Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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HUGS Miss S and a THAT SUCKS. You might try Rainbow Bridge for your poochie. It is a memorial site for pets.
Everyone else: HUGS and God Bless. Nancy
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(((((((((((Harley)))))))))))) That sucks that you are having so much pain. I'm glad that you don't have drains in now for two reasons, one-they suck and two-I didnt' totally miss that.
Hi Ann, yep OAOA means On Again Off Again. LOL!
BK = Bankruptcy.
BTW, I wish the IOS's of DX's, TX's, D&C's, BK's not so DH's, DD's, DS's. MIL's, BIL,s SIL,s and OAOA's, SOBF's would end ASAP cuz they really PMO!!! OMG! So not ROTFL.
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Oh no, MissS. I just posted this looooonnnnggg post and there you are. I am so sorry about your little dog. Hugs. And, yes, we're going to see them again. Don't forget..The Rainbow Bridge..they're over there waiting for us. I hope mine has to wait a long time. That wasn't funny! Truly, when I read about other people's pets dying or sick I cry. When it comes to animals there is a very soft place in my heart.
This is for you and know that your baby is okay. I'm crying with you. My dh caught me.
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Shirley
I think my appt. is 10:30, but I'll have to check the calendar. This time, I know I won't be there all day like I was before, just long enough to tell him that I want all this to be OVER NOW, and no more messing around. My dh will probably be at work. Since we got the good news about it being B9, he won't think it is an 'important' dr. appt. Do you want to get together again? I really look forward to our lunches.
My dh wanted me to tell ya'll that he is making gnocci for dinner tonight. He does MOST of the cooking.
Oh, Shirley, your dog is SO VERY CUTE!! I know you must miss her so very much!!
Miss S.- Oh, I am SO sorry about your little doggie!! It is SO sad when we lose our babies!! The Rainbow Bridge really made me feel better when I lost my first cat, Axel. It is such a comforting poem, and I always feel better when I think about Axel waiting for me there at the Bridge. Your baby is there playing and is not in any pain, just waiting for you!! Sending HUGS your way!!
Traci-
Yes, I don't miss those DRAINS! They were terrible! My surgeon didn't tell me ANYTHING about the surgery, and when I went back for my 2 week follow up, I asked him: "I hear there are these exercises I am SUPPOSED to be doing... are you going to show me these exercises, or are you just gonna wait til I use ALL USE OF MY ARM?" He just laughed! He is a very good dr., and I love him! Too bad he can't do the hysterectomy or the D & C...
I am one of the world's WORST patients!! I usually growl at the drs.!! They always HATE it when you question them...
I agree... WAY TOO many IOS's!! BK sucks!
Harley
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Miss S. - I am so, so sorry about your sweet pup. We are never ready to let them go.
Lisa
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Oh. I am so sorry Miss S.
The song Shirley posted has me just crying here for my sweet girl too.
I so hope this is true about the Rainbow Bridge.
When she could not breathe anymore and it happened so fast too. Oh i can't talk about it.
She used to sleep beside a pendulum clock with a gentle tick.
The moment she died, it stopped.
And I cannot make it go again, no matter what I do.
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The Rainbow Bridge is so comforting. You guys are so sweet to care about me and I so appreciate it. You have all really touched me with your stories of your pets and your empathy. They really are such a gift from God.
This is a picture of my dog and my son... she had ear surgery and had to wear that thing on her head.
Shirley, your dog is so sweet looking. I know she was a wonderful pet.
Harley, I'm so sorry for all the crap and pain you're going through.
Marylou, I am so sorry about your husband's job. He's not too old, though. I sure hope he is young enough to find something worthwhile.... I know my company hires men his age without batting an eye! They have experience.
Thanks to everyone and I'll try to read back and catch up better tomorrow.
Love you guys!
Miss S
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miss s, i'm so so sorry about your sweet dog. i know from experience how hard that is and how much it hurts. hugs to you.
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I'm so tired of feeling like I have to apologize for having a bad day! Everyone acts as if I should be A-okay every minute of every day. I'm tired of feeling like I have to apologize for having a crappy day because of menopause or arimidex, or having a bad day because I couldn't sleep and just for having a damn bad day. Excuse ME!
