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  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    Here is a Psalm for all of you to wake up to...I hope you have slumbered well.

    Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,

    for I have put my trust in you.

    Show me the way I should go,

    for to you I lift up my soul.

    Psalm 143:8

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited August 2013

    Squid  honey I think that  message was on the nurses thread. I don't think i'd put it here. I'll look back a page.

    Bless you for the 10pm prayer time, I think of it in either direction of time. If I miss the time , it causes me to stop and pray. Or if I know, I can't make the time it causes me to to pray. It's causing me to pray alot.   Very good. I think of everyone here and Greg. 

    Amanda a new mom with a new babe. Why? Why any of it.  Rather than despair at the thought we must just pray. Squid the Psalm you quoted brings  a peace. Our souls are what we need to protect

    Our souls,  we have been hurt in so many ways. Protecting our core is what we need to do. The collective thought. I saw it work with my Mom in 95-96. There is no way she should have survived. But the collective prayer, that quided my treatment of her, she survived another 8 years. yrs. From  Age 81 to 89.  Had she not had the collective prayer from Mexico,USA, Canada. That guided my initial action,  that took care of the damages caused by hospitalization, then her move to my sisters- to a group of retireses that played alot. My sister still doesn't accept, she had a wonderful life in that time. She has know idea of the dx's that should have lead to her demise within 96. No matter how I try to explain it , she doesn't get it. She still focuses on the night she passed. Sister Sue still blames herself. She gains nothing from my explanation that it would occur as I described. God has a plan.  A time for each of us to return home. 

    How we accept that plan is different. I told her when moms time came accept it just hold her.  Instead she activated Ems and became very excited.

    When Greg died we prayed the Our Father and seven Hail Mary's. It was 12:30 am, Steve said should we call everyone. ----"No we stay with him and hold onto every moment that he is still here with us".  "Their is no reason to wake anyone in the middle of the night"-------When that has happened to me, I always thought there was something "different" about that--I'll leave you to your own thoughts on that. It was very comforting just to lay next to him and storke his face and hold him until they came for him. Praying for him after that moment of death, was a privelege, that God allowed. I didn't understand why the hospice nurse who was Catholic bolted from the room as we started the prayers. My only thought was she might have considered it private and that it was part of their training.

    I miss my Guy , each day is struggle. It's been approximately 6 weeks.  Hospice grief coor. called this week and said it would take about 18 months for me to adjust. Hmmmmm.  She wasn't aware I'm dealing with CA also, and complications. 

    BUT Greg's aquatics GF's have taken me in and are holding on to me. AS well as several close couple friends. 

    The worst is the evenings and then sleeping and eating.  Not happening. Thank God I was disabled because I can't concieve how someone deals with this and goes back to work. But statistically, how many people have to deal with two cancers in one household in the same year

    Our greatest fun as a couple was to have dinner parties. The planning , the menu, the occurence, the joy, the jokes,  the laughter, the talk, the sharing. The look that meant we needed to move to the next motion. We were in sinc. We had a motion that could accomplish a dinner for 4-10 that ended up with effectively, with no cleanup by the time people left and they didn't realize it occurred. It was seemless. That type of communication and action takes along time to develop.

    Then we'd talk recipes, alterations of recipes, sometimes even at the table. Like Chefs, that were unaware of the people they were serving. But all understood, because the food was always really good.

    This may appear not appropriate for this site , but I'm still missing my Guy. It's going to be awhile before I can let go.  Our greastest joy was sharing with people over a meal that we had created and a table presentation that was always different and creative. 

    He was sealed in my heart and soul for 38 years. Now I have to learn how to be without him..

    Please, keep him in your prayers for awhile--for those new to this site he passed August 20th from Leukemia/lymphoma. L&H and Namaste -Sheila

  • jan508
    jan508 Member Posts: 724
    edited October 2010

    Good morning All:

    May God Bless you and provide you with a sunny, warm day to comfort your souls and may He guide you through this day with hope, faith and love.

    I have a dr. appt today and I'm having a healing issue with my T/E and incision - please join me in prayer that my PS has the wisdom and healing hands to speed my recovery.

