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  • tami48
    tami48 Member Posts: 270
    edited April 2009

    REKoz - Walmart is Wally-world as far as I know.  Glad to hear the shower was great!  You have one more chemo to go!  Yay!!! 

    Hope everyone has a good night. 

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited April 2009
    Candie, congrats on day 12! Glad your wrist is doing better. I know the feeling of huffy and puffy going upstairs. It can work that quick. Some say the weight can wait. I think I might try some fun cardio classes when I quit so I can at least slow it down.

    2newboobs, so happy to hear you have one more chemo to go! what is your next step after chemo?

    Deanie, hope you are feeling better today. Sending our positive thoughts your way.

    Nervousknitter, as always, you have good visuals. Love having you here. You have over 3 months, right?

    FIfish, chantix is doing better. Day 5 on it and I am looking at my pack like I am losing something which is dumb, when in truth I am gaining so much.

    Pantufas, 1 hour huh, must of been a goodie. Wished you didn't lose it, always look forward to your posts.

    REKoz, happy to hear the shower went well. I am going to Vegas on the 8th and be back on the 10th. Business and pleasure trip. That playing dead would of made a great dead picture, lol. Good to hear you have one chemo left to go, almost there!

    Wishing all of you well, love spring here in Denver, one of my favorite seasons. I love watching the flowers bloom, and our friendships in the Butt Fondler group bloom too. Missing you some of you by the way!

    Best,
    Janet
  • candie1971
    candie1971 Member Posts: 2,467
    edited April 2009

    Janet,I have been walking 20 minutes each day for the last few days now. Figure if I concetrate on that, it will help me not to gain wieght...I DO NOT want to gain anymore. Glad u r doing ok on the Chantix...I know how you feel about "losing" the cigarettes. I have been this quitting route before,,just hope I can stick to it.

    Nervousknitter, 3 months??? wow!! Oh, I hope I can do it!

    Have a great day,all. Day 12 for me!!

    hugs and prayers!

  • tami48
    tami48 Member Posts: 270
    edited April 2009

    I didn't sleep worth a crap last night.  I had to keep adjusting my "boobs" everytime I turned over.  They just feel so heavy and uncomfortable at times!  I keep hoping to get used to them....maybe one day!

    candie - Congrats on day 12!  Walking is great!  I've just started using my treadmill again...hope I can stick with it!

    I'll check back after I've put some coffee in me.

  • illinoislady
    illinoislady Member Posts: 40,366
    edited April 2009

    Hi
    Everyone....just checking to see how things are going.  I am no expert...so far from it, but I always heard....that if you do gain wt. you lose it again starting about the 6th. month after quitting.  I don't myself recall gaining much wt. if any, but then at the time I was fairly active and I had gained wt. beforehand from some of the other things ( none of you may be in this category ) that ladies deal with such as menopause, using meds for blood pressure etc.  All of these tend to put some weight on---so I already had plenty.  I think it may take a while longer to lose if your trying to to do or put another way---the current wt. you are at might sort of hold steady for awhile as your metabolism and other things get in the groove of being a non-smoker. 

    I'm still cheering you on....and hoping that you can all keep up the good work. 

    Someone asked me the other day if I thought I would ever go back to smoking....and I said heavens no.  I've been a non-smoker for 10 or 11 years now....I can't afford them anymore.  They were I thought way too expensive when I quit, and they are a lot more now.....not to mention all the other reasons why you would not want to smoke. 

    I will check back a little later.  Have a great evening and a really good day tomorrow.

    Hugs,

    Jackie

  • malleme
    malleme Member Posts: 164
    edited April 2009

    Hello to all,

    Hey, 2newboobs- your new boobs are hurting still.  I have 3 more fills for my tissue expanders and one side is truly hurting with every moment and my shoulder it hurting too.  I do not see any redness and doesn't appear to be an infection. I have been praying that the pains will be gone with the exchange in 12 weeks yuk. 

