Stop Smoking Support Thread
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Sorry REKoz, I meant to tell you, you gave me my second good laugh today. The first was a little Marine on FB that wants to be friendly with Flarbio. I sent him a charm for a charm bracelet! lol His response (didn't know about accepting gifts from strangers on the internet) gave me my first. He and I banter better than her supposed intended. She and he are still in a relationship even after she threw her rings in the hazardous waste materials box at the hospital. lol. That's my girl!
Love from,
All of us
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Janet your place looks cool, very homey and comfy looking....and I could mix up some dandy drinks on that bar!! We have a bar too, but ours is outside by the pool and COVERED in rope lights.....great minds think alike!
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Janzin Bella S BAboo is just adorable and your new apartment looks great. I hope she takes you mind off any pain your having.
Rachael I am so glad everyone is preparing you for possibility of chemo I too am Her2+ and stage 1 and had to have the chemo. I was shocked and didn't take it very well. I am now on Herceptin and Tamox. still kicking and screaming but here.
janzin please do keep us updated on the nipple reconstruction - I haven't decide yet what to do but will have to in 3 months.
Pantufas your so wonderful and yes I am praying for your friend --prayer groups do work.
to everyone else enjoy and have a wonderful night.
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Janzin - I love the apartment, especially the bar area...it is so festive and fun...I can see me drinking a frosty mango rum drink from a hollowed out coconut with a bendy straw and umbrella sticking out the top! Of course, Flfish's pool side bar sounds like fun too!!! Oooooh...Bella S Baboo is a PERFECT Name for a perfect puppy!!! I am with REKoz and Malleme on the nipple recon...still undecided...would love to know what you think once your have healed and had a chance to adjust to the ‘new' nip.
Pantufas - I hope you have a fun and safe trip! Praying for your friend Betsy for a fast recovery and that the doc's and find a cocktail that is not as hard on her poor body but eradicates the cancer completely.
REKoz - Thank you so much for all your encouragement. I am in the ‘expander' stage and now have 350cc in each breast, you can literally bounce a penny off these bad boys they are so tight!!! I go in on the 31st for my next fill and I think it will be the last before my surgery overfill...no idea how it will translate into cup size but I am starting to worry about injuring some innocent bystander by bumping into someone...
Malleme - Looks like I am on the same treatment plan with Herceptin until Aug 2010 and Tamoxifen for five years. I am soooooo looking forward to my last chemo on Sept 30th...I keep telling myself "half way there, half way there". Today was my Herceptin only infusion, I like to call it the ‘drive-by infusion' or my ‘easy, cheesy, peasy' treatment. I actually feel guilty getting in and out so fast but then again the ‘triple whammy' or ‘big ugly' is once every three weeks and it more then makes up for my drive-by infusions.
RachelB - I hope you are doing ok and we haven't scared you away...
BIG THANK YOU to EVERYONE for all the encouragement and well wishes during my chemo melt down last weekend. It is so weird looking back and remembering how out of whack I was...I think my SE's hit me harder emotionally then physically and have to remember to keep picturing the little engine that could going full steam up that big hill saying ‘I think I can, I think I can...'
Sweet Dreams All!
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Hello BCBF/K ladies! Doing well, nipple seems to be even. I am glad for it as my right breast has been scraped pretty good so that implant is full, flatter and round. My left breast did not have cancer so there is a lot of natural tissue left so the shape is more oval. Hate the difference but the new nipple should help hide the different boobs a little better. Also found out that if I gain weight, my good boob will gained weight but my cancer boob won't. So I will have pretty lopsided boobs if I gained 50lbs, lol. Sometimes I wish I had both of them done instead of dealing with this unevenness. Stupid vanity huh.
Pantufas, I am going to miss you! You help keep this thread alive just being here. Try to hope in once in a while if you can! I really love my place, that mini bar completed that area, feel like buying umbrellas for the drinks lol.
FIfish, yup, great minds think a like. Not too much pain, I am not taking that much pain killer at all. Would love to have you make drinks on that bar!!! And would love to have drinks at your bar. Thinking about getting more cool lights, not sure what kind though.
Malleme, Frankenstein becomes unrevealed this Friday, will let you know how that goes. Little worried about my smoking and how it is going to heal. I really have to quit this!!!! It's nice having 2 head lights though! Good luck with your chemo and let us know how you are doing.
