CRAZY TOWN WAITING ROOM - TESTS coming up? All Stages Welcome.
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ducky, it’s HUGE that Penn wants your grandson! Isn’t wonderful to have two universities fighting over him? We Jews have an expression, “Nachus” (the “ch” is pronounced as if hawking up a loogie or trying clumsily to imitate a cat’s purr), which loosely translates to “happiness over the prestige the accomplishments of a child/grandchild/niece/nephew brings to the family.” You certainly are having a heckuva lot of nachus--enjoy!
Poppy, so sorry to hear you lost your friend, especially in the midst of her undergoing a step on the same journey we’re all taking. It’s discouraging, and all I can say is my condolences, and may her memory be for a blessing.
Noddy, have fun in London--you certainly deserve some! (I’ll be spending a few days there in March en route to Lausanne for a continuing legal ed. trip).
Notagain, lace up those happydance shoes!
Rain, have you or your son had the insanely good luck to have seen “Hamilton” (or at least heard the cast album) yet? Sounds surreal to have a hip-hop/R&B musical about the life of Alexander Hamilton, his ideological rivalry with Jefferson (especially considering Hamilton’s own part-Caribbean ancestry) and his tragic collision course with Burr. (Sort of like a musical about the Biggie Smalls-Tupac Shakur-Suge Knight story having an all-white cast and a Nashville-country score). But apparently, it works. (“Hamilton” as hip-hop, not B.I.G. as C&W). Of course, it probably takes mortgaging your home and signing over your progeny unto the tenth generation just to land a ticket.
My friend had another bubble contrast & echo study today and her pulmonologists & cardio team are formulating a treatment plan. Massive doses of diuretics seem to be working. Still, she’ll be in-hospital at least another week, and we may have to bring Thanksgiving to her (she’d been planning to host us for dinner at a restaurant, so that may be up to us instead). Hopefully, by the time she’s well enough to go home she’ll be lucid enough to consent to a cardiac cath to determine the status of her arteries. The combination of decades of smoking and Type 2 diabetes is a brutal one indeed. Had she not previously been so fitness-oriented we might have lost her months ago.
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Sandy, that's sad - she sounds like she was such a vibrant, active woman. Smoking was part of what led to my father's heart problems, and my uncle's lung problems. I agree, if you smoke, please stop. Your family needs you here.
Ducky, I hope it's OK that I laughed about your Green Bananas comment. I have an aunt in her 90's who would probably say the same thing.
Rainny, the padded cell is so you can safely bang your head on the walls while talking to the insurance company! For me the things that help with Crazy Town are walking and this site. I think my support group will help too, but they only meet every other week, and I'm crazy every day!
Barb, I've heard people talk about having anger, and I keep waiting for it to happen. I wonder if it ever will for me. I hope your rads gets started soon so you can get that part finished, and that it goes well.
Octo, sounds like your celebratory lunch was a little premature! Never heard of Dan Dan noodles, but it sure looks good. I can see how it was almost worth it.
Katy love the Official Therapy Dog Business. I think it needs to be capitalized.
Iris, ironically, the doctors' offices are one of the places I don't cry, mostly because I have relatives accompanying me to appointments so I feel like I can't. Eventually I'd like to talk to the doctors without anyone else there, so I can be a bit more free with what I say. Your tennis playing friend is incredible. That is definitely the way to be.
Tomboy, such a sad and beautiful story about your grandmother. I'm sorry you didn't get to spend more time with her.
Mary, what flooded your storage room?
NotAgain, whew! Fingers crossed with you about the last result.
Ducky, great news about your grandson's acceptance and interview! Let us know when the tests are, so we can ride along in your pocket.
Noddy, I completely know where you are coming from. I can't decide what I should and shouldn't be worried about and don't know what's important and what's not. I don't want to make the doctors think I'm crazy (OK, I am) but I don't want to make myself crazy, either (too late). Hope your London getaway helps.
Poppy, I'm so sorry about your son's friend's mom. It just isn't right. None of this is.
I've got to get off to the Y for my sanity walk. Talk to you Crazies later.
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Chi
He was also accepted at Penn State University........
Cubbie.......yea, no green bananas for me.............LOL
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Thank you all for the welcome.
Good news today at the doctors. ..... after I reminded her why I was there!!!..... no new signs of anything on my CT ...... YAY! ....and all the various cysts and nodules they were watching are unchanged basically in three years since I started this nonsense.
