started vomiting.
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@cookie54 I’m loving the pictures of your Christmas tree and Buster Lorenzo🥰I looks so calming and relaxing when the Christmas lights are on. and yes I have been researching natural healing herbs to make tea with. today I peeled 2 fresh small beet root with and chipped up the rest and added them to some boiling bottled Saratoga water. I added 2 cinnamon sticks, sliced orange peel a few slices of ginger root and turmeric root sliced with ground black pepper. (it activates the healing properties of turmeric). after I let it steep in the boiling water I poured it into a blender with 2 tablespoons of raw honey 🍯. then I poured it into it into a mug with ice cubes and sipped it with a straw. everything in this recipe works in a synergetic combination to regulat blood pressure and blood vessels, in support of the liver, heart and helps the good cholesterol in your blood 🩸 improves energy and supports healthy metabolism and is good for your skin. it works Ayurvedicly. I also learned that blueberries smoothie should be mixed with a little rosemary . blueberry’s benefits within t.he berry are activated by an enzyme in the rosemary to act as an anti cancer agent… And fresh parsley steeped in boiling water is excellent for kidneys & bladder and relieves bloating from water retention. these are the natural ingredients I’ve used, and I like to try different herbal teas from the market. 🫖 ☕️😊
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@mara51506 Oh Nooooo, ugh I'm sorry ! I'm praying this is a 24hr bug and you'll be just fine for your appointment🤞Sending healing vibes your way..XO
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@cookie54 I think it was a limited time bug. Initially I thought I could not go but after way too many immodium which did next to nothing, it just had to be something I ate that did not agree. The big D resolved, the nausea and vomit resolved and now I am just plain starving. Did buy some applesauce, sugar free jello cups and some reduced sugar plain yogurt with vanilla taste. Will likely take a day before returning to my diet. Got some apple sauce and eggs as well.
Prebook appointments took a couple of hours, they were there by 730, I did have diaper on and alao once of my cloths wedged into my but, that stops it if it came. So far today, seems fine and will not push the envelope beyond what I bought. Got two nanners, see if I can stand to eat them. Nothing left for this week until the 30th, have MRI and CT and another appointment.
Other than that, tired but going to fix an egg and put it in a tortilla without the extra fat. Later may mixup some jello and yogurt together as both are sugar free and yogurt has nothing else in it. Think I would microwave the egg instead of frying in griddle. Other symptoms are fading and I am in process of washing up the stuff messed up from yesterday. Not sure about the nanners but I can see mixing the yogurt and jello together in the magic bullet, throw nanners in there to disguise the taste. I may turn out to like the blend and I got water flavouring which works in the magic bullet. Who knows, I might develop a taste for bananas. I will post later. I could also make plain white rice or another rice package. Beans and lentils will be put off til possibly tomorrow but keep things simpler today. The magic bullet with jello, yogurt and some banana with some mio water flavoring may make a nice taste.
I am happy today is done, two steps left, one more meeting with neurosurgeon, anesthesiologist and then surgery still on Jan 7. I have to pack my little suitcase on wheels with pants, undies and possibly sneakers because assuming all goes well, I will be walking circles in there and need shoes to wear.
I do hope everyone has a good day, in everyones pockets including my own. I really need to learn not to have a massive cow if digestive system goes haywire, just learn to put on the right stuff, create barriers to look after skin as well. I really distressed myself with messes I made which easily cleaned up with an alcohol spray. If I can be OK with brain surgery, an upset stomach should not cause so many tears that I had but I felt much better once out of the house.
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@mara51506 sending you lots of love and virtual hugs,🤗 (((💗)))
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@mara51506 Oh glad to hear the belly issues resolved! I would have been upset by it too, unpleasant situation for sure. Hope the 7th comes quickly so you can put this behind you.
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Mara I’m glad you’re over stomach issues and that your pre-surgery appt went well.
Seasons Greetings everyone
Tanya
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So sorry you had to go through that, but glad it was a short term problem. As usual, you handled it with grace. Will be in your pocket until surgery and beyond.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all my brave sisters.
Peace, Joy and stable scans for everyone.
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@tanya_djamila , @eleanora and @shanagirl and everyone else, thank you for the good wishes, they are truly appreciated, now that the belly issues are over, planning some regular dishes that I like to eat. Planning some crispy lentils done in air fryer and an egg in the mini griddle, take a hashbrown to have as well and possible chopped hot dog as well. Also need to include shredded cheese in meals as well, eat up peppers and riced veggies. Not putting all that in one meal, just some ideas for my self.
I did sleep all night but in two places, sitting on couch, woke up after a sleep at 450am then toddled off to bed, woke up 950 am, that was fine, feels good.