    God Bless Y'all

    Jan

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    Jan,

    You are joined in prayer. My healing took an extra minute on the BC side, and my PS said it was due to my nicorette usage prior to my surgery. I quit on my surgery day (and made it 8 months...soon to go back in for the fight.) I hope you hear this ONLY as the promise of healing to come, and a very sincere congratulations on you successes (I peek :) So I pray this is only about your body catching up to your new committment to health. Mine did heal on the BC side, about two weeks behind the prophylactic mastectomy. I call Archangel Raphael to join you today, to promote healing and comfort to you. To help remind you that you have been doing incredible healing work that you should be most proud of. Visualize your healed incisions, as we will too.

    Please let us know how it went.

    Many Blessings today as you go forwards.

    traci

  • mmm5
    mmm5 Member Posts: 797
    edited October 2010

    Sheila

    I thank you for sharing your very personal story here! By your sharing it reminds us to keep things in perspective and enjoy the important things. My heart and prayers go out to you today. I am going to pray for you all day, I just think you are a very special lady and deserve all the support we can conceive. Please come here often and share your feelings I am sure it is helpful to you but it also helps us here as we open our hearts to what others are experiencing.

    God Bless you and May God hold you today and may you feel his Blessings. 

  • jan508
    jan508 Member Posts: 724
    edited October 2010

    Thanks Traci:

    Yes, I have quit smoking and the incision problem is on the prophlactic (sp?) side.

    I'll let you know how it goes today and thank you for your prayers

    Jan

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    mmm5,

    Very well put! This is a wonderful place to share...this is about Soul work, and Greg is your soul-mate. I really enjoyed hearing about your dinner parties, the planned recipes, the "team serve and remove" like a choreographed dance. It's a beautiful thing to watch, couples that dance together. Sheila, one of the many things I loved about Hospice, was the support that follows when our loved ones pass. I was able to go to weekly grief counseling, which had a spiritual theme. My counselor was a minister. They also have groups for spouses. Please share about your feelings and about Greg.

    One person in my weekly support group, who has a different set of beliefs, says he feels the gifts we leave are left in the memories of our loved ones. Greg is vibrant and alive in all of your memories, as my mother is in mine. Not comparing the two, but every time I look at a flower, or see a bird, I share this with my mom. I constantly talk to her, because she taught me how to see the beauty of nature. Food is the same, expressions of love. And there are many many more. I am all ears...it's like spreading love to all. I pray that your heart is mending some, as I don't want you to hurt. I know I can't take it away, and this is all part of life. But attend to yourself and your needs, as Greg would have you do. Honor Greg by caring for you...

    Sending you love and warmth, through our collective spirit.

    traci

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited August 2013

    oh, and on a different "tack" I was being lazy and answering you here, instead of traveling to the Nurses thread. :)

    You popped in last night at 10:00 to pray, and I need to flex my muscles some more. We have been meeting weekly on Fridays, so I will meet you at 10:00 in our collective minds. I think a nightly prayer is wonderful...it may be hard to do on here, as it is wonderfully difficult to get on at that time. I'd like to think it's about too many of us trying to come together at the same time. Shall we make this a nightly prayer time, or perhaps earlier?

    I see that some people are pushing to make it to 10:00. so here is my question...does anyone need the time changed?  Would you all like to have a nightly time of prayer, where this is done where ever we are, and then join here on Fridays?

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    Jeannine,

    Dear Sister, you are in our prayers. I pray for God's interventions and for St. Peregrine and Archangel Raphael to be by your side. I call Mother Mary and Jesus to minister to all of your needs. We hold you close in our hearts. You are loved.

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    Jan,

    ((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

  • janet in virginia
    janet in virginia Member Posts: 923
    edited October 2010

    Sheila/Traci - Two nurses??!!!  We are blessed.  Nurses are angels on earth.

    Sheila - I was so touched by your post.  It may not be much comfort, but you are SO blessed to have had Greg in your life as your partner & soul mate.  What a great guy.  I'm sure he is never far away from you even now because death cannot conquer love. It is wonderful that you built a lifetime of memories and as hard as it may be right now, you will create many more. 

    My prayers are with all your intentions today sisters.