    I went to the Wellness Community today for an orientation of the services they offer for Cancer.  They basically offered mind, body and spirit class.  etc.  I think I may have found how to deal better with the stress and get excersiing to get over the whole smoking issue.  My thought is to take as many of the Qi Chi, Reikki, guided imagery, yoga classes and maybe after all that breathing of fresh air I will get addicted to clean air and deal with the stress better.  These Wellness Centers are all over the country.  Gilda Radner went to the first one until she died and from that they have grown.  People at my onoc office swear by these classes and they are compeletely free for cancer patients for life during any phase.  Support persons can also take the classes for free too.   All professionals teach the class, Nutritionist and Restaurant chefs  for the food class.  the web site online is www.thewellnesscommunity.org  this is the virtual online if one is not close to your area.  I really like how comfortable everything was there. 

    Just thought I would share you have all been so honest and great with me  and best of all make me laugh out loud all the time.  Laughter is a priceless gift and I thank each and everyone of you great ladies.  Have a pain free, smoke free night

  • nobleanna007
    nobleanna007 Member Posts: 58
    edited April 2009

    Hi All,

       I have been a BAD,BAD,Girl!!!!! Sorry for not even checking in on you all! Most likely I am going to be the one known as 'The Ghost Writer"!!! 

        I am a little ashamed to say that I have not been taking the Chantrix, I could give you a whole host of excuses but I am afraid it would take up 3 pages!!! I just need to get with the program and stop procrastinating and making excuses. I just take so much darn meds that one more just throws me over, I have to take a antacid and eat before I take it or I feel like I am pregnant oh the waves of nausea! And I just plain forget, cause I have what is called numb head! I will start again! You all are set I need to get with the game!

         I had a terrific appointment with my Onc. I was terrified what she would say to me about what I was asking. My BP was 150/90 and its usually 110/70 thats how nervous I was. But she totally respected me and was pleased with what I was asking. Which was to have a hysteractomy cause I am 100%+ for ER and was only put on Tomox. as a preventative and through my reading on this site realized alot of the highly + girls were having lupron shots to shut down overies and then having overies removed. She said she was happy that I want to do that, I wanted to say what the Hell I am the patient and your the Dr. who is in charge of my TX plan and why did I have to suggest this. Plus the Zometa. So needless to say I got the biggest needle in my butt which I couldn't sit on for 2 days!!! Well I asked for it, LOL!!!!! So you can see I have been a little crabbie! Also some idiot which is to nice of a word to describe him asked me if I was a Dyke now due to my short hair, What the F***!!!!!! Rude beyond Rude! And so what if I was does he even have the right to say that the big MORON!!!!! He said it in frount of other customers who were totally embarrassed and tried to steer the question away but he kept going on and on and asking me why I would ever cut my long blonde hair! I finally had a enough and said is Cancer a good enough reason why my hair is so short!! I am just happy to have some, he totally got what he asked for the jerk!!!! He didn't even say he was sorry just kind of sputtered and looked a little sheepish!!! That is why I started a tread on Putting on that happy face. Cause boy I have had some humdinger's! Okay enough with all that!!!

              I definatly want to be in on this caper of everyone's!!! But I might have to be in with flfish and janzin in the basket since I would be drinking those Mango Margaritta's!!!

               Welcome all new comer's and lets get those ciggs out oldtimer's! What ME your talking too!! HAHA!!!!!!

                                  Wishing everyone the very best and congrats to Jill and Candie!!!!

                                                                   HUGS-Bridget

  • lexislove
    lexislove Member Posts: 277
    edited April 2009

    I check on this thread periodically to see how all you ladies are doing. Congrats on the non-smoking. It is definatly the hardest thing to do.

    I just wanted to give some encouragment to you all struggling. My best friends grandmother just had her 93 rd Birthday. We had brunch and cakes ect....Anyways while talking with her, my BF was having a cigarette...her grandmother then told me that she quit smoking 23 years ago at the age of 70!!!!!!  Totally crazy..She said she smoked for  54 years! Amazing!

    Keep up the good work ladies!

  • looper
    looper Member Posts: 61
    edited April 2009

    Hi Ladies!!  I just caught up with all your posts since mine on the 24th.  Oh my, all the comments about the side effects of Chantix!  The naked people dreams seem to be particularly intriguing!  I may have wanted to check them out in further detail if the Chantix didn't make my belly hurt so much, but I've heard it's been a great success for other people.