I'm sure my cough is reflux related. Not sure if much can be done about that. Shrug.
I'm exhausted. ... after a tiring day my friend took me out for an early supper then I went to chorus rehearsal 7-10pm. Singing is fabulous and a great bunch of friends. Sweet Adelines. ... I can recommend a singing group to lift and support in any circumstances!
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Good Evening Crazies!!
First things first....
Marie, We will all be in your pocket tomorrow during your surgery.
Sending all of our collective good thoughts your way!! Please let us know how you're doing when you can.
Morwenna, How are you doing? Did you get your results today? Thinking of you!!
Katy, I know that feeling. I look forward to visiting our thread every day. I enjoy you all so much. Thank you for asking about my echo. My appointment is tomorrow morning. I hope your pre-surgery scan went well today.
Gaia, Gentle hugs to you!! Thinking of you.
Shorfi, How are you today? I hope you're feeling a bit better.
Ducky, My DH was looking for something to be able to work from home. I was still recovering at the time from Flesh Eating Bacteria. He was a Realtor for a very short amount of time. Less than a year. He sold one house - a very nice couple that just loved him. They even wrote a letter thanking him for all he did for them. I got my license with him, but I never used it because I was preparing for another surgery. Please let us know when you have your scans so we can send good juju!! I'm very excited for your grandson!! Keeping him in my prayers!!
Rain, What gets me out of crazy? Oddly enough - Crazy Town. Honestly, before Crazy Town was started, I was far more crazy. The realization that I'm not alone in my crazy has done wonders. Being able to verbalize my crazy without judgment has also helped. Another biggie for me....distraction. Any activity that forces me to live in the moment.
Pennsygal, My toughest time emotionally was right before rads and shortly after finishing. That is when I looked back and asked, "What the hell just happened?" There are so many decisions to be made at the beginning, and we use all of our mindspace to get through treatment, SE's, etc. When we have a pause or a moment to think, it can be overwhelming. That's how it was for me and may be what you're experiencing. Hugs to you!!
Octo, Sorry to hear about the big D, but I did smile when you described how wonderful it was to taste each ingredient in your food. I hope you start to feel better soon!! I've never heard of Dan Dan Noodles, but they sure look good. I love Chinese food.
Sula, Good to see you pop in. I miss your food porn! Truth be told, I miss you too!! Happy to hear you're busy though. Very glad we don't have to come fetch you out of a rabbit hole.
Tomboy, Thanks for sharing that touching story. I wish you had gotten your Mary time. The memories you have are so lovely, it's no wonder you wanted more time and feel cheated. I like to believe that Mary is watching over you.
Notagain, That is great news!! Thank you for letting us know. I'm holding my breath for the bone scan results. Sending good thoughts!!
NoddyNeevy, Great big hugs to you!! One day at a time. Sometimes it is one hour or one minute. Be kind to yourself, you've been through a lot. I'm glad you're getting some time to recharge. I've found a good cry can help too.
Poppy, So sorry to hear about the mother of your sons friend. Poor boy. Cancer does suck - BIG TIME.
JAN, Always great to see you!! Your seat is always saved. I engraved your name on it.
Chi, Sending best wishes for your friend. Very kind of you to bring Thanksgiving to her.
Cubbie, Hope your sanity walk to the Y was successful.
I had a busy day today cleaning my house. I clean for 10 minutes and sit for 30. hahahaha....it took me 8 hours to clean 3 rooms. My DH has a birthday in a few days and my DD is staying with us for four days. My DS lives very close, so we will all take him out to dinner on his day. My DH and DD love to shop, so I'm sure that will be in the plans.Sleep well beautiful crazies....quiet crazies too!! Love you all.
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Morwenna, I was typing away when you posted. That is wonderful news and I'm so happy for you!!! Doing a happy dance for you!!
Remember....we are always here when you need us!!!
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Oh My Oh My Good Morning Crazies
Must confess to only being able to skim these last few days; Elixir crafting and salad making etc has my rapt attention. No News on the "house" yet, but got some more clarity on some logistics ( guest list etc) via a conversation with the Mothership last night.
