TIME TO CIRCLE THE WAGONS GIRLS

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  • newvickie
    newvickie Member Posts: 2,941
    edited August 2007
    good evening sweet circle family...no time to write to you all tonight as I would like to. Have a miserable headache and a cold. This sucks...If the headache would just go away I'd be fine and dandy...the cold I can handle.

    Ahhh...what a year it has been. I remember my first post...there was a sexy cowboy posted on another thread that we were going to use for protection (or whatever LOL). I was seriously discouraged as I was doing rads at the time after being told I wouldn't need rads. Glad now that I did do them...the extra step was worth it I do believe. Better safe than sorry.
    I met all of you...oh what a wonderful gift you have been to me. A gift that I can't possible repay. Sweetness, love, happiness, joy, tears, hugs, laughter, silliness, blew rinks, cowboys, snakes, bears, moose, robberies, bugs and fishes, angels, prayers, healing light, bats, kid problems, car problems, good docs and bad, good news and bad, parties to remember and Pinkstock...all rolled into one wonderful place. A place I call home.
    Don't know what I'd do without all of you and this wonderful thread. Happy anniversary to one and all...thank you again sweet Gina. Big huge hugs, wet sloppy kisses and lotsa love to all my wonderful family.
    Vickie
    Oh...I will mentally walk the perimeter tonight and tuck each and every one of you in personally. If you feel a breeze on your cheek as you go to bed...it's me...wishing you sweet happy dreams and leaving an angel to watch over you.
  • BMD
    BMD Member Posts: 215
    edited August 2007
    May the Circle be unbroken, by and by Lord by and by.
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    Happy Anniversary!!
  • Madison
    Madison Member Posts: 859
    edited August 2007
    Oh my goodness, you are all so AWESOME
    Hugs, Madison
  • neesie
    neesie Member Posts: 1,110
    edited April 2008
    One more Circle picture for all!

    Hugs,
    Denise

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  • neesie
    neesie Member Posts: 1,110
    edited April 2008
    WARNING...........MAY CONTAIN WHINING!!!

    I feel like a rubber band about ready to pop and I really don't know why!

    Trying to make plans for the trip to AZ for my Son's wedding in Nov.
    Daughter is determined to go to San Diego after the wedding.
    She'll be 7 1/2 months pregnant by then.
    I don't feel that we can really afford both trips this year.
    Feeling guilty, because I'm not making any money right now.
    Really need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
    Need to find a new job.
    Husband is being..........well, a man.
    Decided not to give any opinions on the trips.
    Thinks all should be figured out by now.
    I know he doesn't want to go to San Diego this year.
    I can't disappoint my daughter and not go.
    Enough?

    On the bright side:

    Son and his fiance are flying in tomorrow!
    Only be here until Monday.
    Plane doesn't land until 10:00p.

    Going with Daughter and her family for her first ultra sound of the baby!!
    Boy or Girl.........will know tomorrow!

    Trying to figure out how to get the spare car to Son. (Don't even try to follow that one!)

    We are all going up north to the cottage for the weekend. I'm looking forward to a couple of days with my kids!

    Everyone is arriving at different times which is freaking DH out for some reason.
    Son wants to come, but also wants some time to visit My Mom, Cemetary and a couple friends.

    Anyhow, I'll try to pop on quickly tomorrow, but will probably just be checking on all. Work in a.m. then heading to DD's in rush hour traffic, but wouldn't miss the ultra sound for anything.
    Think SIL is doing the airport run as they are closer.

    Will be gone Friday Morning until Monday Morning...and have to have the Son back to the airport by 1:00p (I think!)

    Hugs to all and have a nice and safe weekend!
    Denise
  • Tricia
    Tricia Member Posts: 103
    edited August 2007
    Hi Gals,

    Long day, lots of driving, lots of meetings.

    I can'r wait to meet Shel!!!

    Christine, love your new av pic!

    Karen, my middle step son dropped out his junior year. School was interfering wirh his pot smoking. He got his act together, got his GED then went 4 years to Metro State right there in Denver, and has now been a teacher for about 7 years. He even apologized at one point for being such a jerk as a teen,

    Charlene, I was rather well endowed prior to mast. I think she left a fair amount of skin so the expanding hasn't been bad. I have rather crappy insurance. In addition to the $1500 deductible, I have 20% co-pays with a $10,000 out of pocket max every year. I have paid about $14,000 this year. I told my ps I had to have the exchange this calendar year or pay another huge amount next year. I know I will still have a lot of co-pays and the deductible next year, but nothing runs up the bill like surgery. So I hope to be done with surgery this year. I know there are no guarantees, but if all goes well, I will be. I had my mast June 2. The surgery is the end of October.
    I also wanted to say I am sorry your sweet daughter was treated so badly.

    Welcome to the new folks! I haven't had a chance to greet you all individually, but I am so glad you are here.

    Happy anniversary, Girls!

    My good friend had her lumpectomy and SN biopsy today. Please say a prayer for her that her nodes are clear. Her name is Bev.

