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  • Titan
    Titan Member Posts: 1,313
    edited January 2012

    Inmate..I like 1 and 2 t-shirts...don't think #3 would go over to well on casual Friday at my work...I could probably get away with 1 and 2 though..

  • journey4life
    journey4life Member Posts: 223
    edited January 2012

    A bit of good news! Had a pelvic ultrasound yesterday to see if my ovaries are normal - radiologist says everything looks good! I should be able to postpone the prophylactic ooph until sometime after the BMX. Yay!!

  • laurajane
    laurajane Member Posts: 305
    edited January 2012

    Titan- I'm not sure I had sweet dreams last night they were crazy. I kept waking myself up talking in my sleep. I think all of my fears try and come out when I'm sleeping.

    Riley-we woke up to everything covered in ice too. I hope the roads are cleared before you need to make that drive and you have a nice time at the wedding.

    Tifj- thank you for the sweet message. Actually he came over to have dinner the night before he left town on business. Just ordered in but it was so nice having his company. I sure wish we could have met earlier and had had the chance to spend more time together. He's so caring and compassionate and has a heart of gold. Oh! The kiss good night wasn't to bad either. LOL

    Char- are you doing taxol by chance? My acupuncturist really helped me with my lower back pain that the taxol gave me.

    My son has completely distanced himself from me. I keep asking him to spend time with me and all he wants to do is spend time with his friends. I know he is subconsciously angry about all of this and I know it's hard for him to see me this way but I'm so scared he will feel guilt when I'm gone. I don't want him to feel that. It's getting more and more difficult to function. My daughter has stayed with me this whole last week helping me with food and helping me get dressed things like that but she needs a break. My friend is bringing me some soup over today and my daughter will put it in smaller containers so I can lift them. I've become almost anxietel , afraid to go to sleep I'm so afraid I won't wake up. I'm not giving up just facing reality. Hope you all have a great day.



  • ksmatthews
    ksmatthews Member Posts: 743
    edited January 2012

    Laurajane I wished I lived close, I would be there to help you.  You are such a strong person and I admire you so much...

    I hope your son comes around. 

  • Titan
    Titan Member Posts: 1,313
    edited January 2012

    Laura..how old is your son?  You are right....I think that he is distancing himself from you to protect himself from his feelings...when I told my then 18 year old son that I had BC it was like I shot him..I will never forget the look on his face..after that he never mentioned it again..never asked me anything, never came to chemo with me, did not come to the hospital for my surgery..he just lived his life the whole way through..my daughter was with me through everything...she was my bright, happy smiling face..I told her that I did not want to see any tears.....I love my son and I MAKE him love me now..telling him how much I love him whether he likes it or not.

    This is so hard for you and your son...I hope he opens up to you soon...

  • tracie23
    tracie23 Member Posts: 214
    edited January 2012

    inmate, I love them all....but I love number 1 the best. Are you selling these? When and for BCO ? I would love to get one.

  • tracie23
    tracie23 Member Posts: 214
    edited January 2012

    Laura, My heart aches for you , you will be in my prayers.

  • Lynn18
    Lynn18 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2012

    Laura, I am sorry about how your son is dealing with this.  I hope he comes around and opens up to you.

    I'm worried that you are going through this alone.  Do you need a nurse or home health aid to come to your home?  Can you ask your doctor about this?  My mom had home health come to her house to help her when she was recovering.  It sounds like your daughter is helping a lot.  I wish that some of us lived closer to you, I know we all want to help you. 

  • HeidiToo
    HeidiToo Member Posts: 965
    edited January 2012

    OK, time for some smiles...

  • gillyone
    gillyone Member Posts: 495
    edited January 2012
    Laughing
  • mccrimmon324
    mccrimmon324 Member Posts: 794
    edited January 2012

    Inmate, I like 1 &2 the best.  Its a great idea and I would buy some too.

     laura I'm so sorry about your son I hope he comes around.