Ducky excellent news re your gandson and sounds like it was a relitively uneventful MO appointment. Hope the US is simple and I am sure will show nothing. LAdies what is a Dexascan? seems like a lot of you are mentioning it and I don't want to spend time with Dr Google. I'd rather rely on my trusted CT resources!
Rainn when on earth do you find time to read all of these books? i feel so lame; it's not like I'm spending my days eating bon bons and watching TV or movies.... May try to snatch up the RR book though. What get's us out of crazy? good meditation. It definitely helps having theis Big Top to scurry to.
MAria wisjhng you and UNEVENTFUL and smooth surgery.
Chi hope your friend stabilizes enough to experience Thanksgiving
Poppy sorry to hear about your friend. like Katy said F cancer
Pennsy- I think these waves of feelings are so natural and needed..... I am actually really starting to dig under the surface to uncover and let more of it loose..... I think we/ I bury a lot just to function day to day.....
Tom what a heart filled connection with your grandmother and I really felt such a tug that you were prevented from connecting as deeply as your soul wanted/needed.
Octo- that food porn was great- I bookmarked that website. Hope the Big D has 'passed'
Slow here's to a good echo and I hear you re clean 10/sit 30 haha.
Katy how was the eye scan? Elixirs in the tube
Sula you have been busy! waving a big HELLO.
Ok have to pause for now, but Hugs to All ( Hi Mommy!) and I'll be back later.
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Gaia I will be back later also but just a quick post to say that the Dexascan is a bone density scan, to check for osteoporosis, many of us get them before going on AIs (which can cause or at least hasten osteoporosis) or just as part of overall treatment once you reach a certain age ( which might be closer to sixty than 50?) it's an easy non invasive test and I don't think it is expensive, so worth asking your doc about.
Hugs, Octogirl
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morning, seems the best thing to get me moving in the morning with min of pain in the butt~~is to sit on my heating pad and go to Crazy town! works for me!
so now let me think about all I have read and see what I remember....
Ducky, well, seems we have no worries about your grandson, PennState is a dang good back up school although hoping he is NOT a football player? then again, smart guys usually do not have time for football! Oh well
yeah, I am missing Sula's food porn! although we need to forgive her for working!!
Yeah my pal with 2 BCs, lung cancer and now hip replacement so she can play tennis again....yeah she is a pistal! A while back I had described her situation to a dif pal who has been making odd comments of late (very negative), this dif pal said well she probably doesn/t want to live! Like WTF? I have cut that negative thinking pal off for now, got stuff to do myself and need to stay positive and crazy also!
oh well, time to get off my butt (heating pad is really hot now~~) and go do a bit off pool time now, later gater
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gaia! Those are amazing! So beautiful, and I am sure they are delicious too!
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He had his interview today with the University of Penn person.......said he thoughtit went well........but as good as he is......Penn is a very difficult school to get into.....I mean its like Harvard, Princeton, Yale, you know "Ivy Leage".........the competation is extreme, and some of those people are genius..........all I can say is........if they take him they won't be sorry........he works like a dog for his grades......and has been a 4.0 since middle school.......some kids............"ace" the SAT's and then when they are accepted they don't do the work..............plus a lot of the "Father's of U of P" want their sons and daughters to followin their footsteps.......and the kid of a Penn graduate will get a better chance.........so he has a lot going for him................but more going against him.............but he is happy with his other choices who have already accepted him and given him money...............so time will tell.............everyone has a dream...............he told me last night before he went to bed......he said "....Nan, I decided to "LET GO, AND LET GOD"...............Lord I love that boy.........
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ducky, think you raised a good one! and dang but they are all good ones!
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Ducky.. Your grandson has an amazing future.. regardless of what happens.! You should be very proud..
Cubbie. Our property did have a previous owner.. But they split up not long after buying it.. So other than some gardens out the front, and putting up the shed ( hubby's man -cave !! ) it is a blank plate.. How is your land situated? Ours is sort of in sections.. Up different sides of the house. Behind the shed etc, so we're trying to give each section it's own feel / purpose but somehow tie it all together too.. It's not easy.! do you have an orchid and grow veggies?
Morwenna .. Yay.. So happy to hear your wonderful news.!!
Tomboy.. Your story about your grandmother really tugged at my heartstrings.. I worked in aged care.. I loved the elderly.. I think because I barely remember my grandmother.. and was only 20 when my mum died.. I was always trying to replace them with the residents there!
