Stop Smoking Support Thread

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  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hi Ladies, Good morning. Decided to do a quick post before I tear down my computer for he big move today. My boobs are starting to hurt from moving, and I am still smoking too much. But it will cut down gain once I have more peace in my life.

    REKoz, sorry to hear about your dad. That's terrible news and have to go through that with Chemo must be extra hard. My heart goes out to you. Wish I was there to give you a big hug. I will send positive thoughts your way and try to pray too. That will be my agnostic side.

    Fifish, will get a face book one day, will let you know. Have to get a myspace page too, just been too busy. Your one busy person, face book and the Butt Fondler group!

    Pantufas, hope your chemo is going okay for you. What a trooper you are as you keep posting and try keeping up our spirits!

    The rest of you I am wishing you well. Got to finish boxing up, might have to box up my boobs when I am done, lol.

    Much love,
    Janet
  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    Hello ladies.  Many of you may have signed this already, but if not, I thought I would send you the link.  My dad sent this to me.  Lifetime television is putting together a petition to stop "drive through mastectomies".  If you get a chance, read this and sign if you agree.

    http://www.mylifetime.com/my-lifetime-commitment/breast-cancer/petition/breast-cancer-petition

    Have a great evening!

    Ellie

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited May 2009

    Hi Ladies-

    Just a quick note from me, too.

    Ellen- I hope things are going as well as they can for your Dad and for you.

    Nancy, thank you for remembering and asking about my friends' son.  I do not have a lot of details, but he didn't respond to chemo as they wanted, so a bone marrow transplant has been discussed.  My heart is breaking and I just wish I knew what to do for them.  Words sometimes can't touch it.

    I am excited to hear about Janzin's move and adventures.....

    I hope all of you reading this are having as serene of a day as possible.

    With Love,

    Mary Beth

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    Happy Friday to all my butt fondler's!  Janet, I hope the move went well.  Mary Beth, I am so sorry to hear that your friends son did not respond well to chemo, you are in my thoughts.  Nancy, Pat, Susan--I wish you well through chemo and I hope you are feeling better soon.

     Well, I did make it through the week not smoking, but I can't give any guarantees for the weekend...but I will try.  How are my fellow quitters doing out there????  I need some inspiration!

    Ellie

  • Lursa5
    Lursa5 Member Posts: 25
    edited May 2009

    I'm bummed.

     I got the flu about 10 days ago. About 4 days later, I started taking my wellbutrin. After just 1 week, I had to stop taking it. The s/e's made me feel worse than the flu! I have never had a med make me feel so sick! It's too bad too, 'cause I could tell it was working on my nicotien cravings. 

     Being a trip-neg, I really HAVE to quit before I start chemo. My quit date is still the 19th. I'm still gonna keep with my program. I'll see my ONC on the 27th and ask him about s/e's from the wellbutrin then. 

     Hope you all are still keeping with it! Fifish, we're celebrating Barbe's B-day this week-end, so you CAN'T smoke! 

    xoxo

    Lursa

  • candie1971
    candie1971 Member Posts: 2,467
    edited May 2009

    Day 28... I haven't had time to read back but I sure hope there is someone else here on the same track as me. It hasn't been too bad. I get dizzy at times...my PCP says it is nicotine withdrawal.

    I do feel alot better..I hate to admit..lol.

    Lursa, hope you are feeling better

    Ellie, keep up the no smoking. Just take it minute by minute...that's how I handle it.

    I hope whoever is on chemo is feeing ok.

    I am nearing my 3 year cancerversary (May 26th). It's a good thing!!!

    So glad you are all here!!!

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    You guys get the nicotine withdrawal?  That is what I don't get.  Besides the habit part, I don't have any physical symptoms.  Even when I quit for 5 weeks, nothing, no headaches, no dizziness, nothing.  I think this "nicotine addiction" is all made up sometimes....Laughing  I will try and get through the weekend, but I can't promise anything on "poker night".  Oh well, if I smoke, then I just give them up on Sunday again, just like I did last week. 

