Stop Smoking Support Thread

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  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited September 2009

    Rekoz - I am so sorry to hear about your Dad's cancer spreading.  Your Mom and family will be in my prayers.

    Much Love and Hugs

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Hello Ladies! I am working on cutting down on smokes as I am going to quit on the 20th. You noticed I didn't say try, how's that for positive thinking. Last time I quit for 8 years, and I quit on Sept 18th which is today. I would of loved today being another quit day as it is my brothers birthday.

    Malleme, you didn't need to erase your post. You can say anything you want here and it is a good way to bond. My breast seems low and I wish my nipples were higher. When you complain to the Dr they always act stupid, but I guess they can't get to every complaint. My dr told me that when my weight becomes stable, we can take a look at re-adjustments. Don't know if the insurance company will cover that though. Good luck to you and you can always get other opinions.

    O2Bhealthy, I have missed you. Been awhile since we talked. Glad you like the t-shirt. Will hunt you down in FB!

    Pantufas, happy you like the t-shirt too! Whenever you are feeling down, you can always call me. It's good to connect voice to voice. I am never too busy for a friend unless it's the week before my tournament, which means it has to be a quicky because of the 12-14 hour days. Love you!

    REKoz, I am soooo sorry to hear about your father. I am glad you have a place to post your feelings. That has got to be really hard on your mom, and I do understand when women become dependent on a man. My aunt has a hard time on her own.

    I have heard of acupressure points. I think all of those can work. Maybe you and I should do all of the above. I am quitting on the 20th, come join me!!! We will give each other support. We will do this and we have to think that our cravings is only in the mind and take back some control!! Exercise makes me not want to smoke so let's put on our jogging shoes! Happy you like Colorado, I love the mountains!

    Miss the rest of you, stop in and say hi. Hope you didn't give up Rachell! Come back to us.

    Best,
    Janet
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited September 2009

    Hey IreneKoz!  Joking aside I am really sorry to hear of your father's decline and your mother's feeling of helplessness.  I am glad you have reached a decision about your smoking, that you arrived at it by yourself without pressure.  However, I think it would be fulfilling a father's last wish.  Prepare yourself mentally.  Consider yourself a non smoker and stop.  The best of luck to a fine friend and lady.

    Love you my friend,

    Nancy

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited September 2009

    Janzin, do we ever have a productive conversation?  We always end up cracking up, not able to think and we can't to that to start with!  At least I can't. We are both usually so tired and on meds and in altered states.  You can alter Colorado (sure IreneKoz can help) and I can alter Virginia.  And I am making no sense at all. But our voiced connected and that is all that matters. 

    No ladies, I haven't been smoking Wacky Baccy.  Just took an extra ativan so I could sleep.  Great news on you quiting on the 20th ZinZin.  We will be behind you and IreneKoz.  Open invite to jump on the wagon ladies.  If you fall off we'll run over you but will help you back up and fleece you...I mean pat you down and dust you off for the next go round.  Rachel, do not be afraid.  I will be normal in the morning.  malle, good luck with your decision.  Is anyone taking Arimidex?  Talk to me.  Must go and plump my pillows like Martha Stewart or I shall never know slumber.  Alas!  Bane of my existence.  A restful nights sleep. If I should by chance see Mr. Sandman, I will steal his sack and to hell with the rest of you buggers!  PAT!  I have let you ramble on as long as you did no damage but we musn't curse our friends and call them names.  Now apologize!  I am truely sorry you will get no sleep.  THAT IS NOT WHAT I MEANT!.  I am truely sorry I bagged the old geefer and stole his sand?  NO, I THINK NOT!  I'm sorry I cursed our friends and called them buggers.  YES!  Oh!...I'm sorry.  THANK YOU!  Good night ladies!  I think Pat needs to be put out of her misery, I mean, up to bed.