Slow .. Thinking of you!
Hi to everyone.!
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Photo of me and "my mum " I adopted at work.. Just before I was diagnosed.. Sadly she has passed away since.. Age 92.. I just loved her. I'm happy to still be friends with her two daughters.
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Lucy- what a beautiful pic and even more beautiful story. You have a good heart. I'm so excited for you, designing new gardens! I love making garden "rooms" and it's an art to find ways pull them all together. I like to lead guests (in the old days with some kind of swishy drink with an umbrella or maybe a nice glass of white- but alas I rarely imbibe out of fear these days- but when I do.... I make sure it's something great!) on tours of my garden. Even when a garden is small, "pause points" can be artfully engineered to engage the participants and be in the moment a bit. I am in an area where I can hear all kinds of livestock in the morning, and almost could have a couple of chooks and would love to, for the eggs and manure, but I can barely keep up with what I have.
Ducky- your grandson is a gem. Every time I hear a story of one of your brood, who you are rightfully so proud of, I remember once again your own story, what you started with, and how you and Poppy created this dynasty out of pert near nuttin'. I am proud to know you and share in the joy you feel for all the members of your extensive family. 💗
Shorfi- how are you getting on. Any better?
Thinking of you all. My wonderful Crazies that keep the wolf at the city limits.
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Lucy........I was adopted by a wonderful lady..........we met by chance on a website, not knowing each other....both being from opposites sides of the country......she is the sweetest, kindest, compassioante and might I add loving I could have been adopted by............I call her "Girlie" but you all know her as SLOW DEEP BREATHS...................She makes me smile.......she lifts me up........what more could one Mom ask for...............
Ladies thank you so much for all the nice comments about my grandson.....he is a really great kid.......he is 17, and his name is SEan Michael.........the son of my youngest daughter.........I took care of him from 3 months after he was born, until my daughter started working from home (due to an alletrgy to her building)........He was always a super kid...did everything early, and how I loved taking care of him..........still miss it.........when he was a little boy we would lay out back on his mother's deck on the chaise lounge's and look for figures in the clouds....................I would say "I SEE A ------", and he would always find whateve rit was.......I loved those times, and even when he got older till today I will look up and shout to him "i SEE A WHATEVER"...and he smiles and says "yea Nan, I see it too"........in these times of trouble, and so many kids underage drinking, doing drugs, and being disrespectful in school, and to others.....he is a breath of fresh air................
The sad thing is sometimes kids like that are not part of the "In Crowd"......he is a golfer which is not part of the "big guy bullshit".....from other family members........and he's not a kid who looks for trouble...........I have never and I mean never heard him say a bad word about anyone...or even join in a gossiping conversation with others who are beating someone down.........................in his HS golf team there was a boy who cheated all the time.......my SIL picked up on it when they were golfing together...............he asked Sean........he's a cheater I watched how many times he took that shot...........then said "Sean does it do that in the tournaments"............Sean said "Dad I don't watch him, others say he does, but the truth will come out so I don't know"..............then he said "Dad one of the great golfers once said "you cheat at golf, you cheat in life"....................it will catch up to him if he does.".
So that is Sean, and yes I am proud of him.....he is the love of my life..................
And then there is his sister Makayla......brilliant sweet, loving, caring, but a spit fire.........takes no crap.........is a "today's woman"..........and is very outgoing...........thank God Sean is like he is...................The Father could never handle 2 like her..........LOL.......he says "that girl is every gray hair in my head"..............LOL...........just 2 great kids.............
Some of my other grandkids (a couple) have had their share of problems, into the stuff some kids do today, but love changes everything............you don't give up on your kids............
This is Sean and Makayla.....she just cut 12 inches off her hair for "Locks of Love" for wigs for breast cancer patients...................
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Yay for the CT results, Morwenna! So glad to hear that. I love to sing, too, although I'm not too good at it. I have a co-worker who is a voice coach on the side, I'd love to take lessons from her someday.
Slow, I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Check in with us, OK?
Ducky, your grandson will do well wherever he goes. These schools should be lining up for him, he will be a credit to their programs. He sounds like a great young man. I like the part where you still say "I see a..." to him. When my nephew was about 13, he used to do the joke where you say to someone "guess what?" and when they say "what?" you say, "Chicken Butt!" Once he was too mature for that sort of thing, every time he excitedly says "guess what?" all ready to tell me about something that that's happening in his teenaged/college aged life, I still reply "Chicken butt!" and he'd says "No!" all exasperated. It's like an inside joke now.