    To tickle your fancy a bit further (who's that giggling?), I can tell you that the dreams were VERY vivid and VERY detailed, with lots of naked people showing me all their most private parts, all at the same time!  I'm afraid I found it more confusing than sexy--sorry!

    I see some great ideas to help get through the stop smoking process--wish I'd thought of those!  My DH bought a car previously owned by a smoker, and after about eight months it still smells, which is of course more obvious to me now.  I wonder if the bowl of vinegar trick would work in a car--anyone tried that?  Also the idea of cleaning one item or area affected by the smoky smell whenever the urge creeps up--I love that!

    Someone asked about the taste of the Commit lozenges--they taste like a very strong mint, takes a bit of getting used to, but not much different from the Life Savers wintergreen mints, which I'm now addicted to!    I have gained about 12 lbs, which is the most upsetting part of this process, but I'm working on that.  I'm now cancer-free, and if I ever have a recurrance, it won't be caused by smoking--that's a good thing!

    Best wishes to those in the "quit process," and strength to those who want to.  Stay on this thread---what a fabulous group!

    SuzieQ

  • tami48
    tami48 Member Posts: 270
    edited April 2009

    Goodmorning!

    Just a quick note as I'm leaving in a few minutes to take dh for colonoscopy. 

    malleme - Sorry your having pain with your expander...I felt much better after I had my exchange and am hoping you will too.  Yeah, my boobs still bother me some but I think it's because their bigger than what I'm used to.  Usually I just adjust them when I turn over in bed and I'm fine.  I looked up the Wellness Community online, nothing in my area, but it sounds great!

    noble - Sounds like you've been having a hell of a time!  When your ready to take the Chantix, you will!  I know that I had a hard time with Chantix, but it seems to work well with others.  I'm still smoking, but am still WANTING to quit.  Hang in there, you've got alot going on.

    looper - I've read some good ideas about quitting and I'll definitely use them when I quit.  I don't know how to get the smoke smell out of a car.  I've had my new car for a month now and am not smoking in it...yet!  Hope I never do! 

    candie - How are you doing? 

    Janzin - I love Spring also,  I'll love it even better when the pollen ends!

    Wishing all a wonderful day!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited April 2009
    Crap! I bought another pack of smokes.....well actually 2. ( sheepish grin) Day 7 on Chantix and most of the side effects have gone down but I don't feel the full effect of chantix yet, like the yucky feeling of smoking a stick of air. Cigs are still satisfying to me, guess it may take longer since this is my second trip with chantix.

    Candie, I really need to start walking!!!! I want to get back to salsa which is a very fast dance and I wouldn't make it pass one song right now. I use to dance 3 hours a night couple times a week and weight comes off pretty fast when you are dieting, and it was a fun way to lose weight. Congrats on your day 13!

    2Newboobs, Nervousknitter suggested those long side pillows and then told me to hold them to your boobs while you sleep for support. That really helped me out. I bought one at Costco for $15, it's soft and fuzzy and very comfortable. My cats love it too, lol. I don't need the support as much anymore since I had my expanders out but I can't live without that pillow, best $15 I spent this year!

    Illinoislady, thanks for sharing! They took my ovaries out when they put in my new boobs, now I am into instant menopause with hot flashes. Not allowed to take pills and the only thing they suggested was a soybean supplement. I spend the night opening and closing the window with the onslaught on hot flashes. Good thing I am single, lol.

    Malleme, so good to hear from you, been a while and really missed you! Sorry to hear that to hear that you are in pain, those expanders really suck, had to get refills on pain meds myself. You could try that long side pillow too, it really does help support your expander when sleeping. Thanks for the tip on the wellness, I will check into that.

    Ghostwritter, maybe you should wear some Old Spice, lol, and switch to chewing tobacco so you could spit on the next jerk like Clint Eastwood. Can't believe someone would actually say that, people amaze me. Well at least you are not living his life walking around with your foot in your mouth all the time. Happy to hear from you Nobleanna, really missed you! Side effect from chantix may die down, I told myself I would give it a week and it did. Welcome to the mango party!! We should tape this and put it on YouTube, the BC Butt Fondler Going Wild.