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 1,466
    edited October 2010

    Sheila, again my heart goes out to you in your sorrow.  My bro (46) has stage III lymphoma and leukemia.  he has sole custody of his five children.  Of course I worry for him.. he is facing chemo for the first time and I pray it knocks it back.

    here's hoping you find a supper club or something to cook for and participate in.. (i like cooking).  peace.

    A priest this last weekend said that it is easy to say a mini rosary.. One Our Father and ten Hail Marys.  I find it doable and offer today's for all in sorrow.

    (I play organ and piano at funerals.  i am a substitute and often get to play with funeral choirs..  a group of older parishioners that go to funerals and sing.. they are awesome).

  • prayersareanswered
    prayersareanswered Member Posts: 26
    edited October 2010

    Dear all

    I am so blessed I found you all here. I am scheduled for a single mastectomy (left breast has stopped being my friend, said my BS) on October 27. Please keep me in your prayers. I am praying to St Jude every single day. Diagnosed with DCIS in September, will have mastectomy and Sentinel node biopsy. God bless us all !

  • janet in virginia
    janet in virginia Member Posts: 923
    edited October 2010

    Prayersareanswered - so glad you found us!  We were just saying the other day that the Holy Spirt directed each of us to this forum.   I just had left mastectomy (no reconstr) & SNB last week!  The waiting and worrying was the worst part.  The reality was much easier - little to no pain.  The drain is annoying though.  Will be glad when they take that out hopefully Thursday.  Will definitely keep you in my prayers! Come back often - this is a wonderful group of sisters.

     Traci/Paula - could we add a prayer for a cure to our Friday prayers or some other day?  Maybe to St. Luke?  Wasn't he the physician?   (I should know that - named my son Luke!).  10pm is OK w/me or whatever works best for everyone.  I think of the sisters in another time zone.

  • pagowens
    pagowens Member Posts: 61
    edited October 2010

    Dear Sheila,

    Hugs across the virtual miles.  I will include your husband, you and your family in my prayers.  You were very lucky to have such a wonderful mate, I can't imagine the deep grief you must be in...  I hope there is someone else in your family that can provide you some loving support in this very hard time.  Your posting brought tears for me because your pain is so palpable I can feel it.

    ((((((hugs))))))

    Pat

  • DiamondGirl
    DiamondGirl Member Posts: 695
    edited October 2010

    Hello all,

    I've got a lot of catching up to do.  Been working these 2 days and going to Rad simulation.  But it's official, today will be my 1st rad treatment.  My appointment will be 3:30pm daily PST.  Please pray for me.  And oh, I did bring the techs Chinese Jasmine tea bags and they were nicer yesterday.

    Gotta go now, but will post later.

    Love to all....

  • kindone
    kindone Member Posts: 435
    edited October 2010

    Hello ladies I would like to share this pray with all of you.

    A Prayer For Healing

    LORD,

    You invited all who are burdened to come to You.  Allow Your healing hand to heal me.  Touch my soul with your compassion for others.  Touch my heart with your courage and infinite love for all.  Touch my mind with your wisdon, that my mouth may always proclaim your praise.  Teach me to reach out to you in my need, and help me lead others to you by my example.  Most loving Heart of Jesus, bring me health in body and spirit so that I may serve you with all my strenght.  Touch gently this life you have created.

    AMEN

  • theresap60
    theresap60 Member Posts: 849
    edited October 2010

    Jan: prayers for you for healing

    Sheila: that was beautiful.  I can just feel Greg's presence with you.  He loves you so much.  Yes, we will keep him in our prayers along with those we've lost to cancer, such as Traci's Mom, my brother, my mother, my father... but we will keep you in our prayers too, because you're not only healing from that awful disease but are mourning too.  I agree with Traci in that talking or writing about it helps and finding a support group.  Do you have a Gilda's Club nearby?  When I lived in NJ, I attended their programs, wonderful group, but they had a widow/widowers group.  It's one thing to lose a parent or sibling, but losing a spouse is no comparison.  Your reflections are beautiful, as was your marriage, and your words had a beautiful, appreciative affect on me.  You made me reflect on my own blessings, here and now, and my wonderful DH, who I have been guilty of taking for granted.  Love is the answer to everything, and it will be the answer for your mourning too.  In God's time.  Go to Mother Mary - what losses she had! Spouse and son!  She will hold and comfort you now and will help you work through it so you can learn to be whole again.  Greg is doing some of his best work now on the other side.  Loving  you with pure love and praying for you as much, if not more, as you are praying for him.  I believe our loved ones do their best work after they pass on.  They don't have distractions anymore.  They're living in the pure love of God.  They're spending all of eternity doing good works now without the daily grind of earthly things to bog them down.  Think of Greg in that light, what would he be saying to you?  Like Traci said, he'd want you to take care of yourself, love him but ease out of mourning and walk on.  He'll be right beside you as you go on to new adventures.