I also want to try doing a mix of yogurt and jello, add them to the magic bullet with a banana and put a package of MIO to flavour it to a fruit punch, that might make a good snack. I will see. I do not enjoy bananas overall but they are supposed to be good for me and I can hide flavours or textures I do not enjoy easily, I have also thought about savoury bananas done in the air fryer with savoury seasonings and other stuff, will look that up later. For now, may blend up the mix now, think I will dump in the red jello cup, add a yogurt cup, banana and a pack of the mio. I will post if it was good.
Will likely wash more stuff that needs to be done, sweep and do a quick mop of the floor and cleanup stuff that is sitting behind the bed, breakdown boxes in my room and pull out the wee suitcase to bring a change of clothes and chargers for my phones to watch movies.
Anyway, Happy Christmas Eve, Merry Christmas and Happy holidays and anything celebrated in your families. If you are single, hope you order a nice dinner as a treat and enjoy books or TV. Not sure what I will do tomorrow but that is OK, I think my DB may bring me leftovers that I can dress up myself. @illimae Happy anniversary!
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Amazing that I'm still here! 56 years, and yes, having cake for breakfast.
Happy Christmas to those who celebrate! 🎄
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@sf-cakes Happy Birthday!!! That cake looks delicious. I didn't know you were only 56. Cancer sure is some bullshit.
I had a reasonably healthy breakfast but now just had a guilty pleasures lunch- a tiny bag of cheetos, a Coke Zero and a Christmas cookie.
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate. Happy Holidays to all. Wishing a happy, healthy new year to us all.
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I put the red jello container, yogurt, half banana, bit of water and a pack of fruit punch mio in the magic bullet, blended it all in there. It was delicious of course and pretty healthy with protein. It did taste quite good.
I am debating using up the banana peel by soaking it and then putting it into my chopper with some cheese, and doritos and once it is all combined, add this mix into the air fryer with maybe 1/2 to 2/3 cups of lentils, heat the mix through. If I do not eat the mix as it comes out of the chopper, option two sees mix spread out on a tortilla and put another tortilla on top and turn into a quesa dilla vibe. I will see.
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Merry Christmas to all who celebrate and even if you do not, the message of peace, love and hope is something we can all appreciate. DD and family will be here soon for our meatless Christmas Eve meal - shrimp, crab, and salmon in various forms. DD hosts Christmas brunch tomorrow and then we head to SILs parents for an evening together. Blessed to be with family.
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Hi All - I've been missing again for awhile, due to various things, but wanted to drop into the living room for at least a few minutes to wish everyone who celebrates a very, very, Merry Christmas 🎄! I also agree with Goldens that even if you don't celebrate, the message of peace, love, and joy is one that is universal and something for us all ❤️.
I'm going to try to catch up with everyone over the coming weekend. I think about all of you a lot and just wish everyone so much love and happiness. Hugs and good wishes to all! I'm so glad to have you in my life.
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Merry Christmas and holidays for people celebrating today, hope you all have a great day no matter what today looks like. DB brought over a toothbrush and chocolates, toothbrush will be used in hospital whilst I am there. Chocolates are good. SIL texted just before 9, was going to sleep again, changed mind and watch Facebook short videos for a bit instead. It was nice to get a message.
Nothing on the agenda today, as it is Christmas and I have leftover money, got a couple english muffins, yeah I could have made them myself but wanted the Mc D variety as a treat and will most likely eat up both. After breakfast, will continue laundry, floors, cat section and breaking down of boxes. We have garbage pickup and this time there is no limit on bags allowed out which is good, need to catch up on all of it, goes out on Sunday.
Post egg mcmuffins from Mc donalds, food today will consist of rice, lentils, peppers and possibly another egg. I will see. I do think jello, mio, bananas and yogurt will be a regular addition to diet, have not had any applesauce but sure it would also be good with the yogurt. My stomach is feeling just fine now but glad I had to eat that stuff as it opened up doors to some fruit. MIO fruit punch variety makes it taste good as well. I will keep it all up to include the fruit.
Anyway, hope all have a happy holiday and in pockets for all.
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@sf-cakes Happy Birthday to you, hope you had or will have a great day.
@goldensrbest I'll be right over, sounds like a great meal, enjoy yourself.
I am still not committed to a Christmas dinner for myself, DB may be bring leftovers for me, hoping for stuffing mostly if he has some, do have to locate that recipe, check newspaper for the recipe. Never forget putting 3/4 cups of sage the one hear, DB removed most of it. SIL wrote it that way and I was not experienced enough in the kitchen to know any better. That story came years after the incident. Stuffing still turned out just fine.
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I did not have a dinner for today, I did buy 2 egg mcmuffins and had those earlier in the afternoon. This evening, decided on queso, heated it up and crumbled both doritos and tostitos. No nutritional value but really was very good. Going forward, meals will be more nutritious.