    Lexislove, Thanks for checking is with us. That is an amazing story. My mom is 69, has lung cancer but doesn't want to quit smoking as she feels she had lived enough life. She is so full of energy, works 2 jobs a day because she gets bored and still has so much in front of her, makes me sad.

    Looper, guess since BC sex hasn't been on our mind too much, naked people are fun, lol. But a group of show and tell would be pretty weird, lol. I had a truck once and got the smoke out but it took along time, constant washing the inside and every single part inside. I tried spraying scents and fresheners into the vents but that was the only place I couldn't get the smell out. Just keep working on it, I tried a few different products but I can't remember the names, sorry.

    MB, where are you, miss you!

    Pantufas, hope you are doing okay, miss you too. Looking forward to that post you started.

    Webbie, sending positive thoughts your way!!

    Best,
    Janet
  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited April 2009

    Wow, I missed a LOT of posts in the last couple days.  Hugs to all. 

    Bridget, that is just the rudest thing I ever heard.  I hope that jerk off felt like crap for the rest of the day!

    I said that I giggle at more things lately, here is my latest.  I had to go to my cancer center to have my blood work done today (no big deal there).  BUT, the cancer center shares a building with a "Day Spa" which is not a spa at all, it is an outpatient plastic surgery place.  What I found funny was the ladies getting there lips filled and botox done have valet parking and pick up services, and the cancer clinic patients (many coming in for their chemo treatments) have to search relentlessly for parking and then walk to the clinic.  Ironic huh?  What was funny is all the botox filled junkies all looked miserable and I saw 3 beautiful bald ladies outside the clinic laughing it up!  Life is funny sometimes!  It just proves that it is all what you make of it!

    Wishing everyone well!

    Ellie

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited April 2009
    Good to hear from you Giggles! Missed you too! Your are so right about altitude! And they should have valet for chemo patients! The hospital where I had my hip surgery had a bunch of guys driving golf carts to pick us up, that was nice since the place is huge. Keep in touch Fifish, need your fun!

    REKOz, miss you too and your wit, hope you are doing well!

    Hugs,
    Janet
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hi Ladies!

    I just saw my dd off.  It seems her fiancee (twerp!!!!!!!!!!) chose to play while she was away.  To beat all, it was his best friend who told her by text while she was driving in downtown Baltimor.  I am so proud of her.  She had to go to a hearing before The Industrial Commission on her Worker's Comp case.  Everything went her way.  Then she had to go to yet another doctor of their choosing.  I think he was informed of the results of her hearing and was absolutely wonderful.  A big difference from the first a$$ they sent her to who told her she had muscle spasms when after four months he finally ordered am MRI and she had a herniated disc from moving nine foot cages.  (She worked for a division of Homeland Security in the animal research department)  She had to work in a HAZMAT invironment and I'm actually glad she is out of there (though not the reason why) because she loved her little animals and it was getting very difficult for her to put the sick ones down.  Anyway, she kept her cool and didn't cry until we got home.  The next day she took me to have my port implanted.  I had to laugh after I came back from recovery because she had thrown her rings in the hazardous waste materials box.  I passed on some advice I received years ago from a down home country gal.  "Take ye an Alka-Seltzer and find ye a new man!"  We laughed until we cried.  You ladies keep that in mind should you ever need it.  Anyway, that's what I've been doing besides, you guessed it, buying a pack of cigs.  Major flub after going without for three days.  I'd kick my own a$$ but my legs can't reach it.

    My!  But you all have been busy!  Well it is the Mango caper at Wal-Mart then.  Welcome to the new enthusiasts.  By all means Deanie will have to clear the fat asses out of the way!   Please post Deanie.  We have to keep our membership up because we all have to be a success.  Some sooner, some later. 

