My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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@candy-678 Condolences for the loss of your best friend. It hurts to lose someone so special. I understand about not wanting this roller coaster of emotions to continue. I have already said if this last treatment doesn't work for me I will stop. Remember you are loved and are special. Take care of yourself.
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@irishlove I am sorry you struggle with your DD and lack of help, in your pocket lending support of course and a listening ear of course. The manwich sauce is delicious, thinking I might take a trip to walmart once it warms up here on paratransit to pick some up as we have the same brand. I have dry seasoning but the can could go a long way and dress things up for me.
@goldensrbest Yes, getting together with Terra was very good, I appreciated that get together very much.
@candy-678 I am so sorry to hear about your friend, I definitely empathize with the loss and also the fact of being so tired when in treatment and just wanting it to be over. I am in your pocket sending support on both fronts.
I am not up to much right now, will be doing taxes some point soon, yippee but whatever. Got standard monthly bills. Have to locate my gaming phone to boost up budget a bit, through gaming. I am cancelling most of the streaming services as of now, watch one show on one group of channels and star trek on another, saves me 25.00. I will keep youtube premium for all the channels and no commercials.
I do not need groceries for a while, would like to avoid skip the dishes delivery, they can cost almost the cost of groceries, fast food is not that good. Today, picked out a can of potatoes, spooned out some of that used the meat masher, just to make smaller, added garlic spread as well and some left overs in the air fryer. Planning to heat through for 15 mins, use some queso, other seasonings as well. Later will use either my mini griddle to make an egg for a sandwich, top with some of my salad and using an english muffin for it. If anything else seems good, I will mention it.
EDIT I did eat the above meal, it was good except for the potatoes. Will not be eating canned potatoes. Hashbrowns, frozen potato cubes that will crisp up and of course fries are fine. I dumped the remaining canned potatoes. I will create a smaller circle of stuff that I enjoy, even pinto beans are not my favourite thing at this point. I did fix the hotdog problem as they are good coming from the air fryer. Have not made beef as of late as I was working my way through the hot dog meals. As far as the pinto beans, think they can combine with rice and be more pleasing when they are chopped through with cheeses, chips or croutons. I still have an issue with texture which I fix by running all beans through the chopper. Having said all that, I did finish up my lunch, mostly good tasting. Supper I am no longer sure what I will want to have.
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@candy-678 I am so sorry for your loss. It must be devastating to lose your best friend. May God comfort you.
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Hello ladies
@candy-678 sorry for the loss of your best friend. Sending hugs. I hope things that you love start presenting themselves in your life. Cancer forces us to stay at home alone and isolated causing such sadness.
Irish the family issues still keep piling in no matter if we’re sick or well. Take care and I hope the talks (boundaries lines in the sand) goes well. We’re dealing with family issues too. Just trying to be kind and FIRM. The firm bit is tough.
I just sat outside all day listening to birds eat and chirp while eating Japanese plums from my neighbors tree. I don’t know why but it was comfort ing.Take care all
Tanya
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Candy, condolences. I lost my best friend a few years ago and it was hard. Hugs
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@candy-678 Oh no Candy I'm deeply sorry for the loss of your dearest friend. I can only image the overwhelming grief you are dealing with right now. Know that we are all here for you to vent, scream and unload your emotions . Wrapping you in the biggest , tightest comfort hug❣️
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@tanya_djamila In your pocket and sending strength your way and positive vibes for resolution.
@goldensrbest Sounds like you have been busy with family sports, that's so nice! Glad you can be their to share in their victories.
Thanks to all for well wishes for staying healthy for the shower this weekend,counting down the days. Lots prayers for everyone here who is struggling in many different ways, You are all very dear to me💕
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@candy-678 Not sure where previous posts gone but I am so terribly sorry about the loss of of your friend and in pocket for decisions you are grappling with when it comes to going on. I can empathize with my stupid brain necrosis as well. No decisions for me personally, all depends on my health at a later date. For now nothing. If you just need to talk here please do it and know not one of us would tell what to do when deciding your own life.
I had a decent day. Weird food. Peas and lentils along with leftovers of hot dogs and ramen found their way into the air fryer. Loved it all. I put water in a couple of queso and sour cream and lime, shook up bottles and yes it was thinner than normal but tasted the same. Supper was a bigger turkey pot pie, delicious as well, both meals were very good.
I did my monthly bills and now taxes will follow, probably next week, there is a monthly benefit that comes in, want that first. Comes on the 10th. I have been playing games for money, I would be happy if could make 20 to 35 dollars a month, I will see. Cancelled all streaming channels outside of youtube. I can stream whatever I want on other free streaming sites. Also not having any skip the dishes, if I am craving a meal, could possibly take Paratransit over to Walmart and pick up Mcdonalds value stuff in there, be a lot cheaper than skip the dishes.
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@tanya_djamila I am glad you had a peaceful and relaxing day for sure.
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Well going through a cupboard to organize supplies, found three different seasonings not seen for a while. One was club house maple steak seasoning, dehydrated garlic and everything bagel. Thinking I would prefer these as proper spices so will run all though my coffee grinder which can function as a spice grinder. Can just grind them up and just put them in my used tostitos queso jars, I like those as they are glass. I used the money made from budget boosting games to pay 1.2 of an order of painters tape, decided it makes sense to label and less expensive for a bigger roll of tape, don't need permanent labels, just long enough to store things in. I want to take the spices and grind up tomorrow.
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Condolences for your loss. I think that the depth of our grief is an indication of the depth of our love for and connection to the one who has passed. I'm sure that if you could ask your best friend, she would not want you to sacrifice the rest of your time here, but to live it for both of you. We are all caring about you and rooting for you .
