CRAZY TOWN WAITING ROOM - TESTS coming up? All Stages Welcome.
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Katy, don't add the burden of thinking you let us down to your issues - stop that right now! Mom has spanked you lol. I get it - deal with my step daughter with the same issues. If you can't vocalize, you internalize, which is not good. Hopefully doc will have some suggestions. If you lived by me, I would come get you, drag you out somewhere. Feel my leash pulling on you? And then give you a big hug, at least a 30 second one because that's how long it takes for the feel good moment. So visualize at least a 30 second hug coming your way from me. A little back rub, head rub, and I'm cracking an egg on your head, using my fingers to let it drip down your head in a peaceful soothing way
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Jack,
You are not letting anyone down everybody has the right to think of themselves when things are tough mentally and physically. If we don't have our own backs what have.we got?! Meanwhile, I'm so glad you called the doctor. We are all here for you
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Katy, what Italy said. Sorry I live on the other side of the continent. SO glad you called your shrink--do you have an appointment scheduled?
Glad you're checking in here no matter what! Someone is always here....
Heading into the city for MO appt. and will check in later.
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Katy, It's not about being self centered, and you're certainly not letting ANYONE down. You're battling something that's extremely difficult. I applaud you for reaching out to us. I think it's a good idea you call your doctor. Your loved ones are visiting because they know you need some extra encouragement. Gentle hugs sweet Katy. WE are all holding you close - you WILL get to the other side.
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Rain, In your pocket for your MO visit. Please let us all know how it goes. Thinking of you!!
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I called the only person I know in this town. She's nice. She knows about the bp
She's on her way over. No appt. yet. Got vm but he is good about calling.
Thanks for the hug and the tug Theresa, Sula, Rainny, Beppy. I am so rich with your friendship it's beyond me how I can feel this way. The tears are streaming.
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Katy
So glad you called the doc and the person you know and that she is coming to be with you.
We are here even though it's of us are far we are right by your side.
Tears are so healing let them stream.
Hugs sweet sister
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Katy so sorry.. Wish there was something I could say or do.. but I'm glad you have someone coming to be with you. (Hugs)
Rainny.. in your pocket too ( if Slow squashes over a bit to make room! ) Hope all.goes well.
Gaia.. I think it is just beautiful how you are feeling about your wedding.. It's exactly how you should be feeling :-)
Slow... How long until your DD and BF make their move back?? Of course you had the right to save your kids baby teeth.. like you say, ypu paid good money for them.. HaHa 😃
It's 4.45 am.'here.. . Been awake for about 2 hours.. playing on my phone . I've got my head and phone under the blankets so the light doesn't wake Hubby.. hmm. I sure hope he doesn't fart 😱😃:-)
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Katy, just going to echo what the others said. Sending love and in your pocket. I am glad you called someone. I love you. we are here for you
Hugs!
Octogirl
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Jack, you are not letting me or any of us down. Do not even think that way, PT is there when or if you feel like it. Glad you called to pals to come over. Please do not hide from the folks who are there to help you.
me and the back, just back from my acupuncture visit. Do think or maybe I am just being positive, think it is helping, they think I should try the chiro as one hip is higher and that may be contributing to all my shit so next week......better to fool with all this stuff than to take dang pills
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Gaia, you are a woman in love! Hubby was my second husband too, and yeah, the first was a whole different story.
I like February too. Actually, it is my second favorite month after October. (it is my birthday month, and of course, there is Valentine's Day...and this next year is another leap year again...)
Octogirl
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Katy: another 'you're not letting us down', and good that you've reached out to your psychiatrist(?) and to the IRL person in the town where you live. Despond is an entirely normal reaction to all we've been through, in the sense of a neurotypical mental response. And you've got more to deal with in that regard than many of us!
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Octogirl...Gaia...this is my 2nd marriage, and this time, I am married to a REAL man. The first marriage was a scam, but I have a wonderful son who is 29 years old. My husband is an absolute real keeper. I couldn't find a better man to be married too. The funny thing is we were friends first...for many years. I loved him as a brother figure, and he loved me as a sister. But a group of us when on a cruise and he came to pick up my girlfriend and I from the cabin wearing a black tuxedo. Don't know what happened, but I wasn't seeing him as a little brother anymore. We were married 10 months later and I was 54 at the time. It's wonderful to feel adored and loved. Slow...he is definitely a keeper.
Sula...Katy...I am feeling a little bit better.
Mariasnow...how was your checkup? Hope everything went well.
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proudtospin...I am being seen now in the pain management clinic. So sick and tired of popping pain pills. Sometimes I just deal with it using Motrin. I take so many of them I am sure I will develop a stomach ulcer. at least that is what my MO says. So my life consists of going to work, sitting all day and back home. My DH and I do go out often on the weekends, but I can do very little walking.
Jackbirdie...I am going to PM you with my phone number.
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GOOD Katy. I'm glad you called someone to come over.
Try and focus on the laughter right now. Get a visual image of Lucy with her phone, under the covers, hoping that her husband doesn't pass gas!!! That is so funny. Laughter is such a wonderful thing we have in our lives. It's a wonderful distraction.
