Bonfire of the Goddesses

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  • glennie19
    glennie19 Member Posts: 4,833
    edited September 2014


    OH, FK,, thats a ruff day!!!    And poor GD,, good grief.

     

    Get some rest.. we will see you tomorrow.

  • crog234
    crog234 Member Posts: 324
    edited September 2014

    aww so sorry Firecracker that you had such a ruff day.  Hope a good nights sleep and the new diet can help your tummy feel better real soon...  

  • SlowDeepBreaths
    SlowDeepBreaths Member Posts: 6,702
    edited September 2014

    Wow Kracker - you really did have a difficult day.

    So sorry for your troubles.

    Hope you get some good rest tonight.

    Haven't heard from Alyson....I hope she is ok.

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited September 2014

    just loving all of you for being here...

  • SlowDeepBreaths
    SlowDeepBreaths Member Posts: 6,702
    edited September 2014

    glennie, I really like Carmelita too. He performed that song with Jackson Browne in the 70's.

    My husband and I had tickets for two shows - Marc Cohn and Bruce Cockburn. We had to miss both because my radiation was delayed. Once they came around, I was too tired to go. The concert venue was nice enough to give us credit for future shows. We've been waiting for someone we really want to see. I really like Bruce Cockburn and was so sorry to miss him.

  • SlowDeepBreaths
    SlowDeepBreaths Member Posts: 6,702
    edited September 2014

    Kathe, I swear your post wasn't there when I posted last. How strange.

    Love you too for being here Kathe!!!!

  • Alyson
    Alyson Member Posts: 3,737
    edited September 2014

    Shoulder starting to hurt a bit, was told it might be very painful tonight - luckily I have lots of drugs. Just inflamed which I don'tvmind at all.

    Big hugs

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited September 2014

    owie camowie, Aly! just rest and be good to yourself!

    Slow, that IS weird! i am sure when i posted, that your post about missing the show was above mine, too!! huh! good morning to you all.  Slow really talked me down yesterday, i was a mess. ok for now, and getting ready to jump in the truck and go see big trees in wilsonia. i think it may do me some good, what if i don't want to come back?? i will,to see you all.  ohno   no computer for 3 days? yikes! i will be taking lots of pics to show you. love you all

  • joan811
    joan811 Member Posts: 1,981
    edited September 2014


    Hi Goddesses,
    Sneaking in a read while at work...gotta say h i.
    Missed a lot...Kath- a birthday?  Wishing you a happy today and year ahead. 
    Love the rose....and GmaF, love the photo.  There is so much joy and beauty in those faces!
    I, too am happy to see Val here...miss you lots.
    FK, hope you are feeling better.
    Ducky, oh, those pills...I do feel it I just don't get it everywhere at once.  This week it is my hands...last week my feet and toes...I manage to walk through it but I can imagine how it could interfere on a large scale.

    It's getting chilly here...I need more time by the fire.

    Hugs to all...
    Joan

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

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    today I'm still sick

    Last. Ite was bad

    Tomorrow Sept 11 is really hurting me

    I will be back when my mood changes

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 9,646
    edited September 2014

    Take care girlfriend........

  • valjean
    valjean Member Posts: 1,110
    edited September 2014

    12:30 AM ...........

    already September 11 ...............

    Sending love to all my dear sisters here.

    I am so thankful for all of you.

     


     

  • gmafoley
    gmafoley Member Posts: 5,978
    edited September 2014

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  • SlowDeepBreaths
    SlowDeepBreaths Member Posts: 6,702
    edited September 2014

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    Rockaway Tribute Park - B. 116th Street - One block from where I lived.

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

    I'm done with this depression from 9/11

    I'm also done with feeling sorry for myself with this stupid stomach

    I'm makin it work

    Eating the brat diet without the bananas

    The rice I have to eat tastes like crap

    But I'm betta

  • jo1955
    jo1955 Member Posts: 7,545
    edited September 2014

    FK - Glad to see you back and starting to feel better.  This crap with you tummy has gone on way too long.

  • valjean
    valjean Member Posts: 1,110
    edited September 2014


    (((((( K ))))))

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited September 2014

    Hey all you lovey ladies! i was away for a week, tearing up some mountains to look at the view. i fell in the river once, and my phone went swimming twice. kept it off for days and in a bag of rice. it worked! i texted! i called! i looked at photos! all was well, until, after using it to set my alarm to wake up this morning, i decided to take a picture. ooooups. craaaaaap. there was a flash of light and my phone got hot. and now it reeeeally doesnt work.

    but i came here to tell you, GOT MY PORT OUT TODAY!!! yipppeeeeeeeeee! it made me happy in a way that the end of all other stuff involved with this CArap did not.

    and, after getting home from spending days looking at tall Sequoias, and walking about, and enjoying myself, i got home and even tho it was a million degrees hot, i unpacked, and made ready to have dinner, and realized:

    i felt almost normal.

