HELP. I am so scared.
Just had 6 yr post diagnosis mammo and wound up having a biopsy that same day due to pleomorphic calcifications found near original site. Rad strongly suspects DCIS again. I am not doing well mentally. I am terrified of having a recurrence. It means that the original treatment didn't work. So how can I stop it now? Had lumpectomy and rads first time around. Now I guess it will be a mastectomy which scares me in and of itself. But I can't stop thinking about how the treatment has failed and I am doomed to have it progress to incurable. I am taking Ativan but it isn't doing the trick. I am shaking and can't stop. My blood pressure is way up which is a big concern as I was also recently diagnosed with an aneurysm and I am supposed to keep my blood pressure under control. I don't know how to calm myself down and how to make peace with this. I think a recurrence is worse than a new cancer maybe. I can't sleep. I am shivering and shaking. How am I going to survive this? Help me please.