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  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    Dee, a big cyber hug to you, I am sorry you are having so much pain.  I can relate, having been cut five times in five months and the misery of those days to follow post-surgery.  I will pray for you too.  The lounge has the cutest little chapel. Who would like to come and worship with me?  I do thank God for each day although some days I feel like cursing at Him.

    Claire, you are something, you never stop.  I admire all you do with your cutoffs and deadlines then on top of that, you find time for yourself and still sleep at night! You are amazing.  As much as I complain about my job, I really am grateful to have a job waiting for me once my doc releases me yet again. I missed the big money making opportunity this year with mortgage rates being so low, I work on commission and had my worst year ever.  We are drowing in debt.  I bought an expensive car back in Feb last year and think about selling it. I had no idea that things would go downhill so fast financially. And working keeps me more sane as I have a sense of doing something very production where now, all  can do it sit around and adhere to my weight restrictions.  I can dust but it hurts.  I can do windows, but that would hurt.  So I just sit and do nothing and that is getting old again. Can you please give me some motivational tips at the lounge later this evening?

    Wahine, thanks for the explanation of dog beers.  I figured I should not be using a term that I am not familiar with.  I still have alot to learned about lounge lingo. I sometimes find myself writing things and say to myself, hmm, this almost sounds like a Beaniusism.  Like if I say weeeeeeeee! 

    Beans, where are you?  I will hunt you down.  I hope you are able to start taking your tamox like a good little green Bean. Then we can all gather for a toast.  Be sure to tell us when you take the whole pill so that we can toast ya!

    And where is Honky and Goldie?  I miss you girlz! 

    DH just pages me to tell me that I have a package in the mail.  It is my new boulder holders I purchased from herstore.com.  I love shopping there!! I am going to go and check out my new brassiere. Oh the excitement is too much. I am rambling here anyway.

    Here is a toast for our friend Junie ~~ Cheers, please know Junie that we have our tits up and are on your side wishing you a speedy recovery.  Be good and get back to the lounge, I miss your feedback and great pictures.~~ BOTTOMZ UP !!

  • hunkydory
    hunkydory Member Posts: 722
    edited January 2011

    Hello my chicas!  Prayers for Junie and Dee.  I am getting sick as shit of all this bad stuff.  Dorothy, you made me crack a big one though...smile that is with your boulder holder package.  Haven't heard that phrase for a loooooong time.  I also am so worried about Junie.  I can drink beer for her.....not to worry.  She is covered there.  Beans, I love ya and totally understand your anxiety about getting some kind of quick bad SE from Tammy!  That just is not gonna happen though!  I'm pretty sure!  I am still working and taking my antibiotics....so far I am holding up. Dr appt Friday with GP and then Monday with Surgeon.  I  will be at the lounge later...it is pizza night here at home so HD≠NO COOKING.  I traveled for work today so it was a long sit on my butt drive.  I seem more than happy to be resting, drinking my girl Junies share of beer tonight.  Junie, I love ya and you get that lung healed up ya hear!  How else are you going to be able to yell at the tenders for those buckets!  I know...we'll get them shock collars!  Weeeeeeee!  Hugs...HD

    Edited today to remove unsensitive poor humor!  Hugs to all...HD

  • hunkydory
    hunkydory Member Posts: 722
    edited January 2011
    Hey Dee...welcome back by the way.  Wink
  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    HD, I had a good laugh at you NOT drinking a half of beer You made me lol. No offense to Beans. I am glad you have the night off with cooking.

    Where is Beans, paging Beans, please report to the HTL, your friends are waiting.  We will not scold you either, even if you have only taken half of the tammy. Tammy loves you Beans and just wants to protect you, please let her help you!

    I am still embracing the excitement of my new bra, it fits perfect.  I like being able to buy a bra online and having it fit. My older boulder holders were not easy to find, I was stuck with the Wacoal brand and gosh, they were expensive.  I like being able to wear little skimpy things and not having at least four hooks across the back. Go me!  Who'd have thought. I hope the high of being nearly done with all of this does not wear off.

    Thanks Wahine for the update on Junie.  You all welcomed me here a few months ago with open arms and she was amongst the girls that keep me coming back! I love you all for being here to share things that no one else would comprehend. 

    Back to DH now, he is paging me again! He misses me when I am on here. He told me last night that he does not mind me hanging out at the lounge lol. He is so cute. I am glad to have his blessing though.