    Nitey nite.  If I forgot anyone then you are really lucky!  fishes!  WHAT FISHES!  woman.  WHAT WOMAN!  GO TO BED!  The one in the trees.  WHAT FRICKEN TREES? She likes to mess about in trees when she's supposed to be harvesting.  GOOD NIGHT PAT!

    love nancy

  • nobleanna007
    nobleanna007 Member Posts: 58
    edited September 2009

    Hello Lovely Ladies,

      Just wanted to pop in and say I so love you all and I am on board for the 20th!!!! I have read through a few posts and my heart goes out to all of you. And I am so proud of you all that have quit and have continued the hard journey of not smoking. I am very jealous of you! LOL!!!!

    I am so sorry Ellen that you have to go through this process of watching someone pass.

       And everyone else on the Reconstruction thing!! I am on the same road!!! I am scheduled for a Diep on Nov.16th need to be smoke free for 1 month. #1 Have not given up smoking. #2 losing to much weight. I see my PS on Sept.30th so we will go from their. My regular doc. wants to put me on the pill that makes you have a appettite which I think I need cause the shot I get every 3 months which is helping to keep the cancer at bay till I have my hysterectomy is causing me to lose weight which is one of the SE and of course I would get it. Prople look at me like I have 2 heas when I say I need to gain weight cause I am not fat but nor am I terriably skinney. I have lost 28lbs since I first got measured. That is alot cause I was told yes I would be able to be a full B!!! now I will be ucky if I can be a A!!! But I do have a lot of lose skin so I am wondering if that can be part of it. Hopefully!!! I so need to move on and get this behind me. I am on so many pills its crazy!! I can't have a MRI till I get the expander out so I am in awful position cause the pain is moving and increasing.

    Sorry to blab on and on!!!! I just have knowone who understands!!! How inportant it is to us ladies to feel whole again.

    Love & Bless you all!!!!

    Bridget

  • Rachelb274
    Rachelb274 Member Posts: 14
    edited September 2009

    Hello Ladies,

    Yes I am still here.  I have actually dropped by a few times.   Been waiting for Onco test to come back and found out the dipsh*t patient coordinator sent the request to the wrong hospital for the tumor.  My lumpectomy and mastectomy were done at 2 different hospitals.  Long story short I waited 12 grueling days for this test and it wasnt even being done.  so here we wait again......hopefully the 29th will bring actual results.  Had appt w/ plastic surgeon today.  Finally got a fill after I popped my sutures 4wks ago.  I am up to 150cc's!  I love my boobs! I am actually bigger that i was before this whole ordeal.  I was FLAT  with a capital F.  My reconstruction has actually been my light at the end of the tunnel.  Talked nipples today w/ my PS.. We r going for them.  I was wondering if I should just tattoo cause I didnt want to have 2 soldiers at attention all the time but I have decided to do it.   So this week is the first time in quite a few weeks there has been any movement in my BC experience.

     Janet love the design! I think the 20th is a fabulous day.  Nice even number and it is my daughter's birthday!  You can do it!!!!!!!  I have cut wayyy back with the help of the patch AGAIN!   I actually find a way to justify one late at nite, after my patch is off course.  I have told all my docs I quit before surgery cause I wanted my PS to start right away. Pretty soon the gig is going to have to be up cause tx is gonna start!  OMG I am such a deviant!

    Pantufas, I'm not scared lol!  I actually function better dysfunctionally so I welcome any joiners!  I've been checkin you out the past couple of weeks.  you crack me up.  Have I kind of creeeped you guys out knowing I have been lingering and not makin it known lol.  I just keep getting this funny pic in my head about that.  I am really low on sleep.  Can you tell!

    OK ladies!  I am off. I have to host a Hannah Montana Bday party today for 12 kids ages 6 and under at Peter Piper Pizza.  Holy crap I am doomed!  Oh yea I get to see my 3 yo sons HC my mother in law decided to get him.  I was trying to grow it out!  Can we say passive aggressive people!?!  And breathe 2, 3, 4....nite nite ladies!

    Rachel

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited September 2009

    Hi All!  Life has gotten crazy in my neck of the world...I am stretched so thin with work, doctor appointments and kids schedules I just don't have the time to get online for more then 15-20 minutes at a time.   Just wanted to let you all know I am thinking of you and hope everyone is doing well!