    Nicki, I am so glad you are getting better.

    Colleen, I loved the photo. You are beautiful.

    Iris, thanks, and yes my friend had a beautiful litttle girl just about a month ago. They are doing great.

    Gina, thinking of you.

    Vickie, I hope you sleep well and hope you wake up feeling better.

    Denise, I love that pic!!! I hope you can get all the trip stuff figured out so you can go on both. Have a great weekend.
    I must also go to bed, I am wiped out.

    Sleep well mu friends,
    Tricia
  • christineK
    christineK Member Posts: 735
    edited August 2007
    Thanks Tricia about the new avatar, Really it is an encore of an older one, but since I cut off all of my hair at Pinkstock I went back to a shorter version of me.

    Happy anniversary to all that did not see my post in the Anniv thread, I did not want ya'll to think I let this day go unnoticed. My first post was at 1am on 8/23 (typical of me, typos and all) Some things never change.
    Tonight I am off to sleep early, as I have breakfast planned with a friend to celebrate my bday, which was almost a month ago, lol. We need to make more time for thise special people in our lives.
    Hug to A and Z and all in between!
  • Deese
    Deese Member Posts: 50
    edited August 2007
    CHERYL!!! I'M OUT OF QUARTERS!!! Geeze, where have you been?! Not to mention I still haven't found the outhouse and someone's wagon is going to sink soon if I keep peeing behind it! heeeeeheeee!

    Happy Anniversary All!
    Happy Anniversary G! (p.s. keep that cat on a leash, I think it's a wagon peeper!)

    All my love,
    Deese
  • Naniam
    Naniam Member Posts: 586
    edited August 2007
    Good night all. What a day it has been to walk down memory lane. I was fairly new to the boards in Aug 2006. I had just had my first year anniversary from diagnosis. I came, having come through one of the worst experiences of my life, still hurting, emotions all over the place, and still very scared. Treatment had finished but I really wasn't OK. Gina started this thread and like many, there were so many facing another round of treatment or entering a different phase of treatment, that were I was at at the moment wasn't important. I didn't talk about those feelings, as many don't, as you just want to move on to better days. Here in the circle "others" matter; their fears, their hurts, their anger - that has never changed. Where can you find a group of women that can push aside their anger, hurt, pain, frustration from BC or the long term effects of chemo/radiation and fear of new or recurrent cancer to take care of each other. We are unique. May this circle remain strong - it is really up to each of us to carry the torch of embracing those in need that Gina started in this thread.

    Thank you sisters for making me feel strong when I was weak, for bringing laughter in my tears, for hope when inside I felt so defeated, for showing me beauty when I felt so unattractive, for kindness and love when I felt so angry. You are special - thank you, my sisters.

    Here is my 2nd post in the circle on 8-22-06; it is still appropriate today.

    The fire is burning reflecting on the faces of our sisters, wood stacked to the side for the night, coffee and water for the hot chocolate is on, voices are getting softer and some are down for the night. The night owls are already on watch and the cool night air feels so good. Not sure where the cowboy is at the moment but some of these gals can sure keep you laughing. The joy and comfort of these sisters brings tears to my eyes.

    Lord, we lift our friends who are facing this mountain and have a steep climb to the top. We are all hurting for them and as we share in their fears we are also realizing some of our own. Bless them, heal them, give them strength for the days ahead, may they feel only the peace and comfort you can give and may they know their friend is holding their hand in the darkness and loneliness of the night. May tomorrow bring hope. May they feel the love of the many sisters who too will walk to the top of the mountain with them.

    Rest well, sisters. We have wrapped you in love and prayers.
  • sahalie
    sahalie Member Posts: 1,145
    edited September 2008

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  • MargaretB
    MargaretB Member Posts: 771
    edited August 2007
    We are a chatty group aren't we? I agree with whoever said that here in the circle others matter - Brenda, was that you - chemobrain....

    Denise, you feel like a rubber band about to pop because you hve a lot on your plate. I did look for airfares from Detroit to Phoenix to San Diego to Detroit, putting in dummy dates, and found airfares for $390 per person. Southwest though should have some cheap fares from Phoenix to San Diego.

    Karen, my oldest stepdaughter dropped out of high school and it took her 10 years to get her GED; she did and took an accelerated medical course to become an LVN. She got it. My son is not a school person at all so I'm not forcing him to go. He almost didn't graduate but switched to an alternative high school, graduated from high school with a 3.2 GPA and is doing fine.

    Just taking a quick walk to check on everyone. See you in the morning.

    Margaret
  • sahalie
    sahalie Member Posts: 1,145
    edited September 2008

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  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 471
    edited August 2007
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    I feel like this bear tonight. I'll be back after some Much needed sleep to catch up. I just cannot focus... One thing ... I thought I was having my transvaginal ultrasound today but nooooo .. it was just my regular annual pap with the GYN. The assistant asked me if I was due for my mammogram. Duh, I just had my breasts removed in March! She's holding my chart, why doesn't she look in it first?! Anyway I had blood taken to check my FSH, LSH and estradoil (sp?) levels and go for the transvaginal US on Monday.