O2Bhealthy, almost done with chemo. YEAH!!! You can go to the store and try on different bras. Everyone thought my boobs were larger even though I went smaller. I think it's because the gravity is at the 20's again, lol.
REKoz, how are the fills going? I save pain meds because sometimes after the fill it may hurt a bit but I felt fine in a day or two.
Nadine, miss you soooooo much! Come out and play at bc.org. I hope your blues are getting better.
Candie and Cleo, congrats on your not smoking. I hope I have that right. How much time do you have. We miss you so come back!!!
Rachel and Denise, hope you two are doing well. Drop in a line and share your life!!!
The rest of you, you are in my heart. Hugs to all!
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Hello All! First I must comment on how impressed I am how you remember everyone! I am warning you guys now I am dingy and will probably never achieve this feat! My oncologist was great. Unfortunatley, my BS never tested the tumor from my lumpectomy, just the ductal carcnoma after my mastectomy. So more waiting til thse results. Then Monday which is my funday, because I get filled ddnt happen cause I popped 2 stitches. Needless to say I turned to my friend the camel a little more this week. Oh well there's always tomorrow!
LOL O2bhealthy, these expanders are solid as a rock, and only have 100 cc's!
Janzin, your apartment is beautiful. I want to come and nap there it looks so peaceful and warm!
Thank you all for your advice, hopefully I will know the whole story next week!
Take care!
Rachel
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HI Ladies, my internet took a dive yesterday around 4:00pm and came back on this morning. Farmers, my crops are dead
. Seeing the Dr today, hopefully I am good to go.
Rachel, love having you here. It takes a while to remember eveyone and we still get our stories mixed up. So you are doing awesome. Sound like you ned to slow down, I have the same problem. Think I tore my hip stitches loose in a couple of areas. Good luck with your fill and you are welcome to come by anytime. Glad you like my pad, I was aiming for peacefull and warm.
Rest of you, I will catch up later, got to get going.
Peace,
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Wow, where is everyone? On facebook lol.
Back from the Dr's, everything looks great. Well...... except for my nipple. Its suppose to shrink down but right now I have one raisen nipple and one fig nipple. I have my high beam on and my low beam on. Really happy that I got it though.
Have to catch up with work. Sending out love to all.
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Hi All...Posted on FB and thought I would give you all the more detailed version:
I woke up at 2am with temp of 100.7 and sore throat last night. Per onc instructions, hubby called it in and I was sent to stupid ER! Five hours, one bag of saline, chest xray, strep test and lots of blood tests later they sent me home! No idea why I had the fever, WBC was within normal range and no strep, etc...Dr said if temp hits101 or higher I am to start antibiotics. Came home and I have been sleeping off and on all day, my temp is back to normal. I will be taking it easy this weekend.
Janzin - I am so glad you are happy that you had the nip done...I have heard that the nip shrinks considerably and that is why they have to make them soooo figish at the beginning.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Hugs and Lots of Love!
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Quick question. I showered picked up my daughter from school ran to wal mart with the kids, and now I feel like I have been hit by a truck twice. Seriously I was only active (not on couch) for 3 hours. My surgery was exctly 1 month ago. Is this normal or am I just being a wuss? Janzin love the nip updates, i will be going throught the same. O2b, please feel better!
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Rachel - you are completely normal! 6 weeks after my mx I decided to DUST the living room...I was down for three days after wards, feeling like I had been hit by a mack truck and lots of discomfort in my chest and lat muscles. Our spirit is willing but the body may still be too weak to handle normal activities. For me this is one the most frustrating parts of this whole 'journey'...rest up and take it easy, you are not a wuss!
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Thank you so much for getting back so quickly. I am here with tears in my eyes because my husband who is a police officer, like thats not stressful enough has been doing everything at home. I had to call him home to bring hannah to her first sleep over because i needed to take pain meds. I am just having a real crappy day and I feel so lazy some times and I am pissed. Thank you again this web site is a god send, I actually saw a web site that said you could return to work after a week! R U Fing kidding me????
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Rachel, you are completely normal! My surgery was over a year ago, and I still find times where I just need to lay down and nap. I think mine is more emotional than physical, but it comes out in a physical manner. I don't think the drugs help. Good luck with your results.
Michelle--feel better soon. You have so much on your plate and the chemo is almost finished, so just hang in there sweetheart! Rest, rest, rest.
Janzin, glad your nips are healing. I apologize for not posting much this week. With going back to work, I am pooped....such a wimp!