Lucy, it may be just a couple of weeks, or maybe a month. I'm squishing as much as I can, but please remember I've got that HUGE 3/4 butt and it takes up A LOT of room!!
Katy, I'm going to tell you a funny story. I want you to focus on this story until your friend gets there. I think I told this to Ducky once. One day before I was diagnosed, I fixed my hair in a french braid. It looked so good. I did it myself and I was so impressed with how it came out. I had to go run some errands. Each time I was running my errand, people were looking at the back of my hair. I really thought it was looking pretty good. They would look and smile at me and it made me feel pretty good because i just knew they were admiring the wonderful job I did on my french braid. They aren't easy to do on yourself. I thought I would wear my hair like that more often. Men were smiling, women and even a few younger kids.Well, when I got home I decided to take a look at it in the mirror. That's when I realized I had my shirt INSIDE OUT!! There was this big ol tag sticking straight out for everyone to SEE!!!!! They weren't smiling at my hair, they were laughing at my TAG!!!!!!!!
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Then there was the time my brother and I were laughing at my dads funeral. It certainly isn't a funny thing when someone passes away, especially your father, but something came over the two of us. Each time the minister said something, we were hysterical. I had to cover my eyes and mouth so people thought I was crying. We tried not to look at each other, and I don't know what was so darn funny, but we just got into one of those laughing jags. So picture that....everyone very sad at my dads funeral. There we were, laughing our asses off. That sounds so bad and I can't believe I shared it. We just could not stop!!
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And speaking of gas.....there was the time my mom and I were exercising together. I was doing the exercise where you lie on your back and pretend like you're riding a bike. I was very young....well before my teens. Well, my mom couldn't do that on her own. She couldn't hold up her legs so she asked me to help her. My face was positioned perfectly and guess what???? YEP....I'm sure you already know. Needless to say, I never helped with that exercise again. We laughed about that one for years!!! Have I mentioned what a character my mom was?
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I have more funny stories, but I see you logged off two hours ago. I hope your friend is with you now!
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okay that was really awkward.......
I was helping a coworker take work supplies down to her car in the garage of our building and she asked me in front of another coworker, what stage my bc was diagnosed in.
Is this a politically correct question?
I think not - and I am so slow thinking on my feet when people are inappropriate.......................
What has happened to decorum in our society?
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not politically correct and not something you should answer unless you feel like it
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Katy,
I just now went back and saw your posts. Never feel bad, the things you share, mirror moments and feelings, thoughts that we all have had. Your incredible honesty and exposure helps me . Please let us know how we can be there for you, because your important!
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Slow...you have me farting from laughing so hard. Now this is crazy, but the hubby and I are notorious for it and we laugh so hard every time it happens. We are so romantic he says...I say we are just comfortable with each other. I told you I was crazy
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Shorfi, if you were my neighbor, I would be at your house as often as you would let me.
(((((Katy)))), for one reason, you have been on my mind all morning. Once, I had a lot going on, and I was working at a women's homeless shelter, my boss there was a perceptive and good woman. She told me it was okay to cry, and that sometime I should just try crying until there was nothing left. A few months later I got my chance. I just cried and sobbed, and big wracking heaving couldn't get my breath hot tear sobbing. I was crying about EVERYTHING. I don't know for how long, but I think I got a little sleep before the sun came up. I woke up with a empty feeling. It was sort of like there was no sorrow left. like I was new. It was like there was a clear calmness in the middle of me.
Slow, I loved your story of laughing with your brother! Me and my brother and sister had a similar incident as young adults. They had dragged me to this pastor kind of tent religious gathering, and the pastor would say a few things, earnestly, and it would just set me off, I don't know why. My brother kept watching me, but he was susceptible to my laughing, and we could not look at each other, or there we would go again. My sister was trying to act all prim and proper but it infected her too, I had to leave.... I didn't want to disrupt everybody more than I already had. I could not tell you to this day, what I found so funny. Just the laughter would just burble up, no matter how ferociously I tried to think of something else. Whew! Now that was a laugh- fest!
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Goodness, it's crowded in my pocket with all of you in here. But I thank you.
Well, I had good news today. I'd been told that more chemo would follow the surgery (AC, so I was not looking forward to that), but because the path report was NED, I'm off the hook and get to start rads instead. I'm not complaining! I get to keep the new hair! I guess the most telling part was that I asked the MO if she expected this response, and she said no; it was a very aggressive cancer. So, I know, as we all do, that there are no guarantees, but I will take this as the gift that it is. I'll also continue with Herceptin/Perjeta for a year, very mindful of the fact that the latter was approved only three years ago and I'm so fortunate to have access to it.
And, just because the universe likes to even things out, it has been growing on me for a couple of weeks that one of my teeth is NOT happy; I suspect I have a root canal coming. But hey--at least it won't be a root canal while undergoing chemo.
Now get out of my pocket for pete's sake so I can sit down!