    So here's to all the wonderful CG's and hoping you all sleep peacefully in your wagons this night!

    Love&Hugs

    Charlene
  • karen1956
    karen1956 Member Posts: 4,652
    edited August 2007
    Well the 22nd is slowly coming to an end. What a joyous day to celebrate the birthday/anniversary of the CG. As many have already said, Gina, thank you so much for started the CG. It is the most amazing place. It is my support group and I love coming here and reading all the posts. So many friends and everyone "gets it". I love you all. I am curious to when I joined the CG - I am going to try to find my first post.

    I read something funny today - a quote from "Miss Piggy" of the Muppets fame. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time totiime to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye".

    Has anyone read the book "No Less a Woman - Femininity, Sexuality and Breast Cancer"? I thought I would see if the library had it. The book is by Deborah Hobler Kahane. I think I saw that she is also a survivor.

    Thank you everyone for your support regarding your kids who got their GED and Noah. I hope he stays the course and keeps pushing to take the test sooner than later. He is really a great kid, but sometimes his follow through leaves something to be desired. He has been in alternative type schools since 7th grade.
    Christine - happy to hear that the insurance company cut you a good check. good luck finding the type of workers you want at a good price. Lots of work to be done, but it should feel good once it is all finished. How is the hand. Love your new avatar.
    Indi - where do you live in Ohio. My DH is a native of Columbus and I lived in Columbus for 15 years. My folks lived in Cincinnati for about 27 years before retiring to South Florida. My brother lives in Cincinnati (although we don't talk) and my MIL and BIL and family are still in Columbus. I haven't been back there in years, but my girls were there last summer. DH goes to see his family, but its been a couple years.
    Nicki - I hope that you get to go to the wedding. Glad to hear that you are feeling better each day.
    Shirley - have a safe trip home.
    CherylNC - love the Forever Friendship
    WildJan - your cousin must be thrilled to have her son home from Iraq.
    Amy - ouch - sore tooth. good luck on Monday.
    Susan - great new avatar.
    Shokk - have fun on your vac and good luck to your youngest starting high school - or should I say good luck to you.
    Denise - pinkstock avatar. great pic
    SoCalLisa - hope you like your new PCP
    Mizsissy - what a wonderful story about the card. It so touched my heart. You have a great guy.
    Cheri - welcome home. You sound good.
    Vickie - I am sorry to hear that you are still under the weather. I sure hope you are feeling better soon.
    Margaret- what is a LVN?
    Tricia - will keep your friend in my thoughts. B9, B9, B9.
    Gina - sweetie how are you doing. Any progress regarding your surgery to replace the expander?
    Puppy - how are you doing?
    Cy- and how are you?
    Z - how is Tahoe?
    Jankay - sure hope you get your new computer soon.
    Wishing everyone from A to Z sweet dreams and feel good days. Hugs from Denver. Karen
  • christineK
    christineK Member Posts: 735
    edited August 2007

    Couldn't fall asleep so early, so here I am checking on new posts and each and every one of you makes a difference and gives so much here. Just mentioning someone's name can make a huge difference in their lives. The circle rocks! Know you are loved here.

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 2,728
    edited August 2007
    Good Morning Everyone: Cant post a photo, so all you have is me bringing sunshine to your tent this morning. Has another good storm last night. Seems like it has been raining forever. Im feeling better today - I think! Right now my head is still foggy from sleep and I am waiting for my coffee to brew.

    Vickie: Good morning sunshine sisiter. Im hoping you stay home from work and let yourself get better from another darn cold. Somehow, you and I missed each other again yesterday. Wondering if the migraine is the beginning of a sinus infection? Anyways, you stay under those covers, drink lots of fluids and rest as much as you can.

    Christine: I didnt even notice you changed your avatar. Im just so used to your smiling face. And the picture is very familiar to me. Although I must tell my secret and that is the picture of you with longer hair always made me a little jealous cause its so pretty.

    Karen: I swear, sometimes when I read anothers posts I find out all kinds of information I didnt read myself. You post just did that. Hahahahaha - giving the beholder a black eye, I love it.

    Angel: Ya know the same thing happened to me when I went to my PCP. I was sort of offended when the nurse asked me the same thing. Hate having to repeat that I had a bil. mast. You would think the chart is marked about blood pressures and blood draws. The same thing happened when I went to the breast cancer center for a dexascan. Gave my name and the girl says "your here for a mammogram." I think I was more offended then, cause surely my name was in the schedule for a dexascan. Just seemed cold and unfriendly coming from the new and so called fabulous breast cancer center my hospital has. Hoping today is better for you.

    Faith: What a nice post. And I must agree with you. Gotta thank bc.org - without this site, I would not have met any of you. I know I would surely have gone insane if I didnt have this place to come to.