    Webwriter, my jaw dropped and I howled when I read you would be in jail with us.  Yes, I guess we will all have to go and raise hell until we raise bail!  With webbie in with us we'll be SOL.  Here's your first lesson Deanie. That means "shit out of luck".  There is a site on one of these forums with abbrieviations for newbies.  Because unlike Janzin, my memory isn't like a steel trap and I forget half of them.  That's why I lost my last post because I kept scrolling back to see what everyone said. 

    flfish, I hope the smoke is clearing for you now.  I hate the thought of you having to take your cocktails inside.  Now who else is going to be in the baskets with you and Janzin?  Sorry to hear someone else has a sore ass besides 2NewBoobs.  I hope you both are doing better now.  Sorry to hear your boobs are hurting you.  I don't know how you feel because I'm not brave enough to go through recon, at least not yet.  I can feel for you though because my usetoboob still hurts from surgery and was doing okay sleeping on my left side with a pillow supporting my right arm.  Now that I have my port in I can't do that anymore because it hurts.  So now it's on my back or nothing.  Amazing how many ways bc can change your life.  How do I hate thee....let me count the ways!  We can't even sleep the way we used to!

    Oh Fearless Leader!  So glad the shower went great.  We are good at pretending we are dead!  We need some new pics.  It can be the dead Mango caper!  Monday will be your last and my first.  Good for you!  You will be my fearless leader there as well. 

    Janzin, alias Native American Shaman, can't wait till you post your new pics.  I am needing a good laugh.  Hope the Chantix will kick in for you.  Is that how looper channeled the naked people, or was that something else? 

    nobelanna, you deserve the Mango caper just for having to put up with that remark!  He doesn't have a bit more sense than I've got diamonds shoved up my ass!  I vote we leave tire tracks on him, open a package of thongs and strap one around his big mouth.

    Well, it is getting late and my mind is getting feeble because I just took my cocktail of drugs.  I wish all of you ladies a very good night.  Sweet naked dreams and whatever else floats your boat.

    Love you all,

    Nancy, a little bit of Pat and still waiting on Susan

  • deanie
    deanie Member Posts: 15
    edited May 2009

    I had to have a cat scan yesterday and I am a little out of sorts.  I hate waiting for results.  Not to mention the tech had trouble getting the stint in.  Add anxiety and being stuck several times makes for a grumpy lady.  Glad to hear everyone is doing fine.  My non smoking is on hold for awhile.  Too much stress right now.  I can only handle a few dozen things at a time.  I also have a business to run and sometimes it is difficult to be upbeat and friendly when customers come in and just want to chit chat.  Hugs to all ... you are a terrific bunch.

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hi Deanie!

    Sorry about your bad day but I'm glad you posted.  It helps to be able to vent here.  I know how you feel about the stress factor.  Sometimes it's all we can do to concentrate on what we have to do the next minute.  I do believe there will come a time in our lives when we can put the butts down for good.  Until then, don't feel bad about fondling.  Good luck on your ct scan.  Let us know when you get your results.  Thinking of you! 

    NancyLaughing

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hello Ladies,

    A little slow today, not sure why. I have a big guest coming into town today, a famous person in the world that I live in and we are doing a tournament in Oct together. Just had another big organization contact me today to start doing tournaments in Denver too. Wow, is there going to be room for all of us? I do know that I will be getting a job after the end of the years with websites. I use to do 4 tournaments a year but maybe I might move it down to 2 since it is soooo much work.

    Pantufas, I wish I could write the funny things that you do. I am not much of a writer but can finger paint pretty well. Your daughter is amazing and one strong person, I bet she got that from all of you! That would be so great if we could do the Wall Mart thing, have webbie edit her original post so we could put up a video for kicks. You sound good, I am happy for you! 3 Days is great too by the way.

    Deanie, I hope your scans go well, waiting is so hard! I totally understand trying to be friendly with customers when quitting smoking. I used to go to Nicotine Anonymous and we would laugh as newbie's come in and say something like everyone hates me at work, etc, as we have been there with the grumps. Their faces all scrunched up with the stress of quitting. Might have to send you my quit smoking face sometime when I actually do it!! Good luck to you and hope you feel better.

    Off to work, will try to cut down on smoking. Thanks for being here, couldn't try it without all of you!

    Best,
    Janet
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    2 glasses of wine, getting tipsy. But can't over do it as I have a big night tomorrow and I am no spring chicken!

    Fifish, you HAVE to post your mango rum drink receipe!

    Wishing all of you the best!

    Janet
  • deanie
    deanie Member Posts: 15
    edited May 2009

    cat scan came back clear. yeah!!!! Will probably sleep good tonight.  All the best to each and every one.