Have a great weekend ladies. I am off to do lawn work...ugh.....Why can't I play the cancer card to get our of lawn work? Oh well, finish early then cocktails poolside......got to take the bad with the good.
Love to all!
Ellie
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Hello Ladies! Worked pretty hard the last couple of days so last night I was exhausted! Had in insomnia, started worry about things, etc. And then something hit me. I bought that mini bar which wasn't bad and a great price, but after that I went on a shopping spree for the house, spent $400. And of course I regret my actions now as I am broke. So I am looking at my place and it's the first time I ever put so much energy into a home, buying and making pictures, etc, and then it hit me. Early that day I saw my ex and his new girlfriend and came home a little sad. I think my home became a project to replace the things I have lost over the last couple of years. I am soooo stupid! Failed 5 times at quitting smoking, no discipline what's so ever, it's like my crazy head is running my life. And I became a shopping fool.
Had to share that as knowledge is a step towards change! Oh, on the good note, I had the most competitors yesterday sign up for the Oct event at my booth. Maybe that is a good sign!
Rachel, I am still here, post away!!! We all hit busy moments on this thread and slower moments with our crazy BC lives. I am with you on the energy thing. Glad you posted Fifish because I have been trying to figure out why my energy is low. My mast was in Jan 2009 but before that my energy was low anyways after my divorce. Getting better though each day. But I have days too when I don't want to move. Hard to keep up with my puppy, she is always into something. Bought some hippi beads on my stupid shopping spree and hung them. Now they are tied up on the door knobs because of Bella lol. Here are some pics.
Have to baby proof my home.
I miss you ladies, can't wait till you have energy or feel better or for Pantufas to get back from her trip. Miss reading your posts. I will hopefully get caught up and pm or call some of you!
Have a great Sunday,
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Janzin - I so relate to the the whole impulse buying and retail therapy...it is a struggled not to go shopping, especially with the weight gain of 15 lbs in the last 3 months due to recovery and now chemo/steroids. I am eating like a pregnant horse...I am not satisfied by anything I eat, nothing tastes right so I keep trying to find something satisfying to eat...Of course my energy is next to nothing and have have a severe case of the blah's and a really bad 'why bother!' attitude. Right now I am 2lbs away from my heaviest weight of 160 lbs (the day I gave birth to my daughter)!!!
I love the pic's of Bella and the hippie curtain...she is so adorable!!!
I think it is terrific that you already have so many sign-ups for the Oct event, especially this far in advance. Give your self a HUGE pat on the back for promoting the event so well!!!
Flfish - congrat's on a full week of work under your belt!!! I am so proud of you!!!
Lots of hug and love to all!!!
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Well, off to start another week and dragging a$$ in the process. Janzin, that is the cutest puppy in the world. I love the photos. Shopping is no different than smoking or drinking that we BC woman do, it seems to help fill the void. Too bad it doesn't fill it for long.
Michelle--just keep getting through day by day. You are almost done!
Have a great week ladies.....I miss not being able to catch up as much.....I HATE having to work :-(
Ellie
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O2Bhealthy, having no energy and blahs can lead to eating too, it does me anyways and I never get full. I love my new home though, it makes me feel good walking in it. I have never completed even one room before in the past. Either we ate on the floor, no pictures on the wall, etc. I love walking out to see my rooms that is pretty much finish in decorating. And I have wanted to decorate in this style for years. But now is not the time to do it. You hit it right on the dot, retail therapy. When is your last chemo? Is it getting any better for you. Sending you hugs and energy!
You are so right FIfish! I haven't been bad at shopping for a long time till my last shopping spree. Cost Plus sucked me right in and I was lucky that I left when I did, love that store. But I love my cigs more and I have been smoking more too. I am going to try to cut down today, I feel it in my lungs. How is your new job? Do you like it and are the people you work with cool? I know it must be hard on your energy. I really miss you here. Sending your positive vibes for you at your new job.
Nadine, I miss you, drop in a line. I am getting worried about you.
Malleme, MB, Cleo, Candie, Nobleanna, Denise, Rachel, Pantufas, REKoz sending you all much love, love to hear from you all. If I miss someone, my heart is with you.
Have a awesome Monday, let's hear some quit smoking days!
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Last Chemo is Sept 30th!!!! I am gearing up for the 3rd 'Triple Whammy' on Sept 9th and have warned all my friends and family that days 2-6 I am not fit for man or beast...Little nubs of hair falling out like crazy today, my scalp is red, irritated and dry so had hubby use electric shaver to remove all little nubs...massaged some antibiotic ointment on scalp and now my scalp feel so much better!!!