    Hey Lursa, who is Barbe and why didn't I know about her birthday??  I feel lost.  Oh well, nothing new there!

    Have a great weekend ladies.  Send good thoughts over to Nancy, Pat, Susan.  She is having a rough week and feeling quite sick from the chemo.  (she and I have been chatting on Facebook) Let her know we are thinking of her!

    Hugs!

    ellie

  • Lursa5
    Lursa5 Member Posts: 25
    edited May 2009

    OMG! ellie, I'm sorry. Got you mixed up with one of the gang from the housework support group. Like I said, can't blame it on chemo brain yet, but I'm practicing! Yikes!

     Pantfus, I'm thinking good thoughts. Hope you get thru the day better & tomorrow is better!

    Lursa

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Thank you dear fiends for all of  the boob thoughts (oops!)   I mean good thoughts.  I have to blab and tell everyone that flfish is a beauty and looks as young as her daughter!   I'm proud of you for not fondling the butts.

    I didn't know today was Friday until my ds told me.  Janzin, hope your move is going smooth.  Lursa, hope you are feeling better.  candie, hope your wrist is healing nicely.  mb, I wish I could take away your pain.  malleme, hope you're kicking chemo a@@ instead of the other way around.  IllinoisLady,  can you spare some more tips?  REKoz, hang in there darlin.  2New,  hope you can sit with no pain.  nobleanna, missing you, lexislove, webbie,  and Nervousknitter.  looper, can you be more specific about your dreams?  I'm heading off to bed.  Oh, I forgot I need Chantix for that.  Have you listed these se's with the drug company.  Might put Viagra out of business for those who don't want to go through the hassle.

    Nitey nite, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite.  If they do then GET THE HELL OUT!

    Nancy, Pat, Susan  STOP THE INSANITY!Tongue out

  • candie1971
    candie1971 Member Posts: 2,467
    edited May 2009

    Day 29.... doing ok.

    Ellie, I am getting physical withdrawal symtoms...dizzy and headachy. But I do intend on continuing to stay with the no smoking thing. I have gone this far....

    Otherwise, nothing new here. Panufas, my wrist is healing...soem pain at times but nothing like before the surgery.

    hugs and prayers

  • Lursa5
    Lursa5 Member Posts: 25
    edited May 2009

    WOW! Candi & Ellie! I sure hope I can do the same! My quit date is Tues, 11 am. I am smoking up a storm til then!

     I wanted to say, I never would've taken this quit thing seriously if webwriter had not posted that study about the 61% issue. If I'm going to put myself thru hell, being trip-neg, I got 1 shot. What's the point if I reduce my chances by over HALF just because of a dirty habbit I've needed to give up for years?

     I SAID I'd quit when I got my dx, but wasn't really serious til I started reading this thread. Just wanted to tell you all what a real difference you've all made in my life and thanks!

    xoxo

    Lursa

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    Hello Ladies!  Nancy, Pat, Susan, as always you crack me up.  Daily I get a giggle from your posts.  No wonder your kids turned out so well, they were raised with great humor and attitude!

     Ok, so I did smoke this weekend.  I bought 2 packs and I smoked during poker night and yesterday while hanging out by the pool (the smokes just goes so WELL with my new favorite drink....lime-aide, mint and rum.....my version of a mojito).  But, since last week was not that tough on me, I will finish the smokes today and quit again.  No more smoking during the week.  If I can keep up on this I would be at less than a carton a month, and then ween myself off of that.  Whatever, excuses, right?

    Janzin...."movin' on up....to the east side...to a DELUXE apartment in the skyyyyyyyyy"....hope the move went well.  Miss you.

    Ellie

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Good morning Ladies!

