STEAM ROOM FOR ANGER

I need to vent. Im pretty pissed at my sister. Im always the bigger person, biting my tongue and she doesnt even know it. Grrr.

8 yrs ago when dx w stage 4, she sounded strangely excited and said she was going to take notes when we talked so she could better follow along. A few months later and I was feeling overwhelmed, imagine that! She asked me how i was doing on 3 occasions and i didnt reply. (She is long distance) then she announced she would never ask me again. Some rule she made. And she hasnt. Insane. She will wish me well, hope I'm not in pain, send cards etc. Everything but ask directly. So stupid.

She called yesterday but I didnt answer w company here. Again she didnt ask in the message she left. Twist the words in so many ways, but wont ask. Stupid game. I'm planning to text her and tell her I'm too busy to talk. Try next month. All I have to talk about is how miserable everyone here is. Then maybe ask if im playing her game the right way cause i never got a set of the rules. UGH.

Thanks for listening.

Hello everybody, checking in. Still no recurrence on 14th year. Refused chemo with a oncodx of 34, did 4 years AI drugs. I'm ok how are you guys? Loved ready articles like bee venom kills BC no surgery required hmm really?

What a thoughtless gift. Someitmes some one who has not had cancer has no clue it seems. They just need to be there and sometimes and help out and say nothing. Keep their mouth shut about things they do not understand how you are feeling.

I hope you were able to enjoy your birthday though and happy birthday!

Well as we are older now we often have dinner at 3;30 now and often by 4 I am ready to go to bed for the night. seems does not matter what time go to sleep get up at 3;30 in the morning so usually by 4 am tired out from being awake and trying to get through a day. /Hope you got a good a dinner at some point mommyof3. You deserve to have a nice meal sometimes that you are not doing all the work to fix.

So hot to really cook so doing crock pot or food on the stove a lot here. Food to heat over in t he microwave for leftovers. Easier without kids here so even if it is sandwiches it is food. Sometimes even doing something on the grill is too much work. Going out for food is hard as well since means going to get it and deciding what to get is another chore. usually try to just do a few meals a week we and we off them for a few days. Some of the casseroles do in smaller dishes can microwave now. Kind prefer it too be winter when do not mind using the oven so much.

Trying not to worry about things feeling in my arm pit with swollen nodes on my cancer side. They never seem to scan that when I have been going and worry . See doc next week so maybe she can check it out. Have implant in there and did reconstruction on that side but of course lopsided now. PS said he could reduce and life other side at the same time but was tired of surgery at that point. Did not want more.

At this point kind of wondering if it is cancer again how much could I endure again?

Talk to your MO and maybe they have some good options for your feet. I know DH has issues with his and they gave him some kind of cream to put on them that helps with the things he feels in there like needles stabbing him on the bottom.

Another night I am not eating. Hubby did it again. My dinner was a glass of Crystal Light drink.

kathrynw1thasea good luck to you and hope you get answers.

You can also get protein with some other easy sources as well if you do not feel up to eating a regular dinner. There are even some other bars and things that contain them since they have nuts in there. Even some cereals if you can take a bowl of cereal.

Agree. If you work and it is for sick days and not a vacation day different. When I worked and someone was going all the time or treatment you could donate your time off even to someone. Most of us did it but worked with all women who got it. For a male boss he may not understand unless had a spouse or other relative with cancer. It is hard when you are working.

Yeah, that kinda stinks Elenora. My guy often just doesn't know what to say either. Maybe keep the hearing aids and get a hair topper. You could be around quite a while yet. 9 years for me.

I expect one day I'll need both. My hair is about 1 1/4" now since chemo but was thinning on top before chemo.

hearing issues are bad even without other health issues going on and can make people isolate. Your family needs to be more supportive of both and the hair comment was plain rude!

eleanora: Keep your hearing aids so you can hear what is going on and because loss of hearing can contribute to lack of socialization plus dementia. Ignore your husband's poor response. I don't know either of you but if her were balding what would you say to him? He seems to be clueless as to what you you are enduring and lacks compassion.

So what if people can see your hearing aids? It is better for them to see this than to think you ignore them because you didn't hear them. My DH has not heard well for years, lied about it (mostly to himself because we were all aware) and I finally forced him to see an audiologist. He now realizes how much he has missed out on in the past 10 years. Pride goeth before a fall and I also had to get them after a bout of severe soughing caused by a virus left me with loss of hearing in my left ear. When the hearing returned, it was accompanied by tinnitus which I can squelch somewhat with my hearing aids. They are a blessing in my eyes because the tinnitus is so distracting and I don't relish dementia.

If your hair loss is distressing and contributing to your not wanting to socialize, then consider getting a wig. My hair has really thinned from AI's and I no longer try to style it like I did in the past. If I were to go short again, I would have not enough to style it.

I don't think your DIL meant to make you sad. She was honest and if it wasn't said cruelly, than I would be thankful she mentioned that she saw what she felt was something to help you. Please place yourself first here.

elenora, if that had been my hubby I would have kicked him right where God split him!

Went to schedule my mamo and ultrasound on my non cancer side and they said they only got the order for the mamo only. then had to go and contact the doc to get a new order sent before scheduling or go do one and then have to go back again later. Told her would wait and then call back next week. Can no one do their jobs anymore and you realize how important this stuff is to get right???