    I will be, as Hunky Dory and the Arnold would say, "bock".  talk later, loungettes. Will swing in to see you all a little later. Cheers! 

  • raincitygirl
    raincitygirl Member Posts: 700
    edited January 2011
    My understanding is that beans is heading out on a road trip~yay!
  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011
    Oh, that's right, I forgot.  thanks RainCityGirl Surprised.  btw, I was thinking about you WA girls with the big lottery, I was hoping one of you was a new next millinoraire.  Damn.
  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    Ahh, look what my doctor gave me! Do you think the barmen will make a fukitol fountain?? We can put it next to the perco-fountain. I thank my doctor for understanding just what I need. The little pill rocks!

  • raincitygirl
    raincitygirl Member Posts: 700
    edited January 2011

    DorothyK - that must be true - Beans won the lottery and hit the road Jack....:)

  • wahine
    wahine Member Posts: 7,590
    edited January 2011

    Good addition, Dorothy! I think we can all use some "Fukitol".  Esp with so many of the galz here having a horrible Monday....I second that..Pants, Jocks, you can put the "FUKITOL" fountain right here..... OMG looks like a stampede....think that might become one of our sign-offs, along with "BARMEN"(for Amen)! So....

    Fukitol!

    Barmen!

  • Beanius
    Beanius Member Posts: 1,494
    edited January 2011

    Love and hugs to all you beauties...thanks for your help...I'm on the road and will be thinking of you with best wishes, all!! ~Jean Bean

  • hunkydory
    hunkydory Member Posts: 722
    edited January 2011

    Bean, you are not mad at me are ya?  Hope you have a great trip......Hunkyhonkydory

  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    Howdie girlz,

    I am readying myself for bed, ahhh, nothing like a nice cushy bed to get into on a cold cold night.  Hey I sound like a poet, must be the Captain on board. Helllooo Captiain Morgan, sir. 

    Thanks for answering your page, Beans. We miss your presense, see you soon, have fun and eat your pb cups, and drink your milk. Good times for you is my wish. 

    HD, I doubt that anyone could ever be mad at you. You are the honkiest hunky of all and I think we all love ya.

    Good night Junie, sleep tight, we miss you.  Hope to see you soonly. Speaking of soonly, Good night Beans, Wahines and Honky-Hunky Dori-P-Diddy. G'night John-boy. G'night MaryEllen. G'night Claire and Dee. Good night to all loungettes. Chrissy B, thinking of you now. I will have the tenders serve you up the best meal ever once you are allowed to eat. I am sending you seven dog beers too, the boys know to serve them cold when the time come. Cheers everyone, tits up and if all else fails, fukitol. (I hope the line for it is shorter tomorrow). Nighy night girlz! Peace n love to ya'll.

  • karen1956
    karen1956 Member Posts: 4,619
    edited January 2011

    DH and DS left for Hawaii early Monday morning....yesterday was orientation...one for students and one for parents....DH was so psyched and pleased what he heard....today DS registered for some classes and took a math placement test...he has to finish registering for classes tomorrow and he also moves into the dorm....it is an alcohol free apt/dorm....how is he going to survive!!!  DH is in a funk today...we just talked for a long time...DH sounds like a little mother hen all worried about her baby!!!!  Seriously, DH is feeling the loss of DS being so far away and worried about DS getting homesick etc....Me I get it intellectually, but things don't face me....just so flat emotionally...don't feel like I should...

    I have been sooo tired all week....And feeling too lazy to bother tidying up the kitchen...dishwasher needs emptying and there are a few dishes in the sink that I have no desire to mess with...oh well there is always tomorrow!!!  I'm working tomorrow and not too thrilled about it...but the extra money will be nice...My regular schedule is only 3 days/week, but one of my schools asked if I would help out by working the extra day, so I said yes in a weak moment..,.but it is only temporary....I told DH if we needed the money (and it wouldn't hurt), I work increase my schedule, but otherwise I want to stay at 3 days/week....to me 4 days, I might as well be full-time.  Took DD out to eat tonight...we went to Olive Garden....we generally go to Sweet Tomatoes, Sooper Salad, Noodles and Co...we both have lunch for tomorrow....

