Stop Smoking Support Thread
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Janzin, I think it is all of the above. Sometimes we just have to ride it through. It's not easy. Thank you for your sweet thoughts. No, no offers yet and with the economy the way it is world wide I don't expect anything soon. If I won the lottery, the first thing I would do is set my kids up. Then I would take you, REKoz and anyone else that wanted to go to Portugal for some R&R and to meet my husband. We could party on the roof and watch the city lights and go to the beach every day. People are so polite and friendly there (except the foreigners lol). My husband would love it! Then I would buy a huge house big enough for all of us. Preferably close to a Wal-Mart. I guess I need to start buying some lottery tickets!
It took years for me to realize the enormity of what Jesus did. It has tempered me. I know I can't ask to be forgiven unless I can forgive and if I can't forgive, then I believe Jesus died for nothing. That doesn't mean we can't get pissed off. As we say in the South. "Better pissed off than pissed on." Even Jesus got pissed off. He whipped the hell out of the money changers in the temple.
We are only human and all we can do is try to be good to one another. No matter what your beliefs are. I have found the most loving caring people I have ever met on this board. Can you imagine what would happen if what we have here could spill off and become a ripple effect? It would be fantastic! You are so right. It is a great start!
Have a good night dear one. I am thinking of you.
Nancy
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AWWWW NANCY (it's Nancy now, right?) That was beautiful and touching and I just had to tell ya that!
Be well sister-
xoEllen
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Nancy, you are a jewel! I do try to forgive, don't know why I can't let go of this anger, not like me at all. My roommates are starting to avoid me, lol. I remember that part of Jesus getting angry and that is how I feel right now, fed up with humanity. I am usually forgiving and tolerant but now I just feel separated from everything, maybe I am being self centered and expecting too much. Will try to be more like Jesus as he beautiful along with other great people such as Buda, etc. Love is love! And love is what makes life so beautiful!
I will try to forgive, and usually I was the one who spoke up for everyone here and tell my roommates that we have all good intentions, just learning like everyone else, and to be patient as you would want people to be patient with you. Just got tired of their insensitivety. Thanks! I really needed to hear that and I fell much better! I will try to be loving tonight!
Would love to have all of us on that roof with Fifish mango rum drinks! We would have a blast!Best to all,
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YEP! It's Nancy. I do have to admit though that as far as ex's go, Nancy is the forgiving one. Pat is still thinking about it. LOL!
Thanks! I go for my first round of chemo tomorrow and it remains to be seen just how goofy I (we) get.
Nitey Nite!
Nancy
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Janet, oh yes! Definitely flfish too! I could take some extra Ativan and pretend I was drinking. My dh was in food and beverage his whole life so he could fix us up something smashing! Don't worry, the facade is four feet high with a safety rail. Wouldn't want any uneccessary splats as the street sweepers don't come round till the morning! Oh, but I wish we could really do it! You would not believe the acres of shops and restaurants and coffee bars. The Portuguese pour wine on their corn flakes. Just kidding, but it's nothing to go have a coffee in the morning with a baby snifter of whiskey to go with it.
The beach(s) is only a five minute drive away and they are beautiful! Even if we don't win the lottery maybe we could save our money and go on holiday. If you have google maps check out Portimao. We can dream can't we? We could even go to Fatima and all be miraculously healed! Don't worry, I'll do the Hail Mary for you. I'm excited just thinking about it!
Sweet dreams and bunches of love to all!
Nancy
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Good Morning.
Happy Monday, Ladies. The idea of a trip to Portugal, with sun, sand, beaches, shopping is enough to get me through this rainy morning here in Va. Thank you for mking me smile.
Nancy, my thoughts are with you as you begin your chemo today. Please follow your doctors orders, drink your water. Know that we love you.
Janet- I have told you before--"Do not let other people live in your head rent free". Are you familiar with the phrase on "Acceptance"? Accept every person, place, thing, and situation as being exactly as it should be- we do not have to like it, but we can only try to heal ourselves, no one else.
Love to all of the ladies here. I do not like listing names, because I will forget someone, in writing, None of you, though, are forgotten in my thoughts and prayers.
