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I am so sorry to hear this news.
Cindy may you be pain free and at peace. Hugs and Prayers to your family and friends.
Sending you my love, Cheryl
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The tears were flowing before the end of the sentence
Rest in peace, Cindy, pain free
Wishing I could put my arms around you Elaine and give you a big hug!0 -
Elaine, warm hugs to you and Rick. It has been such a privilege to share Cindy's journey.
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Oh no, I am so sad :-( I never met her but I just loved Cindy! She taught me so, so much, I could never really articulate it all here...
Hugs to you, Elaine, sending you strength and comfort to get through this difficult time. Please tell Rick we are all here for him, as well!0 -
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I have been so touched by her indomitable spirit. What a gal! My condolences to the family.
Let's all have a bag of M&Ms for Cindy Rose tonight.0 -
Rest in peace at last, CindyRose. It is said that it doesn't matter how long you live, but HOW you live, and the lives you have touched. You have touched so many of us, more than you probably can even imagine. I have been holding you in love since the first time I read your story. I am sorry we did not have the chance to meet when I was in AZ last year, but I was there holding your hand every day.
Prayers for peace for Elaine, Rick, and the family. I know you have all been working for over a year to come to terms with your loss, but even so, it still seems to come too early. I hold you each in my prayers, hold you in lovingkindness. May you find peace even as you grieve, and gratitude that Cin's struggles are over and she can rest without pain.
Tears come as I reflect on her spirit, her humor, her love - what a loss for so many - she will be sorely missed.
May all of you be held in lovingkindness, may you be free from fear and pain, may you be at peace.0 -
A beautiful soul, I am so sorry.0 -
Sad news for all of us here trying to walk Cindy's path with her, supporting her. Her place in all our hearts can never be filled. What an inspiration she was to me when I first came upon her blog. I thought what a strong woman, bearing so much in order to live her life on her own terms. I pray that I may have such courage when the end days come for me.
I pray also for her husband Rick, and Elaine, and all her loving extended family that they can endure her loss and eventually move forward without her.
Only the angels can rejoice and be happy to have such a bright new shining angel up there with them - maybe even kicking some ass occasionally if needed!!.
A safe journey home Cindy Rose. All your trials over. Golden peaceful joys now your just inheritance. Don't forget your sisters on this board who loved you on this earth and were honoured to walk a little way with you.
God speed you home........0 -
I am so sorry to read of Cindy's death. My best wishes to her family and many friends.0 -
To Cindy's family.
I am so sorry. I never met or spoke to Cindy but when I was first dx at the beginning of this year Cindy's blog was the first thing I read. I spent one sleepness night after my operation just reading all her entries she was a real inspiration to me. I hope I speak for all the others who were inspired and encouraged by her bravery.
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I am so sorry to hear this. Thoughts, prayers and condolences to Elaine, Rick, and the rest of the family.
Rest in Peace, Cindy.0 -
Hugs and prayers to Rick, Elaine, the rest of her family and friends. Cindy was such a big help to me. Not only with the cancer but also when I became an amputee a year ago. You were such an inspiration for me..
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I am so very sorry to hear this sad news. My deepest condolences to Rick, Elaine, and the rest of her family. May G-d send them comfort.
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Hi ladies, I'm going to send Rick and Elaine a card in the post in a few days. If anyone wants me to sign their name and country with a short message private message me.
Hope everyone is ok xx0 -
Sending you a note, thanks Ali! Mail from here takes forever to get to the States.0 -
I am so sorry to hear the loss of Cindy. Rest in peace dear Cindy. Condolences to the family.0 -
May she rest in peace.0 -
I caught Carpedium's sig line and felt that dreadful heart drop when one come's to the site and we have another angel looking over us. Deep sigh.
My only consoling thought is her whole soul's attitude towards her life and what it brought to her.
Truly, fly free, Cin, free of pain and free of disease. May peace desend on your family sooner rather than later....0 -
PAX to Cindy Rose and her family.0 -
♥ Cindy ♥ ~~ And Flights of Angels Sing Thee to Thy Rest0
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hi, dear friends
first, thank you -each and every one of you- for your condolences, love and support.
i haven't had access to my lap top recently, and i cannot send messages/write posts from my cell phone -bco's the only app i have any problem with :-/
so, cindy wasn't lucky enough to pass in her sleep -but on the plus side, mom was by her side. a little refresher: cindy had been on fentanyl for about a month -switching off the dilaudid which had become less effective. the withdrawal from the dilaudid was really awful -pain, confusion, jitters, etc.... the unfortunate problem is on the fentanyl she was extremely out-of-it ... dementia was quickly advancing and she really didn't have much memory of daily life. she wasn't able to get around well, and qol was minimal. so, the decision was made to go back to the dilaudid so the dementia could be accurately measured and cindy'd have some clarity.