Had another fill today now at 450cc's, PS says two more fills and we can start taking exchange surgery...looking at mid November
118 Days no cigs
Both kids are feeling running low grade temp's and feeling crappy...trying to keep away from them but it is sooo hard!
Sending BIG HUGS and LOTS of LOVE to all!
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HI Ladies,
My dh has had a bad cold and now so do the rest of us.
Rachael being tired is so normal,
O2b oh man Sept 30th I am so thrilled for you. I know the hair is a bit much, I washed my scalp with Nioxin scalp treatment and shampoo- I don'[t know but I have my thick hair back in 6 weeks.
Janzin that Bella is just too cute.
have a great night.ladies
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Malleme - ugh...so sorry the whole family is feeling crummy!!! I hope it is just a 24 hour thing and everyone is feeling better tomorrow!
Hugs!
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Hello all. PET scan today. Boy was that a bunch of boring fun! My husband is such a trooper though and sits and waits at all my appointments! Slept for 6hours on sunday afternoon, then got up and went to bed for 9 more hours. Oncologist tomorrow, so I should have the appropriate diagnosis and TX plan. Can't wait. I feel like I have been in a holding position. Smoking like normal lately, but I am telling myself that is going to stop tomorrow. LOL like I havent said that before! Chat with you all soon. Take care of you!
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Rachel, good luck at the oncologist. I do hope you find a treatment that works well for you and one you are comfortable with. It is so hard not to second guess yourself (I changed my mind about 3 times before I finally decided on my treatment). Do what is right for you and let us know what you decide.
Janet, I am so glad you love your new home. You have to have a place you feel comfortable in when you get home. My dh told me to "take it easy, the house doesn't need to be spotless when you are working"...but my answer to that is that it is worth it to clean for an hour or so every morning so I can walk into a clean home and relax when I get home. And let's be honest, it is hardly "spotless" but he doesn't know any better.
Good luck with number 3 Michelle...day by day.
Malle--so sorry your family is sick. Wash hands and hang low and watch movies together. Don't over do it.
Well, I am off to work. I actually do enjoy my job, more than I thought I would. Busier than I thought I would be, but it feels good to use my brain again. I just wish I wouldn't want to go to sleep at 8:30 every night.
Love to all!
Ellie
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Hi Ladies...been in a slump of sorts.
Janet, it was wonderful talking to you on the phone yesterday...made me feel not alone. Thinking of you all of the time. And thanks Janet for the boost.
As most know we have had the issue of loosing our insurance...well when it rains it pours...my hubby was told on Sunday that he is now being let go as of the 10th at quitting time. So now more stress is dumped into our laps. With the economy and our small area who knows what in the world we will do. There has been so much real weird stuff happening at his work that we believe its not economy related, however that the owner has really went mental. I worked for this guy also for a long time so we both know him very well...so he can take his fortune and shove it.
I went to Boise for a school reunion and had a blast. It was wonderful to see my grade school class rooms. Somethings never change, at least the classrooms were still just as hot as they used to be 40 years ago. One of my classmates is now the principal which is cool. No more nuns teaching which was kinda weird to grasp.
Well just wanted to say I will try and get back on posting more...oh yes, I am on day 28 of not smoking. Chantix is kicking the habit.
Love to you all,
Nadine
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Gosh, I come back and did everyone leave????? Well I can sit here and talk to myself. Got a story about my reunion. We had a sock-hop. Or was that not??? Anyway the head person of the reunion danced with all of us ladies who didn't have someone with us. That was all of the dancing of the night. I looked pretty cute...had a terrible hot flash going when he asked me to dance, had a cold wash cloth on top of my head. Guess it didn't bother him...could be why no other couples danced. The food was catered and wonderful. Felt so good not to want a smoke after eating.
Nancy, are you back yet?
O2be: Love your new pic, your so beautiful!
Well guess I will check back when everyone wakes up...joking ladies.
Nadine
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Oh my Nadine, I can just imagine seeing you dance with the wash cloth on your head! YOU ROCK! That is great. I am so sorry to hear about your insurance. Welcome to my terrible club. Oh, how I wish the government would pass something to help us. We can not just be dumped like this!!! It is not fair. How do some people sleep at night? Well, at least I know I sleep just fine with a sound mind! Come December, we will be out of insurance, all because I got sick and we can't afford $1500 a month. Whatever. Doesn't do much good to worry about it!