    Thank you flfish, for the compliment.  I have to admit, I did raise them myself as their dads were too busy pissing in the wind.  When you get a chance, check out my little grandson.  IZ is on facebook now and posted little "eyes" instead of himself.  When I look at him it's like rolling back 35 years.  Your new drink makes my mouth water!  How can you play poker and NOT smoke?  At least you have a game plan.  Good luck!  I had to laugh at janzin's DELUXE apartment in the sky!  It's so appropo.  Even on the ground floor, she would still be in the sky in Denver!  Hope  you are getting settled Janzin.  I was thinking of a collective house warming pressie for you.  I have decided on some wall art.  We gather our butts and encase them (stratigically placed, mind you) in a shadow box.  Just a little something to let you know our butts are behind you!

    Dang it!  I stretched and my hat fell off.  YES!  Susan has finally made her appearance.  IZ called me last night to ask when he would stop hurting?  (separation and divorce)  I told him his grief was a measure of how much he loved and it would take time but there would come a day when he would be able to think of her and feel nothing.  Don't you wish you could go through these things for your children?  While I was waxing philosophical I was randomly pulling at the tuft of hair at the crown of my head.  Then I looked down at the floor and saw enough hair to stuff a pillow.  HALLELUJA BRETHREN!  IZ then switched places and coached me in how to shave my head without hurting myself.  So now Susan is fully fledged.  Well not really because she has neither wings nor feathers but you know what I mean.  If only one of us could stop smoking it would be great.  I'll have to talk to Pat as she is the strong one.

    Well better go clean, starting with the pile of hair.  I guess I could blame it on the cats but that wouldn't be fair.  Wishing all of you a wonderful Sunday, courage and strength to do the things we have to do.

    Love,

    Nancy, Pat, Susan

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Whatz uuuup!

    A lot of catching up to do and my memory is not that great, sometimes I get all of you mixed up and your stories. Just moved into a 1000 sq ft apt and FINALLY got my internet back on yesterday. But I was high as the sky so couldn't post, lol. Starting packing Tuesday and moved in Wednesday and by then my cancer boob was burning bad. Called the Dr and he had me come in the next morning. He told me that I broke up the scar tissues and my nerves became sensitive. Told me to take Advil and gave me Vicodin. Wow, after almost 2 months you think it would be okay to move. Will take pictures of the lake I walk around, peaceful! I am on the 3rd floor so I am getting my stair master in, my legs are feeling stronger already.

    My smoking is up because now I only have to walk about 15 steps to my smoking room, plus the stress. But I am here because I know that the addict in me WILL talk myself out of quitting so I have you ladies to keep me in line. I am sad to say that I am back to my pack a day, will try cutting down again.

    MB, how are you doing? I wish I could be there for you and your son. Have any details yet? Wishing you and your son well.

    FIfish, poker nights would be hard not to smoke! But at least you got some days in! If we do the Wally World thing, you have to be our bartender since you have all the delicious drinks. How's your BC doing?

    Lursa, hope you are feeling better. That is great you have a quit day, and a quit time too, lol. Not having to go through chemo I feel that my BC is being put behind me which is helping me to lose incentive. Keep thinking on yours and work it. I have been working it since my first post and having a hard time with it. Seeing some of the gals get their days or weeks in inspires me. You can do it too! Will send you positive thoughts!

    Candie, so nice to hear from you! Over a month now, that is awesome. Have you talk to your Dr about your symptoms? You shouldn't be getting dizzy spells or headaches so something else might be going on. Hang in there as every day gets you closer to being a nonsmoker. Hope your wrist feels better, sending you hugs!

    Pantufas, always cracking me up with your creative thoughts. Which one is it from? Or is it a collective thoughts from all three of you. Would love to see Susan do a dead pic! You have so much strength and have such a good altitude that you help give me strength too. I feel for your son's divorce, still processing mine though I don't really hurt that much but the first 6 months was tough for me. Hope things go smoother for him. I found keeping myself busy helped such as my art and dancing. Love your Butt art work, thanks for the support!  I kept my BC blood bags for a future sculpture. Dr thought I was nuts but nothing new to me, I am a bit weird. Good luck with your chemo.