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hey Ladies!

    Hope everyone is having a lovely Friday night.  I was cuddled up with my cat in bed reading when I came down for one last cig.  Thought I'd hop on just a minute and check with you gals.  Janzin, put on your glad rags tomorrow night and wow your special guest with that fantastic brain of yours.  Just don't fart!  I know the air up in Denver is thinner so the olefactory senses may be more acute.  All kidding aside.  I'm proud of you!  I have penned a poem just for you.

                                                         Spirit Wind

                                           And in the fragrant wing does blow

                                           The secret to my heart

                                           The age old wisdom flowing there

                                           With treasures to impart

                                           You can not tie my spirit down

                                           Soaring free I have begun

                                           To dream those dreams that stay with me

                                           From sun till setting sun

    Great news on your scan Deanie!  Do have a good night's sleep.  You've earned it!

    Nitey Nite to all of you,

    Nancy

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited May 2009

    Hi Ladies- I miss you all but think of each of you every day.

    Nancy, the poem is beautiful- kept waiting, though, to have it rhyme with "fart"....can ya tell I am the mom of boys?!  Seriously, it is a beautiful verse.  Thank you for sharing it.

    Things are fine here in Virginia.  I am still at too many cigs a day ( just this side of a pack most days).  I had my last TE fill April 9th.  Am only at 250 and the good Dr said it is fine.  My remaining boob is probably an A (and of course, smaller than the one that was taken at surgery).  He assures me that my implant and augmentation will be beautiful- I am just sad that I am not in the 400-500 club!  oh well.  The last fill actually was more painful than anything else I have experienced since diagnosis and surgery.  I am in a sports bra and the TE definitely looks a size larger than my natural boob.  Just worried that after all of this, I will still look like a tall, skinny boy.  I will learn to post a picture, because it seems I am the only small chested woman on this whole entire site!

    Love to each of you and I know all of you have different journeys/adventures/situations going on and I do keep you in my prayers as you go through these.

    With love and best wishes,

    Mary Beth

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited May 2009

    Oh and as a post script, because I guess I have tamoxifen brain (if there is such a thing)- I went into all that re. my tissue expander bcause I was going to say that my exchange will be in another month or so, and I do plan to have my chantix prescription filled and begin taking it, before I have my exchange.

    So there.  That is what my idea is re. this nasty habit that I sem to love too much!

    xxoo

    mb

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hello Ladies! Pretty pissed off today. Sometimes the people I deal with are so petty, immature, insensitive and the lack of compassion and tolerance for their fellow being amazes me. The hurt they help create yet they take no responsibility in their part. We are all human and make mistakes, can't they see that! Instead they are pointing fingers at everyone else with an attitude that's states it's your fault. I am about ready to tell them to go _uck themselves! I have been through hell and back starting with my divorce, losing my home, my dogs, and the future I thought I had, being dumped for a younger girl, going through 2 hip surgeries, 3 BC surgeries and trying to keep myself motivated so I don't sink under the weight of all this crap. On _ucken antidepressants now so I can make it through the day as I am also trying to work my biz before I lose that too. I wake up tired with all that I need to do and scared if I can make it and to top it off I am alone through all of this and the only people in my life that understands me or supports me is all of you.

     I just got done helping a school to help promote their seminar with a famous person. The lack of help and support from them was terrible and to top if off today, I came in to the seminar to shoot some pictures so they would have pictures for future flyers, etc, and so would I when marketing my future events. Today I got altitude instead of thanks because their seminar was unorganized and not a good turn out. My part was just help promoting, their part is to back up their head instructor and organize the event. I don't even know him well and I worked way harder for him than his own group of people. To back up a little, I decided to help them as this famous person was helping me at my tournaments, so somewhere in my crazy schedule I made time to help them promote their seminar because it would also benefit my tournament. I was also working on establishing a future tournament with Relson Gracie. I don't need thanks really but I don't need any altitude if things did not turn out the way they want because of their lack of support to work with each other. Some of them are coming by tonight and if anyone gets in my face, they will see a side of me that most do not get to see, a side that I have thrown out since my early 20's or teens. I might even bitch slap a couple of them.