    like i havent since this started, and it was really nice. i felt strong and capable. i don't know if this will last, but i am going to try and let stuff go, and enjoy what i can. so at these cabins i stayed at, there was a big steel bell on a stand, and i rapped it with my knuckles, and it gave a pure ringing tone. So the man came out who me and my man went to see, and he said, "go ahead and grab that tree limb to brace yourself, and see if you can push it with your foot and make it ring."  so i did. and pushed, and let it push my foot back, and then pushed again as it moved away from me, three times. And it moved, and pealed loudly, and just once.  and i laughed to hear it! it reminded me of part of a poem-song that Leonard Cohen wrote:

    Ring the bells that still can ring

    Forget your perfect offering

    There is a crack in every thing

    Thats how the light gets in

                                                                     peace

  • glennie19
    glennie19 Member Posts: 4,833
    edited September 2014


    that was beautiful, Kath,, I'm so glad you had a good time and are feeling "normal"!!  Nothing like getting out in nature!!!

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

    nice to hear goo news Kath...

    Congrats on the port

    I'm glad ur feelin normal...

    I always thought u were kinda normal anyway 

    Big huggggg

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited September 2014

    uh oh! if i am normal, i am going to be even sorrier for the human race! love ya!

  • Vadre
    Vadre Member Posts: 159
    edited September 2014

    Dear Sisters,

    I've been away for a long time. struggling with this F**ing disease....not mine, which is stable, but my Baby Sister's. We are both Stage IV, she was diagnosed about six months after I. Hers was already in the liver, mine sitting quietly in my bones. She has had some issues emotional & mental issues in the past. A recent MRI which confirmed growth in her tumor and spreading pushed her over the edge. She has always been a more conservative Christian than I (no offense meant here, please, ladies!  I am a firm believer) but she has come to believe that God causes or uses this terrible disease to mold us & shape us into the people God wants us to be. Her husband (whom I have always been....uhm...not crazy about) is a control freak who agrees with her on the God stuff, decided when she was diagnosed she needed that damn Gerson Diet (I apologize if you have had success with it.) complete with a couple of coffee enemas a day. 

    Anyway, I'm sorry for drifting into my anger. Her fear, enhanced by her husbands fear and craziness has collided with her mental illness issues. She has been involuntarily committed to the psychiatric wing of her hospital. Going on two weeks now. I flew down there (N.C.) and stayed for a week but I was exhausting myself and getting overwhelmed. My sweet college roommate came with me. I knew I had to get home to my DH and kids and love & sanity that I understand. I'm crying again thinking about leaving her there. She won't take her anti-hormonal a so the beast is spreading. I can't let myself be taken over by m y negative feelings for her husband. It just all hurts so much. Our parents and brother are both gone. It's just us and I can't fix this for her. 

    I thought of you all so often. Of the loving, honest and REAL things you would be telling me. I am home now & catching up on all the posts I've missed. I want to throw the pain, anger and fear into the fire....along with my bro-in-law but maybe I'll wait on him. Thank you for being here for each other and for me. As I've started catching up the strength around this fire is amazing. 

    Hugs to you all!!

    Virginia

  • jo1955
    jo1955 Member Posts: 7,545
    edited September 2014

    Virginia - Welcome back to this amazing bonfire.  I am so very sorry you are having to deal with all this.  It must be very overwhelming for you.  It is just not fair that you and your sister have to deal with this damn beast and with such intensity.  You know we are all here to support and comfort you.  Come back as often as you would like.  As for the brother-in-law, go ahead and throw him into the fire if it will make you feel much better.  If you need help with that, just let me know.  ((((HUGS))))

  • badger
    badger Member Posts: 24,938
    edited September 2014

    Friendship is warm and bonfire is hot, throw it all on and let it burn.

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    Welcome back Virginia.  No words just ((hugs))

    Kathe, congrats on being deported and THX for the L. Cohen. ♥ 

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

    awww welcome back Virginia...

    I wanna personally invite u to the STFU thread for our monthly party

    Then we come to the bonefire and party again

    It's like we become partners for the day

    Bring one funny story that happened to u this month...U can bring more if u want to

    I'm sorry ur goin threw all this...If u remember I pray for every single one of us....every nite...

    We just might need a group huggggggggg.

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

    my spelling is gettin bad

    I like the puter betta then the iPad

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited September 2014

    ((((Vadre))))

  • iamnancy
    iamnancy Member Posts: 641
    edited September 2014

    Virginia - I am sorry you are going through this...

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 9,646
    edited September 2014

    Virginia.....Think about "YOU".......take care of "YOU".............You can only do so much........

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  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2014

    as I live and breathe

    Look who showed up!!!!!

    Oh miss ducky I missed u sooo much

    Can we have a fight now?????