    Speaking of anniversaries....I was Dx 2/3/06...but the nightmare started about 10 days before that...I had my mammo then 3 days later was called back....then the spot compression mammo to ultrasound to biopsy to Dx...so for me, in January, I start thinking about it all...it all started on 1/26 when I saw the caller id on my cell phone to call the mammo place back...I new it was not good news as I already had my appt.....I'm coming up on 5 years and it just doesn't seem real!!!  Sometimes I think I waiting to wake up from a bad, bad nightmare!!!!  Oh how I have changed!!!

    Sorry for going on and on and on.....Maybe I need to pour myself a glass or 2 of wine!!! but not sure I want any cheese to go with the whine!!!

    Sorry to hear that Junie is struggling so.....

    NM....((((((((((((HUHS))))))))))))

    We've lost our share of dogs in the few years....one a year....we now just have my son's dog Bear....7 year old shepherd/malamute mix who he adopted 1 1/2 years ago...this past Sept we lost our 5 year old Berner, Rosey and the year before her brother Charely at just 4.....I love my dogs, but for the first time in my life, I don't want any more dogs....but then  sometimes I think I need to get a puppy....

    Well, I seem to be rambling...brain is not working well enough tonight to respond to everyone...I've read all the posts, but can't remember who wrote what!!!

    Hugs to all....hoping that tomorrow will be a better day :)

  • AStorm
    AStorm Member Posts: 1,393
    edited January 2011

    Junie & Chrissy - thinking of you both and sending hugs  ... & for Dee ... shoot, this is way too much suffering for my fun-loving friends!

    Beanie - Since I've learned that I have iron and D deficiencies, not to mention calcium, I started taking a whole regimen of vitamins and nutrients when I started the tamoxifen. I  now have an "AM" pill box and a "PM" pill box and I don't think about the fact that one of them has 20mg of tamox in it... it just goes down with all the other good stuff I am feeding my body. Happy trails!

    Dorothy - never thought I would be so excited about bra shopping but I went to Nordstrom's after my exchange and spent way too much money but I love my new bras... made it easier to toss the ones that no longer fit.

    Wahine - that's a lotta beers. I think we should all drink extra dog beers and take the Fukitol if it will help all our sisters who are having so much trouble.

    The rest of us need to keep our spirits up so we can send our positive energy to those who need it!

  • wahine
    wahine Member Posts: 7,590
    edited January 2011

    Gail, You're right about us trying to keep our spirits up! Love the pictures....the dalmation puppy reminded me of Shroeder, a dalmation we lost a few years ago, and Lady, a dalmation we had even earlier.  Funny that I grew up with a collie (Laddie) and then had brown dogs for several years. Then about 25 yrs ago got a black lab, and ever since, my dogs have been blk & white....even when we had 4, they all matched! Weird! Anyway, I think we are going to get a bit drunk trying to drink all of junie's dog beers that are stacking up over here. But what fun we will have!

    Beans, I miss the beanglish (not sure how its spelled!) too. Hope your road trip is going well! Check in when you can, and give your little niece a big hug from all of her aunties here!

    HD, I don't think anyone would ever get mad at you either! Esp not Green Beans! You are a dear, and I love your sense of humor. You get totally well now,okay????

    Verrrrry late, too late for even a nightcap, so will say nitenite to all you chicas........

    K

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited January 2011

    AStorm - nice to hear from you!!!

    Prayers and wonderful thoughts to Junie,Dee and Chrissy!!! ((((  ))))))

     Kathy - I assume there was no wedding, so did they call to say anything??

    Dorothy - congrats on getting a good fitting bra.

    I think I'll have to give up on that with the pooches that are under my arms - supposedly the back muscle but hits and oveflows under my arm like I have pillows underneath and then if the bra has wire it hits and just hurts. Hate these fake boobs and really hate the whole nipple areola  it just didn't work right so I feel more like a freak than feeling like I have reconctruction. Just hate this whole thing.....

    Sorry to hear of so much pain for so many of us.... I wish doctors would treat the whole person and not just parts. 

    Sorry - OK, going to try and sleep now... Oh saw the movie " The King's Speech" really wonderful!!!!

  • kittycat
    kittycat Member Posts: 1,155
    edited January 2011

    I love the Ninja Cat.  I might have to steal that one!  :)

  • kittycat
    kittycat Member Posts: 1,155
    edited January 2011

    4 more rads to go.  Tuesday will be my last day.  What should I do to celebrate???

