Bonfire of the Goddesses
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nice and toasty fire....without any violence!!!!!!!Unbelievable...
congrats to Dancetrance let the healing begin...
Now what happened to the bong?????
Yesterday my lill GreatGrandaughter turned a year old.I swear she is as big a a minute walkin and talkin...My St Patricks Day baby.
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Granny... May you dance with her at her wedding!
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Ohhhhh....cabana boys in my pocket! Awesome! Yea...I am still pissed off too. I was feeling so wonderful on my BHT estrogen and testosterone pellets. My husband and I were enjoying the "new me". A me with a sex drive. I miss all of that so much. Don't get me wrong. I am forever grateful that my cancer was discovered early enough to still be stage 0 and that I got off of this roller coaster with "just" losing my breast and taking a pill everyday.
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thanks VR..I highly doubt it tho....When I got the bc my GD told me outright you are gonna beat this thing.You will see my babies!!!! I still cannot believe I have 3 great grandkids.never thought i would live this long
HEY WHERE IS THAT BONG!!!!!
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Granny!!! Hurry up! Come on down! The party started!! We got Pongs and Bongs and cabana boys hoppin! And chocolate vodka too!
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I should have made my post to dancetrancer a bit clearer. I finished rads a long time ago. My point to her was that I also finished on a Friday - not that I just finished the same day she did. My mistake.
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Well Jo I thought you did , but things change so fast. Hey a few more congratulations never hurt and can make you smile. HEY CONGRATULATIONS, ON THE CONGRATULATIONS.
VR SUMMED IT UP-TO THE FIRE FOR SOME QUITE WARM FIRE WITH RELAXER OF CHOICE.
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Jo....sorry for the mix up. But you know what? I think that no matter when a treatment was finished, we should all celebrate just being alive and having survived it! Here's to us all! I'm toasting with my relaxer of choice....red wine.
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Whatever will be, will be. Good vibes and chocolate vodka (or drink of choice) to everyone!
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I'm going to have to try that chocolate vodka. I've tried chocolate red wine. Not bad for a dessert drink. I'm feeling the good vibes girls!
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I have learned to celebrate each new day and have a new outlook on life in general. I am so glad all you ladies are in my life. (((HUGS)))
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openheart - I had chocolate red wine too....pretty good.
granny - I have some great vintage bongs from the heyday. can't seem to part with them since they are part of history.....remember the homemade ones........those were the days........great now I can't get that song out of me head.
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TranceDancer - what a poowerful flush, congrats.
Chocolate vodka, now I may be tempted to drink.
Onto the fire, again, the bill from the same old clinic that did the wrong dx so ins will not pay for the ovarian cancer test to be read, been 6 months. I would think that a woman with a suspicisous breast mass (that turned out to be cancer and node involvement) and abdomen swelling, back pain and severe ttearing sensations would deserve to get an ovarian cancer test. I deserved it and I want it paid for, I refuse to pay on the grounds of justice and my health care rights.
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Essa - I totally agree with you. Don't take no for an answer. Your insurance should pay for the test. These are the kinds of things we should not have to worry about for have to fight for what is right.
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ONTO THE BONFIRE OF THE GODDESSES
MY NEIGHBOR WITH THE
OUTDOOR WOOD BOILER (OWB) - I have to do this a lot.....
I KNOW he means well for asking but he is just too damn ignorant to get it.
Long story short, his OWB smoke is 24/7/365 and full of pseudo-estrogen, gasoline for my ER+ PR+ cancer. I deep-breathed it all last winter and spring and summer and autumn. I gardened in it, ran the dog in it, swam in it, painted in it, worked on the veehicles in it, washed windows in it, slept in it on the sleeping porch, thought it was his burned bacon at 4am every morning...... the smoke came in every crevice and vent of my brick home until now it is zipped up so tight we will die of carbon monoxide poisoning and mold first, but we can breathe until we can move.... I have not had an open window since we moved in that the smoke did not fill my home and it is deadly to me. After he has been forced to shut it down for summer, another horrible story, I have opened windows only to go out into the night to hunt down the smoke culprit and find he lied to us and IDEM and started it again, illegally, and it takes almost two weeks to get it shut off again, on low smoulder while we suffocate and die.
First did not know what it was, smells sweet and funny and sometimes like an old wet dead campfire. Just thought it was stinky, not knowing it was deadly to me.
How can I make this short?
I got sicker and sicker and sicker and finally found a mass. Asked him to put out the OWB, tried to force him to to no avail. He burns cause he can, legally and illegally and no one stops him.
He just stopped me in driveway when daughter dropped me off. "Diane, did those pills get rid of your cancer?"
NOTE:::: LIKE IT IS THAT SIMPLE?! (I told him about some treatments that he used and his dog who had spinal cancer now is fine and shows no signs even on x-rays, so he told me that this worked and I am grateful for this, but still, it is never that simple.)