    MargaretB: I started out my career as an LPN. Then I worked full time and went to school to get my RN. Your step daughter did good. I also laughed when I read one of your first posts in the wagon circle. Talked about not being able to sleep through the night. Ha ha - somethings dont change.

    Brenda: During my trip down memory lane yesterday, I read many of your posts ands its poetry. Hope you slept well my dear friend.

    Deese: Hahaha I remember the quarters and the peeing anywhere but the outhouse. Its so good to hear from you again.

    Tricia: Im sorry but, "school got in the way of his pot smoking." That really cracked me up. Laughing out loud in a silent house as everyone else is still sleeping. When is your meeting with Shel? Bet you all are going to have a great time.

    Denise: Life is hectic but your just the person that will pull it all together. Dang - Im gonna miss you this whole week-end. What is a girl to do when one of her best friends is going away for a few days? The US is gonna be a fun thing. Cant wait to hear what you find out.

    Madison: Are you still hanging out in that rabbit hole?

    Susan: OMG that picture of you in the glenda dress is great. Looks like you were having lots of fun.

    Sheri: Glad your feeling better today. That special part is out there for you. All that divorce stuff with your friend sounds pretty nasty to me.

    NS: Love the way you changed the words to write from run in ME's song. Hoping today is a good one for you.

    Iris: Thanks for the well wishes. Now that I have coffee in me, I can officially say - yes Im better. Each day is showing improvement.

    Jankay: Hope you get your computer fixed real soon. Missing you in the early morning sunshine posts. Gads - you have so many friends and whats silly is that I recognize all of them who are from the chat. Have a good day.

    Cheri: I hope your leg is getting better each day. 6 weeks of antibiotics is along time. Sending hugs your way.

    The Black Dress Saga: Well I have gone back and forth with it all. I had such big plans for the upcoming week. Vacation would have been starting Friday, then the wedding, then our anniversary, and then a week off celebrating the end of summer. But here I am - once again using vacation time to recover from something. So I figure I have to turn some of this disappointment into happiness. Gotta live with what lifes gives us. My SIL called yesterday and she will get a limo for me and DH. Part of the boat is enclosed. So unless something unexpected happens, Im going to that wedding. If I keep letting health issues interfere with having fun - then I wouldnt have anymore fun for the rest of my life. So Im going. Im gonna stay in bed today and tomorrow (like the doctor said) and get lots of rest. My hair wont be colored and my nails wont be polished, but I will get to wear my black dress. Watching a wedding ceremony on a boat - once in a lifetime thing. So there. Im going.

    But right now, Im going back to bed. Have a wonderful morning.

    Nicki
  • BRSTN
    BRSTN Member Posts: 165
    edited August 2007
    Good morning all and a belated happy anniversary to the circle.

    I'm not sure when I joined (have to go back and check), but I know it's one of the best things I ever did. What a year it's been. I'm so glad to have found all of you.

    We are supposed to have record heat here in TN today. I plan to stay inside as much as possible. I pulled out all my fall decorations yesterday, but fall leaves and scarecrows just don't seem right when it's 97 outside.

    Hope everyone has a great Thursday.

    Hugs,
    Betty
  • RobinTN
    RobinTN Member Posts: 466
    edited August 2007
    Goodmorning my dear sisters.I am so sorry I missed our anniversary yesterday,but I think each of you know how much u mean to me.
    My new found happiness seems to have been short lived as I cried all day yesterday.Its a long story and i so need someone to talk to about it,but on the other hand I dont want anyone to think any less of me either.BUt i just cant keep this inside.
    I dont know what i have done to deserve this slap in the face.Just when karen starts to see me happy for about the first time in her whole life what does she do? Gets angry at me and tells me off,i could believe the words that came out of her mouth.all because i made plans yesterday my only day off without the kids and i forgot that 2 weeks ago she told me she had a dentist appointment.which i canceled my plans and went with her.not before alot of curse words were exchanged.it all comes down to the fact that as long as i am here to babysite and dont want a life of my own and let evil run over me all will be fine.Well i am not going to live that way.In the past 2 weeks i have actually been happy and even laughed it has been so long since i remembered how good it feels to laugh.I am just so d evistated at her actions.she also didnt fail to let me know just how many dr.appointments she has went with me to and put her life on hole..well i have rescheduled appointments also so she can do as she pleases.now i dont know if i can have sugery n ext wed or not,she dosent know if she can get off work.I am going to call and try and reschedule it for 2 week.the she will have plenty of time for her job to make plans for her to be off 2 weeks.i wish i had a sister brother mother heck i dont care who just someone who cares and will help me,.
    Thats enough of me w hining for now.I will bbl.Will let you know how this day goes.You know I told her i didnt think God spared m e to just be a sitter.there is more to life than that.then she gets all mad and wants to leave noelle somewhere else.and i didnt even say that.I am talking about 1 friggin day a week that i sho uld be allowed to have to myself to do what i want.I am almost 50 have been treated like trash all my life and i want to live.am I so wrong.