Lucy, my place is sort of narrow rectangle. Not all that wide, but it runs a long way to a creek at the back. It slopes, so there are three "tiers" in the backyard. The first is more like a regular backyard, with a rose garden, shrubs, trees, a big grassy space.
The next tier down is garden beds, an apple tree, two pear trees, a blueberry bush, and a blackberry bush. I planted the blackberry bush, the rest were here when long before. I think there must have been more fruit trees at one time, I run across stumps in the ground in line with the existing trees now and then. Used to have a peach tree, too, but it was very old and died over last winter.
The third tier is mostly grass, but has grape vines and a raspberry patch. I tried growing veggies, but the rabbits and deer are voracious around here. Something even ate my pepper plants right off to the ground! Doesn't help much to fence, either. My neighbors have a huge fenced garden and they made an big "roof" for their garden from additional fencing to keep the deer out. I'm too busy for that much effort, so I have grass in the vegetable plots right now. I figure some future owner can rototill them and replant them someday if they want.
I also have a big flower garden on one side of the house, lilacs along the property line on one side, and a flower garden that runs the width of the property along the street. It is a beautiful place, but keeping up with the pruning is a huge job. I figure it takes about 10-15 hours a week to keep the place looking halfway decent during the growing season, and it's still no magazine cover.
Love the picture of you and your "adopted" mom.
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Katy...I love your description of the garden tour. I love gardens and look forward to touring yours someday, as I totally get the idea of pause points. I would love to have that in my gardens, but alas, it is more of a collection of stuff and a bit random. The sad thing is, I LOVE gardens but I HATE gardening. With a passion. I think it is my bad knees, though I wasn't into it even before arthritis hit. The only part I like is harvesting, and even then, I only really enjoy it from the trees and from the herb garden built into a side wall as I don't have to bend down. Even picking the tomatoes is less fun than I'd like. The good news: hubby has taken up the slack and enjoys it, although he is a rank newbie (last three years or so) and feels he has a lot to learn. At least I get some vegetables every year, and the fruit trees just seem to do their own thing (in a good way).
Ducky: Sean and Makayla are beautiful. You should be so proud of that boy. I predict he will get into Penn. and will do fine there. Hey, my son got into the Ivys for grad school and is doing well. So can Sean. Not that there is anything wrong with Penn State. Hubby is a Penn State alum. He transferred there from Lebanon College....
Proud, I hope the swim felt great!
Gaia, fingers still crossed on the house. Glad you are busy and sounds like you are (figuratively) learning to surf. You really should come out and visit us in California... :-)
Sula, my food porn has nothing on yours! Miss you but also glad you are busy!
It's a quiet day by the fire for me here. Today was a work holiday, much appreciated day three after chemo. A clear day but very cool (By California standards.) Stomach woes are over, but feeling wiped out. So, skipped my walk but I did revive this afternoon to do dishes, made a huge pot of minestrone, and baked cornbread. Dinner taken care of, while hubby is just finishing working in the garden now that it is getting dark....
It will be an early evening to bed here. Good night crazies. Thinking of all of you and sending hugs and love to all, especially those who are struggling. Right there with you many days. Be well, and I hope tomorrow is a good day for all of us.
Octogirl
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Ducky, you have one GORGEOUS family!!! Brilliant too.
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hi crazies
Please someone tell me that the fog lifts and the dark cloud that is hanging over my head will go away!!!!!!!! I so thought that at 4 years out i would not go through dark times like these,the smallest of things spirals out of controll and i cant manage to keep myself together or not have thought that everyone would be better off if i just vanished.i get so worked up over silly things now that is sends me into a deep dispair,am i the best i can be for my 3 beautiful children and hubby or should i just make their lives easier and leave,they have so much more fun with daddy rather than cranky or tired mommy.its 2.20 am here and sleep is not my friend cos brain wont stop having a worry/anxious/pity party.oh and my family cant understand why i cant just snap out of it and get over myself and be back doing everything everyone wants.truth is it takes everything i have to get up in the morning between sore joints in feet hips shoulders and neck im starting to think that maybe i could stop taking the exemestane ive done 4 years of them ive had enough enough enough.