MB
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MB, thank you for your good thoughts on this rainy VA morning. You are a perfect example of why I shouldn't list names. I have a brain like a sieve. Glad to hear you are in for the Portugal R&R. We would have so much fun. I am smiling thinking about my dh in a house full of women. He would be in Heaven. He's not a letch but such a wonderful host and very lonely since I had to leave.
Well. I'm off to prepare myself. Know that I am taking all of you with me this morning for moral support.
Nancy
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Well Janzin, you have had a rough week. Forget the mango drink recipe and just hit the rum and eat a piece of fruit on the side....heehee..... I am sorry that it has been so rough on you. Boy, when it rains it pours and I think there is nothing worse than not being appreciated.
Pantufas, nice poem. Reminds me of the diarrhea song we sang as kids "when you're sliding into first and you think you're going to burst....diarrhea, diarrhea...."
Well, I did not quit on May 1st, but I am quitting today. My reasoning was that I still had a few packs left, so I smoked my brains out during the weekend (Friday poker game, Sunday cookout). I know have 3 smokes left in the pack, and then they are done! My dh is going to quit with me again, so hopefully this time we will make it happen for GOOD!
Um, Ellen? If you and Janzin are going to raise some hell......can I come too? I have YEARS of practice! Seriously, I am not a rookie at this...heehee......
Wish me luck! Hugs out to all of you!
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Hello ladies,
I got drunk and made some mistakes this weekend but to tell you the truth, I actually feel better because I am making changes in my life for the better. I started drinking because I felt so angry and I shouldn't of drank but oh well, lesson learned. After reading your posts I decided too put away my feelings and try again, made apologies for my bad attitude. One roommate told he didn't give a _uck what others think and he doesn't want to hear their problems as he has enough problems of his own, and doesn't even want to hear his girlfriends problems. His girlfriend Liz, my roommate runs around trying to make this anti social dude happy. I have one roommate who barely talks to me and I have tried to be a friend to all.
The famous Person that I was trying to do business with is an aasshole. In fact, I have had people warn me about him but stupid me, I try to be optimistic and try to look for the good in people. I told him last night that I don't want to do business with him, and that he is behaving like a jerk. I watch all of us running around all week trying to make him happy and we all kissed his ass and finally I got tired of it and quit. Funny thing is that I was the only person who really supported him when he came into town and I got treated like shit. If he only knew what really happened, I never told him as I didn't want to stir things up with his team. And he is too full of himself and ignorant to probably understand anyway. I am done and over it and I am looking forward to making a better world for myself and it starts with getting assholes out of your life. And I don't do business with assholes!
MB, I am letting people live in my head rent free, but also working on solutions to not go there again, well at least this part anyways. I have worked too hard and tried to be nice, etc. I need better people in my life and they can live in their dogville life. Don't know if any of you seen that movie, but it shows how terrible we as people can be. I will accept those people from a far.
Pantufas, good luck with your first round of Chemo! I think all of our brains is full, and all of us have a lot to deal with, I forget something everyday! I try to remember all of you but if I don't, my heart is always with all of you. Sending you good luck and a speedy recovery!
Fifish, I sure did have a rough weekend! It's okay though, sometimes you have to learn the hard way and I did. I hope to build a nice world for myself like my parents, guess I am a little slow at 46 but better late then never. Would love to raise hell with you! Not doing too well with my quit day either, we'll get there! Wish you luck on your new quit day!
Sorry to be out of sorts, I will be back to myself soon and hopefully posting positive things and more humor to help you all smile through the tough times. Been smoking a lot this weekend, dealing with emotional issues but feeling more peace today as I told Liz I was moving out and with that I feel a huge pressure coming off as I don't like being angry and I hate the environment of my present home.
Thanks for being here, you are all my angels!
Best,
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Janet- I just checked your profile and have to say.....
"Dammit. You are 6 months younger than me.
My bday is 4/17/62Ok- onto the more important stuff. You are sounding stronger, calmer and focused and I couldn't be happier. Though I am sorry that it was a rough 72 hours, don't ever think that you are only supposed to post when you are happy and silly. The sooner we get the garbage out that bothers us, the sooner we can start on the healing.