  • nativemainer
    nativemainer Member Posts: 7,919
    edited January 2011

    Wahine-thanks for keeping us up to date on Junie. I will keep her in my prayers that she heals quickly and without complications, and hope she gets home by the weekend.


    Dee-have you been to a pain specialist or a pain clinic? Not every doc is completely up to date on all the latest pain management techniques. Throwing more drugs at a pain problem isn't always the answer, but there are other things that can be done.

    Dorothy-I'll join you in the chapel, if that's ok. I owe a lot to God's help, but like you I tend to blame God for a lot, too! Good thing He understands. Hooray for the perfect fitting bra! I have NEVER had a comfortably fitting bra in my entire life, and am sooo happy since recon to be able to go without! But I can relate to your excitement, and I'm excited with you! It's been 6 months and the high hasn't worn off for me, so you're in for half a year of fun, at least.But, is there room for 2 in the little chapel?

    Hunky! Good to hear from you! You can drink my share of the beers, too, since I don't like beer. But I'll join you for a nice wake up drinky this morning, since I need to get my butt in gear and get ready for work. Would rather sit here and play on the computer.

    Oh, look, the Tenders have set up a Fuckitol Fountain!  The Wenches must think we need soothing, too--

    Beanie-safe traveling! Check in when you can, and have a drink for us where ever you end up!

    Karen-rambling is par for the course, here. We've all done it and will do it again, and it can be fun to read a ramble, and therapeutic for the rambler! So ramble away, dearie! Anniversary syndrome is a b!$<# isn't it?

    AStorm-great pack of Corgis! They look like a fun crowd!

    Stanzie-have you talked to your PS about your recon issues? There must be some revisions that can be done to make you feel more natural and happier with the outcome. The PS can't help if you don't tell him/her how you feel!You know what they say about squeeky wheels-

    Kittycat! Hooray for almost being done with rads! Partay time in the Lounge for Kitty!

    DOTD:  Butt in Gear

    1 oz Butterscotch Schnapps
    2 oz Coffee Liqueur
    1 shot Milk 

  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    Good Morning Loungettes,

    I am feeling good today, I stopped in the lounge, first stop at the fukitol fountain (thanks to the boys for getting it for us so quickly). Next stop in the HTL Chapel, there is room for all of us in there, please do join me, NM! And look, deflatable pews! They are so comfy.  Thanks tenders for making it nice for us.

     

    I am praying for June to get discharged and get back to the lounge, praying for Dee to feel better and for Chrissy to have had a successful outcome.  I never stop praying for all of you, God is good. 

    I can't wait to get out of a bra, I think I am bound to it for another three weeks.  I have not been able to wear a "real" bra yet, I can only wear cami bras with no hooks but I am enjoying my new ones.  I can't stay away from the mirror, they look so nice. I say it often, I take the good with the bad and am rejoicing in having 20 year old tata's in my 50 year old body!  Thank you God for that! 

    NM, all of your photos are fab, I just loved waking up this morning to all of the great photos, today is going to be a great day!  I feel it in my tits lol.

    Ms. Karen, I agree that rambling is great therapy. Imagine if we rambled like this amongst our loved ones or coworkers, we would drive them mad as they would not understand what only us gals can understand.  Ya know?  Ramble away, we are here for you.

    KittyKat, you look way to young to have had bc, congrats on your last rad - a great reason to throw a party.  Maybe it can be a party to also celebrate Junie's homecoming.  Here is hoping she can join us soon.

     Stanzie, don't give up on getting your tits perfect. If you do not like the nips and areola, get it done again. I believe our ps's are required to make us right no matter how many times it takes.  I am thinking about not even getting nips. I asked my ps about the price and  he joked that they are 39.99 a pair. I will talk to him in a few months about the true cost since I have to meet a new deductable and the first 10k is out of pocket for me.  I do look forward to Spring and Summer when I can bathing suit shop.  I was previously only able to wear a few types of bathing suits as I needed support for my boulders.  And thankfully, no one will know what is under my bathing suit, I am mamed as well. 

    Astorm, nice to see you, I love the doggy pics. I hope all is well for you. 

     HD, glad to see you reported in, here is hoping that everything is going well for you too.  If not, fukitol, oh yeah, I just popped another one, no limit and they mix perfectly with booze!! 