    I love those Heidi

  • Lovelyface
    Lovelyface Member Posts: 563
    edited January 2012

    My dear Laurajane - I am praying really hard that your young son comes and showers love on you at this time which you so need.  Men deal with these type of things differently than we women do.  Please don't be afraid to sleep at night, my dear.  God is very kind, you are so loved, you are an amazing person and we need you to recover so you can start a new Breast Cancer foundation all by yourself.  I would fly anywhere you open your foundation, in this big country, I promise.You have got to get better, I am counting on you.  I am certain your new kind friend will come back once he is back in town.

    Titan - Congratulations a million fold!!!!!!! 34 months is amazing. What are you doing to celebrate?  Don't forget to celebrate this milestone. Thanks for taking your time to include all of us in your post, wow, that must have taken some work!

    Inmate - I love them all.  Are you selling them?  Did you write them yourself?

    Bak - I am not sure what the facts are, but I don't think a low immune system can bring the cancer back.  I may be totally off the track, but in my opinion, Cancer just doesn't come back when your immune system is down.  You know I finished chemo in Dec. 2010 and did my Rads starting March 1st, 8 weeks later.  Onc. said he wanted to see my blood come back to normal and my body recovered before doing the Rads.

  • laurajane
    laurajane Member Posts: 305
    edited January 2012

    My son came back from his friends a day early and gave me a big hug and asked if we could put the arguments we've had behind us. He said he loved me so much and had decided he wanted to stay at home tonight (saturday night!) and hang out with me. No need to ask if I cried tears of happiness. We just ordered pizza and we are going to watch a movie. I can't even remember the last time we did this. It seems like all we've done is argue for the last couple of months. Today when I was meditating I worked on letting go and sending him love, over and over. It worked. All of this is more than worth trying to stomach some pizza. Not very macrobiotic. LOL

    Again it's so nice to share something positive with you. Thanks again for all of your encouraging words, sweet sentiments. I feel loved completely. Sending this love right back to you.

  • mccrimmon324
    mccrimmon324 Member Posts: 794
    edited January 2012

    bak,  I hope you get better soon, I'm sorry your going thru all of this crap rigt now

  • TifJ
    TifJ Member Posts: 804
    edited January 2012

    Yay Laurajane!! So glad he is coming around and realizing how much you mean to him!

    I have to share my latest BS appt. story. My BS told me that my 2 year from surgery is coming up in Sept. She said I need to plan a big party or travel somewhere. I told her I have kids and that makes it difficult. She said "nonsense! i am sure you can find someone to watch them a few days." She asked if I had ever been to New York City. I told her no and she said "well then you must go." I told her trying to convince my husband will be difficult and she told me he just needed to do this for me. I jokingly asked her if she could give me a prescription for a trip to New York so then my husband would have to take me. She just laughed and said goodbye. As I was checking out, the receptionist handed me a piece of paper. It was a prescription that read "please consider a trip to New York in Sept for the patients well being." I thought how nice of her to do that. My husband just laughed when he read it, but I have put it on the refrigerator where he will always see it- hint hint!

  • christina1961
    christina1961 Member Posts: 450
    edited January 2012

    I'm so glad, Laurajane!!  I hope you enjoy your pizza night and movie

  • Lynn18
    Lynn18 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2012

    Laurajane, I hope you have a wonderful time with your son tonight!

    Titan:  Congrats on the 34 months!  I loved your "waltons" post.  Hope you plan something really special for your 3 year. 

  • tracie23
    tracie23 Member Posts: 214
    edited January 2012

    Heidi, I love your animal posts... I love love love animals... You made me smile :)

  • tracie23
    tracie23 Member Posts: 214
    edited January 2012

    YAY Laurajane , there is power in prayers :)

  • Titan
    Titan Member Posts: 1,313
    edited January 2012

    Nothing like pizza and a movie to heal things!  Enjoy your son Laura!  It's nice having one of each isn't it..my husband was pretty proud of himself..ha ha... My daughter wants to have only girls but I'm hoping she has a bunch of little boys..I'm going to give them all footballs and basketballs and soccer balls....ok..I'll shut up now......

    Yeah..that 3 year thing coming up...one day at a time....I'm excited but no way do I think I'm in the clear...I'm afraid too.