I said, "No, not yet." And I went off on him, he was not expecting it, I know, but neither was I.
"Bill, I am spending $400 a month on supplements and treatments."
"You're kidding?"
"Plus $90 a week for infusions for treatment and $75 for fuel to get there."
"WHAT?!"
"And we are foreclosing on our home and filed bankruptcy so we won't have to pay the lien deficiency when we were not even late on payments, but we have to move because of your wood boiler. It never stops."
Now he looks angry.
"So Bill do not come over here asking how I am, if you won't turn that thing off. It's 80 out here for two weeks and you still have it smoking away so do not pretend you care how I am or if I recover because I know I will not recover as long as I have to breathe that smoke."
AND HE SAID, "You know why that is, don't you. People who come from Gary always get cancer."
"I DID NOT COME FROM GARY. I came from an organic world in the country, where I am supposed to be now, small town, lovely places, organic living. And you have poisoned me. Now please leave."
And he turned and left.
Into the WOOD BOILER WITH HIM.
ONTO THE BONFIRE OF THE GODDESSES WITH THE OWB WITH HIM IN IT.
Like I said, he is too damn ignorant to be angry at, so I have to let it go a...g....a....i....n.
But Judas, do you know that first thing he asked me when he snuck up behind me in my garden last April? He asked, "Is my wood boiler bothering you?" It took me about two months to figure out just what it was and how it was affecting us and how bad it was for everyone, especially the way he runs his old one. Then in mid-July, sick as a dog and with no real memory left and could not work to earn money anymore, I found the mass and had cancer.
ONTO THE BONFIRE goes my anger. And him. And Hubby for not saying all these things to him. And IDEM (Indiana Department of Environmental Management) officials for not helping more than they finally did for us breathe safe air, all so he can save on paying heat and water heat. The lady who sold us this place and had leaf piles and a garbage pile smouldering to hide the OWB smoke, and who lied to me whaen I asked if all the smoke was hers when she KNEW I was sick from the smoke at the other place we left. And that is that.
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OMG - I would have one hell of a field day late at night destroying that thing if I could get away with it and would enjoy doing it. If no witnesses, no cameras, no evidence, he can't prove a thing. He could try to convince the authorities it was me but no evidence........oh well.
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DD just called to see how I am, and I am not okay, I am so angry I could projectile vomit.
I must see this as something positive.
Like the pills he asked about. I was talking to her and realized I got confused about the ones he gave his dog. I am taking the one and need the other, ran out and have not reordered, too valuable to miss taking, but I forget stuff. So dear neighbor just was useful to remind me to get the other ones I need. He is so much my sstepdad's energy, I moved in next to 'my dad' (stepdad) and that was a ticking bomb. So once again, thank you Universe for my Dad and the reminder.
But still the OWB has to go in the fire.
KingJr, there are a multitude of possibilities.
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{{{essa}}}} What does that thing do - heat his house? Sorry for my ignorance, but that just screams CARCINOGEN!!!!
Seriously, kingrjr66 we need to make a road trip and take this thing down for Essa....Let's see... I'm in GA and driving to IN - I can be there Thurs a.m.?? Bringing the baseball bat....
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Would love to also, but in NY and still in treatments.....g-d dang I want so bad to take it down but a sledge hammer or an explosive would work better. Better yet, would like to see this guy get a piece of his own medicine. Wishfull thinking that the "carcinogen" may give him cancer down the road and then he'd wish he dismantled it when good neighbor Essa asked him too. Never want to wish cancer on someone but this wishfull thinking is for a good cause. Essa so sorry for your plight.
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Essa - OMG, I so feel for you! What a horrible predicament!
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madpeacock, I am on your way to IN - in TN - just stop by and pick me up and we can do some serious damage to that OWB! GGRRRRRR!!!! (I am WOMAN, hear me ROAR!!!)
Wishing everyone else a nice gentle warm by the fire as we weclome spring (er, is that summer??? - I think we missed spring).
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Well ladies I'm done with rads and I guess with tradition there are a few things to throw into the fire. First are the tats because I don't want to be reminded. I will always have a spot in the back of my mind so I don't need a visural to remind me. Next the god awful rock hard table I had to lie on for 6 weeks. could never get up from it without a helping hand and my back is killing me from it. also want to throw in their static charged hospital gowns. Sparks flew from my fingers after taking off those things and touching the door handles to the dressing rooms. next is the marker pens they used on my last week of booster rads. I was subjected to black, silver and blue paint ink. the silver was like glitter from the 80's disco era. I took a picture of my breast with that on it. Glitter bullseye. Next would be the 100% aloe vera and the acquaphor. Those gels clogged my poors and I will need a good apricot scrub to clear them out once my breast heals a little more. Of course the uncomfortable sports bras will go in. I will keep the cheapo Fruit of the Loom ones (man they are comfortable) for now, until I have a chance to find good non-underwire bras (done with underwire). Would also like to throw in the SE's. Goodbye fratigue, itchy peeling dry skin, nerve pain, and sunburn. although I really did luck out because, besides the nerve pain, I did not have any servere SE's. Geez, throw in the weekly weigh-ins. Did not want to be reminded how much I weigh but one good thing that came out of these treatments is that I did lose a pound a week. WooHoo to that....now I have to keep it up. Best throw in is the co-pays - $175/week....better yet, I'll keep those in my pocket.