Love you and think the world of you.
Be true to yourself and put yourself first.
MB
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Janet, just reread MB's post and ditto for me. BTY, I'm dead! Just kidding! Love to all and I'm going to make it an early night, I'm kind of tired. If wishes were horses,then beggars would ride. I guess I'll have to steal a horse and make all of our wishes come true!
Later ladies,
Nancy
P.S. I just remembered I'm 55
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I haven't posted in a few days, alot of family stuff going on here.
candie - how are you doing? Is your wrist better?
Pantufus - My thoughts have been with you as you began chemo yesterday. Feeling okay?
Janzin - Sorry your having such a tough week...hope things get better soon!
flfish - Good luck on quitting! You can do it!
MB - I also use that saying about living rent free! It doesn't always work for me, but sometimes it does.
I was supposed to cut back on my cigs yesterday, but I didn't. Am going to try today because my revision is in 13 days. I'm really dreading this surgery, I just want it all to be over with so I can get back to my life!
I didn't list everyone, but know that your all in my thoughts.
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Come on ladies, try and do this with me (whenever you are ready). I had my last smoke last night around 8:30, got crabby and went to bed. I have "grabbed" for a smoke about 4 times this morning out of habit, but so far so good. I remember from quitting last time, after I made it through the first 4-5 days, it did get a little easier......and then it got hard after 4 weeks! Never ending battle.
I am off to Tampa to see my daughter, then I have to be back to see my oncologist on Thursday. I will catch up with you all on Friday.
Ellie
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Ok Flfish I am right there with you . Day 2 again for me. You are so right. I quit for 10 days and than have just one always with an excuse. It's time to buckle up even a day without cigs is better for us than one with a cig.
I know it quite a stressful time for every one. I did go to that wellness community yesterday and made it thru Yoga class and chair exercise class. I was kinda shocked with how much light workout I could do with my arms. remember I have TE's that are painful but the exercises actually got my shoulders and chest to open up and stop hurting so much. I bounced on the huge ball and got my stomach and legs moving so it turned out to be quite good. They only offer that set of classes on Mondays.
Janzin hope your feeling better--pantufas how was your chemo?
to All I wish a peaceful week.
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Hello Ladies, wow I am tired from going through all of that. But I feel good as I feel for once I stood up for myself and also grew up enough to start creating a different life for myself, so I feel like I am moving forward. I guess I needed to let that anger out. The roommate who doesn't talk to me much is being nicer by the way, and the anti social guy...... well we are just polite to each other. That's a gene pool that should be squashed, lol. I want to tell him please don't breed but I think of it this way, I will have love in my life and I am lucky that I don't have to live in his head so perhaps I should show some empathy as his world has less in it if you can't comprehend love.
Thanks MB, 2NewBoobs, REKoz Fifish, Malleme and Pantufas for putting up with my weekend crap! You are all beautiful just like the rest of the ladies here that we haven't seen in a while. Will definitely be there for you too!
2NewBoobs, good luck with your revision and your cutting back! I will try to do the same thing, be strong through that urge as it will pass.
FIfish, going to miss you! I leave Friday for Vegas so will probably catch up with you on Sunday, but I will be bring my laptop so we shall see. I will try with you!
Pantufas, my wish for you is that your Chemo goes well! You sound great at 55, full of spunk! Love your energy!
MB, guess you are 6 months wiser than me, lol. You are so right, the sooner we get this junk out, the sooner we can start healing! I know that some of my roommates think I a dumb to blow a famous person for my tournament, but I am smiling inside because I don't have to have crap in my life. Money and fame isn't everything!
Malleme, good luck with the Wellness program and your TE. Day 2 is amazing as I can get one day in. I think we are all working towards our quit smoking and pretty soon we will be helping the newbie's with our nonsmoking time in.
The rest of you, drop in a line and let us know how you are doing!
Have a peaceful day,
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Hi Ladies!
