Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

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  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 583
    edited March 2009

    HEyyyyy--WhaSux?

    Lovin---you made me LMAO!! Who else would understand NOT being sick enough??????  HUGS

    Isabella---thanx for that story-I'm sure it isn't as funny to you, but I have cousins who married into a huge farm family of boys & you brought all those funny memories back~ MEN!

    Jane--that just sux! Check with the dealer-some guarantee the tires for a certain amount of time or mileage & I bet you haven't reached that IF they offer it!

    Traci--Hugs--I have "adopted" a young man who was recently released after 10 years of incarceration. He is a model citizen & I love him to pieces & trust him with my kids completely. Dh just said last nite--when I first told him about "m' boy"  he thought I was totally nuts, but after he spoke to him for just 10 minutes he agreed--doesn't matter to us what he did (or didn't) do--we know & love him as he is ---a wonderful guy! He called me Sat nite & I talked him thru making fried chicken---LOLOLOL

    Off to the shelter--today I bring home my new kitty-boy! Here's hoping the old one (15) & the dogs let him stay!

    HUGS--be well & stay strong 

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited March 2009

    Am I too old to run away?

    I'm thinking the Bahama's or maybe St. Croix...

  • badboob67
    badboob67 Member Posts: 236
    edited March 2009

    Nope, not too old...but you may need to acquire a relatively large piece of luggage so I can stow away and come along with you.

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited March 2009

    I have a steemer trunk from my Navy days, I'm sure you'd fit quite nicely! I'm thinking if I tend bar somewhere that I also get a free meal...and sleep on the beach, I only need to cover getting a shower every day and I can probably just dunk in the ocean for that at least a few times a week...there has been some thought put into this plan already, can you tell ?

  • badboob67
    badboob67 Member Posts: 236
    edited March 2009

    WOOHOO!   Sounds like a good plan to me.

  • lovinmomma
    lovinmomma Member Posts: 105
    edited March 2009

    I like that plan and I am seconding it!!!

  • PSK07
    PSK07 Member Posts: 91
    edited March 2009

    I always threaten to run away to camp. A camp where I can sit and read all day, stopping only to eat and drink whatever they bring my way.

    I admit, I am a packrat. I still have a dress that I wore to a tolo dance back in 1978 (?). Can't believe I was that small (but I was sure I was fat!). The husband has two sets of clothes - real ones he can wear in public and the others that are good for painting, yard work, DIY, etc. At least he doesn't keep things on the off chance that they'll fit him again one day. Embarassed

    Diane - give 'em what for.

    jane - we can sometimes (rarely) get the city to replace a tire if proven that it failed because of a pothole. ????

    Frustrated with a co-worker who takes it all personally, a husband (otherwise lovely) who wants me to resolve everything, no matter what, right now, and my children - just because they're teens.

    I've been on Effexor for 3 months and Tamoxifen for just over 2. I sweat like nobody's business every single night. Having my first period on Tamox & it doesn't seem to be quitting. At least I'm not having much in the way of hot flashes during the day. It can be so cold at work that they can only help. Oh, and the exhaustion/tiredness. Is it the time change or the drugs?

  • Jane_M
    Jane_M Member Posts: 932
    edited March 2009

    I called the City of Poughkeepsie today and they faxed me a claim form today.  It looks like they might reimburse me for the cost of the tire.  I'm also not the first one to hit this same pot hole and damage their car.  I noticed today that the pothole was fixed (somewhat).

  • Traci-----TripNeg
    Traci-----TripNeg Member Posts: 567
    edited March 2009

    (((Navy))) What's the matter gurl????????

    Diane, you are F-U-N-N-Y!!!!!!!

    Saint, Kathleen, thanx so much. I hope with all my heart he will be o.k. I talked to him last night and I said "the only advice I can give you is that for awhile, until you get on your feet, you going to have to work...and be bored....that's it. You can't be running around partying and spending all the money you make." It's going to be tough given his age.....

    I just found out also, that his brother who is 23, has a girlfriend that is 6 1/2 months pregnant. I got the baby-to-be a little onezie (sp? never had a kid...) that says "Future Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader". lol

    On an even happier note; my brother is in town for 3 weeks and I am just loving having him here. He is splitting time between mine and our other sister's house, but I had him alone last night and while I cooked a good 'ol southern momma meal for him, he watched House. He was laughing and laughing. It was so great to hear my bro's laugh in my normally very quiet house. I'm so lucky to have such great siblings. We didn't have much growing up, but we sure had love and it has so stuck. We are all so tight.