    Girls help me...I just cant take this
  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 2,728
    edited August 2007
    Good morning Betty! Good to hear from you this morning.

    Robin: I have come to accept one thing. If it were just up to me, I would be a happy person. Its the people around me and what they say that usually makes me upset. I know bc affects our loved ones, but its not fair for them to throw it up in our faces. All last week I walked around thinking I had ruined everyones life. But I didnt have control over what happened to me and their lives cant be worse than mine. At least they arnt fighting the onward battle of this journey. Sometimes I feel like my face has "beat me down" written all over it. Giving anyone permission to take their angry and hurt feelings out on me. Im stomping my foot down and saying thats enough! When I saw my PCP yesterday we talked about upping my antidepressant. Then he asked why was I feeling more depressed. I realized it was because of things people have recently said to me. If I can get those words out of my brain, I wont need more antidepressants. I am standing up and taking control of my life again. Hope today is better for you.

    Nicki
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 539
    edited August 2007
    Hello Family!
    I have not went through and read anything yet, But I have been busy going crazy!!!!!!!!!!
    please pray for my Boy's today they lost their {{PAPPY}}
    Yesterday! very hard on them, and Me! the only real DAD I ever really had! please know my prayers are with each and everyone of you!! You wonder how muuch is enough before you get a break in life!!!!!!!
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo Puppy
  • choca1711
    choca1711 Member Posts: 42
    edited August 2007
    Good morning one and all.
    The medication for my cough is finally starting to kick in properly - I actually woke up this morning and didn't immediately have a coughing fit! But now my ribs are killing me! I guess the costochondritis is back - probably spurred on by all the coughing.
    Anyway, I am going to lunch today with a couple of ladies from the chat room. Looking forward to that.

    I can relate to all moms who had trouble with teenagers and school. My son put me through hell during his high-school years. He almost dropped out twice- but fortunately, we were able to persuade him to stay and get his high school diploma. The sad thing is, my son is extremely intelligent and could do whatever he wants to - but he hates school. Heck he scored at 1300 on his SATs with no preparation at all! He did end up finishing high school with a 3.0 and then went on to community college - which again he didn't finish, because he just hated it.
    His dream has always been to be an auto-technician. So now, he is working for a dealership in the Service Dept. and goes to tech school - and LOVES it!

    Robin- I am so sorry that your daughter is giving you such a hard time. I have a friend in the same situation. However, my friend has finally decided to take control of her life again. She has insisted that her daughter finds a babysitter for at least one day a week. Daughter wasn't happy, but my friend stood her ground. It is working out quite well now for my friend- so Robin please do not despair. I hope you go for surgery next Wednesday as planned. I think Karen is being very selfish - after all these are HER children not yours!

    Happy belated anniversary to one and all. I just joined the circle recently and I am sooo happy to have found you all.

    Nicki - so glad you have decided to go to the wedding.

    Vickie- sorry about the cold hon - I surely can relate to how you feel.

    Well time to start work. Have a ton to do before I go for lunch.

    Hugs and chocolate xxxx to all from A- Z.

    Elaine
  • purplemb
    purplemb Member Posts: 593
    edited August 2007
    good morning..quick fly by boss is back and here...lol..

    MS nicki...glad to hear your decision, wasn't wanting you to get sick, but sometimes we must have fun....BTW you must have nail polish at home...?..good thing to do while resting,...so you can be polished...lol..hug sand rest well..

    Choca...glad your feeling better, and BOYS don't even get me started...that smiling youngest one of mine..uggghhhh...

    ok work calls BBL
    MB
  • RobinTN
    RobinTN Member Posts: 466
    edited August 2007
    Thank you Nicki and Elaine.Only one of the babies belong to Karen the other one is my youngest daughters.
    I just so want to be happy.They want me miserable and at home.And I am only asking for one day a week,karen is off 2 days a week and the only day i can have is wednesday,then jasmine goes back to work on thursday.So I just want one day a week without being cursed,yelled out,having someone tell me they want to die even baby noelle dosent throw such fits.Last sunday night i went out for a while and got that throwed up to me all 2 hours of it...Said i have thrown my family away.I dont think a few hours throws a family away.If they had been brought up like i was they would have a reason to say such.I told karen yesterday about a few of my child hood experiences and when I wish finished with 2 stories only she cried for over an hour about what I told her.
    I have been miserable to long and I deserve to be happy.
  • neesie
    neesie Member Posts: 1,110
    edited April 2008
    I have no business being on line when I have to leave in half an hour and big surprise here............I'm not ready!
    Couldn't leave without talking to a couple of you!

    Margaret: Thank you for looking into flights for me....how sweet. Hopefully we will nail everything on the head this weekend while we are all together.

    Nicki: I am so glad that you are feeling better and are going to the wedding!!!! You need that......you, like me, don't look forward to very many events......and I know you have really been looking forward to this wedding!! Put on that sexy black dress and have a good time!!
    Even as sick as you have been, your attitude has prevailed...hats off to you my dear!