Katy, what everyone else said. Hope you're getting to a better place, and please keep reaching out to us!
Gaia, all the 30-year-olds I know are sick to death of weddings, but I love hearing about them!
And I love all of these 2nd marriage stories!
Yeah, it's an exclamation mark kind of a day....
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Katy, sending good Juju your way... reiterating what everyone said. Hope doc returned your call and friends provided you with a shoulder to cry on and an open ear.
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NED, dance with NED rainny. So happy for the path report!!
Just a thought... We know the H causes the dripping nose so perhaps with the change in seasons and the endless sniffling maybe the sinuses are protesting and the tooth pain is referred.
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Katy, not sure how people know you are logged off, I haven't figured that out. But when you do log in, here's another fart story. Okay, maybe two. When I was 15, my boyfriend and I would blow into each other's mouth when we kissed, don't ask, I don't know why. Anyway, one day a group of us were standing around at lunch and I went to give him the kiss/blow technique, and when I did it I farted loud in front of everybody. So I became known as the girl who farts when she kisses. And I have an absolute mortification of farting in front of people.
Second story. Daughter was 16 and liked this cute hot guy from school. He was over one day and I was into fitness. So I told them here, let me show you these new sit ups I learned. And you guessed it, loud long fart. Beet red face! All my kids bring that story up when they want to roast me a bit.
Up in Big Bear right now, and yes, pretty bad gas cancer.
Hugs, sister Katy. Love you!
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hey Crazies....
Checking in now. Done w/ work today, then there was a dental appt ( just cleaning) so finally home and have my feet up.
Jack/ Katy hope you're doing better , and you managed to talk with your dr. I'm glad you called a friend to come be with you.
Rainn,
Glad you're NED and no more chemo!!! There are so many new things they're working on and I've heard great things from the women at my doctors office who are on perjeta. Onward and upward to rads.
Gaia,
I have been drooling over that Stone Fox bridal site. Omg!!! It's all such gorgeous stuff. I love the fact that it's not all "weddingy" very sophisticated and elegant stuff! You've got me wanting to renew my vows just to buy stuff from there. You will be a lovely bride.
Slow,
I am glad to hear there's another family out there like mine. I remember sitting at my younger ( only) sisters funeral back in Dec 2010... My mother who never really got along well with my sister turned to me and in a very " unfuneral" voice said.... "Well, it's all yours now!" I tried to sush her... No dice "Yep, it's all yours, " like I was inheriting the throne of England or something... This from a woman who had a house full of furniture she got from Green Stamps. Lady Bountiful. Lucky me.
I love the French braid story... I was hosting a dinner party a couple of months ago happily showing off how 'well and back on my feet " I was and it wasn't until I'd gone upstairs after everyone had gone home.. I discovered my lovely embroidered Indian top was inside out too... So I feel ya...
Shorfi and Tom...too bad I'm not back in LA, right now, I think we could get into some serious trouble.
Kathy,
It always shocks me the stuff people feel comfortable asking one. One answer could be... "Why, have you had breast cancer?" But of course I don't know if I'd have known what to say if I was on the spot. I get the feetgalife has turned into one big reality show where we all just "share" maybe that's it. I'm with Proud you don't need to answer anybody.
Waving to Ducky, and Lucy and Octo...
Any of you have big plan/ any plans this weekend? I'm throwing an Indian luncheon Sunday afternoon so I'll be cooking.
Well... I'm around trying to relax...and trying to keep up with all of you
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Happy Dance for Rain!!!!! Good news indeed!!!!
sort of feels like I should say 'of course you are cooking' to Sula. Send pics for the rest of us, ok?
(((((((((Katy)))))))))
Tomboy, love your stories about laughing with your brother...I have a similar one... my eldest sister's wedding (this was years and years ago) was Hindu...sort of. Long story. In any case, the ceremony involved lots of pauses with meditation. LONG pauses. and it went on for a LONG time...which of course had one of the other sisters and me in a bind: we couldn't look at each other without laughing, but what else were we suppose to do during the pauses?...anyway, apparently we weren't the only ones who didn't quite get the program: Most of the family present were Jewish and some were a bit confused. Finally, at some point about 30 minutes into the ceremony, a confused uncle of the groom sitting behind me whispered in my ear: "Excuse me... do you know if that is a priest or a rabbi?" I whispered back that the officiant was a Yogi (I did say it was 'sort of a Hindu ceremony, right?).....and next thing I know BIL's Uncle was stage whispering loud enough for everyone in the room to hear, to his wife, "Ethel....He isn't a Rabbi....He's A YOGI." My poor sister and I just couldn't stop laughing after that!! Even today, if I say, "He's a YOGI" she will start laughing!
by the way, that was many, many years before I met Hubby. Thank God. Hubby does the best Yogi Bear impression I have ever seen, and I think he would have been quite tempted to respond to the stage whispering with something like, "What's that you say, BooBoo? Shall we go have a picn-a-nic?"
Hope that image brings a smile to your face, Katy, and to all the crazies!
Octogirl
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Waving back Sul..........hope your ok..................................0