Hope all of you are doing well with what life is throwing at you. No matter what happens to us, the world keeps on turning (how very inconsiderate !) and we have to turn with it. My chemo went better than I ever imagined. I did have the face burn after the Neulasta shot but the meds they called in took care of it. I had my ds buzz my hair today because I can't stand the anticipation of it falling out. I smoked like a fiend the day before chemo. I had no remorse. I knew the next day I was going to join "Elizabeth" and didn't give a crap. They had a psychologist talk to me before they began chemo to see how I was holding up. I gave her a short history (not the whole nine yards) but she told me I had been through too much to expect to give up smoking right now and that it was my crutch and I could have turned to worse things. She really surprised me. I still do want to quit but to be honest I just can't right now. I have to much other bs going on besides the bc. I know it's like the Marines say. "Excuses are like a$$holes. Everybody has one." But that's my story and I'm sticking to it!
If you can bear to read on I have to relate what happened before I got the Neulasta shot. Janzin, I think you and MB can appreciate this. My shot wasn't scheduled till 5:45 pm. My ds had an eye appointment. Since we live in Podunk Donut Village, we try to schedule appointments on the same days to save driving. So we have several hours to kill before my shot and decided to hit our favorite Goodwill. However, because of the state of my stomach I hadn't eaten anything so we decided to get a milkshake before we go. We hurriedly scarf down the shakes because we know we can spend hours in the Goodwill. We go to the store and proceed to enter. I'm holding the door open when I hear something that doesn't sound quite right. I turn to see my ds had misjudged the step and bunged her foot into it. She was tripping along windmilling her arms and going down. I calmly watch her head which is about to impact the door when I decide I better make a grab for her. I manage to catch her with my left arm all the while thinking. "Her knees! Her head! And manage to save her before she hits the pavement. Mind you, I was still holding on to the door which probably saved both of us. All she could think of was, Pat's port! Pat's port! As she was blunging into me. By this time we were laughing so hard she had to sit down as soon as we got in the store. As we reasonably collect ourselves, we head to the back of the store to the books and rubbish and we start giggling again, which erupted into guffaws which erupted into a gigantic release of gaseous explosions from my nether region. Little did I know, because of my own deafening roar that she was doing the same thing. She was squatting in the aisle, holding her stomach in hysterical laughter while further up the aisle; I was hanging my head in the shopping buggy for support while continuously ripping copious chain farts. Needless to say, we cleared out the shoppers in the back end of the store. We then had to rush to the bathroom because she began to wet herself and I was in serious doubts as to whether or not I had messed myself. It must have been the milkshakes!
Love to all,
Nancy
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BAHAHAAHA.......cry...BAHAHAHAH. That is tooooo funny! I am glad that you can get in a good day of laughter while dealing with Chemo. I am with you on smoking. Moving out this month, feel like a wimp on smoking as I keep putting off the date. But my life is changing for the better and I am slowly finding myself again. I know I will get there one day! Just like you will too Pantufas, and we will hit it head on with a grin on our face! And that goes for the rest of you ladies! Each day brings us closer to our goals!
Roommates are tripping out on me, they think I have made a mistake but I am smiling inside. They are too young to understand. It's like one of those life defining moments and for me, it was letting my anger out and finally I said no any more crap in my life. I haven't felt this strong in a long time.
So, to break out of the old afraid me, I decided to do something risky today. I went to Starbucks for a meeting and decided to do a dead picture. The place was packed, students and business people sitting everywhere or lining up for drinks. Me and my friend were nervous but I told her we need to do this, it will help give us some big balls, lol.I had my friend hold the camera and I made my way to throw out our trash and then WHAM! I hit the floor and played dead. The funny thing was not one person even looked or asked if I was okay. We left laughing like a couple of teenagers and it felt good.
So here is my starbucks dead picture.
By the way, I had a real hard time trying not to laugh in my dead picture.
Best to all and good luck with your BC and quit smoking program.
Hugs,
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Haaaaaaaaaawwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Janzin, you made my night! You have balls any man would envy! I can't believe the guy placidly walking by you. NO REACTION! At least a woman in the Goodwill asked my ds if she was all right. And she wasn't even dead!
