Nov 4, 2020 12:33AM Rmayfair2011 wrote:
Hello all, first time posting but have been lurking here for a while trying to absorb what I can. I have my lumpectomy w/sentinel node scheduled for 11/17 and I'm ready to get this out but also not quite ready to get it started. I'm a very anxious person and I procrastinate horribly. I pushed this off for a while because I struggle with decision making.
I think I updated my signature correctly, but I am 36 with invasive ductal carcinoma w/micropapillary features, Stage 1, Grade 2. The lump I have is about 1cm in the areola right under the skin, so the nipple cannot be saved. I first noticed this lump at least a year ago but at that time it was tiny and would disappear so I didn't think much of it. I could only feel it certain times of the month where it felt like it would float to the surface and then disappear. My anxiety about doctors kept me from getting it checked and believe me I kick myself that I didn't get it done sooner but I'm glad I finally did. My genetic testing came back all negative except with a 'Variant of Unknown Significance' in the CHEK2 gene. No family history of breast cancer.
I've struggled with whether I should do the lumpectomy or mastectomy. The doctor I am seeing keeps telling me because of my age she recommends a mastectomy and doesn't understand why I don't want reconstruction (I mainly don't want the extra procedures and surgery process and also with my little A cups I don't feel I'm losing all that much. Although the radiation part is a worry and I've been trying to decide whether it's worth it to save what I'll have left just to radiate it all.) But she is adamant that I won't like what I'll look like. I am trying to get a second opinion in before the surgery date, if only for a slightly more comforting doctor. I also struggle with the idea of radiation but feel like so much time has passed in between the initial biopsy and the surgery that I would definitely need it now if I didn't need it before.
Sorry this was a long post and probably not all for this thread's category but my hands just kept typing. Thank you all for sharing your stories and info, I have read through a lot of threads and the community has calmed my nerves quite a bit when I'm here. Much love and luck to you all!