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@candy-678 My heart is breaking for you and your loss. I believe eleanora gave a heartfelt delivery of ongoing hope. Finding joy in the smallest things or perhaps something that will remind you of your best friend that will make you smile. It's not for me to say how to go forward, but I pray that you find the guidance to do so. You are loved by many.
Irishlove
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Hi all you sweethearts. I hope you find signs of spring popping up along your travels. Gee what I'd give for a whiff of hyacinth, jasmine and lilacs. Someone take a whiff for me and I'll live vicariously thru you. lol
Bottlebrush and hibiscus bushes are cut way back. Despite covering them and placing heavy mulch on the roots, they took a beating. The boganvilla is another story. DH has to glove up, cover up exposed skin and cut a large number of branches. He usually cuts them small lengths and marks the bags with a warning and a $20 tip.
Our sweet pigeon has been lethargic, breathing heavily and diarrhea. She stopped eating and drinking. It took a day and a half for her to be seen. Pigeon is only 10 and healthy as a horse. We had to start her on antibiotics, horse pills for diarrhea and she rec'd a vit. B shot. Waiting on her blood tests. Thankfully she is already improved greatly in just two days. Our pocketbook has not. $350 and more to come. Thankful for the vet though. Minnie, the mama, has blocked doors wherever Pigeon is laying. What a great mama. It's difficult knowing these two are our last rescue dogs. Health reasons and I can't imagine who would adopt them. Well this adventure ended well as Pigeon is outback barking at the neighbors dog, who never, excuse the phrase, shuts up. All is well at this time.
Irishlove
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@irishlove Oh so glad to hear pigeon bounced back! It's so hard they're our babies and hate to see them sick. I understand your sadness in this possibly being your last rescues. They bring so much joy and companionship but are definitely lots of work too. One day at a time and I hope you see and smell signs of spring real soon.🌷Picking up all the flowers today for my DD's bridal shower on Sunday. So I will I will send a big wiff down south to you! Hope you're enjoying watching some Phillies spring training games they have be televising them up here . Even if I'm not watching it's great background on the tv to check the score.
Hi to all here hope everyone had a decent week and has a nice weekend. 💕
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@runor the Kefir milk is delicious and creamy like yogurt. I have a glass of it during the day 2 or 3 times. I scrape the creamy curd off the top of the cultured mixture and add it to the top of my glass of organic whole milk. It’s so good. The only odor comes from the whey liquid below the fermented cultur floating on top. I refresh it every other day so there’s no sour whey, which is also supposed to be very good. But i only drink the creamy kefir. Enjoy her website and recipes for all cultured veggies & desserts too
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Hi everyone!!
@cookie54 yes I did get my appointments for treatment, PT and I saw my neurologist at the NJ Brain Spine Center in Montvale yesterday. All is well. I’ve been off this thread since a week 1/2. So I haven’t read thru anything yet. But just checking. In to say hi and keep up with you all. I’ve been especially worried about our @mara51506 and hoping she’s still doing well. ……I have to run now because I have a PT appointment to get to.🥰
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@irishlove Happy to read that your sweet pigeon is back and I understand about the decision to have no more rescues.
@shanagirl Sounds like your treatments are going well. It is good to hear from you.
We are expecting snow all day today which is actually good since we have been so dry. I doubt it will total much where I live, but the mountains could really use it. So far the roads are clear and it rests on the grasses. I know it is not good for our early-budding trees though. I thought I was coming down with this latest virus but I feel better today. Perhaps I can even get a little housework done! My PCP is concerned that my pulse continually runs fast so I have been taking random data to send her. One glaring point is how much I sit—I am sure that is not a good thing so I will try to get up and going more. It is difficult when you just don't feel well.
Have a peaceful day.
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@irishlove I am glad that Pigeon is feeling better and talking back to the barking dog. Can also understand the work it takes to look after animals, though I have cats, they create a lot of work for me as well.
I have laundry started, will do the rinse/softener cycle and toss in my bedroom dryer. I am utterly amazed how little detergent is actually required. Really thought more was better when I first started but it is about a drop from the Tide and I add literally one spray of tide spray and one spray of oxiclean maxforce spray. Still creates a sudsy wash for them.
Been unsatisfied with food as of late. Yesterday was OK mealwise but did not enjoy the microwaved egg as much. I think I would be better to use the wee pan for frying up an egg OR the mini griddle to get that done, make my own egg mcmuffin type vibe, I will see. When it comes to other veggies in a can, I can use the spice grinder to pulverize stuff and keep it all more normal for me. Just like a kid whose parent is hiding the veggies. Regarding the other spices I found, I need to pulverize them into a powder and since they are very strong tastes, stick to 1/8th of a tsp of each and still get a good flavour out of them. I also like the idea of hiding them. I am also thinking of whipping up some scrambled eggs with mayo to make more silky. Just add the eggs and mayo for flavour, I am thinking that kind of egg and basic english muffin would be good.
EDIT I did take two eggs, 1/4 cup of peas and bit of sour cream and garlic mayo. Whipped up in the magic bullet. Really could not detect the peas in there which was good. After everything whipped, added butter to a sprayed frypan and dumped the eggs and pea mix, stirred most of the time, did not take long to heat up. The texture was a bit weird, sort of a more liquid cottage cheese post heating, but in the end it all was very good. Realizing I can add lentils to a yogurt smoothie, add some mio and a little water and have extra fibre and nutrition is great. I did not wind up with english muffin, could tell the eggs and peas along with the bit of sour cream and garlic mayo was filling. I figure that whipped eggs could have anything added to them. New meal unlocked. I am imagining hotdogs done first in the air fryer then add to eggs with peppers and such, chopped together in the magic bullet and keeping the whipped style.
I do hope everyone has a good day, in pockets for everyone, own pocket as well to finish out laundry and the cat area cleanup as well.
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