    Nobleanna, Nervousknitter, Webbie, REKoz, 2NewBoobs, Deanie, Malleme, miss you and sending you all much love! Drop in a line!

    Well to wrap things up, I have to get rid of a lot of my things since it will not fit into my apt. So me and the gals are going to have a swap meet party where we bring our old stuff that we are tired of, trade it with each other and the leftovers will go to Goodwill or something. I am such a pack rat that this is really hard for me to decide what to keep and what to get rid of. Stupid stuff too. Maybe I will bring my old implant and see what I can get for it, lol.

    Have a great Sunday!
    Janet
  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    Janzin, you are as witty as ever, and I am glad you are all moved in.  This will work out for the best for you, I can feel it.

    Well, I have about 4 more smokes left and then I quit again, starting tonight.  You guys are right, I can NOT quit smoking while playing Texas hold'em.  We have the same 8 people play every Friday night (without fail) and only 2 of them don't smoke.  So, I will try, and try again.  Maybe if I could get some decent cards I could stop....heehee..

    Nancy, Pat, Susan, I am glad (but sorry) to hear about you shaving your head.  Good for you for taking matters into your own hands and just shaving it off.  You are in control!!.

    Have a great week ladies!

    Ellie

  • REKoz
    REKoz Member Posts: 164
    edited May 2009

    Oh I just love this group!  Not too much to "chat" about but had to pop in and tell y'all how much I love reading this thread. Everybody is so great and there's no question in my mind that we are ALL equally insane!  How much fun is that?

    How great would it be if we all lived close? Is there a soul on this thread who doubts we'd have a blast?

    Busy week ahead for me. Work, 2 Dr. appts on Wednesday. One being the big anti hormonal chat with the Onc, the other a follow up with the breast surgeon. And on Friday I have my first Herceptin only infusion in the AM and my baby's graduation with her Masters! Both my daughters are Social Workers. Ya think that has anything to do with their crazy Mom?

    Happy Sunday night all. I'm suckin it up and putting the patch on tomorrow. Wish me luck that I'll keep it on more than 5 minutes!  I need you to encourage me to now wimp out!!!

    xoEllen

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited May 2009

    Hi All - I am new to the club and was so happy to come across this thread. 

    I had promised my kids back in Feb that I would quit after their uncle's visit in May (he's a chain smoker and I just didn't think I would be able to stay committed during his visit). 

    I quit smoking on May 5th and I have not had a cig for 12 days although I am now a full fledge nicotine gum addict .  

    Unfortunately the same day I quit, I got the call from my GYN that my mammo was suspicious and I would need an MRI/Biopsy. So here I am newly dx - terrified - confused - you name it and I have given up my BF.  I feel like Linus from the old Charlie Brown comics - lost and alone without my security blanket. 

    I can say I am more committed than ever to staying the course, especially after reading the post about the 61%.  I am hoping and praying that I won't need chemo,  I have also heard that healing/recovery is faster for non-smokers than smokers and I am going to beat this thing!!!

    I go to a support group every Tuesday and it helps, but I haven't told anyone about the dx yet and even if/when I do they won't really understand where I am coming from like my new 'sisters' will. 

    Best wishes and stay strong!

    Michelle

  • nobleanna007
    nobleanna007 Member Posts: 58
    edited May 2009

    Hi all!!!

          Yes I am still alive not one of those dead pictures of Janzin's! LOL!!!! I am sorry I have not been on alot but have had some personal and physical things going on, and trying my hardest to keep my head above water. I must say reading over the posts all of you had me pissing my pants, and why I didn't come here earlier to perk myself up is beyond me.

          I hang my head in shame cause I am still smoking and have not done one thing about it. I  really make myself mad. So maybe like Panturas I should have other aliese's!! And as if you guys have not noticed I can't spell! LOL!!!!

         Wishing everyone the best to keep on track with their quit dates! And those who have quit I am so very very proud of you all.