Love to all! I miss you guys!
Ellie
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Nadine - were are still here so glad your at 28 days.
Rachael How did your appointment go... we are always here
Janzin I quess your busy playing with Bella enjoy the cutie.
Fif- I am so thrilled for you working, I know I will have to start soon and I'm looking for a job. I know right now Full time is too much??? I so look forward to having a life of my own.
To all those I forgot to mention ( you know I am forgetful) have a wonderful night.
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Nadine Congrat's on 28 days!!!!!!! That is awesome! Love the sock hop and wet wash cloth story... I am so sorry about hubbys job...I knew that boss of his was an a$$ and he just confirmed it!!! I hope your hubby is able to find a new, better, improved job soon and less stressful.
Flfish...I wish the gov't would get its act together but at the same time I am terrified of putting health care in their hands...there should be subsidies for those who fall through the cracks (make too much to qualify for other programs but cannot afford private insurance or COBRA premiums)...and I don't think that Cobra should have an expiration date...and pre-existing conditions clauses should be abolished! I am so sorry you and Nadine have this HUGE worry over your head...
Malleme - hope the family is feeling better!
Pantafus - missing you!
Rachel - hope your appointment went well today...
Janzin - catch you on FB!
Sweet Dreams!
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Ellie: We are just two of what I am sure is thousands of folks in the same boat as us. I hear a lot that we should get Cobra...sounds good however finding that money tree seems to be a problem. Insurance is to darn high. Its pretty sad those of us who need it are screwed. I am with you, I go to sleep at night and have a clear mind also.
Yup I bet I looked pretty darn good with the wash cloth on my head...oh yes it fell on my dance partners arm and yup it was cold and very wet. He didn't seem to mind...anyway I put it back on my head. Talk about coming out of the closet....scarf then a hat then a wash cloth!!! Sure wish I had pictures of that it was a memorable moment for sure. And with little short stubbies of hair growing in and in patches to boot...The majority of the other ladies had make-up...myself I am lucky to have half of my brows left and next to no lashes. We all decided to do the reunion again next year...I will have real hair (not sure how long it will be in a year) and will have make-up on and by then will on top of the world.
The one thing that I was graceful about was so many folks gave their sympathy's. Damn, I lost a boob etc etc but I am not dead. I believe I was good in making others feel comfortable and I answered any questions they had. I guess the evening was an educational experience for others as well as myself. It gave me an opportunity to educate others a little on BC and how this can hit any of us at anytime or age.
Well I think I am going to take myself on to bed for the night. Hope everyone has a restful good nights sleep.
Love and Hugs to everyone...GN for now.
Nadine
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o2be: I really think the boss is mental...counting all of those millions at such a young age has to take a toll on the brain. He is a jacka$$!!!! I hope something good as far as jobs comes my hubby's way. To show how this person spends money...hubby worked on his house....oh did I say its really a miniature White House...no kidding looks so much like it. Anyway he replaced door handles without locks at a whopping $120 each. Now the average person would go to Lowe's or Home Depot and get the complete set for less. This guy tosses money around like its nothing...unless you work for him then its a different story.
We need some kind of health care. However I don't want the government to control it. I don't have a clear answer on it...however to many folks go undetected with BC and other cancers because of no insurance or means to pay. We need to be taking care of our own in this country before we worry about everyone else...this is my opinion.
Well the hot flashes are hitting with vengeance again so time to wait it out .... WHERE IS MY WASH CLOTH!!!
Nadine
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Oh NO!!! Did you leave the wash cloth behind at the reunion????? Bet your dance partner snagged it as a memento for the evening!!! Darn wash cloth snatchers...hope you have extra's
Like I said...boss is not only mental but an Ebeneezer too!!! That just bites.
I agree about not wanted gov't to have control of health care. I work in the insurance industry, auto, home, life and some health insurance. Over heard a client talking to my boss about the state of health care reform and was so sad to hear the client say "why should the healthy people be penalized with higher premiums to pay for those people who get sick alot" OMG - LIke I asked for cancer...hello bald girl is sitting at a desk five feet away!!! I have paid into the health care system for over 20 years with only 2 pregnancies, one appendix and annual check ups...barely used it. Now I am on Cobra and next year my Cobra will expire...I don't even know if I can get on employer plan yet cause I am only able to work at most 18 hours a week, having only been working there 3 weeks and don't want to rock the boat just yet...
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