Oh im so sorry for rambling on but i really need to get that out have been holding it in too long.
Katy your garden sounds lovely hope it works out well.
Ducky what a wonderful grandson you have either college would be lucky to have him.
Gaia that house looks fab congrats on your wedding you both look very happy.
Maria was thinking of you today hope all went well.
Hi to everyone im sure iv missed a couple but im new bear with me please
night beautiful warriors
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((((Nods)))) YES! You belong here, and on the planet too. Please ask maybe for an exemestane break, or ask for something please that will lift your spirits and get you through this! But we are here,for you.
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The surgery went well. They had to take out more lymph nodes than I thought they would. Not because they found cancer, but I guess a bunch of those little devils dyed blue. Should go home tomorrow but hoping it's not too early. 😜
Feeling great! I even love the massaging things on the legs to prevent clots. The hospital is a noisy place to try and sleep, but other than that things are great! Thanks for all the comments, prayers, and emails. ❤️❤️
Can't wait to see the scar. He took the extra tissue off the other side too. I told several people that were going to be in the operating room to remind him that I did not want extra tissue and have no plans for reconstruction. Now on to wondering about the results of the genetic testing.
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Marie, good to see you and hear you are doing well. I liked the massaging things they put on your legs, too. It was sort of funny, the nurses kept telling me that most patients hate them because they can't sleep with them on, but I found them relaxing.
Noddy, your family loves and needs you no matter what. It's hard for our families to understand what we are going through, but that is why we are here for each other. Please talk to your doc about how you are feeling.
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hey there Crazies,
Glad to check in for a minute.
First off...
Ducky,
All of your grand and great grands are soooo good looking!!! If Sean were my grandson I'm be just as proud as you are. I'd say he was lucky to be wanted by such fine schools but lucky has nothing to do with it. He has obviously worked extremely hard for all his accomplishments... I hope it's not too hard for him to pick his favorite out of all the ones who want him. Congratulations!
Marie,
So glad your surgery went well.i hear ya about the leg massagers. If I could I'd buy one if those massaging things ... I absolutely fell in love with that.
Noddy,
You're in the right place be kind to yourself your family needs to learn that recovery is not just physical but there are big emotions involved too. Healing takes time .
Slow,
I am so glad you made this place for us ... Gaia, Jack, Shorfi, Proud, LittleBlue, Lucy, Cubbie, and I don't know who else... Can't keep up with all the travelers through CT. Anyway, by evening which is the only time I have to write here I'm exhausted by this time.
This is our big weird news.....We're launching a product on the day after Thanksgiving . We've been working with Rancho Gordo beans which is a big company and we've designed an Indian Cooking kit basically all one needs to start cooking Indian food and it's going to be on sale on Black Friday at the Rancho Gordo store at the Ferry Building in San Francisco and also their store in Napa. Anyway, we've never done anything like this before I mean we're writers! and it's taking all our time . I'm going to be at the Ferry Building in my chefs coat serving some of my Indian food. This whole thing came about because the president of Rancho Gordo was at a dinner party at our house and then said let's go into business. So, that's what's happening. Dealing with packaging, labeling , design, and LLCs etc is intense. We put the script we're doing on hold for this month so we can meet this deadline.
I hope to have a moment to really engage after some of this stuff is locked down... Meanwhile... Love to all of you, and I'll be back as soon as I can
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Sula, How exciting for your new venture. Your talent and connections will take you far. I know it is a lot of hard work and very time consuming. Your passion will make the time fly and the process intensely enjoyable. Congrats.
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Sula, I love Rancho Gordo, they have a great product.....congratulations!!!
Would so come up to the City for the launch except that I will be in LA for the Thanksgiving weekend to spend a few days with DD and the worlds most adorable grandkids....I know it will be great though. Look forward to checking it out in the future. How exciting.
Octogirl
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Marie- glad you are doing ok. Thanks for checking in. We will still be hanging around in your pocket for awhile. Keep us posted and stay ahead of the pain.
Noddy- you are not alone in these feelings. You must just trust us when we say nobody, NOBODY, would be better off without you. It's very good that you reached out to us with these feelings. I hope you can gather up your strength and talk to your doc about either stopping the HT, or getting something for depression, or maybe even both. If it were up to me, I'd have you find someone like a social worker or therapist you could talk to also. You've been dealt some huge blows. I do believe the combination of meds (or stopping some) along with learning some tools to help you deal with these falls down the rabbit hole is the best course and you can learn how to see the signs of oncoming storms. Self awareness and being proactive can make a big difference. I hope that makes sense. I'm sending a gentle hug your way.