          Welcome to all our newcomer's and welcome to some of us old ones coming back to face the music!!! Namely moi'.

           I am starting to get busy at work and doing alot more shifts which has aggreviated my nerve issues in my back. But I got to keep on going, cause its great to have money coming in again!!! And its usually great for me mentally until I get very tired.

          I am so happy to see we all have kept our sense of humor and you all just make me smile. I am starting Horse Show season in a couple of weeks so I am looking forward to that, and boy is it hard not to smoke their!!! I am scheduled to have my Port out! YAY!!!! and I am getting 2 shots on either side of my lower back in hopes it will improve the pain. He was like we can give you a sedative for that if you would like, I am like after what I have been through the last year and a half nothing fazes me!!!! LOL!!!  Oh did I tell you all I had a huge shot in my lovely J-LO to shut down my overies, didn't even feel it, only after it swelled triple the size 2 weeks later. Just my luck!

         Here is hoping evryone one Chemo is doing okay and if you need to aks a question I would be happy to help if I can.

          To all you other's takecare and keep up the good work and all of your spirits which it seems you all do cause I can't stop laughing!!!!!

                                                         Hugs-Bridget   

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hi Fifish, looks like you found one of your trigger points, Texas hold'em, lol. But on the serious note, sometimes you might need to cut out your trigger points till you gain strength. But at least you are trying, I haven't even tried to cut down, figuring it's all or nothing. Making my new quit date July 1st where I can focus on quitting instead of work, etc. Love my new place.

    REKoz, love to hear from you! And it would be a blast to all get together. Good luck with your Dr appointments and quitting smoking! You are just about there! Try to find some time to relax and focus on quitting before your busy week starts. I find sitting at the TV helps me but Nervousknitter liked cleaning and Fifish was baking. Let us know your tricks!

    Welcome o2bhealthy! Congrats on your 12 days! I have heard people getting hooked on the gum for a few years but hey, at least it's not going into your lungs. But nicotine will effect your recovery. BC can be really scary but we are here to walk you through it! And we will put a smile on your face as we all go through BC and staying smoke free or try to quit. Great bunch here that will help support your good days and bad days. I didn't have to go through chemo but you can ask the ladies here for advice. So post post post! Sending you best wishes.

    Nobleanne, about fricken time, lol. Happy to know you still have time to read the posts. I am not doing well either with my quit smoking but I know these ladies will help inspire me and keep me focused as it is easy to give up, most people do. I totally relate to the nerve issues after moving.  Happy you are making money! Wow, swollen ovaries, that sounds painful. Why did they shut down your ovaries? Are you going to have them removed? They removed mine as a cancer preventative which wasn't bad except for the hot flashes so far. In fact, getting one right now.

    Good night ladies! Wishing you all good dreams.
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hi Ladies!

    flfish, keep on trying.  It's hard to put any cards up your sleeves in Fla.  Maybe you could mark the deck and wear some infrared gogs disguised as designer sunglasses.  I'm having to wear a  stinking hat because it's dropping to 31* tonight.  Uh, did you mention you had a spare room?  Thought not!

    REKoz, maybe a higher power has placed us far away from each other for the world's protection. lol.  Good luck at the docs and well done to your baby girl.  Having you for a mom probably has EVERYTHING to do with both of your daughters being Social Workers!  You could try some superglue with the patch.  Um, do you really want us to encourage you to wimp out?

    o2bhealthy, welcome!!  We are throwing out the gray carpet for you (cig ash trod all over it).  Good on you for 12 days!  Glad the gum is working.  You are so amazing to stay strong after getting your dx and pitching your bf.  I think it's time again for a group (((((((((hug))))))))).  You are not alone 'cause we are here for you!  You are right about the healing and recovery and I surely hope you won't need chemo.  But, we are here if you do.  You are an inspiration already!

    nobleanna, sooooooo glad to hear from you!  Do not hang your head in shame.  Just borrow one from me.  Not Susan though, she's just now getting in her stride.  Glad you are getting in more shifts.  Money is good, more money is even better.  Sorry about your back though.  Why is it for every step forward, we take two steps back?  Sorry about the pain in your a@@.  You will have to have a Port-a- party to get your mind off of it.  Try soaking in some Epsom salts.  It really works, just don't get the water too hot and do it before your party.  Don't want to read Over the limit woman drowns while when she got her a@@ soaked.  Thanks for the chemo support and don't be a stranger!