    Beans, Beans wherever you are, take your tammy whethere near or far.  Ah, I made you a bean poem!!  I am nearly ready for Beanglish 10!  Weeeeeeeeeee!!! 

    Well i am rambling again, sorry bout that.  I will say my goodbyes before I loose all this.  I tend to hit something that makes everything disappear and I hate when then happens.  To all, have a wonderful day and keep the faith.  AMEN.

  • wahine
    wahine Member Posts: 7,590
    edited January 2011

    Stanzie, I have a those dreaded fat pockets on the side too....never had them b4 recon, but my PS says it was there...WTF? Think maybe that is how things resettle??? The only PS so far that I know of that includes lipo is HD's PS. Think maybe he'll do all of us at once??? As for the nips, I agree with Dorothy, maybe your PS can redo them??? Do not want you to feel maimed....want you to feel like you got a good new set of tatas! Please check with your PS, if you haven't already.

    Dorothy, Have you thought about the 3D tattoo nips? I am very happy with mine (even showed them to Stanzie). Although I meant to have them retouched last fall, but got too busy. MakeUpChick in NC does them for n/c, and she is in Asheville,NC. I think there are others that do it gratis also. She is excellent though, and you can always give a donation to her org for bc patients. Glad you have a comfy bra now! I am like NM and revel in not having to wear a bra anymore.....LOVE IT!

    NM, Oh, as usual you have posted some amazing pics. I totally love the "butt in gear" pic...so hilarious. Also love the fukitol fountain calming area. I have a bamboo fountain like that, and will think about setting it up that way. Think the TT's will fill it with the fukitol for me???

    Kittycat, WooHoo.....on Tues you will be thru!!!! YAY!!!!! I would say celebrate any darn way you want to! Esp being in Vegas....you have a million gazillion ways to celebrate there. Or get yourself a special piece of jewelry.....whatever would please you the most. Glad you are back here with us!

    Hoping and praying for junie to be much better today! Shows how we never know when something like this will happen. Glad her DH is retired and can be there with her....of course he has to go home and care for Pancho too, but then he can get good comforting hugs from Pancho! I know it is hard on him (DH) too. Well, new fridge exch is today....hadn't had this one for very long, but amazing how quickly my DH filled it...he loves to grocery shop and thinks we have unlimited space. Hope the new one will not have defects....I am so tired of EVERYTHING we purchase and every job we have someone do, there is always something that isn't right. AARRGGHHHHH....ok that is my rant for the day.....LOL. And yes, to put things in perspective, I am thankful for being relatively healthy...."things" can be replaced, repaired, etc. Nice chapel Dorothy....but maybe later on we can get some nicer pews? Never seen inflatable ones before! Maybe they're that way in case someone falls asleep we can wake them by deflating their pew? So funny. Beans, Have you gotten to your destination? Travel safe, and check in when you can! Lori, where have you been girl? Hope you are not snowed in. HD, don't work tooooo hard, gotta get totally well first!

    Ciao Chicas,

    Kathy

  • hunkydory
    hunkydory Member Posts: 722
    edited January 2011

    Beans, I am sorry for my post above...i fixed it up and hope you won't slap me upside the head!  I was just looney tuney thinking about Junie!  HD

  • Beanius
    Beanius Member Posts: 1,494
    edited January 2011

    HD - I love ya, baby, never ever mad!!! (well maybe mad like a hatter!!)

    I took the 20 mg today and I'm heading on the road. DH is in a hurry so I cant' stay here long.

    Much love to you all, will check in as I can...XXXOOOXXXOOO

  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    YAY BEANS, I will drink to that.  Good job in taking the 20 ml. I am so very proud of you. Thanks so much for checking in, we are missing you here. Tell that little darling her Aunty Dotty can't wait to see pics!  Such fun to be had!! Enjoy your visit!!

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited January 2011

    On the Road Again...... too bad there aren't any music note symbols on the typewriter....

     Oh heaven's I didn't see the pews as inflatables, I thought they were made out of chocolate - well in case we got hungry? yes?

    Actually that is why I haven't gone back to PS.... he was so proud and happy about his work and somehow he and the horrible other one I went to think that we should be so grateful that they can even do this at all that I ususally feel terrible for even asking. Now I know this sounds bad about the Docs well one was bad but the one I used is very religious and does tons of missionary work so he isn't trying to come off arrogant at all. I think he truely is thinking to recreat a body part well it won't be perfect... I know I'm also putting words in his mouth so I need to make the appointment. I'm also worried I'll totally break down in the appointment so avoidence and misery has been my choice. How stupid is that. So, if Beanie can take the pill I guess I can make the appointment???