    Sorry, this really got to me. Don't mean to make it so long, I am just ready to explode!  My roommates are petty and immature, told Liz I am moving out in a couple of months. I am a lot older than they are so for me it's like an ex crack head moving back into a crack house. Sometimes I get sick of seeing ignorant hurtful people and I have moved on from this stage in my life.

    Okay, feel a little better getting that off my chest. Maybe I won't bitch slap anyone tonight.

    Welcome back MB, good luck with your TE and your next surgery! Missed you.

    Pantufas, thanks for the poem! A girl trick with passing gas is to make sure that the dog is around! Had my ex fooled for a couple of years. Dummy!

    Deanie, Happy about your scans! Best wishes towards your BC.

    To all, have a great day but if not, smack them good. Whoops, I didn't mean to say that.

    Janet the bitch!
  • REKoz
    REKoz Member Posts: 164
    edited May 2009

    Oh Janet, I am so sorry this crap has you so upset! Ya know life just does really suck sometimes and bc or not, everyday reality can be such a struggle! As a fellow divorcee, I KNOW the fear you feel for the future. And God knows, I see and feel it in your post. Sometimes when something goes wrong, it brings up every friggin fear we have. I'm looking at having no more $ from my ex after July which means I will NEVER be able to pay my mortgage. Don't think I'll have any choice then to put my house on the market and most likely lose at least $50 grand. That's ALL the money I have for the rest of my life! This very real fact is with me daily but what the hell can I do? Maybe after chemo I'll have some energy to figure something out. I guess that's why I'm not freaking out now, I just don't have the energy!

    Listen to me, truly, I am not ignoring you and your very real issues. Guess I'm just trying to say that you ARE NOT alone OK?! Maybe you and I will meet and shack up somewhere! Strickly platonic of course! But there's gotta be a way we can meet and do our Walleyworld gig!  I love ya my friend and wish I could give you a hug right now. That, or a cigarette which I STILL have controlling me GDmit! I'm so bored with this chemo fatigue and hermit life that it's just not in the cards till I get strong. Now I'm down to committing to 2 weeks before my surgery being done! What an ahole I am. Let's go raise hell....I need a diversion! You do to!

    xoEllen

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009

    Thanks ReKoz, it's hard to understand the fear when the foundation you thought you had has been ripped out from under you until you have experienced it. I have people even their early 20's acting like it's not big deal, but when your older it is a bit harder to start all over. I am sorry about your mortgage, my ex is late in his payment. The future can be scary! My concern is he has gone down in business where I have gone up, but I have no huge profit as spent money on marketing in hoping to see greater results in the future, but he is late on his payment and I have just spent a lot on BC bills.

    I'll shack up with you anywhere, lol. Must of my work is on the computer and phone. My office is in my closet right now so I feel like a closet case. And I have gas! But I am alone most of the time so no big deal.

    Best to all and thank you for your support! Most of my roommates give me a bit of antisocial advice, had a doctor said I cared too much and maybe I do, but it is better than not caring at all. I think everyone should have a chance of love and a lot of us don't care enough. I have been through a lot of hurt and would not like to see anyone go through hurt. I think we all make a better place in the world as you all are special!


    Sorry gals, I am drunk posting so I don't tear off any heads! Hope I don't make you vomit with my mushinesss!  Guess I have my limits too. Fifish has to post her receipe for her mango run drinks!!!!

    Janet

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hey Ladies!

    mbscruggs, so good to hear from you.  I'm sorry you are in so much pain.  God bless you girl!  What I would give to look like a tall skinny boy!  The first fat ass that would have to be cleared out of the way at Wally World would be mine!  Sorry I disappointed you with no farts in the poem.  I too am a mother of sons and had four brothers.  This poem is for you but I can't take credit for it.

    The stars were out and the night was blue

    Around the corner a shit wagon flew

    A wheel fell off and a scream was heard

    A man was killed by a flying turd.