    Prayersareanswered:  welcome!  Sorry you have to join us.  Will pray for you.  Keep us posted with your treatment.

    Paula: prayers for you too during your rad treatments!

    Traci:  10:00 is too late for me (early to bed for early commute), but I will still be there for the Friday 10:00 prayer time.  My DH, who already is a professed secular Franciscan, has been looking for groups around the DC area.  We're still traveling once a month to NJ to attend my formation class.  I'm hoping God will direct us to where we need to be.  I am perennially impatient and He perennially tries to break me of that.

    Janet: you sound so strong!  Take it easy on those walks.

    Psalm 32:7

    You are my hiding place;

    You shall preserve me from trouble;

    You shall surround me with songs of deliverance.

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    ahhhh,

     So nice to come home to this thread. There are sometimes unfun parts of my job that have nothing to do with the patients, everything to do with silliness. So Today, very nice to come home to you all!

    Janet please do add a prayer for cure, and any other prayers that move you. I am finding I spend about 10 minutes or so to speak for individuals in the sections or the St. Peregrine prayer, and then I read the others, taking time to comtemplate. I enjoy each person's contributions, and Paula has been wonderful with posting the prayers each week. So Paula, if you don't mind being the official "poster" b/c if I do it, there will be a blank post. ALso, I learned from my Angel book, that Archangel Raphael looks after Nurses and medical people as well. Lucky! I have prayed for guidance before when I have known something was wrong, but there was no physical evidence to support it yet. I don't work alone :)

    How about we consider 8:00 PM weekdays Monday-Thursday, a time where if we choose, we pause to pray. Then 10:00 on Fridays for group prayer? Does that sound reasonable? again, totally flexible, so I'll go whichever was the group goes.

    Kindone...thanks so much for the prayer. We can include it on friday's if you like. I am not sure if I sent the post where I mentioned I am from Rochester originally. But I am :) Hello Upstater!

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    prayersareanswered,

    So glad you found us too! We will hold you in our prayers, and bolster you when you need. We take turns just by the nature of life, some days good, some days not so good. So come as you are!

    Paula, prayers for uneventful Rads, for your techs to be kind and compassionate, and to open their hearts to their work. For your caregivers to be supported in the workplace, so they may feel free to interact with their patients on a very human level.

    Apple,

    May your Brother be surrounded by Angels, as they work on behalf of God to protect him, heal him, and infuse him with love. May this be a time of great activity for all Divine spirits attached to your brother and his family. I ask that the family be considered in all things Divine, that his chemo is tolerable, that his children help with the household if they are able. We pray God, for Apple, who has her own challenges, and who is anxious for her brother. She is so strong in you God. So Strong. Meet them in all of their needs, help her brother to conquer his lymphoma and leukemia. Bring Archangel Rapheael to his side, and have St. Peregrine bestow his personal blessing upon  him. Apple is our family, therefore her brother is our family. We ask for full healing. Please hear our petitions on his behalf.

  • janet in virginia
    janet in virginia Member Posts: 923
    edited October 2010

    I like the idea of also adding weekdays mon-thur at 8pm.  Even if we are somewhere else & can't be online, we can pause at that time and pray.

    Here is my most humble attempt at a prayer for a cure for cancer:

    Dear God in heaven, thank You for this day and for all of our many blessings.  We know miracles and healing come only through You.  We pray for a cure of the terrible disease cancer that afflicts so many.   Please, dear Lord, guide the hands and hearts of every cancer researcher all over the earth.  Work through them with Your grace.  Open their eyes to understanding the mysteries of cancer and to discover the cure in Your name.  As You have taught us, we believe with all our hearts that You need only say the word for this to come to pass.   We ask this through Your Son, Jesus Christ.  Amen.