Have you found a place to move to? I am glad you have the strength to make these decisions in your life. Just keep smiling. The only psychiatrist I ever trusted told me years ago to try and take all of the negative things out of my life. It's not easy but sometimes you have to bite the bullet, learn to say no, and do what is best for you. You sound as though you have your head on straight and I am wishing you all of the best. I'm still canoogaling on ways I can get you and REKozand I together one day. What is meant to be, will be. I rub my Buddha's belly for luck for you every day. He's sitting right along there with my rosaries and image of Fatima. I hold all religions in esteem (well not Jim Jones and Sun Yun Moon but I think you know what I mean). I guess I'm one of the few women in the world who owns a Cherokee eagle feather dancing fan. It was given to one of my best friends by a Cherokee chief and he in turn passed it on to me. He is a cousin of one of the highest paid (until recently) rookies to ever enter the NFL. I remember one night when I was living in the sticks of Western NC halfway up a mountain and the kids were in one of those moods and were driving me nuts. There was a terrible lightning and thunder storm outside but I took a blanket, pillow and phone with me out to the car and intended to spend the night there. As though he had ESP, my friend called and asked what I was doing. I told him and he asked if I wanted some company. I said yes and he drove 30 miles and joined me in the back seat of my car. We just watched the storm and talked. After about an hour, he took me inside and settled my kids down and made sure we were all okay before he left. I'll never forget him. In fact I wrote a poem for him.
Night Friend
Deep in the twilight shadows
Holds a friend I've known for long
He sends his sweet dark whisperings
On midnight's furtive song
Come out and let your soul soar free
And dance among the stars
I'm ever far but oh so near
To join in where you are
Let me caress your burdened brow
Your sorrows fill my load
I'll take from you the heavy weight
While you journey down life's road
But come with me and play tonight
Leave toils and cares behind
Beneath a twinkling canopy
Where heartaches learn to shine.
He made the storm go away for me that night. It is amazing what the care of one person can do for another. If given the chance I would like to do that for someone else.
Wishing all of you ladies well and a Night Friend when you need them.
oodles!
Nancy
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Pantufas, you are amazing! I wish I could write poems like you! Mine would be like the jerk who signed my high school book.
Janet, don't be blue
Don't be sad,
Because Peter Pan was a weirdo too.
The funny thing about that dead picture is your are right, that guy walked past me and didn't even offer help. I am going to Vegas this weekend for business and pleasure, and I am going to do a dead picture there too. What feels so good about this is that as time goes on, you find yourself conforming to whatever sub culture you belong too, etc. And sometimes we need to remember our youth when who cares what people think, we gain so much as we get older but also lose things whiteout even thinking about it. We become enslaved and stop thinking for ourselves, everyone does it without thinking about it unless you think about it, lol.
I took a class in College called Personal Communication, an easy speech class as I hate public speaking. My father actually taught the class and wrote the school books for it. I was lousy in my communication, a rebellious kid and moved out when I was 15. I grew up with, "Janet, how did that make you feel," etc. But to back up in the class, we had an exercise where we where suppose in invade someone bubble of a space, write down how you felt and the other persons reaction, I chicken out. The Japanese have less bubble of space but Americans have a larger space. So it could be something like in a park full of empty benches, and you choose to sit close really next to someone, etc. I could do it now, as my moment of life defining moment last weekend gave me some balls. Even though I wish it was a bit more less explosive then I wanted, but the end result for me was what I needed. Between the divorce and all the health problems, I finally let out my surpressed anger out and I learned to set new boundaries!
Like you, I met good people who give me faith in humanity. But I know it starts with you! I am looking for a place alone for some time to process my own feelings, have a place to look at tomorrow. And for the first time in life, I am choosing who I get close too. Funny thing is most of the people I relate to are the ones who practice some kind of spiritual path. One of my good friends practice evangelical, imagine that, lol. But it doesn't matter what your belief is, it's your good intentions and the capacity of compassion and empathy towards your fellow being that counts a lot. I still have a lot to work on that but I an trying, as that is what we pass on when we leave this place.
