Stop Smoking Support Thread

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  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    Hi ladies, almost made it then grabbed one from my neighbor last night. I have to work a booth tonight so today is going to be a toughie but going to do my best again. Thanks for all the support out there, wouldn't know what to do without you!!!

    Cleo, it's different for everyone, yours may not be that bad at all. And you will fee better right away. I have more energy and my skin is looking better just from cutting down. Well I have been sleeping a lot and fighting off urges too. I will hope it goes easy for you but we are here for you either way.

    Fifish, just kidding about my cat, though he has been driving me nuts. I play with him a few times a day, sits in my lap while I am on the computer and sleeps with me. I think that puppy will help him out as he as been pretty needed since he lost his brother and other dogs. He always meowed quite a bit but nothing like since we moved here. How are your urges today, you are doing awesome, proud of you!!!

    Coffee, that is awesome, 1 day down! To bad your hubby couldn't go somewhere else to smoke, just shows your strength. Maybe today will be better, I heard that each day the urges become less. I didn't have my morning urge yet so it is getting better. Will be here for you!!!!

    MB, thanks for all your support, you rock! Day 19 is awesome, I didn't know. You are handling it very well, you can be our positive voice!! It's awesome watching everyone quit after posting all these months. Go forth brave BC Butt Fondler soldiers!!!!

    Hope the rest of you are doing well, will reach to out to you later.

    Hugs,
    Janet
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009

    I just smoker coughed my watermelon all over on my keyboard. Just thought I share my day with you!

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited July 2009
    Nice Janzin!  We are on the same page.  I cut up a HUGE bowl filled with watermelon and pineapple that I got from the farmer's market.  When I want a smoke, I grab a few pieces of that....which is great, but I have had so much fruit I have a tummy acheFrown
  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    LOL, Fifish, I relate to that!! That hike/stairs kicked my butt!!! Now that I can breathe again, I just want to eat too!!!

    REKoz, Coffee, how are you doing???
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited July 2009

    Janzin, I love your puppy.  I want one!!  I decided I was being selfish not letting Murphy outside.  The  shop cats get to go and he would gaze at them through my bedroom window.  Every chance he had to escape downstairs, he would take it.  I finally decided that he was my prisoner, not my pet.  It would be different if he had never known the outside but that's where I found him.  If he doesn't come back then maybe he isn't supposed to.  I had him when I needed him the most.  If he loves me he'll come back.  It's hard to type and cry at the same time.

    How is everyone?  Some lucky ladies get flowers and trips to the Keys.  Have such a good time.  You surely deserve it flfish.  Your dh may have slipped up and acted oafishly but  he's your oaf and sometimes for all of their trying, they don't get it right.  They simply don't know what to do.  My dh told me after he learned of my chest tubes, that now I know how he feels.  Through words lost in translation, I learned he had an angioplasty, not a double by-pass.  I disavowed him of that notion the last time I talked to him, but I was pretty pissed until I realized that I am the stronger of us and it hurts him because he couldn't protect me here, through this.  He would slay a pack of junk yard dogs over me but in this instance, he is helpless.  Not a good way for a man to feel, especially one who is old school.  Well, enough of me waxing philosophical.

    How is everyone doing?  Hope surgeries go well.  Try to keep so cigs at bay so you heal nicely.  Good luck to any facing chemo.  I don't regret that I tried.  Calm to everyone facing day to day stress.  I know it can be hard without that back up.  Calma is one of my favorite Portuguese words.  So CALMA AND STOP THE INSANITY!!!  I would look more like Susan if I was skinny.  I'm the only person I know that can go in the hospital and come out fatter than when I went in.  I am getting more ridiculous looking hair.  My BIL's sister is here visiting.  I'll see if she brought her camera and can post some pics.   Sorry I am still posting here but you are such wonderful friends, I just can't leave so I'll stay in the side lines and root for you.  I like watermelon on keyboards.  So much fun to clean.

    mb, your post was very heartening and makes so much more sense than all of this sentimental palaver I post.  19 days is great!!!!