    Pam, do you have a fan by your bed? When I feel my hotflash coming on....I let it brew until I just start to sweat (you know...about 5 seconds) then I uncover and let that cold air hit my moist skin and that really helps to put out the flames fast.

    Hugs everybody!!!

  • PinkyLee
    PinkyLee Member Posts: 427
    edited March 2009

    Well to say the lease I am having one of those nights.  I is 2:50 am and I am up crying for no real reason but feel pissed off and sorry for myself all at the same time. 

    I have the tea pot on and hope that once I drink a cup and take a trazadon, I can go to sleep.  I had decided I was not going to take pills anymore unless I really had to.  Tonight or this morning, I really need to.

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited March 2009

    Oh Pinky...I'm so sorry you were up like that...I know the feeling too and it sucks! Tea was a good idea (I hope) as it usually helps me. My cousing came this past weekend with her family - it's the first time she's been to my house in years and she thought it was so funny that I drink tea now in the evenings. I guess it seemed "old lady-ish" to her and she just couldn't picture it.

    Traci ~ it jus sucks when breast cancer comes along and one day you realize maybe your relationship isn't all that you thought it was before breast cancer. I'm starting to see bits and pieces of my mother-in law coming out and it's really (really) not a good thing. I'm hoping it's just one of those valley's in the whole "peaks and valley's" of relationships...but what if it's not? Apparently the post breast cancer me is not nearly as pretty or as fun as the pre-breast cancer me and that really stings. Like I didn't already know that right now? Ugh, enough...can't go there again this morning because I want to have a good day...no matter what else happens today, as of this morning at 5am I have lost 10.5 lbs of steriod gain!!! Put THAT in your pipe and smoke it!!!

    I hope we all have a good day...Diane, I'm still waiting for you to PM me that phone number ;P

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 3
    edited March 2009

    Hello to old and new friends.  I have been away for a while and wanted to pop in to say hello.  My IOS is simple.  For the first time in my life I woke up this morning as a Stage 4 cancer patient.  Still finding it hard to absorb!  Just numb.

    Nicki

  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 10,154
    edited March 2009

    Gentle hugs Nicki.  I'm so sorry you are back because of this dx.

  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 2,234
    edited March 2009

    Gentle Hugs, (((((nicki))))).  That totally SUCKS.   I don't know what to say - it has to be a major shock.  

    Bonnie, I thought I was up early, you beat me.   Prob see ya at GUH later on.   My appt is 10:30, so I maybe miss the traffic...    

  • lemonjake
    lemonjake Member Posts: 342
    edited March 2009

    D*mn. Nicki. D*MN, D*MN, D*MN.  I am so very sorry to hear this. 

    I've been reading but not posting because I felt guilty for not posting but today I am irritated so I decided "what the hell."

    I moved to Cape Town which is be-yoo-tee-ful and sunny and very interesting and people are quite friendly. Cape Town, as I am living here, is the anti-Suck. It is the antidote for all that is sucky.

    Nevertheless, I am irritable today. The situation is not helped by the fact that there is this guy who sells squeaky toys on the street below my apartment. I swear, I want to pick up a chair and heave it at his head. If I decide to do this, I promise I will yell "That SUCKS!" as I do it in honor of you all and all of your IOS's.

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited March 2009

    Rock...it's really hard to imagine you cranky in Cape Town...your posts since you got there make it seem like a paradise where nothing bothers you!

  • MissShapen
    MissShapen Member Posts: 3,963
    edited March 2009

    I am so sorry to hear your terrible news, Nicki! My prayers are with you.

    Miss S

  • LisaSDCA
    LisaSDCA Member Posts: 178
    edited March 2009

    Nicki - again, I am so sad and pissed off that Stage IV has become a part of your BC experience. You'll be numb for quite a while probably - I know that is still frequently my condition. Let us know what/when your treatment is. We'll see you through this major SUCKAGE.

    Lisa

  • LisaSDCA
    LisaSDCA Member Posts: 178
    edited March 2009

    Bonnie - WTG on the 10.5 pounds offa your bod! Once I'm not taking decadron every day, I'll be right there with you. {trying again to wean off it this week!}

    Rock - you make SA sound wonderful! Bet there you see mighty different flora from what you are used to in NYC. Is it hot? Could you perhaps offer a small financial incentive to get the street vendor to move up the block? Maybe make a bargain that you'll buy half a dozen of his nuisance toys and he'll move at least 100 yds. away?

