Light from around the world for LongTermSurvivor/Stephanie
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Oh Stephanie I am thinking of you. I hope you are comfortable Hugs and lovingkindness your way.
rosevalley
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I'm hanging in there, Rosevalley.
It's working to have a nurse come to flush and drain me daily, though I'm slowly adjusting to the required, additional daily demand. Everything takes so much energy now - exhausting.
Healing light and love for all, Stephanie
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Thinking of you
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Healing light and love to you Stephanie! I am praying things get easier for you, instead of more difficult.🙏
Melanie
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Stephanie, you are so loved, and you are amazingly able to share your wisdom and insights even though your own pain and decline.
S'more and I rested at this bench yesterday, and I thought of you, and sent prayers and love your way.
The inscription reads:
Placed with love for
Patrick R. Scatuorchio
May the sun shine
May the sun shine indeed. Madelyn
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Stephanie- How are you? Is your drain working? Pain and nausea controlled? I hope your care givers, friends and family are surrounding you with love and care. Blessings and love to you. rosevalley
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good morning Stephanie. Are your care givers taking good care of you? You are surrounded by a lot of love everywhere.
Mary Anne
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Thinking of you today dear Stephanie. Xoxo
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Woke up thinking of you this morning Stephanie. I've learned so much from you and didn't want a miss a chance to say thank you. You've been a blessing to the boards and I look forward to hearing what else you have to share.
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Oh wow!
It's been over a week since I've checked in.
Life is very good, deeply healing, focused on sleeping.
A hospice nurse comes daily to flush my indwelling drain and I'm not in too much pain.
Increased methadone and morphine, but still alert, eating, pooping, drinking and barely peeing.
Well, that's what nurses want to know - baby talk - sleep, drink, eat, poop, sleep, smile, gurgle, drain, sleep, cry tears of joy.
It's a cycle that works for me now.
Summer food is over-the-top amazing - melon, peaches, plums, berries, tomatoes, figs, lemons, squash, herbs.
It doesn't take much to send every cell in my being into ecstasy - what a nice place to be while I still have a body.
All vibrates in intense aliveness and I'm so grateful for this too!
The kindness of my loved ones and hospice team (they're all starting to mix up now!), moves me to tears of joy...a wonderful way to be washed clean!
Will have to see how this all unfolds, but all feels good, because even the pain is a challenge to learning and evolution.
Thank you all so much for your continued kind thoughts, wishes, meditations, prayers, photos and stories! It's wonderful to be remembered and included.
warm love, Stephanie
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Joining the circle of love and caring for you! Thrilled you checked in with us. I am so happy to hear you are fading well with joy and support. You wanted to die with focus and meaning and you are doing just that. What an inspiration. May you rest comfortably and be at peace.
rosevalley
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mmmm fresh figs, what a treat! ((Stephanie))
Here's a nice view of the confluence of the Mississippi and Wisconsin Rivers at Wyalusing State Park in the beautiful Driftless region of southwest WI.
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Stephanie, I'm so happy to hear that your life continues to unfold and amaze you.
We are enjoying the summer season here in "the Garden State" with so much fresh fruit and vegetables. And then I realize you must have so much more fresh fruits and veggies available in your state of California. And I am happy for you.
I will share some of our own backyard fresh Jersey tomatoes with you.
Happy Summer, and love and light to you. Madelyn
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Here is my favorite place (I am the shadow taking the pictures in the left corner). Sending good thoughts & prayers your way.
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Ruth: Had you not explained in the bottom of the picture, it would be a scary one!
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Kind of unusual even when explained!
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Irish wildflowers.
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Peace and love for you Stephanie. This is my favorite nearby place. I love the ascending fog. (Santa Cruz mountains, Quicksilver Park, Almaden Valley area.)
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For Stephanie.... poppies in Beaver Creek, Colorado.... XOXO love, Andi
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Stephanie, I've been thinking of you daily here is a picture taken at the Basilica in downtown Baltimore where I said a prayer for all of us MBC sisters.
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Chemo day for me and I sat there thinking about all my sisters here and wishing them healing and fortitude and lots of love. Healing in a wholistic way not necessarily cures (although I wouldn't turn one down!!) - but healing of the heart, mind and soul. As you have pointed out and taught us, one can be dying and healing at the same time. All you have shared through out your short time here on the boards have taught me so much and added new thoughts and ideas. Thank you! Stephanie may you be at peace, pain free and loved.
rosevalley
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Dear bco friends,
All continues to go well for me. Am sleeping most of the time on most days, but made it to the oncologist two days ago. My liver has nearly filled the right side of my abdomen and is pushing into the left. I asked him how long can this go on and he replied lots longer. Yikes!
Am touching, rubbing, holding, caressing and tasting everything I can while still embodied, because I'm increasingly aware of this transient state called life!
There have been so many things I've wondered about how people see, feel, experience, approach EOL (end-of-life). For several years I was a volunteer hospital chaplain just to get close to folks at EOL. What lessons they taught me. Online support groups are odd because very few continue to check in as death approaches - yet, I believe a wide AND intimate exposure to different ways of dying strengthen me (you too?), so we can move more fluidly toward death.
Many surrounding me now have accompanied others toward the threshold of death and are prepared to send me on.
They are of great comfort (with-strength) to me. And I know that my ability to be present with the process comforts them too.
A few who resisted any talk or notion of my death or dying now have a gentle, kind, open gesture to holding on and letting go.
This is such a huge relief.
I've seen many at EOL who are ready to let go, but their loved ones aren't ready - so futile treatments are pursued, hours are spent away from home in medical institutions, loved ones are separated by physical and disease distances.
Fear of death is contagious.
I like to believe courage is too.
Let me lend you some of mine.
And I'll borrow some of yours.
And thank you for sharing images and stories of what you love, it truly expands our circles of love, dear bco friends!
Happy belated Lammas - pagan harvest festival. May those in the Northern Hemisphere savor the fruits of the season. And my those in the south take joy in Spring's becoming.
Circles of love for you too, Stephanie
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Thank you so much for your words. You have been an inspiration to me as well. Now that I am also metastatic I can only hope to be able to enjoy the things you have as well when my overall decline starts. You are simply amazing and again inspiring. Much love and blessings to you.
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I am so, so glad you are still checking in here, Stephanie. Sending thoughts of love and peace your way.
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Love, love, love. You've got it!
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