  • Estepp
    Estepp Member Posts: 2,966
    edited October 2010

    SO MANY POSTS.... I just could not read them all. I just prayed for ALL of the goings on and needy prayers here on our Catholic thread! Amen....

    Ladies..... VEGAS WAS AWESOME!......AGAIN!

    I am not a gambler... but I did loose 40 buck just for fun........ROFLOL!

    I MET OUR OWN PAULA !!!!!!!!!! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

    Found out about her NED NED NED on the Pet Sunday at the Bellagio....THANK YOU FATHER!

    I want you to know this... since I got to see her and talk to her , if only for 30 min...ish.....

    She is not only amazingly pretty....she is SO SO NICE..... she had a kind soul and spirit.... I can she that she is someone who will help others along her journey in life... and I TOTALLY DIG meeting people like this... I just get a vibe about people.... and her vibe ROCKS !

    Thank you Paula for coming to be with us! THANK YOU!

    Ladies...... I swear I only had a few cocktail per day... per event.....lol...lol....

    I am not hormone + BC.... so in times of celebration...... I love a few glasses of wine or champagne..... :) We all had so much fun.... but we could hardly hang with everyone... so many of us.... I wish there was a way to get ALL the sisters from BCO... ALL 9000... ( lol) together... well... there is no way to do this... so to take the time to do it in small groups.... is priceless.

    If my advice means anything.... then take it...:)....... if you have a few ladies you have met here... from 1 to 25......... go get them together.... start your own reunions.... they will last a lifetime and you will not regret it.

    GOD BLESS YOU ALL

    And I will be active on my thread now... praying with you and for you.

    JUDY LETECKIE, a customer of mine... was JUST DX with Stage 3........ I came home to hear this. I cried tonight for her. And now...... it is time to stop crying and pray and pray and pray,,,,,,

    It seems my mind is so lost from Chemo and dealing with a lot in my personal life..... pray for me that I GET this mind back so that I do NOT NOT NOT let my praying down .. as this is all that saves in the life...

    I am SO NOT perfect.... but I continue to try and to help and to love...... so that someone else can see our Father........and can overcome............

    Love you ladies.......and GOD BLESS YOU!

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited October 2010

    Janet,

    I love your prayer too! It's a keeper, and love the reference to researchers. It's true, that's what we need at the heart of all of this. I honestly believe God has designed all things in their complexity, and guides us in learning, research and healing. I'm requesting this to be on our Friday night list!

    Laura,

    Sounds like you had a wonderful time, and you got to see Paula! So there were 9,000 ladies/men there? How many years has this been going? I am so glad you had such a great time, were renewed, donated money to the casino (or slots?) Hey, they gotta put food on the table too! And of course a little wine or champagne can be much fun. What did Mark Twain say, a little vice is always nice.

     I am terribly sorry to hear about your friend Judy. Not sure if she has been battling for awhile or this is new. She will be in my thoughts and prayers. If you can meet with us Friday nights, can you list her name again, so it will be fresh in our memories? How is your friend Bridget?

    Nice to have you back, just thinking about you earlier!

    God Bless,

    traci

  • DiamondGirl
    DiamondGirl Member Posts: 695
    edited August 2013

    Good evening sistas !!!

    I'm back and I've done my reading and want to thank you Theresa, Traci, Laura and the rest of this gang...first to let you know that I have yet another intervention....

    I brought Jasmine Tea to the rad techs yesterday and they acknowledged that it was nice....they are nicer yesterday.  Today I went for my 3:30pm and the rad tech had a student tech.  I was lying there for over 30 mins and not much happened.  They then came in and said that I needed a 2nd CT tomorrow due to the fact that my range of motion on the L arm is better than before and they are unable to line me up properly.  The entire time I was praying that Lord Jesus will be guiding the techs and I leave it up to Him.  I think He intervened and it is all good.  I don't mind that they are paying attention and if they are not comfortable moving forward then I will be back tomorrow getting another CT to make it right.  Amen to that!!!!

