My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

@sf-cakes - wishing you a very Happy Birthday 🎂🍾! I also want to send you a belated thank you for your birthday wishes to me last week. I'm just not always up on things and timely with messages these days, but the thoughts are indeed heartfelt.

So today it was overcast and dreary. Cold, windy and rainy sleet, making it icy. It must be this weather that’s making me feel extra stiff and achy in my ribs and hips and ankles, which really hurt when I slowly went downstairs for breakfast this morning. I hung out downstairs in the kitchen and had a glass of kefir, and a bowl of jello, the watched the fish in the living room in our aquarium. As. Sat there I felt like i just wanted to go upstairs and get horizontal because my whole back hurt and felt to weak to even hold myself up. It;s jusgt one of those bone pain days so I went upstairs to my bedroom, followed by the 2 pugs and we got into bed, and Gitmo felt better to be laying down, and reading .

@chicagoan I’m thinking of your brother. My youngest son was plagued by hernia issues and 2 surgeries within 5 years during and after them.college. he still deals with pain issues and sees a neurologist who has helped him with prescriptions to manage and eliminate his pain issues. He’s 47 now and has not ever had an emergency like your brother did. I hope your brother gets well soon.

@mara51506 . Stay safe and stay off the ice, girl😉

@threetree I think about you often. I’m sorry about your sister issues carrying over to your 2 daughters. it’s not always easy with adult children and our siblings sometimes. I have 3 sisters, I am the oldest of the 4 of us. two of them don’t speaker with me. the two younger ones. I am very close to my one sister. we are exactly 1 year apart. I was born on April 4th and on year later she was born on April 2nd.. the third sister was born 3 years after us, and my 4th sister was born after my mother & father divorced. She was born when my mother remarried when I was in 7th grade, so she was quite a bit younger than the three of us. but over the years she grew closer to my other youngest sister who never got along with me. that sister and I have not spoken since our 20’s, and she has never been a very nice person. the other sister has lived out west since marrying and divorcing twice. so I don’t even think about them because they are not in my life. at my age I want peace and food vibes. even my adult children remain close to me and DH other than occasional disagreements and drama. But family is family and even close family have certain dynamics within that can sometimes carry over during family get together. I always worry that my 2 DD’s will get breast cancer. I worry that with my own limitations would keep me from helping. My Youngest DD has her DH and they have been together for 20 yrs and are close, but I worry about my oldest DD who is 49 Divorced,works hard and has no one to lean on.. She is serial online dater but she always meets jerks who pop in and out of her life. So that worries me….my heart always hurts for her, even now after Christmas drama.. @threetree have a peaceful restful evening 🩵

@goldensrbest Hey there girl. I;ve always kept scented candles going during the day over the years. I love to start in the fall with the apple cider and cinnamon sticks simmering. that always gave a comforting feeling during chilly fall days.💚🧡🤎🍁🍂

@intolight, I’’m happy you had an enjoyable Christmas with your family. That’s what it’s all about.

@irishlove sorry you had to toss ou the frozen mashed potatoes from Publix😂. good thing you had the Bob Evan’s ready made potatoes to fall back on😉

@sf-cakes Cake for breakfast is always ok when you’re turning 56, belated Happy Birthday!🎉🎈🎂🎊🎁🩵

Hi everyone. Hope that this note finds peace and pain free days. @sf-cakes Belated Happy Birthday. Your cake looked gorgeous. Bet it was yummy, too. @intolight Prayers that your treatment kicks as* and you will enjoy many Christmases to come. @shanagirl Families are certainly complicated. Your meal sounded so delicious and a partner in the kitchen, what a pair you two make. @cookie54 Oh what a frightening thing to happen to your nephew on Christmas. He sounds young and healthy so hopefully he will heal quickly and be back to his old self. DH went thru this last year. He did develop an infection so had to return for another minor surgery. He's doing well for a 79 yr. old.

DD is still here. She hasn't attempted to get the DGD moving. That child was up all night and fell asleep at noon. I wish I could say this is the exception but it's not. No school, no parental controls over her phone and tablet. . DGD can't concentrate, hates loud sounds and needs help. Public school did nothing to help. We want to try private school but if she won't listen to us, well she won't listen to a teacher. Needs mental health and physical eval, perhaps on the autistic scale? DD had a spontaneous colon death 7 weeks after her baby was born (only child). She was visiting us in Boone and was so sick that she went by ambulance to the hospital. She was airlifted to Winston-Salem Baptist hospital and the surgeon saved her life. He removed a large area of necrotic intestines, attached a iliostomy bag and stitched back up from under her breast bone down to her pubic bone. 85% mortality rate. A lot of prayers from so many and we received a miracle. Since then it's been difficult for her. But no excuse with how she's raising her child or treats her parents. She doesn't work either so financial aide is from the bank of dad and mom. Lovely husband, works hard but just not enough income and she announced they are separated recently (her idea). He lives in the camper and wants his family back and we need her to move back. Awful tired of doing everything for them when we both suffer cancer and minimum retirement funds. Do love them all truly, just need a break….

@mara51506 Hope you are eating better and not attempting to lay salt. Just no worth it. I too will light a candle for you and pray and be in your pocket from now until you are healed.

My wishes for all those in Mel's room is for a healthy and happy New Year. So many drugs in the pipeline and surely we will find one that works for us.

Irishlove

Light snow this morning but it's gone now. However, my DS left early this morning to drive to DIA and catch his plane back home east to northern New York. He heard he has at least ten inches of snow at his house and it continues to snow as I write this. His plane is delayed an hour already but he hopes he makes it home. I do too! I miss him already. It is sad to read that so many cities across the world and cancelling or paring down the New Year's celebrations. We need to pray for peace now more than ever.

I have also realized that if I have a ton of laundry to dry, would make sense to dry in both living room and bedroom as they are on opposite plugs. Pulled the heater off one side table and building in the living room and use either convential dryer or the one that hangs up. Only real difference, one blows heat up and bedroom one blows heat down to hanging items, would get stuff done faster.

I have also decided to make crispy lentils along with hashbrowns in the air fryer first, could also make an egg in there. Although microwave makes a quick egg, I like the crunch the air fryer supplies.

The crispy lentils, 1/2 cup worth and a couple of eggs with garlic salt on bottom of the air fryer made for an excellent crunch, I put two 4 min timers, stirred in between. Put into a bowl. I then baked a hashbrown, 4 mins each side, came out perfect. Added to lentils and eggs when finished cooking it. Added mayo, white cheddar seasoning, sour cream and onion seasoning and some salt. Mixed it all and OMG, it was delicious. I really did enjoy it. Tonight I will try lentils in my magic bullet yogurt, banana and some applesauce, add a bit of water and pack of fruit punch mio powder. Should taste quite good.