    Janzin, happy you love your new place but sorry you've done yourself an injury.  Be careful and let yourself heal!  You have a following with your "dead" pics.  One of our sisters that I chat to on facebook wanted to know where to find your pics after I posted mine.  She wanted to know the origins of the "dead" pics.  Come to think of it, I haven't heard from her.  She must have read my posts and she doesn't live far away...........!  Get back in Pat!!!  I don't know who my thoughts come from.  I know I was always getting in trouble at school but they needed me for all of the artsy/fartsy stuff so that paid my way out of it.  We all love to dance too!  Are you a Pisces?  Would love to see your blood bag sculpture when you create it.  I think all interesting people are a bit weird.  Or weird people are a bit interesting.  Good luck on your swaparama.  Maybe you could sell your implant on E-bay.  I'd buy it before I'd buy one of Gweneth Paltrow's snot rags!  Have a good rest.

    Remember everyone!  Paranoia is simply PERFECT AWARENESS!!!!!!!!  Let us all be perfectly aware and fear not (or fear a lot) a "dead" Susan is in the offing.

    Nitey nite!

    Nancy, Pat, Susan Tongue out

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited May 2009

    Thanks for the welcome!

    Janiz: Nicotine effects recovery too! Thats a bummer... I guess I am going to have to find another substitute, this time to replace the gum Cry.  Any suggestions?  You mentioned to Nobelanne  that you had your ovaries removed as part of the prevention treatment...Did you still have to go on Tamifin after the removal of your ovaries?  I am really worried about all the side effects that come with alot of the treatments...I plan on asking my dr about removing the ovaries if I am ER+.  We discovered a cyst last June on my left ovary.  Dr says not a worrisome cyst but the discovery made me more aware of my body, pay closer attention to any changes and I think it helped me find the first lump that started this whole process. 

    pantufas: thanks for the group hug. I really needed it! All I have done since my dx Friday is research, research ad research some more. I really want to understand my dx and what the doc's are saying when I meet with the onc and BS next week.  Its become an obsession!!!!  I am hoping once I know the whole picture (ER/PR and HER2 status, surgery options, reconstruction options, adjuvant therapies...) I won't feel so out of control!  I am a child of the 70's and don't like waiting Laughing

    Have a great night everyone and sweet dreams!

    Michelle

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hello Ladies! Had weird dreams last night, can't remember much but the feeling of rejection. Rejection from my ex again which is funny because I can count how many times I have dreamed about him since our divorce on one hand. Maybe it was the fighting with my roommates or the fear of being on my own again. I do know that it's good to be alone in my place to process all that has gone on in the last year. Can't blame it on Chantix since I stopped taking it until I was closer to my quit date, didn't want to waste money.

    Pantufas, glad the dead pics are making people smile, they are so silly to me because who poses like that. I was going to go around all the passed out people at the airport and play dead next to them but was too tired with 1 hour sleep. I guess Vegas took a toll on them as there were quite a few. I am a Libra and love to salsa and ballroom dance. Guess we could get together and put a BC Butt Fondler sculpture together, it would be outrageous! Sending love to all of you!!
    Original Dead Pics is on page 11. Yours is on page 17.

    o2behealthy, glad to see you back! I read somewhere that for a pack of cig a day brings 22-23 hours of bad to your recovery. But not sure where the gum would be. I have used Chantix and it really helps the physical urges, the rest is the mental aspects. Maybe you could wean yourself from the gum while using chantix. I would talk to your Dr about that. It's expensive, Costco has the best prices. They took my ovaries since I was pre-menopausal, put me into instant menopause. They did this as a preventative and I didn't have to go through chemo. They will put me on some preventative cancer pills but not sure which ones yet. We will walk with you on your journey of recovery!