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Merry Christmas may sweet friends. Once again your support has helped ease this mama's heart. We had a lovely day and everyone is settled in for some sleep. Tomorrow is the D day for leaving. Hope DH takes the lead again. We had turkey and all the fixings from Publix. It was excellent. The mashed potatoes were awful. They cooked them and froze the the mashed and they tasted off. Chucked them and broke out the Bob Evans ready made potatoesl
Sad I didn't see my DS and his bride, as they were visiting her family in Atlanta. Spoke with sis and she'll be hunkered down during the significant ice storm coming. It looks to be significant in some area, so please be safe.
Thank you shanagirl for your wonderful pep talk. I needed it. Mara, thinking of you and praying all goes well and you can get back to your busy schedule and be healthy. Mel, prayers for your daughter to get thru this and on with her life. 10 years is quite an achievement on Ibrance.
Blessings to all of you and in your pockets for all your needs.
Irishlove aka Laurel
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Sweet ladies and DH’s, Good morning after Christmas 🎄sweet ladies and DH’s who love & care for us♥️. I hope everyone had a lovely day yesterday with their loved ones. Christmas Eve we spent the evening at my SIL’s Restaurant which is a Christmas Eve tradition for us and it is always packed with families and locals with t he same traction. I had a delicious dirty filthy Martini 🍸and something from the Specials menu “Lolllypop Lambchops with yummy gravy and mashed potatoes. Our SIL had so many Delicious Specials on the Christmas Eve Menu. I should have taken a picture of it.. We got home early evening around 9 and I prepared a beautiful bone in Prime Rib to refrigerate in kosher salt & pepper & rosemary. I put it in the oven Christmas Day, made creamed homemade creamed spinach and DD brought mashed potatoes. I didn’t go overboard wi a big antipasto plate I just kept it simple with a round Brie cheese and fig spread…..So by the time the day ended I felt exhausted and my spine and hips were really weak and achy and when I’m standing or too long in sitting position all I want to do is get horizontal and lay down to get the pressure off my bones. Poor DH is always right by my side helping and lifting roast from oven and cleaning up while i cook. We make a good team. The prime rib roast came out awesome and the aus jous graveyard was Marth Stewart perfect. It was only us with youngest DS, DD & SIL,…. Our oldest DS is with his Girlfriend of 10 yrs in France with her mother who also has stage IV cancer. They will be back Jan 8 from their visit with her mom with cancer. I missed hem here because he always makes everyone laugh. My DD was not with us because she always has some drama she pulls during the Holidays and she had some Drama against my youngest DD & SIL, and she started again on Thanksgiving which was really nice until she left angry and declared she would not spend Christmas with any of us she would just stay home & watch TV with her dog. DH layer the lake down and told her she was not going to spoil another holiday by fighting with her other adult siblings. She’s a grown 49 yr old woman and if she has a problem with them to settle it privately and not carry it into the holiday especially for her mother’s sake wh is not going to take sides on her behalf. My oldest DD is a very hard person to deal with and I told her las t week on the phone that I don’t need this drama at this point in my life, and if she refuses to spend Christmas with everyone she is being very selfish she said merry Christmas FU. And hung up on me & DH. And we have not heard from her since. I’m thinking of @irishlove and had to share this. In any event, it was a nice peaceful day yesterday but ‘I’m really tired today. I love you all. I wish you all a restful week.🩵
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My Christmas did not go as planned. Christmas Eve was nice-I went to the little church near my house. They had a lovely "Carols and Lessons" service. I usually spend Christmas Day with my younger brother's family and was looking forward to catching up with my niece and nephew who are home from college. My brother collapsed on Christmas morning-thank God he was not home alone, like he was on Christmas eve. He thought he had a flu bug b/c he wasn't feeling well and had a fever. Turns out he had a severe hernia which was causing a bowel blockage. They rushed him to the ER and it was determined he needed immediate surgery. It was a nerve wracking day but the surgery went well and he was able to do a crossword with my SIL in the evening. He'll be in the hospital for some days but I'm so relieved b/c yesterday I was worried out of my mind. I took a long walk and had lunch at McDonald's for my Christmas but am so grateful my brother seems to be ok.
Before I had cancer, I always assumed I would outlive my brothers because I had been the "healthy" one. Now with my older brother having his own cancer and possible kidney failure and my younger brother's collapse, I wonder if I may yet outlive them. Who knows? I'm going today to pick up my new drug-Orserdu. I think I'll wait until Monday to start it.
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@chicagoan you are in my heart ♥️ today. Thinking of you.I light a candle every night for all here. And I will be thinking of you when light it, It’s my way of saying I’m in your pocket but he candle lighting means more to me at this time of year especially. Thank you to the lady who posted the original candle lighting.
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@shanagirl-Thank you. Candle lighting is more meaningful for me too than the "in your pocket" phrase. I'm glad you had such a nice Christmas and didn't let your youngest daughter spoil the holiday. People are pretty unbelievable now a days.