    Sorry, still no farts.  I wish you well on your upcoming surgery and you are already beautiful

    Janzin,  take a Valium, get away from your fartknocking roommates if it means just locking a door.  Sit down, breath slowly, and pull up www.youtube.com.  Click on classical music and type in IL Divo.  Listen to Unbreak My Heart.  Then go to Britain's Got Talent.  Click on Susan Boyle and watch her performance from the beginning.  See how nasty eveyone is to her and then LISTEN to her.  You will get cold chills and see how a human spirit can endure.  And this goes to REKoz too.  We will crack, but we will mend.  You all know me now but what you don't know is I have been married five times.  I've had the beautiful homes, diamonds and gold, the Mercedes, the lot.  I have been thrown over for the younger women, been debased, beaten and even set on fire but I am here.  I worked and supported four of those husbands.  I helped build everything we had only to lose it all.  Oh yes, I could have fought for what I had but knew in my soul I would never live to enjoy it.  The only joys I ever had were my children.  I was the only constant thing they ever knew and I am the one they love.  I have a husband now that loves me for me.  He is thousands of miles away but is by my side.  We both are ill and if we never see each other again, I will have known happiness.

    You willmake it!  Now go do as I ask and divert yourselves until we can get together for some real mayhem.   I don't think you will need Chantix to dream of these guys naked.  (IL Divo that is)

    Enjoy!  You have my love.

    Nancy 

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited May 2009

    Nancy-

    God blessed us by sending  you! 

    The poem is hilarious- I had never heard it before.

    I agree- the Susan Boyle video is humbling and awesome.  What an incredibly strong woman- A lot like each of the ladies here.

    Thank you all for being such  wonderful voices of wisdom, patience and strength. 

    I love it that you are drunk posting Janet!!!  xxoo to you.  Hoping you are able to put the unhappiness and stress to bed.  Take care of yourself.

    MB

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hey MB!

    You are so sweet!

    I don't know where my older brother came up with that poem but I've remembered it after all these years.  Glad you liked the Susan Boyle video too.  She is incredible!  I hope she has everything she ever dreamed of. 

    BTW, Janzin, forget the Valium!  The booze will do just fine.  I don't need to be quacking on you so that you might cause yourself an injury.  Hope you are feeling better now. 

    Good night ladies,

    Nancy

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    I was going to really drunk post last night but I kept erasing it by accident, maybe a good thing, lol.

    REKoz, I wish there was something I could do for you, to lose your home and income while going through BC must be really hard. If I win the lotto, I am definitely throwing you some money so you can keep your home! You could always craigslist for roommates, just don't get young ones like me. They are good people and are progressing slowly, Liz has enough roommates to help pay her mortgage and she is getting slowly our of debt. Thanks for sharing, I hope something comes through for you! We will give each other strength!

    Pantufas, not sure if I watched the right video, watched a couple. But she is amazing, and you are right, we can endure, rebuild and become even stronger. I never knew you went through so many divorces and my heart still breaks for you that your husband is stuck trying to sell the house so far away from you, got any offers yet? I look forward to seeing you two reunite, so if I win the lotto, you and your husband will be together again! Funny poem! Thanks for your spirt!

    MB, thanks for your care, feel better today. I am always so nice to everyone that some see it as a way to push someone around. Think I gained a little respect from my roommates last night because they realize I am going to put up with their crap. Never addressed the work issue too much but if it comes up, I will tear them up because I know in my heart I did my job and got little support from them so they only have themselves to blame. I did go off on a couple of them last night. Immature lazy punks!

    I know I probably went over board, anger that was building for a while between my roommates, BC, divorce and life, kinda exploded last night when I got a couple of attitudes which should of been thanks for you help.

    Well hung over and going to take the day off. Hope you are having a great Sunday, sending you all sunshine!

    Best,
    Janet
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Still pissed! Is this menopause, stress or just I am just getting sick of how hurtful people can be. Maybe I have repress my anger and now I want to fight, processing more divorce issues, etc. I have watch the movie the Passion Of Christ and if everyone can love like that, what a beautiful world this would be. Well enough bitching, don't want to bring you down. I don't think I should get in the cart right now until I calm down, lol.

    I know that in this huge world we live in, can build the world we want, and I am working on that!  Even if it's just a little space of your own, such as the good people in your life, etc. Good luck to you all and I hope you will find a good place in this crazy world. But we do have this thread and that is a great start!

    Love you all,
    Janet