    The rest of you have a great day! Will post later, have an idea!
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009

    Bahahaha! Pantufas, I just got your snot rag joke.

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited May 2009

    I sure wish they would have taken my ovaries.  I asked them to, and they said let's just wait and see.  UGH!!  I have been on this damn Tamoxifen for over a year and I hate it!!  I get all the wonderful side effects of going through menopause, but since they didn't take my ovaries and I am 41 years old, I ALSO get to have my period every month.  IT STINKS!  Sorry, I am a little cranky today.  I feel fat and ugly and I can't shake the feeling and it is making me cranky.

    On a good note.  I gave up my smokes again last night and have had no problems and no urges to smoke, so that is nice.  I hope the whole week goes this easy.  Well, back to cooking.  It is rainy here so beef stew and fresh bread (and I wonder why I feel fat...heehee....all I do is eat these days!!)  Have a great week everyone!

    Ellie

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited May 2009

    Hello Ladies!

    My PCP called today and I am scheduled to meet my BS next Tuesday...I can't wait  to start discussing options and moving forward. Limbo land is no fun!

    On a totally different note - I could use some guidance.  I was laid off in March and had a 2nd interview and job shadowing today for a great position.  I really think it went well and now I am TERRIFIED they will offer me the job.  What do I do??? How can I ask someone to hire me when I have no idea what the next 6 months are going to entail with surgery and other treatments? I really want this job and we really need the income, but I already feel guilty knowing that I would be leaving anyone who hires me short handed while I deal with THIS...

    flfish - Congrat's on giving up smokes last night!!  Just keep up the positive thinking and you will do fine.  My counselor at my support group told my group the hardest part about quiting is that although your conscious mind has made to decision to be a non-smoker, your subconscious mind hasn't got the message yet and keeps wanting to fall back on the old programing.  She told us the best way to handle that pesky subconscious is any time you hear that little voice say 'I want a cigarette or it's time to smoke!' is to say 'thank you but that is old programing and I no longer need or want a cigarett' or some other positive declaration to change the programing... I feel like Sybil arguing with myself but it works so I keep doing it...  Best of luck to you!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hi o2behealthy, I say go for the job! But I haven't gone through what some of the other ladies have gone through so they may have different advice. Maybe let us know what the job will be. Good luck to you!

    Fifish, think we have all been there, lol. Just remember it too shall pass and your such a great person that there is plenty of love heading your way! I would think if you wanted your ovaries gone it would be your decision but what do I know, I am not a Dr.

    I went for a walk around the lake around my new place, took me about 30 minutes. I wish you all could of been there with me but here are some pics, I thought about all of you! I could of moved somewhere fancier but fell in love with the lake, and there are a lot of lakes that I should go buy a bike and see how many lakes I can hit in one hour.

    Start.
    start

    small trail
    small trail

    turns into a bike path

    bike path

    My apartment on the otherside of the lake

    lake apt

    Okay, here is my idea. When I went to Nicotine Anonymous we would get these silly chips. 1 hour, 1 day, 1 week, so on. But they weren't silly as when you received a chip, it was like you acknowledge a huge feat. And it felt good receiving those chips. Well..... we are a cyber group so I was thinking about making dates for us to shout out our victories. I am a web designer and I could put together a quick website where we can go in and mark our dates. Any ideas on this or is it too much. I could purchase the domain BCButtFondlers.com and put it together after my June tournament and ask Webbie to edit her original post to add the website link. Domains are cheap and I have plenty of space on my server.

    Let me know what you think. It's our project!

    Best,
    Janet
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    One more post to think about our project. I can make a membership area that you can make a profile, add pictures and post your quit day or update your quit day, lol. That way we can check the site to see who needs a shout out. As far as shout out times, we have to make this up, or how we shout out, etc. We can make this as wacky as you want but I do have some limitation to my skills.