    Thanks! Love the new fountain ...... I think? 

    HD - No one could ever actually get mad at you!

    Wahine - congrats! on the new fridge!!!! And Yes I have thought about your girl inN.C. as you looked faboo. But now since it has been a while since surgery I'm thinking PAINFUL???

    Gosh I'm into ? marks today???

  • wahine
    wahine Member Posts: 7,590
    edited January 2011

    Hi Stanzie? (j/k), Do you mean it would be painful for retouching the nips for me, or painful for you if you have yours redone? MIne are still pretty numb, and you can use numbing crream too, which does help? Sorry, I can't help using the (?)'s.....just having fun here! I do think you should at least see your PS and ask what can be done.  So, we will pass on the "big girl panties" to you, so you will have the courage to do it. Actually the new fridge is a replacement for the one they delivered a couple of months ago, but had a broken part inside. Since it is all formed into the inside wall, no way to just replace a support. Need to check this one out extremely well, as it took tons of phone calls to get this replaced!

    Beans, CONGRATS on taking the whole pill....you can take off the "big girl panties" now...LOL. Have fun on your trip! I still missed whatever HD posted that she thought you would be upset about. Maybe I just read it in a different way?

    ChEARS?

    Kath

  • goldie0827
    goldie0827 Member Posts: 6,835
    edited January 2011

    I am still a page behind. Just been very busy, and had 2 sleepness nites in a row, even WITH help! But just wanted to say that it souds like so many of us have had some kind of issue lately....or maybe it has been ALL of us. So I am dropping by for a HUGE group hug!

    Hopefully I can catch up tomorrow, or at least chime in! Kathy it is still cold here, but I live in the mountains! At least the sun shines most of the time here in AZ.

  • nativemainer
    nativemainer Member Posts: 7,919
    edited January 2011
    Dorothy-I LOVE the deflatable pews! What a great idea and they look so soft and embracing.


    Stanzie-chocolate pews? What a wonderful idea! I like where your mind goes!

    Goldie-thanks for the hug, always a good thing, hugs!

  • wahine
    wahine Member Posts: 7,590
    edited January 2011

    Looking out at a most glorious sunset...the colors are so brilliant. Today was a nice clear sunny day. Time for happy hour! Pants, will you fix me a Seagrams/Diet Coke please???? And I'll chase it with some of those dog beers that are piling up in junie's absence. Thanks for the group hug, Lori!

    Pau Hana TIme!

  • dara_diverse
    dara_diverse Member Posts: 5,004
    edited January 2011

    Goldie girl - So nice to see you.  We have missed you. Hey Tenders, do you think you can get us a sleeping pill fountain? Goldie, here is hoping you sleep well tonight, I feel for you. I hope I am not asking too much of the tenders.

    Kathy, would you like the church better if we got real cusions for the pews? And I need to confess that I bought this chapel on ebay and the entire chapel is deflatable, I carry one in my car trunk too.  I just like having a church wherever I go. It does look a little bit like chocolate, I shall call it the Choco-Chapel. And when we walk in, we get a program and a beer. Sound good? Thanks for the updates on Junie.  I am hoping with all my heart that she recovers quickly and is able to come out and play with us. Tell her I said hello and am thinking about her. 

    I am feeling most uncomfortable again with my implants.  They sure are pretty but my left side especially feels as if they are way too tight.  My left armpit feels as if I have a bee sting especially when I layer my clothes. I can't take the rubbing of tight fitting clothing. And I hate my coat, so ouchy! I too take valium but I do not like taking it during the day. I do not like taking it period as it makes me feel weird. I sit here and am wishing my life away again.  I am now wishing it was late March and i can hear the birds singing and it is light outdoors.  I would be chilling in my yard and enjoying life instead of sitting here and wishing I did not have this discomfort.  I also think about how my life would be had I not yet found that lump.  Oh well, it is what it is and will never be the same.  I think I will take a fukitol and step into the chapel in prayer. I will pray for all of you, my bc sisters.  I hope the tenders and wenches and Pants are singing in the choir tonight, shhhhhh, I think I hear them now..........