Been a long but quick 6 weeks and I'm glad it's over.
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Congrats on finishing rads! I'd like to throw in the awkwardness of walking around in a gown before and after rads in front of male patients, husbands, and a convict and his guards. Back fat exposed, saggy boobs barely covered by the thin material. Glad that is over with!
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Congrats!!! Putting on my orthopedic happy dance shoes so I can dance the night away in celebration of both of your rads completion!!!
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throwing in the endless tornado sirens tonight, but maybe a tornado will carry away the OWB, if it would only be selective and leave all the rest unharmed.....
thank you for your ill-wishes toward the OWB, you would be welcome guests, and believe me I have wanted to do much harm to the thing, but the man is also off-mentally in a way, he has been over here with his rifle to find out who was in our yard when he knew we were not home, he threatens people, beat his wife, he has an attack dog by the OWB and he has informed me there are several ways to break into my home, even though brick. Yelling at him was not the smartest thing I have done all year. Today I had out the binoculars trying to see smoke or heat from the stack, couldn't. Thought maybe he put it out after yesterday's altercation. But NO, tonight there it went, in 80 degree weather.
I am glad you are both done with the rads.
into the bonfire, the black bra that doesn't even pretend to still fit on the right boob, one great big hollow side.
into the bonfire all the empty bottles of stuff I have been taking for nine months, I never throw anything out it seems.
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kingjr - CONGRATS!!! I was reading your post when I was doing my daily walk, and it cracked me up!!! Love it and agree with it all...throw it ALL into the fire!!!
Tonight, I'd like to throw something into the fire...my feeling lately like I'm a burden to my husband and friends. I can tell my dear hubby - who has been my rock through this and always has been - is starting to crack a bit under the pressure. This is not good, as I just found out I have to get chemo...which means things are about to get much worse for 4 more months. I'm trying to figure out how to not put so much stress on him. So throwing in my hubby's stress for him and my feelings of guilt for all the crap we've gone through together since my diagnosis!
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YAY king!!! I had Mammosite, which has its own fun set of complications, but I can't even begin to know what external rads are like for SIX WEEKS! I do know what it feels like to be DONE, though, so celebrate!
dancetrancer - hope the fire gives your hubby some calming thoughts. I know mine is one to keep things in. When I was first diagnosed, he jumped right in and kept busy with finding the best doctors, made phone calls and set up appointments, communicated with friends/family, etc. His family are "hoverers" when someone is sick/hurt/had surgery. They're constantly fussing with things, trying to do every little thing for you, and just being there. They don't want you to read, do needlework, watch TV, or anything. Just lie there and be sick. That makes me crazy. My family is the complete opposite - "call if you need me". My MIL lives with us and was constantly saying "Don't you lift that/do that/get up/get down on the floor/breathe/blah/blah/blah." If I had to sit still with just my thoughts to keep me company I would have walked out and found the nearest bus to jump in front of. Sheesh.
Marilyn - you made me remember something. My rads center has separate waiting rooms for men and women, but you would occasionally pass in the hallway going towards the treatment area. Men were there for prostate rads and they were walking around in their gowns with skinny butts hanging out and dress socks & shoes. Had to giggle. Then there was the older lady with stage IV BC. Completely bald, in a wheelchair, on oxygen - but just talktalktalktalktalk. You knew everything about her in five minutes. Your end was limited to "Really?" "Wow!" "Um-hmn"...
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to all, Jo, Vr Just got a call from my insurance RN case manager. SX approved by them in less than one day after submittal. So, moving along. "Let it be". I've given it up to God. I was severly depressed about it. Then finally decided to give it to god and I will just follow along.
Going to go and say some prayers of thanksgiving. L&H's&P's all this has been a long journey. For those that don't know , I found out about the brain tumor the same day as the breast bx Jan23 2009. Watchful waiting since. It showed by MRI in Sept 2011 that it was growing. It's taken from then till now to get here. It doesn't have Malignancy characterestics which are "no edema or Mass effect", but we all know until the final path report is in , we worry. -----SAS
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Sas, I'm glad you got the approval. OK, I'll use the excuse of chemobrain because I forgot what sx you need.
And into the fire with chemobrain! Yeah, it's better but that's just by comparison to what it was.
Leah
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SAS... Sending gentle hugs your way....and prayers...sprinkled with a bit of humor to brighten your journey! When you are finished with THIS present detour....start thinking about your trip to NY... think Beer Pong, Bongs and BROOKLYN pizza!
I'm wishing you well.......
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