I don't know about ya'll, but after my bilat mastectomy was over everyone acted like all was normal in the world again. Sorry, it's not! My expanders bug the crap out of me, they dig into me, I can't sleep much anymore, I have hot flashes and night sweats, not to mention the stiffness in my knees, my fingers are swollen, I'm constipated and I have lost my boobs,
Aren't I allowed a bad day once in awhile?
Sorry ladies, I needed to vent. Thanks!!!
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Tami, don't apologize to ANYONE for having bad DAYS. It is your right of passage...LOL Seriously, I'm looking at your signature. You started this journey a little less than 5 months ago and you are expected to not have bad days (forget about A bad day). If someone asks how you are doing, you ask them DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW? Then you tell them,1 I've been traumatized by having my boobs chopped off, 2 I feel like I'm wearing an underwire bra and the wire has broken through the cloth and it's stabbing into my flesh (don't know if that's a good analogy..I didn't have reconstruction
), 3 how would you like counting sheep all night...I'M TIRED!, 3 I wake up in a pool of water and I flash like crazy, 4 I can't take a $h*T..ask my how I feel after using that dynamite (I would prefer you to use a firecracker), 5 oh, and let's not forget about my stiff knees and swollen fingers (are you on an AI?)....Don't you wish you could say that AND more! But you won't because you are too nice and we must be brave, tough, strong..and what's even worse we EXPECT this from ourselves. So, from now on don't apologize. I'm going to pretend to be a psych...Acknowledge that you've been through hell and back and NUTTINS going to take that away as much as you (or any of us) want. Give yourself permission to have those bad days. Don't feel guilty. But in the end..you're gonna be just fine. Things will look up. But you'll still have bitches, moans and groans..that's part of life! Come back here where we laugh and cry together.Shirley
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Miss S - I'm so sorry about your beloved dog. I have 3 myself, 2 of which are elderly, and I know how much your baby meant to you. I hope you find peace in the knowledge that your pet knew he was loved.
Marsha
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Oh, Miss S, so sorry about your doggie!
Harley - Yes, stupid men and stupid polyps. Why can't they get their act together?!
BTW, the lip is more normal now. Still tingly, but I'm not scaring small children anymore, including mine.
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This is your week-end friend checking in. Seems like it went by so fast. A big that sucks to everyone that needs one.
MissS: Im so sorry you lost your pup. Its heartbreaking to lose one of our pets and Im thinking about you today.
Hi to everyone and hope the day isnt filled with many IOS's! I will try to check back later, when I get home from work.
Lova ya
Nicki - chemosabi
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Thanks Shirley!!
Yes, I'm on an AI---Arimidex. I hated to bitch like I did last night. I usually tell everyone that everything is okay, I'm good. Guess I was keeping it bottled up and finally let it out after my Mom made me feel guilty because I didn't feel up to shopping yesterday (but I had not slept hardly any the night before). She had told me to take a shower and I would feel better. I'm sorry, a shower doesn't always work. I know that my Mom meant well, but the end result was that I just started crying, couldn't help it.
Maybe I should do like you said----If they ask how I'm doing I should say "Do you really want to know"
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Tami
Welcome to the "Bitchy" thread... here we can complain when we are feeling bad and no one minds. Everyone chips in, saying "THAT SUCKS!", and adding their own Bitch from their day. I love to come here and read, and sometimes, it even cheers me up!! The ladies here are very nice and very funny! I think this is my FAVORITE thread, because the ladies here REALLY UNDERSTAND! It is true that you can't really know unless you've been down this road. We really DO know that while traveling down this bc road, it is impossible NOT to have a crappy day or even DAYS once in awhile. As Shirley said, 'it is a rite of passage...'
You have only just started your bc journey, but I want to tell you that it DOES get better. You will have good days & bad days. It's ok to feel bad and it's ok to admit that 'IT SUCKS!'
Harley
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You guys, I hate, hate, HATE to hear all the crap everyone's going through! My dog is my best buddy and my heart would be broken...
Anyway, even though this is the bitch thread, I have to share what just happened here. After all the mess with the insurance/copay/XELODA, a complete stranger just made my day. I DIDN'T get the XELODA last Friday as was promised and was tied up un knots wondering if it would get here before my leftovers ran out. Well, the UPS truck just left. My dog (the cutie in my avatar--very BIG and friendly but intimidating) always freaks out when someone comes to the door. Most of the time, UPS and the like drop the package outside the door, ring the doorbell, and run. My youngest son went out to grab the package and found something sitting on top. Bless my UPS guy....he put 3 doggie biscuits on top of the package!