@irishlove Hope that your daugher's move out goes smoothly tomorrow. You and your husband have been more than patient. Sounds like you had a great meal once you subbed out the mashed potatoes.
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@irishlove Glad to be of some help.
Looks like we are in the middle of the icestorm which is going on now, thankfully do not need to go out. I asked SIL if they are going out today, she said no and I said that was good. I was going to do some salting but will hold off since the walk does not need to be used until Sunday night. Even with cleats on do not need to wipe out and hit my head on cement and the building will take care of that and I will check in a day or two to salt up the steps and the sidewalk to take out my garbage. There is no bag limit and I need to empty out the house while I can.
I am stumped for food, debating what I wish to have, could have my own egg mcmuffin or egg tortilla and hash browns OR even microwave an egg, chop into some cheese and throw in the air fryer. Not sure yet. I could also bake up some eggs whipped up in the magic bullet with some regular mayo. I still quite enjoy those, I will post what I decide to have later.
Anyone in path of ice storm stay safe, I do hope everyone has a good day, I am in pockets for all including my own to start getting stuff cleaned and boxes broken down and good nutritious food.
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@mara51506 Stay safe in the ice storm and as you prep for your surgery. I wishi I could have included you in our family dinner.
@irishlove Praying for a smooth transition for your DD to move out and to get your DGD in school. I will light a candle that you can settle in and have joy for the new year.
@shanagirl I will pray for your DD situation too. It is tough to struggle through relationships when you love so deeply. Adult children will make their own decisions, and sometimes this hurt s even more.
@chicagoan Wow, I am sure your DB making the ER trip was difficult for the family, and I am sorry you had to miss family dinner. My son is struggling through his second hernia operation and I know those can be painful.
I hesitate to say my day was wonderful, but also bittersweet. We had a lovely dinner and my BIL's house. There were 9 of us plus 2 dogs and we had a lot of laughter and good times. I am thankful my DS and DD get along so well with each other and with their cousin and her husband who were there. My DH had to cut it short because he had to get back home for his HAM radio duties, but I tire easily so it was a good excuse. I say bittersweet because we never know whether this will be my last Christmas which I have never vocalized until now. I don't want to put a damper on things, but my liver mets continue to grow and we have no idea whether the chemo will work. I refuse to let this cancer steal my joy but it is a constant battle.
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@shanagirl - So very sorry about your oldest daughter and how things went for you and your family re that issue this Christmas. I'm glad though, that so much of the rest of your Christmas worked out well. I have two daughters (in their 40's) who have been refusing to speak to me for several years now, because my younger sister has an ax to grind with me and has managed to convince them that I am the worst person alive. I don't know what it is with these grown people that allows them to do this sort of thing. You are right, it is extremely selfish and there is just no thought for others whatsoever. I went to the home of an old childhood friend and her husband, with the old friends sister, who is also an old childhood friend, and had a lovely time. My old neighborhood friend made brunch for everyone. Their early 30's son was there too, and behaved in a very "grown up" way, thank goodness. An old childhood friend of the husband's also joined us. We just ate and then sat around and had some real nice and easy conversation about anything and everything. A very calm and relaxing time.
@chicagoan - Oh how terrible for your brother, and then for you and the rest of your family too, of course. Just so glad to hear that he will be OK. A walk and MacDonald's sure beats losing your brother; well worth a little shift in the holiday meal. These things we learn as we go through life, like thinking we might outlive our siblings, and then getting hit with the , "maybe not" reality. I've had some of that too. It never turns out like we plan. Well again, I'm just so glad that you're OK (and improving with that hip!), and your family is OK. I too like the candle lighting idea, and I'm going to have to find myself a battery operated one. Merry Christmas.
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Thank you @shanagirl, @intolight and @threetree for your support.
Intolight-I too was wondering-will this be my last Christmas on earth? I guess no one knows-we just have a heightened awareness of our mortality with this diagnosis. But it certainly does help to keep everything in perspective. The best gift cancer has given me is a far better appreciation for the gift of life. Now I look back on so many times when I was discontent and just shake my head. It was all trivial stuff.
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I’m so very sorry for all the family issues going on. We’re blessed that our kids want to be with us. Also blessed that our local DDs in-laws include us as family. Why can’t people just get along…..makes one’s heart so heavy.
Chicagoan - so sorry your brother needed emergency surgery. Thankfully it sounds like things were caught in the nick of time!
I always have a candle going (except when we leave the house or go to bed). I love the smell….. For me personally, I still like pocket duty. Either way, we all keep each other in thought. My sisters here are the best!!
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Add me to the group wondering if this will be my last Christmas on earth. These last couple of months have been notably harder than previous. I don't know that we have any control or that there's anything I can do about it but hope and pray, knock on wood, and keep my fingers crossed.
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