the last couple of weeks, cindy had been "her old self." she'd climbed up stairs by herself to sleep in her bed at night. she'd been cleaning the house, floors, cabinets, kitchen ... going outside. rick believed that she was getting better. mom said to be careful thinking that, it would be a burst of energy people often get before they die. rick denied it for a week, then he told me that he maybe he was in denial, but that there was a spark in her eye that hadn't been there in a long time.
cindy was back in her "vacation home" (aka hospice) to get the pain meds and anxiety and sleep meds adjusted better. family had been with her 'round the clock for days. several family members were able to spend many hours with her, talking about important things, asking questions, sharing, loving each other. mom happened to be there Thursday night, into Friday morning. cin has been really lucid lately, so when mom told her alot of the memory loss was due to the lack of oxygen getting to her brain, and if she kept the oxygen on then she listened. =0) they'd gone outside to smoke a cigarette. cin's medicine bag (with the constant drip of the pain meds) started beeping, so they went back inside. cin was having trouble getting out of her wheelchair, so the nurses came to help. before they got her into the bed, she died.
the funeral, what will said, done, that she will be cremated ... all this was laid out by our cindy, herself. the services are scheduled for Saturday, October 19th. yes, it's a couple weeks, and yes, normally things happen sooner. but, not much with cin is ever "normal" lol that's what is best for the family, and what we're doing.
that's all for now,
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Thanks Elaine, I hope you and the family find some peace and quiet time.
We are all here for you whenever you need a chat.
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Thanks, Ali
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Hi Elaine,
What a wonderful sister you are. Cindy I'm sure is so proud of you that you are taking the time to come on these boards to keep us all up to date.
I, and I'm sure, everyone else here will be thinking of you in the difficult days to come but when the worst times come you must always remember how good you were to Cindy, the love that was and still is between you and how close you were as sisters. There is after all something to be said for getting the time to say goodbye and iron out and talk about everything over the last difficult months.
Praying for you and Rick and all the family and will think of you all particularly on the 19th.0 -
Hi Elaine, thank you so much for sharing the details of Cin's last weeks. I am comforted knowing she was able to clean and move about like she'd wanted to, with a sparkle in her eye! How wonderful. Bless Rick's heart, I am sure he felt a glimmer of hope seeing her moving about like her previous whirling dervish self. You are such a great sister, thank you for being here with us. I am so glad you had that time with her before, Elaine! How wonderful that you made the trip and were able to help her, hang out, laugh, and cry.
Sending you a hug and we'll be thinking of everyone on the 19th! Is there a funeral home or somewhere we can send flowers? Love and hugs to all of you!0 -
Heartfelt condolences to Elaine, Rick and everyone who knew Cindy. Such a terrible loss...0 -
Hello Dear Friends,
Carp, you're welcome =0) -and thanks for asking =0) the best place to send anything would be to Rick at: 7644 W. North Lane, Peoria, AZ 85345
I will always be so very grateful and appreciative for the help ~in a multitude of ways~ you've all shared. I sincerely doubt I would have been able to visit Cindy before she died without the kindness found here. The memories created the 3 weeks beginning Christmas Day, 2012, are beyond priceless. That time was truly the 'best' time I could have had (and some how she knew that when she asked me to come out) -when Cindy was still able to remember most things, able to get around, recognize me following her around like the "lost little puppy" hoping for something to come up that I could help her with. LOL
What I know now ... something as simple as reading means so much, being present is the best gift; Cindy wanted to make sure I had a transitioning period to adjust to her declining abilities while cherishing her indomitable spunk; Cindy needed to share and reach out to help other people and this was her medium -countless people have been touched already, and I believe more will stumble upon her thread here and over on WordPress and be encouraged and gently guided to choose their very own path; how much family meant to her; how much she means to her family and friends ... and that Cindy knew I need friends like you all here to help me get through the process of the wondrous Circle of LIfe ... the list could go on, and on etc ...
Hugs and Peacefulness,
Elaine
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Thanks Elaine for updating. I'm sorry to hear of Cindy's passing. I never posted here, but would come here to check up on Cindy. Cindy & I were dx'd the same time, so I've kept up with her and her health these past nearly 2 years. My condolences to all the family.0 -
Hi Elaine,
Thanks for your updates. I am sad to hear of Cindy's passing. I am glad to hear that the Hospice was a good facility for Cindy's needs. I send you love and hugs as you walk through this difficult time.
M&M's forever!
Barb/ Gingerbrew0