I know it's not a big deal, but I thought it was very sweet and it made me laugh. Anybody/anything that can make me laugh these days is tops in my book. Sheesh...I'm almost gushing...it's just that the UPS guy's little gesture changed my whole perspective of the day.
I've been so wrapped up in getting my XELODA that I haven't had time to be "scanxious" about last week's CT. I'm not going to worry about it until I go back on the 28th. I have a PET on the 26th, so anything on the CT will have to be compared to that anyway.
So, even though I have a few IOS, I'm going to ignore them in favor of the "warm fuzzy" from the UPS guy. Don't kick me out of the club, k? ;o)
((((HUGS))))
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Miss S - very sorry about your dog. Sending you Hugs.
Tami,Shirley and Harley - you have said everything I am feeling and want to say.
I am having a really long string of bad days. My chest hurts, the expanders are cutting into my sides and all over. My arm pits are numb and stinging all the time. I can't really put a shirt on/off over my head w/out pain in my arms. The exercises for my arms bother my expanders and feel like they are moving around. Basically, I am constantly irritated.
Now that I have had my say for the day, I would like to thank you for listening.
And yes, this really "SUCKS"
Cheryl
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Cristine, glad your lip is better and that you're not scaring all the kids.
Awww, there's a baby whale (I think it's a whale) that's lost it's mom. And he's following a boat and think it's his mommy..even trying to suckle IT. And they think it might die. The TV is on if you wonder how I know. I'm sad.
But then Diane comes along and tells us a beautiful story. That's one of the sweetest stories I've heard. I'm going to share it with my friends. I have a smile on my face thinking about the USP man being so nice.
Nicki, did I miss something? I see your new name is "Free Spirit. I like it. My brain is totally gone!
Tami, perhaps you need to go over to the "hormal thread" and print some of the things the women are going through and give it to your mom..whomever. The things these hormonals do to us IS REAL. I believe most of the doctors are even getting it now.
Ha Ha, Harley. You used the right word..."rite of....LOL Oh, my dear brain. I hope you're feeling better today.
Cheryl, you are really having a sucky time. Not being able to lift your arms is the pits. Like I said, I didn't have reconstruction. I can only imagine what you gals are going through because I USED to wear underwires. LOL Just remember. Those stupid, sucky expanders will be gone one day! Keep coming here and complain all you want!
I have an IOS today...well two. My brain is so darned slow today. Don't be a smart aleck and tell me it's always slow cuz I already KNOW that! The other one..I finally downloaded some music from iTunes for my dh. So, this morning he burned it to a CD. Stupid CD (and we tried it twice) is messed up..otherwise the CD burner is doing something wrong. He even put it in our car and it won't recognize that the CD is in there. WTH! Now I need to call Dell (three year warranty), and my stupid slow brain won't understand one thing they're saying. My dh will have to talk to them. I just hope we can understand their language..you know...outsourcing!
Shirley
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Shirley: Ha ha yep - I needed a change! Now I have to go, its dinner time.
A big that sucks to everyone thats need it today.
Nicki - aka chemosabi
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Diane, you got your Xeloda!!! With doggie biscuits on top!!! that is so great!!!
I'm not gonna get into my IOS's (AI insomnia, followed by early Monday morning work...)
but when I took a little walk at lunch time, I saw a young woman wearing a t-shirt that could be the uniform of this thread!
It was pink... (hmm.... was she also a Member of the Club???)... and written in big black letters it said:
"Oh crap! I bet you're going to try to cheer me up..."
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Cheryl,
Sorry your chest hurts! I had saline implants, but without expanders. I guess I was lucky because my ps just shoved the implants in under the chest muscle and filled 'em up! But, OUCH!, did they hurt for about a week or so.
Ann
That T-shirt sounds like a good one!! I think I need it!!
Diane,
Glad you got your Xeloda, with the dog biscuits, too! Your UPS man is a nice guy!!
Shirley,
Sorry you are having trouble with your CD... yep, no one speaks English anymore in customer service.