    Lisa

  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 2,234
    edited March 2009

    How about having the street vendor move to the NEXT block ?????    That Sucks to all who need it.   

    Hugs,   nancy 

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited March 2009

    ooops, I realized on my way to treament I was remiss in saying how happy I was for Traci that she's getting to spend time with her bro' and loving every minute of it! I'm so happy for you Traci - I'm sorry I got wrapped up in my own goo and neglected to mention that part :)

    It's official...my weigh in at treatment showed 10.5 lbs lost (Thanks Lisa...) I find it to big to be a coincedence that a little over 2 weeks ago my hormones kicked in to the point where I got a period again and viola, the weight started coming off! I'm going to take advantage of it as much as I can before now and March 25th when I get my ovaries out - I'm afraid once I do that I will once again struggle, struggle, struggle...

    No IOS tonight, I hope not for any of us...Nicki, I hope you were able to have a quiet day reading the posts from all those who love you and are supporting you and lifting you up right now...(((Nicki)))

    I'm off to research Dave Matthews...he's on a music station I listen to at work now and I never knew I liked him so much because I never new what songs he sang...I want to see if he's playing live anywhere :)

  • otter
    otter Member Posts: 757
    edited March 2009

    Oh, Nicki, that news of yours totally sux.  Major, big time IOS.  I was hanging out over on another part of the boards where you posted it and I was stunned.  Glad you're back, of course; but I wish you didn't have that particular reason to be here.

    I know it sounds silly, but I want you to imagine that all of your BC sisters (the good ones) are there with you.  We're brewing you some tea or cocoa or your beverage of choice, and watching goofy movies with you, and trying on your old clothes (the ones everyone here would have us throw away) and laughing at how funny we look in someone else's clothes...  Nicki, when things get tough, just lean really hard against us and we'll support you.  We'll listen, we'll cry, we'll investigate things for you, we'll just be there as your virtual sisters.

    Big hugs...

    otter 

  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 678
    edited March 2009

    Nicki

    I have always thought of you as that cute avatar... a warrior girl... tough yet still feminine.  And once you get past the shock.... you will blow them out of the water.  They thought I was toast, Stage 4, with mets to liver, lungs and spine and a smoker too.  They whispered 18 months.... and I am still here after 3 yrs.  Remember this is not the end.  It is only the beginning.  I will follow your progress and share your victories and cry when its too too hard.  We are sisters.

  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 583
    edited March 2009

    @$@%^^&*%&(^*(&)_)$%%#@#!#:  Nicki, hon, that sux SO BAD!-----PM me when you are ready to talk & I'll call when you say.........Hugs-----we are here for you!!! IF I can give you anything--just ask & it is yours, sweetie! BIG HUGS

    Everyone be well & stay strong 

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 3
    edited March 2009

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    Sending out a big that sucks for everyone who needs to hear it today.  Thanks for all your kind words and support.  I have scheduled my appointment with the thoracic surgeon, it will be on Tuesday, March 17th.

    A very good friend has set up a blog for me.  I have added it to my signature if anyone is interested in reading what I really have to say about this who darn thing.

    Love each and everyone of you.

    Nicki

  • lemonjake
    lemonjake Member Posts: 342
    edited March 2009

    It's a wonderful blog, Nicki.  And don't think that I'm sitting over here crying coz I'm not. It's just that, the sun is in my eyes, you know, the dust in the air or something.

  • saint
    saint Member Posts: 583
    edited March 2009

    Thanx for your prayers. Answered:

    MRI & bone scans were stable/unchanged. CT said 4mm lung lesion previously seen was not demonstrated.......

    Prayers answered---more going up for you Nutty Nurse!

    HUGS 

  • prayrv
    prayrv Member Posts: 362
    edited March 2009

    Saint,

    Wonderful news! 

    HUGS to you!

    Trish

  • mzmiller99
    mzmiller99 Member Posts: 220
    edited March 2009

    Saint - You bring tears to my eyes.  A giant CONGRATS to you.

    Nicki - Prayers and hugs. GD crap, anyway.

  • PSK07
    PSK07 Member Posts: 91
    edited March 2009

    Nicki. Shit. I can say that because it is the shits. (((hugs))) a thousandfold. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Saint. Wonderful news for you!  Yippee!

    Cold flashes and hot flashes. If this is what happens when I don't take my meds, you better believe I won't be missing too many other days.

    I can't go back and review w/o losing everything. Hope the IOS are at a minimum.