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Good Evening Wonderful Crazies!!
PTS, I admire your determination to feel better in spite of your on again, off again pain.
Lucy, What a great picture and a beautiful story. You've got such a kind, caring heart. I knew that the first time I read one of your posts way back when. Thanks for sharing that part of yourself with us!!
Katy, You have a gift of words. Whenever you describe something, I can picture it so clearly. I loved reading about the garden tour.
Ducky, I put makeup on today for the first time in a long time. Your post has my mascara running down my cheeks!! You're such a kind, caring lady. Thank you so much for those very special words. I have no doubt we were meant to be in each others lives. One day, you and I will take a picture together!! Love you!! You had a big part in your grand children's lives by watching them when they were younger. I'm not surprised they turned out so well with your influence. Great picture of them both!!
Cubbie, Thank you for the good thoughts. I had my test today. I should hear something in the next couple of days. The paper did say if they find anything serious, they will call right away. In this case, no news is good news!! I love hearing about your garden as well as Lucy's.
Gaia, I still have my fingers crossed, hoping you get your favorite venue!! I agree with Octo....You should come visit us here in California!!
Octo, Very glad your tummy troubles are better. Sounds like you had a nice relaxing day. Soup and cornbread sounds so yummy!!
Noddy, I'm glad you were able to express your thoughts. I wish I had a magic wand to make it all better quickly. I think you should talk to your doctors and let them know what you're feeling. You may be able to take a break from your meds, or they may be able to prescribe something for depression or better yet, something to make you sleep. Have you tried PT at all after your treatment? Or pain management? One of the very special ladies here on BCO suggested a book for me when I was really struggling. It helped me so much. The name is Full Catastrophe Living by Dr. Jon Kabat-Zinn. No apologies are ever needed in Crazy Town - we all get it. I hope like crazy that you can get some relief from one of the suggestions above. Please, please don't give up. Those three beautiful children need their mom and now that you're part of Crazy Town, we need you too!! Gentle hugs to you!!
Marie, Thanks for letting us know how you're doing. Happy to hear you're feeling great! Please let us know how the genetic testing goes. Here's hoping you can go home tomorrow!!
Sula, WOW....that is great news. You're like the Energizer Bunny!!! I get tired just reading about all you do. haha...Thanks for checking in with us. Please let us know how the launch goes!!
Rose, Good to see you. How are you feeling??
Poppy, A big thank you again for coming with me today!!! The lunch was awesome and it was wonderful to see you again!!
Sleepy time for me. Sleep well beautiful crazies!! I love you all!!
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Sula, Wonderful news! The Ferry Building is fantastic! A playground for me!
Slow, I am so happy we were able to spend time together. I hope I gave you some comfort ; at the very least I was a distraction and ultrasound tech face reader!
Noddy, Please check in here when you are feeling low. The ladies have shared some excellent words of support.0 -
Good Morning Ladies...................
A little bit of a gray day here, however at least I woke up to face another one, and that alone is a bonus..........
Noddy....we need to talk.....this is just some old lady trying to give you a little pep talk..........I will have my 5 year stint with cancer in February 2016.........the best I can tell you ;;is stop trying to make sense of "everyone elses's deluded idea that things are as they always were.........they are not!!!!!!!!!!!!.............and the only people who understand that are the people who actually through it.....not the ones who watch you, or are there for you, or who took care of you........once it is over, and in the past everyone..........other then you feels.............Snap out of it.............that is not how it works................I had to go off Letrozole after 4 years because of the SE's which I could not handle anymore........I could have written exactly what you just wrote..........I was one big "HURT"....and it kept getting worse..............then they tell you take something for the pain, and you get SE's from whatever they give you............so I finally said "enough is enough"......some of the SE's went away...but some didn't,........I"m just glad some did.......I'll take ;that..........and yes you are going to be "blue"......we all want our old life back.......pre cancer........not gonna happen................each day is a new day......some better then others........when things get tough.............come here..........I do belive you have to go through it to understand it..........love and hugs.....hang in their girlfriend.
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