My IOS for today is that even though the pain and cramps and bleeding seem to be slowing or stopping, I now have this very painful, stiff neck & shoulder pain. I woke up in the middle of the night with a SHARP pain in the back of my head / neck area!! OUCH!! I think I might take a pain pill before I go to bed tonight. I can't even move my head at all!
Also, I took my cat, Spike to the vet today since he has been kind of coughing alot lately. Well, of course, since I made the appt., he hasn't coughed once. He worries me when he coughs, because my first cat was coughing, and that is how we found out that he had cancer. So now I get very scared whenever one of my babies starts to cough. He passed his check up with flying colors! The vet is very proud of us for keeping Spike in such good shape. Now I wish I was in such good shape!! LOL
Hope everyone has a wonderful, non-sucky day tomorrow!! Try to rest and have a relaxing evening.
Harley
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Hi Everyone.
Sorry for your sucky days - so much crap in our lives. Today I had my 4 month check-up with ono and waited 3 hours. I am still traumatized by my bc experience so by the time she saw me my blood pressure was up. Just lovely. I was fine before I walked into that center again.
I can relate to you all emotionally about the suckiness in our lifes due to our bc dx or treatments, scans and follow-ups and it SUCKS! Hugs to all.
dx 4/07 1cm mastectomy left breast 5/1/07 no nodes, stage 1, chemo - cmf
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Hi All,
I am having an awful day...need to vent! It will be two weeks tomorrow that I had my exchange for the non-cancer side as well as had the port in my chest removed. I had to go back to work today and I am tired and sore. The area where the port was is more sore than the foob. The cancer side was exchanged last Sept. and it is still TERRIBLE. It feels just like the expander...tight and digging into my chest. PS doesn't know why!
When I got home from work tried to take a nap and answering machine turned on. My SIL who was dx'd with melanoma called to say that she was going to have to have interferon for a month by IV now doesn't need anything. The surgery got it all. I am so happy for her but when I told my daughter, I started to cry. Why couldn't I get a break???!!!! I can't take much more
Sorry, just feeling sorry for myself....
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Dear Egal, your post just pulled at me . . . I'm sorry you're in pain. You really do deserve a break. Somebody on this thread recently sent me a PM offering to fetch me a glass of water. I wish I could offer you the same sort of thing (maybe a cup of tea? or make your bed up with clean sheets?). I'm happy for your SIL but I also hope you have some good stuff swing your way. In the meantime, it sucks. It really does.
A "that sucks" to everybody in pain or who's worried or frustrated about something. (Thinking of Sue and Deb.)
My IOS: I was supposed to see a good friend of mine who's a priest on Thursday (I haven't seen him since I was dx, but he's back in the area). He's my best confidant. Well, I just found out he has developed shingles again so our meeting is off. I'm okay. I didn't realize how much I've been "saving" stuff for when I saw him until it got cancelled.
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"IOS"??? Nothing came to mind, but with fried brain, that's no surprise. I started from page 1 and by page 17 decided to try from the back~~~thanks to Felicia on August 5, I now know the meaning! Fried brain or not, "Issues of Suckage" would never have come to me.
Now I'm in the loop and my consolations to all those with IOS!!!!
(Kinda scary reading, though~~~there are a lot of tough broads on this thread!
)Good luck to all!
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Rock - Now your post pulled at me and reminded me of how I felt back in June, waiting for my sister to come and then it got postponed. I totally get that let down feeling. Big sigh.
Ann - That shirt is too much! I also need one. Stupid chemo. (I'll get back to that.)
Harley - Sorry about the neck pain - Ouch! I've done that before, too.
Tami - Your post pulled at me, also. We were diagnosed 2 days apart and have similar dxs (except the hormone part). I can't imagine any reason why you'd be having a bad day - NOT!!! Come here and post it all - it helps.
My IOS - Stupid chemo. Thought I was in chemopause (not), keep getting staph infections in places with hair (why is this an issue when I'm doing chemo?!), joining the scanxiety with my first PET/CT scan on Thursday, anxiety starting Taxotere next week, recurring yeast infections, yadda, yadda, yadda...STUPID CHEMO. There. I'm done.
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Hi Ladies,
My computer has been broken and hubby has taken his time fixing it. Still running slow so I have not had time to catch up on everybody.