    Robin: You are beautiful dammit.......and you deserve to live for YOU! It is great that you can watch your grandbabies........but I hate the guilt that your girls are putting on you. I'm really good at giving advice...but not so good at taking my own advice...but here goes. Tell the girls that you just can not do it anymore. Pick out 2 or 3 days a week that you can watch the kids and they will have to find a good daycare for the other days. This is not fair to you. You need to keep your surgery appt., this is for YOU. If you need help afterwards, I know there are other TN girls that would be happy to help you. You dry those tears, take a long look in the mirror and see the New Robin immerging!!! I'm visualizing a Marie Osmond Smile and a Pamela Anderson Body...............you're beautiful dammit!

    Hugs,
    Denise

    Where is Vickie this morning??
  • MargaretB
    MargaretB Member Posts: 771
    edited August 2007
    Morning all. I slept all night last night but that's because I took an Ativan. Whatever works. I'm still tired though. I hope the sleeplessness is not my new normal. Are any of our sisters in Ohio? Watching the news of the flooding there.

    Karen, an LVN is a licensed vocational nurse. She could take additional classes to become a nurse but loves what she is doing in home health care and doesn't haven't the money to do another accellerated course. I don't know about other areas (Nicki, Shel and Robin could probably confirm or deny this) but here most of the nurses are of a different nationality; one of the reasons she doesn't want to work in a hospital is because she feels she gets outcasted since there is a tendency for them to hang in groups and talk their native language when she is around (it's not Spanish). Sorry, long explanation.

    Christine, I agree with you about mentioning someone's name; I love seeing a line with my name on it so I try to respond to everyone who has posted. Hope you slept well last night.

    Nicki, you've got my curiosity up, now I have to go back and find it. I wasn't sleeping then huh? I for one am glad you are going to the wedding. You can do your nails yourself laying in bed and if your roots are a little too dark, have someone pick up some temporary root color at the store so you can put it on in the shower. You are going to go, you are going to look fabulous, and you will have a good time. We will always have our health issues so I'm glad you're not letting it interfere since you have so looked forward to this wedding.

    Cheryl, well said. That was on WebMD? Yes, bc.org was a lifesaver for me.

    Betty, you're right, fall leaves, scarecrows, 97 degrees outside - nah.

    Robin, I think it's time for some tough love for your girls. Does she know how lucky she is to have you to babysit any time? My mother watched my kids - NEVER - not once. I watch my grandkids all the time but I also have a life and if Joe or I are busy, there are times we can't watch them. So she has a dentist appt yesterday and you had to go with her why? Was it something where she couldn't drive home afterward? So she took you to so many doctor appointments, that was great, but that was then and this is now. I hope she realizes that you are getting your life back, you're going to be going back to school so that cuts into the babysitting time. You didn't have the grandbabies, she did, and if she wants to leave Noelle somewhere else so be it, but she won't. Hang in there, she's being selfish. People who do that to you are only able to do it because you allow them to.

    Puppy, hugs, hugs, and more hugs for you.

    Elaine, my son has a letter in his file from then president Clinton congratulating him on his academic achievements. Two years later he was barely making it through high school. He did graduate and went to community college - twice he signed up and twice he dropped out of the classes. He's talking about going back but I told him this time it's on him to pay and each semester he finishes I will reimburse him. He'll find his niche in life - he wants to write songs.

    Time to get in the shower and start my day.

    Missing many but hope you have a great day.
  • RobinTN
    RobinTN Member Posts: 466
    edited August 2007

    Denise:where are you going? I must have missed something.Tell me quick before I have a nervous breakdown!!

  • suzfive
    suzfive Member Posts: 126
    edited August 2007
    Good Morning All,

    Just had a long post and must have hit the same key that Vickie was complaining about because poof the post was gone. No time to redo - have a docs appointment at 9:15 to get cholesterol rechecked - can't eat until after that and of course I am starving. Glad no one has talked about food! Good thing I have this appointment cuz I think I have a bladder infection. Been drinking cranberry juice like water and took that over-the-counter stuff to help with the pain but now that it is wearing off that icky feeling is coming back. She will probably presribe antibiotics - just what I want another med to take.

    Nicki - so glad you have decided to go to the wedding. Rest up, take something warm and have fun. While you are resting up make sure you get up and walk around a bit to gain some strength back. Lying in bed too much can make you weak. MB is right, give yourself a little manicure while resting. Most of all HAVE FUN!!!

    Robin - I know they are your daughter and you love them, but you need to put your foot down and insist that one day a week they make alternate arrangements for child care so you can have a day off. That is NOT too much to ask. They do not realize how lucky they are. We think we are helping our children by doing everything for them but they need to learn how to get along on their own. I am really mad at her for making you sad when you were so happy and upbeat. Sending you lots of hugs.

    Choca - summer colds are the worst. Glad you are feeling better.

    Vickie - you have a cold/flu too! I hate to get colds in the summer - something is not just right about that. Hope you are feeling better soon.