    Hugs!

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited September 2009

    Wow Bridget, you have a lot going on!  I didn't have recon so I don't understand all of the intricacies but I will be glad for you when you finally have your surgery.  I do understand about hysterectomies and I wish you well there too.  If a doctor ever gave me a pill that made me lose weight I might take it.  Seriously, I hope you can put on some weight and have your surgery.  Are you farming yet?

    You make me laugh Rachel!  I'm not even afraid of me!  Also wishing you well and hope you arrive at a comfortable decision about your nips.  Thanks for getting back in touch.

    Sorry you're like a fart in a whirlwind o2b.  Things will calm down and you will make it through it.  It seems the busiest time is when the kids are in school.  The school makes so many demands on the kids which always trickle down to the parents.  Sometimes I think they think you do nothing but sit on the couch and eat bon bons.  I don't mean to offend any school teachers, but the most stressful time of my life was when my kids were in school.  Hope you get a breather soon Michelle.  Miss you farming.

    ZinZin, I will be glad when this tournament is done and dusted so you can get a breather too.  Sorry English and I can't be of any help.  It will be the hight point of my life and I hope we succeed in making a wave that becomes a tsunami.

    Miss Irene and the fish woman.  I know you are both busy working and football season is among us.  malle and mb, missing you too!  mb, I am forever sending you little things on fb and I don't expect a response.  I just want you to know I'm thinking of you.

    English (Nads), I do hope you can come out of the trees long enough to make it to Denver.lol

    I hope you know I love all of you and miss the ones who don't feel well enough to post or are way too busy at the moment.  We have to keep our little brave group together.

    A good weekend to all.

    Nancy

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Hi Ladies, had a lazy day. Took my puppy for her first hike, it was a beginner hill. lol. Should of work but goofed off all day. My hand is killing me anyways so I am not sure if I can do too much computer stuff tomorrow. Yes tomorrow is the day to quit, feel sad inside but I really need to let it go. Funny is that I am afraid, scared to deal with things on my own. I hope I don't go into depression even further, I am on a lot of pills as it is.

    Pantufas, just love reading your posts. I know we sound a bit out there, lol. I confuse people all the time. You can hang in my trees anytime. Got another game I like, Fish World. I really need to stop!!!! No rest after the tournament, going to work on BCBK and then the next tournament will be on, lol.

    Nadine, been missing you. How many days you have in now? I think you have over a month. That's so awesome!!! Can't wait to see you soon. Practice your dead pics, lol.

    REKoz, I am here with you. We can do this together, even if we have to call each other every 5 minutes. Will PM you!

    O2Bhealthy, my busy friend. Hope you get some time to breathe. I know you have a lot of days in. Funny how life can catch up to you and SMOKE FREE!!! You are doing it girl!!!

    Rachell, Happy you are lurking, it's a great thing as you are still thinking about it. My nipple isn't dying like I thought. I have a black scab but not sure how it is going to turn out. But I am happy to have another button again. After the lift on the left side, that nipple is always up. So yes, I have permanent high beams on. Maybe they can trim them down, lol. But I do like looking down and seeing my nipples as it was weird to have a flat boob with a slash going across it. I felt like I was winking at you all. Awesome about getting your fill and moving forward with your BC. I am sending your positive thoughts with your quit smoking. We can hold each other hands and do it!!! And REKoz can join us. Glad you like the design!

    Nobelanna, can I have some of those skinny pills???? I am fighting a junk urge right now. Don't be sorry for blabbing, let's keep this real and share our feelings as you are not alone. Sorry you are in so much pain. BC sucks!! You could do the MD thing, that puts on weight quick, and don't forget the cookies. Are you really quitting with me tomorrow???? I would welcome another person, we can help each other during the urges.

    Well best to you all, keep posting even if you have quit, as we need your wisdom and keep posting if you are think about it, maybe you will find your mindset and do it. Sending you all sunshine in whatever you are doing. Cleo, Candie, and MB, think of you too.