We as BC survivors and dealing with life crap at the same time and quit smoking, it can be a difficult journey. But I believe in us and we will get there. Wish you all you was coming with me to Vegas, but we will definitely hooked up sometime in the future. We would make excellent BC dead pictures!
Love you all.
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Nancy, you have a wonderful gift. The poem was beautiful and the Goodwill story is a classic!
Janet, I am happy for you that you are moving out. Even in your posts, you sound strong. The fact that you plopped down in Starbuck's is hysterical. Believe me, that takes some guts. The fact that no one offered to help is a sad social statement of our society, but the photo is priceless. Have a great time in Vegas, wish I could meet you there!!
Well, I made it two whole days and then smoked on my drive back from Tampa. After a great day with my daughter I bought a pack on the way home. I was so proud of her, seeing her new apartment, going over her last semester of grades and meeting her new boyfriend, all while celebrating her 20th birthday, it all hit me. She is all grown up, and that made me happy but sad, and I smoked all the way home. Stupid excuse I know, but that is the truth. So, I will probably finish this pack and another over the weekend and quit again next week. I just keep quitting quitting....ugh
Love to all!
Ellie
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Hi Ladies,
I've been lurking for the past 2 weeks. Thought I'd jump in and join. I've been a heavy smoker for 30+ year. ! to 1 1/2 packs per day. "Cept for when I worked as a bartender. 3 packs +! Most of them got light and then were left to burn in ashtrey
Except while pregnant, I never gave a WHOLE lotta thought to quitting til dx..
My quit date is May 19...same day as mast. Wonder if I can talk BS into keeping me ther a day or 2 longer for the reinforcment? Every one in my house smokes....Cigars....EEEW!
Got my patches & wellbutrin. I'm calling out all heavey guns. Not the least of which is your stories and this thread. Wonder how webwrighter'sdoin'?
Thank you for your suppurt!
xoxo
Lursa5
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HELLO LURSA5! Welcome to our little group. Please feel free to jump in and you will soon notice that this is the most supportive group of ladies that you will ever meet!
You will see how some of us quit and succeed, and other quit and fall off, but we all keep trying, and that is what is most important. Good luck with your surgery!
Best wishes,
Ellie
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Janet--my best girl friend is going to Vegas for the weekend. I told her to look for you "playing dead" at the casino.....heehee....so if a little 105 pound gal with really BIG, dark, curly, long hair comes and lays down by you, you will know that I sent her.....heehee
Ellie
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And if that happens...MAKE SURE someone takes a picture of THAT! Two chicks in a heap on the floor? What happens in Vegas.........!!!!
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Good morning ladies!
I'm having lovely SE's with chemo and one of them is I can't sleep. The other is having my life slowly crawl before my eyes and thinking you need to know about it.
Janzin, have a ball in Vegas! I think your bubble space has expanded magnificently. Can't wait to see your Vegas "dead" pics. You are getting more and more creative. I think you could teach that class now. I am so happy thinking of you in your own place and hope everything works out really well for you. You have to be one of the most spiritual people I've ever known or else you could not have such an indomitable spirit.
Chicks in a heap on the floor! You're priceless REKoz and flfish you are wicked! I hope your friend has great fun too. Glad you had a great time with your dd. Don't blame you for picking up the smokes. Kind of have to fill in that empy space when you aren't with her.
Hi Lursa5! Glad you have joined us. I don't give very good advice but hope I can make you laugh once in a while and will support you any way I can.
MB, 2New, malleme, you doing okay? Well, going to try to go back to bed. Wishing all of the butt fondlers well.
Nancy
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Hi Ladies.
I thank you so much for the needed giggles. Nancy, the poem is beautiful, but then your story was the icing on the cake. I love love love those rare times of uncontrollable laughter (minus the uncontrollable bodily functions!). Janet- your dead picture got me through a mini melt down yesterday. I made it thru my grocery shopping, got outside and put them in the trunk, sat on the curb, smoked a cigarette and started crying. Not sobbing, but a slow, steady rainfall of tears. I had to put my shades on, so as to not draw attention. And I wished I had a friend and a camera, because I would have laid down, right there by the curb, in the parking lot of Farm Fresh. It was old folks day, though, so probably really would have gotten run over and dead.