    This is one way for me to give back to all of you, especially since I live a pretty self centered life. Well at the time being anyways. Give me your creative ideas and I see what I can do. We have quite a bit of time to do this. I am not a creative writer so could use help for the main page and what pages you would like, such as tips, etc.

    This is not to replace what we have here but to enhance what we have. I don't know about you ladies but I have a hard time keeping up with your quit times. And this will be great for the newbies, etc.

    Anyways, just a thought.

    Have a great night!
    Janet
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited May 2009

    Hey Janzin!  Your apartment is gorgeous and so is the surrounding area.  Just what you needed.  A beautiful serene place to calm your spirit and a wellspring for your creative juices!  I love your idea!  Maybe I could actually quit if I participated in something like that.  We're in!

    It would have been a gas (age telling on me) if one of the passed outs at the airport woke up to find a "dead" person next to them.  Now that would have been some pic!  I still haven't heard from my friend.  I sent her the pages your pics were on.  Oh, well!  I have to admit I don't know sod all about sculpture but maybe you could teach me.  My thing is portraits.  I did one series of "Women of the World."  All different cultures and races, with their ethnic costumes.  My favorite was a triptych of Geisha girls.  My ds has it hanging in her living room. I also love ancient history and architecture.  Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong era.  I guess it's a good thing I'm where I'm at or I would have probably been burned at the stake!

    flfish, that's a big decision about your ovaries.  I had mine out at 43 which threw me into instant menopause.  What is that word some use on these threads?  Doable. DOABLE??????????  Breaking my neck in a car accident was doable too but I wouldn't want to do it again!  Still if it means living fear free then it's something you should give serious thought to.  And it wasn't as bad as breaking my neck.  I'm still living with that but the menopause, well it wasn't too bad.  In fact I'd do it again before I'd do this second round of chemo.  Speaking if which.  My red count was still low but hadn't dropped any so no transfusion!  Yay!  We'll be with you no matter what you decide.

    o2bhealty, so glad you will be seeing you bs soon and can form a plan of treatment.  I agree with Janzin on taking the job.  You may be looking at a lumpectomy with SNB and if they are clear then you may not need further surgery, chemo or rads.  You will heal quickly from that.  You won't be doing any heavy lifting will you?  Sending you lucky vibes!

    Hope the rest of you former and present butt fondler's are doing well.  Love to hear from you!

    Nitey nite Ladies!

    Nancy 

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited May 2009
    Hey, just checked out with godaddy to see if bcbuttfondler.com is available. It is, I was almost worried some porn site would have that name, lol. But we don't have to go with that name.

    Word up!
  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited May 2009

    I am looking at a position in the insurance industry - personal/commercial lines CSR so no heavy lifting involved.  I also came home this afternoon to an email asking to schedule an interview with another company in the area.  It's crazy - two months and nothing then suddenly I have opportunities sprouting out of the wood work.  OK - it's only two but if feels like alot after such a dry spell...and I would have been more confident before BC.

    Janiz: What a beautiful area you live in - I would love to have nature at my back door like that - maybe I would go for more walks :) I love the idea of a site to be able shout out encouragement to everyone.  I can even steal a few tips from my support group to add to the site.   

    Pantufas: I am still learning about all this but I'll keep you in my prayers that your red count increases.  Thanks for the encouragement...If it wasn't for BC I would be chomping at the bit, I just hate to inconvenience people and am struggling with taking a job and then asking them to cover for me while I recoup.  I have multi centric (3 masses 6-9mm) DCIS and IDC, grade three (still waiting on ER/PR/HER2 status) - it pretty much covers the whole lower quad of my right breast so realistically I am look at a mastectomy - not lumpectomy.  Since I am 38 and plan on being around another 40+ years I am leaning towards a bilateral MX with recon (I just don't think I can trust my left breast to stay healthy). 

    Have a great night everyone and God bless you all!