    Janet

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Well here I go, so far I am doing good, no bad urges yet. I remember getting panic attacks the first time I quit. Playing the games keeps me occupied but I do need to work. So here are my tricks for the day when I hit an urge.

    1. Drink water
    2. Hiking and working out
    3. Play games
    4. Gum
    5. Clean

    Any pointers today even if it's repeat pointers would be great. I know I can do this!!!!! Been trying since Jan but never really have the right mindset for it. And I know you have to really want it and I do.

    Good day to all of you, remember to treat yourself as you all deserve it!

    Hugs,
    Janet

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited September 2009

    Blow bubbles :)

    Take deep breaths

    Call a friend

    My favorite...take a nap!

    I KNOW you can do it!!!!

    Hugs

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Well the urges are coming in stronger, daily habits are hard to deal with. I find myself walking to my smoking room and then telling myself, Oh yeah, I don't smoke anymore. The weird thing is that it feels not normal to walk away. Sucking on some sugar free candies helps. I really hate that ache which I know most of it is not pysical as I am taking chantix, I don't know what that ache is. Right in the middle of my chest. I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!! Anyone with me soon??

    O2Bhealthy, thanks for the support, I don't want to be the only BCBK girl at my event smoking, not being a good role model, lol. I just might take a nap. Have to keep telling myself things will get done when they get done, but right now, focus on quitting!!!

    CHeer to all, hope to see you up on the games today!!! If not, find your happy spot. Enjoy the outdoors, winter will be here soon!

    XOXOX,
    Janet
  • malleme
    malleme Member Posts: 164
    edited September 2009

    Janzin your doing great just keep breathing and go to bed early tonight. YOu anc do it, your are stronger than you think, nothing can stop. 

    I am here for you ....How is the puppy doing and what is his name ... I forget.

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Almost bedtime, took my meds and going to bed early. Had a couple of bad spots but the key is too think of something else quickly otherwise the urge aches more. Save a good dinner to night as I sleep better when I am not hungry, time for a good movie and let the battle begin tomorrow.

    Thanks Mallame, I really need to do this!!!! Puppy name is Bella, not taking her on the hike tomorrow as she puke coming down the winding road. Baby steps for her, lol.

    Good luck ladies whever you are, Mallame is right, we are stronger then we knew.  We are BC survivors!!!

    Love to all,
    Janet
  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited September 2009

    Malle--good luck to you with all your decisions.

    Ellen--so sorry to hear about Dad.  Please know that we are all praying for you and your mother during this tough time.  Lean on Hospice, they are incredibly helpful.

    Janzin---keep going.  You can do this.  The final "lay down for breast cancer" looks awesome!!!  Nice job.

    O2bhealthy--I hear where you are coming from, things are so hectic lately.  I miss my old life of not working :-(

    I need to send my new friend over here.  My new neighbor is a 12 year bc survivor and is starting her Chantix today.  I told her I would guide her this way for support.

    Love to all ladies!

    Ellie

  • malleme
    malleme Member Posts: 164
    edited September 2009

    HI Ladies,  I just have to share. Finally got an appt on Friday with the new PS.

    malle

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Mallame, that is awesome!!! Have to let us know how that goes for you. I wished I would of look around more on PS but was freaking out and didn't want to deal with it as the surgery had to be soon.

    FiFish, I miss your non working days too!!! I once heard someone from another country who said Americans are too busy to be friends with. And at times, that's the truth with me and work. But you have your hubby and family and work, do you find time for you, lol?? I appreciate you taking time from your crazy schedule to lend your support and love. Really miss you, save time for Vegas!!!!! Send your friend here, we will take care of her!!

    Pantufas, you are a beautiful women, take care of your heart, you only have one. See you tonight.

    Nadine, Farm Town has you hooked huh, lol. Great game, will have pineapples tonight.

    Day 2 and a little harder. Had a dream I was smoking and it was good till I remembered I quit. Dam, can't even enjoy a dream cig! Raining so no hiking today, Bella is gong nuts. Felt anxiety last night, is that the not smoking???? I get that from time to time but that's why I have pills. I think I smoked partly from fear, the fears of my divorce, then BC. So time to stand on my own two feet. Wow, the urge is stronger today, maybe play some games to get my mind off of it. I have candy cigs for emergencies, lol.

