2013 Survivors!!!
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Aruba hahha!! love the pic.. will post it on my FB (ya know I'm the skinny fiber lady making all those millions of postings rofl) this is a good one! Happy you get time with DD!!! After the past few years of negatives (a few lovely positives though) i'm finally living in a great place and its WALkING distance to my #2DD & DGkiddies!! the other are actually closer drive than before so that's heaven !! I've an indoor pool but need to get a proper suit etc.. there's a gym.. so hmmm lol
I've been so busy lately, but do think of you all all the time!
I'm in everyones' pockets wherever you may go, I'm along side of your laughter and lending a shoulder when that is replaced by tears!
so after 3 mths of complaining about the mysterious 3 lumps in my mid/side ab... I took a photo & showed to Dr. finally got booked for a U/S but not until Dec 16th!! it all started in June/13 with 3 reddish marks, no lumps felt, now they're quite long & large, not sticking out too far but is noticable... seems to be more so after I've eaten. so very very odd.. not likely Lipoma's as they grow very slowly. doubt it's anything of the C category.. but the kicker is they're getting bigger and I am SO NOT a candidate for any type of surgery.. so guess I will wait & see what's what.. but I have to go back to tell ya.. this new Dr.. got me very upset a month ago, I had a large stent in my artery(hrt) in Sept & he'd said we'd deal wth these odd lumps after that, when time came he decided he wasn't going to do anything about them.. ummm HELLO jerk?? I AM a CSurvivor, not one check on my chest in a long time and then to poo-poo this.. really really ticked me off, especially since the previous Dr said, oh just wait, and don't worry about the lump in your breast.. what are these guys?? geesh lol..
I'm grateful I can advocate for myself, but what about the ppl that are too shy or just believe and go along with everything the Dr's say without question.. and just don't have a voice.. so sad.
I KNOW (well I'm pretty sure) these lumps have nothing to do with Cancer, but then why is it always nagging at my brain!!??? I don't know if I can upload a photo or not. and not sure if you'd be able to see em.
hope you all have a great weekend!!
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Popping in to say that I had the pleasure of meeting MarianElizabeth today for mint tea - she is beautiful! I am so glad we had the chance to meet while she was here in Calgary.
Ramols - hope you and everyone else here were able to find your happy this weekend.
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Just loading the photo onto my computer, Websister but it will have to wait until after yoga for me to try to put it here. It was so nice to meet you and we were lucky to have been so close in distance in Calgary to make it happen. Always fun to meet up with sisters!0 -
OK, I am going to try to upload the photo of Marian and myself - wish me luck
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Marian and myself meeting yesterday for tea -" />0 -
Hmmm - having trouble - the preview looked good, picture was there - I will try again0 -
Trying again
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Yay for Websister! I could not share it with her from iPhoto, when I tried to attach it to an email, it did not show up on iPhoto and I finally copy/pasted it to an email to Websister. Good thing I have an Apple class tomorrow. Then Memory and Attention class with a couple of other BCO buddies!0 -
Great picture gals!
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Lovely pic websister and marian! Websister - I had to work really hard to find my happy this weekend. Managed to scrounge up a few moments - but this darn anxiety... Doing a bit better today finally though. Looking forward to chatting with my MO tomorrow and finding someone to talk to. I think my brain is finally taking some time to slow down and process this past year and a half and it is not holding up as well as I'd like. When I'm in the thick of the swirling emotions - can't tell if it is anxiety or depression or a mix of both. But there have been times over the past week where the desire to just crawl into my bed and hide from life has been a bit overwhelming. Not good - so I'm going to get help and nip it in the bud. Fortunately work and my kids make me push myself not to give into those desires to hide - but the strength I've had to muster up to push myself has been alarming for me. My poor hubby is concerned as I've always been a rock according to him. But he is being very supportive. Oddly - everything in my life seems to be too much for me right now except for him. If anything - I feel like this mental state I've reached has brought us closer. Anyway - I'm rambling at this point. But it feels good to get it out. Hope you're all feeling good and finding you're happy. I'll get mine back soon - I promise!0 -
Ramols - wish I could give you a hug in person but a virtual one will have to do for now. You are an incredibly strong person. Hope the MO refers you to someone really good. So glad DH is supportive, let him be your rock and be very gentle with yourself, you do not need to be a superstar right now - you just need to get through each day - breathe0 -
Greetings Ladies! Another really big hats off to Tazzy. My intention was to check in while we were out of town but have you ever noticed that time flies really fast, especially when you are away! We are driving home, another 9 hour trip tomorrow. I'm ready. It's been great but I'm tired out. I will miss the beautiful blue skies the most.
Websister and Marian - love your photo! You are both so cute, love seeing you close up. Photobucket isn't working for me. I need classes too.
Ramols - you are so busy. Maybe being tired is adding to your anxiety. I'm glad you are talking to your MO and hope you get some good suggestions. Sending gentle hugs your way.