MissS, I am so sorry about your dog. My animals are my babies and I know how much it hurts when we loose them. It especially sucks when we are going through what we are and to loose a beloved pet. My prayers go out to you.
Cheryl, I am with you on the expander pain. Pain is what wakes me up in the morning. No sleep-in's for me any longer.
I just watched the interview with Christina Applegate and though I am happy for her dx and "cure", I am pissed that she is furthering the myth BC is "no big deal". I am sick of hearing how great my breasts will look. I have to remind them that I will not be able to feel them and have no nipples that can be stimulated or touched and enjoyed.
Yesterday, someone was asking where I had been. I said I was undergoing BC treatment. "Well, we all have something. I am getting old and don't like it" was the reply. WTF????? I hope I get old and can complain. I try to put on a positive face, but damn it, it is really hard sometimes. Well, my PC is slowing down so I need to logg off and let it rest.
Debbie
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HI Everyone:
I cannot make any of your IOS any better, but I will listen and offer a hot fudge sundae or cup of coffee or a shoulder to cry on and a very very gentle hug. NO ONE knows till they have been there,
What to say when you get that " you look great " or wow, I didnt know you could drive anymore... I did not dry up and shrivel away, although some days I feel like I have. And look great -- because I slather on the eye shadow .... yeah, buddah belly, toes hurt so bad I want to chop them off, bald head, dry mouth, and various aches and pains here and there. NO, NO, do NOT hug me -- pleeze --- the port still hurts to touch, but it is only 8 days since I got it. And itch - which is good, cuz it is almost healed over.
Big foot is back - my upstairs neighbor. I had hoped he moved out, but must have gone on vacation. 6 am -- stomp, clomp, dishes rattle - then 8 am another round of dishes rattling and clomping back and forth for half an hour. BTW, MY dishes rattling in my cupboard. Then the roofers are doing my building and across the driveway -- tar on a hot day smells great, even w/air cond on.
I made myself a plastic canvas water bottle cover: CANCER SUCKS - pink w/black letters -. Next one is " I HAVE ISSUES" - my favorite tshirt. need to add " of suckiness" if it fits.
Blessings, Nancy
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Quicky: Nancy, I had a friend who lived below a pair of clog dancers who got home late from their clog-dancing gigs. They would clog over to get something out of the fridge. And over to the bathroom. And into the living room to check messages. Then clog back to the kitchen. I stayed over @ her apartment one night. It would have been something straight out of sat night live actually, had it not been . . . torture.
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Well, gracious - miss a few days due to Olymic fatigue (too much good stuff after 10pm!) and deadline (mag went to the printer today) and there are four full pages of crap to catch up on...
Miss S, so sorry to hear about your dog. My heart aches for you! We had to put our cat down about five years ago (she was - are you ready for this - 25 years old!) and it nearly split my heart in two. I found her old water dish (with her name on it) in the back of the cabinet last week and cried like I lost her yesterday. Hope you are feeling a little bit better today...
Cristine, glad your lip is better. I did whack myself in the nose a few years ago (blocking a punch) but nothing swelled; I do think that was "the" blow that deviated my septum, though. Hurt like a b*tch...
Harley, glad you got good news from your pathology report. Sucks that you are still bleeding, but hoping you birth that sea pod (Hanna - WTF?!?) soon...
Nancy, perhaps you can look into moving to another part of your complex when your lease is up. Maybe something on the top floor (no bigfoot birds, I don't think) near (but down wind) of the garbage dumpsters?
Nicki, I nearly wet my pants when you described looking for your own private Brazillian! Thank the Lord for mirrors, no?!?
A hearty Welcome to EGAL and Tami. Vent all you want! The worse that could happen is we'll crash the server...
Rock, I do hope you make it to the next NYC gathering. Love to meet you and your wit in person...
Hey there DesNY! Long time no see!
Diane, glad you got your Xeloda. Is your UPS guy cute? That would be an added bonus!
Waving at you, Ann...
Traci, sorry to hear about the 'Boys. Just kidding!
Shirley, Can your DH come paint my toes, too?
Howdy to all I missed. Hoping things aren't too sucky in your respective necks of the woods...
BTW, anyone heard from Otter or Dani lately?!?
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