Need encouragement and support
I posted here about a month and a half ago about some concerning symptoms and received some lovely responses which I really appreciate. I did follow up on my symptoms with a mammogram ( negative results) but I have very dense breasts and after all my reading on here and research it appears that mammograms miss a lot when it comes to dense breasts. My symptoms have not resolved so I know I need to see another doctor to get to the bottom of it, but multiple factors have caused me to delay doing so. First and foremost is my fear of what I will find out. I have severe emetophobia ( irrational fear of vomiting) so the idea of potentially having cancer treatments that could cause vomiting sends me into panic mode. My other obstacle is my mother’s declining health. She has stage three lung cancer and is doing very poorly. She relies on me for emotional support as well as rides to doctors, tests, making meals, doing laundry, etc. If I were to be diagnosed with my own cancer I wouldn’t be able to do all that. She would also not be able to handle it as she is emotionally fragile. I’ve put my issues aside with the hope that I’d get her to a more stable place with her health, but that’s not likely to happen so I’ve decided I need answers once and for all. The problem is getting myself to the doctor for those answers. I am paralyzed with fear so am hoping that there’s someone on here who has also been petrified to see their doctor but finally did and can offer me some words of encouragement. No one knows of my suffering because I’ve kept it to myself as mine and my husband’s plates have been full with my mother’s illnesses ( there are many besides cancer). I don’t have the heart to put my issues on anyone else but I’m really struggling. I did what everyone says not to do and went down the Google rabbit hole and found nothing that points to anything but advanced breast cancer ( I have a very painful swollen armpit and the pain often radiates down my side and into my shoulder and collarbone). I don’t feel any lumps but apparently this type of swelling is not a good sign. It’s also been going on to varying degrees for many months now. I’m simply physically and emotionally exhausted and works be eternally grateful for any words of encouragement. Sorry for the novel (I’m an English teacher so I tend to write a lot). If you read this far thank you. I wish all you lovely ladies well.