This morning is much better. Ellie, my 20 yo son just came home Tuesday, from college. I agree with you- it is incredible to see the young adult he has turned into. He has an internship this summer, with a physics/engineering laboratory and I could not be more proud.
Lursa5- welcome to you! So happy you found us. Best of luck to you with your upcoming surgery and quitting the smokes. Please keep us posted.
Love to each of the ladies on this favorite thread.
mb
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Hi Ladies, rushing for the airport but have a few minutes.
Fifish, if your friend wants to try some daring shots, have her give me a call. 303-803-6522. That would be awesome!
Welcome Lursa5! Great bunch here and we will walk this journey with you. Good luck to you and looking forward to getting to know you.
REKoz, you are too funny, wish you were part of that heap, lol. We should all do one together!
MB, sorry you had a bad day. I was right there with you, cried last night after a huge fight with my antisocial roommate. But found a new place to live and move next week, time to heal! My heart is with you!!! I talk to mother and she told me to give myself a break. I hope the good days are coming up for you, but between that, try to give yourself a break or let it out, I did over the weekend and I feel much better, lol.
Pantufas, hope you are feeling better, I look forward to your creativity! Maybe we can do the Wal mart cart venture and end it with a crash with dead chicks on the floor, probably no one will notice and that will be funny too.
The rest of you, miss you and hope you are doing great!
Best,
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MB--you should be so very proud of your son. Another scientist! My daughter is a microbiology major with a minor in genetics. She is trying to get into Moffit Cancer Institute in Tampa for her internship. So, when we are having bad days, we can at least be thankful that we raised some good kids that will be an asset to society some day. Don't feel bad about the smoking. I am still cheating but I pray every day that some day it will kick in and my quitting will stick!
I got good news yesterday. I went for my blood tests and my CA27.29 test went from 11.1 down to 9.1....yippee....and the best part is that I don't have another doctor appointment until NOVEMBER. I can't believe it, it is finally starting to feel like I can put this bc behind me for a bit. I am forcing my dh to go to the Bahamas with me next month to celebrate! I can't think of a better way to celebrate than snorkeling and drinking rum drinks on white sandy beaches....ahhhhhhhhh.....
Janet, have a great time. Listen to your mother, you should give yourself a break. Where are you staying? My girlfriend Connie is at the Flamingo. If you are close, let me know and I will have her look you up. She is one of the funniest people you could ever meet!
Pantufus, I hope you are feeling better.
Hugs to ALL!
Ellie
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Hi Ladies!
It's so wonderful to hear about your children and their promise for the future. My oldest son calls me at least twice a day. And I know if I ever said. "I need you IZ." He would drop everything and be here. He helped me raise his brother and sister and is the epicenter of our family. I am wishing all of you mothers a Happy Mother's Day and even if you just have moggies and doggies, you are mothers too.
I still feel like warmed over crap, but that's the way of it. IZ told me today. "Mom, you have one down and three to go. You will make it."
I am still fondling the butts and when my ds and I take her dog for her walkies some people look at me like they've seen a bear with two noses. I've buzzed my hair and I'm flat on one side and I am smoking. Then there are ladies who look me in the eye and give me that knowing smile and ask me how I am. Those are the ones who make it worth me dragging myself out because I refuse to stay hidden. I will deal with what life throws at me in my own way. The negative ones are probably thinking I am insane and I chuckle to myself knowing that I am certified!
Have a beautiful week end everyone. Janzin, I hope you knock em "dead' in Vegas and flfish, bully for you in the Bahamas next month. Tip one up for me while you're at it. We are going back to NY after my next chemo and that will be nice. Maybe it won't be RAINING!
Warm thoughts to all of you.
Nitey Nite,
Nancy
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Just wanted to come in and give a bit of encouragement to you all trying to quit smoking.....It has been 2 yrs 4 months and 9 days since I quit and i feel better and stronger with every passing day.......I know how hard it is to quit......I want you all to keep up the good work...There will come a day when you will no longer even THINK about a smoke much less want to smoke........Conratulations on all your hard work........I know it will pay off in the end........
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