    Christine - love the new avatar - might of said that before but don't remember.

    Susan - love your new avatar too - you look so graceful. You really had fun with the Glenda dress.

    Denise - I always get stuck making airline reservation too and hate it. You have to make quick decisions as the online fares can change quickly - not good at doing that. Have fun this weekend with your son and his fiance (my Sara's look alike?). Ultrasounds are so neat.

    Cheri - how is the leg doing?

    Angel/Charlene - with the medical privacy laws - not sure if the med assistants are allowed to read the chart. They probably go off a checklist that they ask each patient. Doesn't make it any easier, I know. I had bilaterals without reconstruction, go flat most of the time and I have been asked the same question Dah.

    (((((Puppy))))) - so sorry about your loss - my prayers are with you and your family.

    Shokk - my youngest dd starts high school tomorrow. Enjoy your vacation at home.

    Well my time has run out - need to get some work done before I head to the doctors office. Will try to bbl.

    Love and hugs to everyone from A to Z,
    Suz
  • newvickie
    newvickie Member Posts: 2,941
    edited August 2007
    good morning sweet circle family,
    I'm at work but feeling like Angels bear LOL. I think I have a list of excuses here somewhere of what to say if you are caught sleeping at your desk...gotta find them!
    Cooking breakfast for everyone this morning...french toast, pancakes, omelets (any kind you like), homefries, sausage and bacon. Cinnamon rolls (look out for Mazer who is breathing down my neck trying to get more than his fair share)...speaking of Mazer...Amy...where are you?
    Denise...where are you going?
    Hi Choca...can't wait to see you again.
    Can't wait to see so many of the Florida girls...I'm ready to start packing now!
    Where is Colleen and Cherryl? MIA's again. Not allowed.
    (((Puppy)))and lotsa prayers from me and Nate.
    Robin...sorry to say this but those girls need a good swift kick in the fanny! Do not put off your surgery date to suit them...its your life and you have been through enough! Grrr...
    Nicki...yippee and good for you...go and have a marvelous time! You're going to be the most beautiful women there in your sexy black dress. Hugs to ya.
    MB...quit foolin around and work...we can't buy plane tickets standing on the street corner LOL (yes...you can give me the same advice!).
    Hi Karen...hugs to you and I love the Miss Piggy quote!
    Tricia..we've missed you.
    Has anyone seen Joyce?
    Christine...I love the new avatar...such a beautiful smile. Such a kind heart.
    Hugs to Guz, Sheri, Margaret, Iris, Rita (welcome), Cheri pal (where are ya), Madison, Liz, Deb, Suz, oh...everyone from A to Z...love ya all.
    Vickie
  • Naniam
    Naniam Member Posts: 586
    edited August 2007
    Man am I dragging this morning. Doc said my cough was all this dry weather/allergy related stuff. I simply don't have energy; feel like I've hit a brick wall - again - just WHEN I started to feel I had returned to a more normal life. Does it ever end??? What the heck.

    Nicki - glad you are going to wedding.

    Vicki - hope you have a good day and headache all gone.

    Denise - sorry you are stressed. Enjoy the family time.

    Betty - more heat here too. I think it is really working on me. Fall decorations - well my yard is filling with brown, dead leaves from the drought. Normally around this time of the year, I will start freezing little cheese wafers, etc., for the holidays. I can't think about that - to darn hot.

    Puppy - hugs to you and yours.

    Margaret - my mom never kept my kids either. Let me know real quick she had raised hers without a sitter and I could do the same.

    Robin - depression and deep seated feelings that we aren't worthy of love, makes it easy for us to "get used or feel used". You've come so far, got a smile on you face, things to look forward to you. Remember that and some of this nonsense that they are laying on you will stop. They aren't used to seeing a Mom who does things for herself - time they get used to that.

    Teenagers/kids that haven't quite grown up - know what - 99.9% eventually do and THEN they apologize for the crap they put you through OR the tell you you were a good parent.
    Take heart all that are going through some tough times with your kids.

    I'm sitting here eating cereal and I just went to the dentist and spent over $650 and I have a corner of a lower front tooth that just broke off - WONDERFUL.

    Know I didn't cover everyone's post - don't mean to slight anyone it is simply time constraints.

    Hugs, Brenda
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    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 471
    edited August 2007
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    Carrie .. that poem is beautiful

    Marsha .. thanks for the update on Jankay. Hopefully she'll get her new puter today.

    Shirley .. good to see you and glad you'll be home soon. Life will go on because it must. That is so true. Hugs for your sister and her family.

    MB .. hmmm, I wonder if running after a toddler all day will get me to those 10,000 steps? I had to google pedometer to see what it was. LOL As soon as I'm done with this post I'm going to go stretch.

    CherylnC .. your poem is beautiful too. I love the pics you post.

    Guz .. always good to see you. How did the second interview go?