  • ksmatthews
    ksmatthews Member Posts: 743
    edited January 2012

    Titan congrats on the 3 years!  Tifj congrats on the 2 years!

    Laurajane so glad you got to spend the evening with your son! 

  • Titan
    Titan Member Posts: 1,313
    edited January 2012

    two more months ladies...let's not rush this stuff.

  • inmate4232010
    inmate4232010 Member Posts: 288
    edited January 2012
    Thanks Ladies for all of you opinions and input.  Tifj....I like your idea.  Maybe "Pink is pretty, but breast cancer isn't"  I have found through this process that the color pink tends to make me nauseous.  With that said, none of the shirts will be pink.  The best shirt I've seen is "yes my boobs are fake, my real ones tried to kill me".  Since that has already been done I think I will try to come up with some more options on my own.These shirts will be made as soon as I have at least two, hopefully three firm "slogans".  Of course I will let all you lovely ladies know when they are available and how to get one (or more).  The other, more important part of this is, where will the money go?  We have struggled both physically and mentally but it often gets lost how much we struggle financially.  In Seattle we have an organization call NW Hope and Healing.  They give $500 to breast cancer patients to use on any expense as long as it isn't medical.  Does anyone know of other groups like this that we can support?  They do not need to be city specific.  I am also willing to look into starting a new one if the need is there.  What am I saying?  Of curse the need is there!Thanks again ladies, keep the ideas coming.      
  • inmate4232010
    inmate4232010 Member Posts: 288
    edited January 2012
    Laurajane....I am so happy for you.  Enjoy your pizza, movie and most excellent company tonight!
  • bak94
    bak94 Member Posts: 652
    edited January 2012

    I am soooo happy! The power is back on after 4 days!!

    inmate-did u loose power at all? I live towards Maple Valley, it got pretty bad out here! My yard looks like a natural disaster! It will be fun to cleanup! I am so happy that a couple new small trees that we got last summer survived! I think it is greagt what you are doing with the shirts. We must get together sometime! I have justy been a bit of a disaster myself lately, but I feel a turn in the right direction coming on....

    LJ-have a great Saturday night!

  • inmate4232010
    inmate4232010 Member Posts: 288
    edited January 2012
    Bak94....Yeah for power!  I live in Southpark (just south of the city) and we did not lose power, thankfully.  I really thought that I would lose a few tree branches from all the ice, but they survived.  Oh the power of nature!  Yes, we should definitely get together.  Just let me know when you feel up to it.  I can even come your way.  Now stay toasty and get some rest so you can enjoy that good health coming your way!
  • mccrimmon324
    mccrimmon324 Member Posts: 794
    edited January 2012

    inmate, i'm walking in the relay for life this year.  I would love to wear your shirts when I'm not walking in the survivor shirt. 

    Laura, so happy for you.

    Bak, glad power is back on!

    Suze, hoping your resting up for your cruise

  • TifJ
    TifJ Member Posts: 804
    edited January 2012

    Inmate. I like it! I was also thinking about "Pink is pretty, but it can't cure Breast Cancer."

    Bak-sooo glad your power is back on!

    Ks- my 2 years won't be until Sept. My BS was just planning ahead!!

  • mccrimmon324
    mccrimmon324 Member Posts: 794
    edited January 2012

    Tifj,  I love NY, its fantastic.  You deserve a little weekend getaway.  We grew up outside of Phila PA, so as young adults we would take the train up all the time to see shows.  Last time we went was a few years ago for our anniversary, Had loads of fun, 1st time hubby went to the top of the Empire State Building, we walked thru Central Park to the Metropoltian Musuem of Art.  Took a cab to Ground Zero then walked back thru the soho, ended up finding the best little indian restaurant, who knew we loved indian food so much.  The big event for the weekend was going to see Wicked on Broadway.  We both loved it.  I think you should really consider trying to get there.  You've got the time to plan and budget if you start now.

  • tracie23
    tracie23 Member Posts: 214
    edited January 2012

    inmate, I am also walking in Relay this year I would love to wear a shirt.... I am not a fan of pink any longer but a black shirt with pink writing is hot.