Wow, I *really* don't want to be in this group
I hate being back on this board.
I had DCIS 10 years ago, and had really moved on with my life. Married, two kids, pandemic puppy, doing life and not thinking about cancer *at all*. I was sure, in fact, that the lump I found a month ago was going to be nothing.... but it wasn't nothing. It was 6mm of IDC, ER+/PR+ HER2-.
Coincidentally I developed sciatica in the last month or so, which didn't shock me because I've had back & core issues for years, and I've been a desk jockey (too much sitting) for 6 months, but of course everyone is worried about bone mets. So far I've had X rays of my back, hip, and femur and nothing shows mets - orthopedist believes degenerative disease in my back is causing radicular pain (whee!), but I am having a PET/CT scan soon to check everywhere else. Needless to say I'm terrified about what the PET/CT will show. It's really hard not to go to the bad place mentally. I went to a *very* dark place 10 years ago during this waiting phase and it's hard not to go there now.
Any encouragement or suggestions to help me stay out of the bad mental place would be most welcome. Thanks.
And, sorry to be back. No offense.