    Suz .. I believe you're right about the role stress plays in how we feel and anybody dx with BC and undergoing treatments has an enormous amount of it. People talk about the end of treatment but often are on hormonal therapy .. which of course is another adjuvant therapy. So often treatment really isn't over and we all know the SE's from Tamoxifen and AI's which include the pain in the joints and depression. A heated pool would be heavenly I think.

    Amy .. Ouch about the tooth. That's a long time to wait when you have that kind of pain. I hope the Advil helps. You may need a little whiskey to go with that. LOL

    Susan .. LOL at your singing frog pic, how cute! Cowboy Up .. very cool attitude. Love your new avatar!

    Shokk .. glad you checked in , you had us worried

    SoCal .. That would be tough with all the doctor changes. You should have better luck with the civilian doc sticking around.

    MizSissy .. Sweet story

    Cheri .. Wow, you finally posted! That's a good idea about checking in and then saying bbl to finish so people know you're okay! You sure do have Alot of friends! So glad Amber is alright. Keep checking the mail for those cards.

    Deb .. I hope you're doing better today.

    Iris Angel .. Karl made my new avatar that morphs. The angel is tattooed on his arm! Thanks, I thought it was cool. You're so right about the small stuff..actually, I believe that's what matters most for a happy life!

    Denise .. LOL My Onc told me I could get a job there because of how well informed I was when I first met her. I wish I didn't know Any of this medical stuff! I had a transvaginal ultrasound when I was pregnant. I can't remember why, just remember having it! Wow, you have a lot going on. I think an ativan might be in order! Have a great weekend, we'll miss your funny posts.

    Jan .. Work sounds like a nightmare. Hang in there, it's almost Friday!

    Rita .. We all are suffering from the poor ol' brain disfunction so you'll fit right in here!

    G .. I love that ME song and it fits well with your alteration for the circle.

    Tricia .. wow, I thought I was moving quick, having had my mast in March and undergoing recon in July. Man that's tough about the insurance. I understand you wanting to get the exchange in this year. I was very small breasted at the time of my mast. and it wasn't skin sparing in the least. So I think you've got a point there, I'm feeling every bit of expansion!

    Brenda .. What a beautiful post, yesterdays and your first one!

    Nicki .. That's just unbelievable coming from a breast cancer center! It sucks how your plans got screwed up but I'm glad you're going to go to the wedding. Get all the rest possible beforehand, I'd be afraid of the relapse also. But I would have your DH paint your toenails for you. You should be getting some pampering.

    Elaine .. I had to google costochondritis. Ouch, it sounds painful. I imagine your ribs are going to be sore for some time.

    Sheri .. So glad your friend got the court order against her husband.

    Robin .. I agree with everyone else, you need to put your foot down. They are trying to make you feel bad about it because if you take time then suddenly they are responsible again. Well they should be.

    (((((( Puppy )))))) So sorry.

    Christine .. I hope you're enjoying the birthday breakfast! You're so right about taking the time for the important people in our lives.

    Peter .. where are you?

    Margaret .. Glad the ativan helped, I've used it many times for sleep. It doesn't keep you in a deep sleep though. I have Ambien on hand as well which if I know I'm going to have 8 hours to sleep I can take it. I never have 8 hours though!

    Well that mean horse woman emailed me back and here's her untrue and very unprofessional response:
    "We made a special exception to take just 3 riders on a trail ride that their father had reserved. After waiting an approx. an hour past the departure time he came and said there was only two riders!!!!! I made it very clear the night before when I called to confirm his reservation that their was a least 3 riders and he said yes. NO WAY WILL WE DO A TRAIL RIDE WITH JUST TWO RIDERS...................... He should of called Sunday morning and told me the number had changed and I would of said not to come!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS MATTER IS CLOSED AND NONE OF YOU WILL EVER RIDE AT MY STABLE!!!! Waste someone else's time. MY time was wasted getting the horses ready for the ride, noone paid me for my time."

    Karl wrote back to her very professionally and pointed out her errors .. such as he had no idea this was a special exception and thought they were joining others on a trail ride and they were 10 min late due to getting lost on all the backroads to get there and he called her to let her know. His response is very long so I won't post it but he does tell her that she's been reported to the BBB. She ended up replying with this one sentence: "You did not have a reservation at my bed and breakfast, it does not own any horses or do any horseback riding. Get you facts straight".
    What a looney! So how was her time wasted getting horses ready if they don't own any? I almost worry that she has my name. I think she's a bit of a psycho. We're not communicating any longer to her, she's already wasted enough of our time. We'll let the BBB handle it from here!

    Now that I'm feeling better I need to go try and catch up with all the stuff that's been sitting .. mail, laundry, etc., not to mention spending more time with my girls. I hope everyone has a great first day of the new year of the circle. I found my first post and it was Cheri who was the first to welcome me here! With everyone thinking back to 08/22/06 it made me do so as well and made me very sad. On that day I was blissfully ignorant of the beast inside me and how terribly it was going to change my life. But I am so grateful for this circle and being able to be here with those who understand.

    Love&Hugs to all from A - Z,

    Charlene