Aruba - Beir Haus was a good suggestion, it might be my new favorite.0 -
I just read on Facebook that Stride has passed away. I am dumb founded and in shock. It was just August that she relayed to us that her cancer had spread. My thoughts are with her dear husband and family.0 -
OMG, Joanne, those words just came out loud. Thank you for letting us know and yes thoughts need to be with her family now.0 -
So sorry to hear this news, Joanne - thanks for letting us know, my thoughts and prayers are definitely with her family.0 -
I wrote a note to Strides husband and this was his response.
Joanne,
Celia drew a lot of strength and comfort from the discussion boards. You all helped her navigate. When she didn't understand something about food or chemo or pain, that was her go-to place.
The speed of her decline over the past couple of months left us both unable to fully grasp what was going on. But she always remained in charge of her own case, researching and trying to understand. She was a very strong and independent woman.
Thanks to you and all the others for helping her.
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thanks for sharing the message from her DH, Joanne0 -
Thanks for letting us know Joanne... Very sad...
Websister - thanks for the virtual hugs - I feel them. Today is the first morning of my plan to get up a 1/2 hour before my house rises to have some me time, do some exercises, watch the news, ease into my day. So far so good - very much enjoyed my early morning me time!
And Believe - thanks for your note too.
You ladies really are all the best. A true lifeline. Go find your happy today!0 -
Dear Celia....may you rest in peace now. My condolences to her family and friends. You will be missed.
Jo, thanks for sharing the letter......0 -
In memory of Stride:0 -
Thinking of our dear sister Stride and her family today.
One big group hug gals in Strides honor ((((((((HUGS))))))))
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I am so angry over the loss of Stride. I KNOW we will all die eventually, i know that. Why is that it seems like the ones who pass are the "good" ones? I know God has already chosen when someone will pass. Why did he spare me from being terminal? I believe in God and love my God, I'm just very angry/sad about this. Makes me reflect on my own mortality.
Stride- you will be missed dearly, i am thankful for getting to know you and you coming into my life. May you rest in peace without pain. We love you!
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So sad to hear this news. Celia supported others often even with all the turmoil she was going through herself. I did get to learn more about her when she PM'd the getting to know you questions asked in May. A lovely lady who will be sorely missed. Condolences to her family and friends and a group hug to all of you.
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Love the pic websister & marian!! you look like you could be related!! it's great some are able to get together!!
Condolences to all who've lost friends & loved ones
It seems to be that time of year? since Nov 14 3 people & 1 is dying & 1 dog have passed or close to it. 2 of the 3 was cancer!
My cousin was only 42 & my cousin - in - law (not related to each other) had colon cancer was 55
yes we will all go and being angry is perfectly normal Chrisrenee will be praying for you and all who are suffering with grief.0 -
I've not talked to anyone about this, and you all are only ones seems can understand. As I posted the photos of my ab with the lumps
it's all really starting to bother me, as since the photo they've grown & laying on my stomach/side I could really feel how big the bottom one is.
I keep telling myself it can't be anything bad.. but it's needleing me in the brain as they're growing too fast now & can't imagine what they could be! my appt for the ultra sound isn't until Dec 16th, so I'll see if I can get on a cancellation list.
I've not told anyone in the family about them, waiting to hear they're no biggy. Feeling angry that it took 3mths of bugging Dr, arguing with him & then the photos finally got him into action.
Am I being negative thinking a possible scenario of C?0 -
Oh! fuck that is so sad. But I have always said, if it were me, I wanna go quick... no lingering. Fucking awful news !!
Hugs all you sisters and as Ramols says.... go find your happy !
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websister & marian.... looking beautiful ladies.0 -
Cher I didn't say anything when you posted the pics because I'm no expert by any means, but my gut feeling was that it looked like an allergic reaction of some kind. Is there any itching? Has that skin come into contact with anything different lately? I don't really think that BC tends to spread to the skin, and I don't really think that skin cancer looks like that, but of course it's only natural for your mind to go there, any of us would be the same. I'm upset for you that you have to wait 3 more weeks to get answers! We are all in your pockets for the waiting and the ultrasound.0 -
Hi Jennie93 Thanks hun.. there is nothing wrong with the skin and actually that is the skin pushing out from the lumps inside. the skin is fine, except sometimes there is a reddish hue, . no itching, no pain, no moving them, no squishy-ness, can actually feel the outer sides and circumference
((I said no pain but that's when touching/pushing, but I am starting to get aching/discomfort feeling & it feels kinda like when I had benign tumors in my ovaries.. like something bigger than what is supposed to be there kinda feel) make sense?
thanks for responding and jumping in my pocket!!0 -
Cher- they imaging place cant get you in any sooner than 12/16? I find that to be quiet disturbing. I would probably call and see if they've had any cancellations, I'm a pushy broad and I know that (and ok with it ). Definitely call them. My sister went to my PS and he said hers was a lipoma and removed it and sent it off for pathology. Jumping in too!
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