    Good luck ladies for all that your are going through!!! Drop in a line.

    Janet

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    One more thing, worried about REKoz!!!! And O2Bhealthy. Both have family members with cancer and going through a tough time, so we need to join together for cyber hugs!!!! Love you two!!!!!!

    REKoz, you can join me anytime. You too Rachell!
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    One more thing, I promise, had to share this. Last night when I was sleeping, I left the window open with the fan on because of the hot flashes. My poor puppy Bella would crawl under the blankets with me because my room was freezing. Then when I have a hot flash, she would crawl out a bit and I would looked down and see her head peeping out from the blankets. Once she was half way out on her back, face straight out with her little stubby legs sticking straight out like superman. So cute but the poor thing has to endure my menopuase too, lol. Wait til it starts to snow, lol.

    Ex is going to call in a few, just had a bad urge!!!
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    Hi ladies, sad news. REKoz father has passed away. My heart aches!!!! Let's send her our love, she may not be around for a bit here and fb but we can give her our support and love.

    ((((MUCH LOVE TO YOU REKOZ))))
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009

    This is the longest I have gone, don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I am suppose to be smoking so I am frozen in one place, I wish I could go to bed now, lol.

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited September 2009

    REKoz - my love and lots of hugs to you and your family during this time.

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited September 2009

    Janzin - WAY TO GO!!!!! I am so proud of you...you are doing great, one craving at a time!!!

    Malleme - so happy you have an appointment with PS.  I just had my last fill (Yippee!!) - I am supposed to call mid Oct to schedule my exchange surgery for eary to mid November.  I am so ready to get rid of these bricks on my chest...

    As Janet indicated, my 5 yr old nephew is losing his battle with cancer, hospice thinks no more then 2 weeks...he has been so incredibly brave and strong through this battle, unfortunately his cancer is so aggressive there was nothing the doctors could do (he was dx'd a week after I was). If you pray, please include Bailey in your prayers, his parents and our families as this wonderful little boy makes ready to go home with Christ where there is no cancer and no pain.      

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009

    AHHHHHHHH. I feel weak. I am one of the weakest person on this chain!!!!!!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    O2Bhealthy, I am crying with you. It's not fair!!!! I think you know where I stand but I will pray for Bailey too! Much love to you and your family.


    (((((HUGS)))))
    Janet
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009

    My ex is trying to make a deal with me on payments, fear is hitting hard and so are the urges, not sure if I can make it!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009

    My ex is trying to make a deal with me on payments, fear is hitting hard and so are the urges, not sure if I can make it!

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited September 2009

    Michelle, I am so sorry to hear of your nephew's battle.  He and all of your family will be in my prayers.  URG!  This damn disease!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited September 2009
    I can't do it. Have too much stress, mainly with my future. I think I need to get some of act together first. If it was like yesterday, I could do it but today was really hard. Going through a depression and trying to quit is also hard. I remember with Nervous knitter said it took her a few years to get things line up, that may be me but hopefully not. I just feel like crying, and I feel too much business weight and possbile looking for a job in a couple of months weight, and struglling with other things too. I haven't given up, just need to get my ducks inline and I will continue to try, I don't care if I fail 50 times, I will get there.

    Sorry to disapoint you all.

    Best,
    Janet
  • malleme
    malleme Member Posts: 164
    edited September 2009

    OH REkoz My heart is breaking for you.  Sending you prayers for you and your family.  You have a huge supporter among the angels tonight. HIs love will shine right down on you all. 

    Janzin- breath, count to 100, deep breathing and know that you are stronger than anything.  You are a smart intelligent, independent women and nothing can stop you from your goal.  It's there all right inside of you.  You'll have more clear thoughts for yourself and work and your quality of life is instantly inproving with every breath you take.   sending strength your way.....

    For all the BS ladies a night filled with strength.