    Yes, Laura ~ it was very nice meeting you in person and very moving meeting the rest of the ladies (although I was not able to meet each person one-on-one) but the comradery and sisterhood moved me.  I did make some friends there already.  

    I also like to say that the prayers and the stories are so moving.  I teared up reading it and you ladies are so incredible.  I really really enjoyed all the encouragement and attention we have for one another. 

    For the past few days I had been busy with work but I want to let you know that I have been saying my prayers for each one of us here.  I like the 5pm (8pm) prayers and I will try to be on it, if I can't please be sure to know that I have the morning covered :) 

    Traci ~ yes, I'd like to help post the prayers on Friday (if I can't I'll let you guys know ahead of time).  If you like a certain prayer, please either PM it to me or email pdf file to me <paula8@inbox.com>.  Please let me know by numbering the prayer in sequence.  Will try to make it right :)

    Janet ~ do you have any path reports yet?  (I'm sorry if I'm being forgetful) 

    Prayersareanswered ~ I want to welcome you here.

    Jan ~ prayer for healing

    Betty ~ nice prayer

    Sheila ~ Namaste

    Apple ~ great idea about the mini prayer

    Hi to Ellie, Mmm5, Pat, Tori, Jeannine, Monika & Serena ~ 

    You are all in my prayers! 

    {{{{ Love & Hugs }}}}

  • Estepp
    Estepp Member Posts: 2,966
    edited October 2010

    Traci, thank you... Bridget is heading to Ark. this month to do treatment there. Where she is going... they specialize in MM. Thank you for your continued prayer for her and asking about her.

    Good night sisters;.... My prayer list is FULL!

  • jan508
    jan508 Member Posts: 724
    edited October 2010

    Good morning Ladies:

    May God shine his healing light upon each and everyone one of us and may his mercy be abundant.

    I hope y'all enjoy the day which has been given to us to share by our Lord.

    God Bless Y'All.

    Jan508

  • apple
    apple Member Posts: 1,466
    edited October 2010

    squidwitch.. I am sharing your prayer with my bro.  I'm sure he will be uplifted.

    Prayers for all of you and gratitude for how good I am feeling.. as if I were normal again.  Steeling myself for the years ahead, i find great comfort in this thread and the shared prayers of our sisterhood.

  • lovemyfamilysomuch
    lovemyfamilysomuch Member Posts: 762
    edited October 2010

    Praying with my sisters and loving it! xo

  • janet in virginia
    janet in virginia Member Posts: 923
    edited October 2010

    Paula - I'll PM the prayer for a cure but I don't know what you mean about numbering the sequence?

    ps - no I don't have path results from mastectomy yet.  I have apptmt tomorrow to get drain out, maybe then.  I don't even know what stage I am!   When I first went to Lombardi Cancer center at Georgetown, they ordered slides from my excisional biopsy done at another hospital so their pathologists could review.  That's routine for them.  Last week surgeon said the pathologists were still debating the reading - one thinks it's ILC and the other IDC.  She said clinically it doesn't make much difference but I'd sure like to know what I'm dealing with.  Path from mastectomy should clear things up. So keep me in your prayers there are no big surprises.

  • squidwitch42
    squidwitch42 Member Posts: 1,467
    edited August 2013

    (((Apple)))

    Janet,

    Waiting for the path, there are so many steps in this that involve waiting without word. Of course you want to know what you are dealing with. I pray for no surprises tomorrow, for you to have a good follow up appointment, and for you to get rid of you drains. Let us know what you need to support you.

    I have my endocrinology appointment today. I have never been referred, and have been hypothyroid, treated with synthroid for years. My PET showed chronic thyroiditis, not unusual I guess, but my thyroid has been getting bigger, and there is a nodule. I look forwards to attacking this next problem, getting expert opinion and easing my fears related to the thyroid growth and nodule. I don't believe there is anything to fear, just remaining cautiously optimistic. There is a "lump" sometimes in the back of my throat too, and it gurgles a bit. Nothing is physically there, it's a sense thing. The shortness of breath is better with them upping my dose. Well, as we all have to do, dive in with both feet, pull the covers off and see what's under the hood :)

    Have a Blessed Day All!