    Calma butterfly, remember your blood pressure (don't know if you have any issues with that but it's what mum always told me.  I did calm down trying to figure out what my blood pressure had to do with anything while I was in my 20's) Calma to you too, coffee.  Dh's don't look so good with cigs coming out of their eyeballs not to mention how it might affect their vision.  o2b,what are you up to these days?  I don't mean cigs, just checking to see how you are.

    A very good Friday to all and I hope all of you are busy.  I'm sure REKozis as it's count down time for her in more ways than one.  Sending good thoughts your way!!!!!!

    Love to all,

    Nancy, Pat, Susan (finally figured out what I look like.  It's one of those hideous hairless dogs, poor creatures, that have no hair but a few stray loners that forgot Tongue outthey were supposed to be hairless.)

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009

    Hey Pantufas, so nive to hear from you. You are suppose to keep psoting here even if you quit becuase we still need your support and wisdom and you will always be a BC Butt Fondlar gal!!! Infact, you may have an urge on day and posting will help keep you on track. We love your posts and funny stories and you complete us in many ways so don't you go anywhere, I will come after you!!!!

    Here is an update on my baby Jack Russel girl. She just opened her eye's. Can't wait to kiss her!
    baby jack

    Let love in your hearts!!!
    Janet

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited July 2009

    She is sooooooooooo CUTE!!!!  Grow little baby so you can be with your mommy!  I am so happy for you. JR's are a hoot!  Thanks for your post.  You always make me feel better!

    Love,

    Nancy

  • coffee1stlife2nd
    coffee1stlife2nd Member Posts: 6
    edited July 2009

    i keep trying to post but it wont let me post more then once a day.. hope this works.. well i have mowed the lawn, shampooed the carpets and shampooed the furniture and im watering the garden...now what!!!!   agggguuee LOL.....I think non smokers must get the most done during the day.. I told hubby to get some watermellon and pinapple from the store on his way home... it feels like a really bad need a cig day...thanks for the fruit tip  flfish   & Janzin im trying....

  • coffee1stlife2nd
    coffee1stlife2nd Member Posts: 6
    edited July 2009

    What a cute baby.. Ohhh she is Beautiful.... If i could kiss her i would 2...

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    Glad to be here Pantufas, and your cat will come back!!! Would love to see your pictures! Susan is a part time name, we will have to pick another name for you when you get pass all this!!

    Coffee, you are so funny. I am doing the same thing. Doing really good today but I will be at a bar tonight, I will give it a try though. I think every urge we get past is one less time we think about it and pretty soon we won't think about it at all, and we'll get a lot done, lol. If you get real bored, you could dust the leaves off of plants, lol.

    How are the rest of you?????

    Best,
    Janet
    P.S. Just though of a good dead pic, will take it later on this week!
  • cleomoon
    cleomoon Member Posts: 152
    edited July 2009

    Smile Oh that puppy is so cute. So glad you got her Janet. Ellie my sleep pattern is backwards and I am sleeping about 9 hours on average. It is not a good sign that I am off that way. Not sure what is up with me.

    Congrats to all of you for fighting your cravings today Laughing

    Keep posting please pantufas. I love your posts.

    Mary Beth Woot!! for 19 days, and thank you for sharing how it is for you now that you are over the 2 wk hump.

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited July 2009

    Just had the rug pulled out from under me.

    Went to an ENT today and she scoped me and saw that my left vocal chord was paralyzed.  Got me in for a CT scan w/contrast at 2pm.  She called me at 430pm- the scan is showing a mass in the left lung and areas on my spine.....what the hell?????  I have been having follow ups with my onco, doing what I have been told to do.  We don't know if any of it is breast cancer that spread (tho my snb was clear) or if it is a seperate lung cancer.

    Of the many ways this sucks one is:  I quit smoking on June 22 to be ready for my exchange to gummy bear implant and augmentation on July 22.  I am being told to cancel that and work on dealing with the lungs.

    I am a basket case

    mb

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited July 2009

    and a ps.....remember how I had told you all how my back was hurting and my voice was bad?  I really thought it was a side effect from the chantix or tamoxifen.....

    I do have to add, I didn't smoke today. : )  

    yet

  • cleomoon
    cleomoon Member Posts: 152
    edited July 2009

    Oh my!!

    Major (((HUGS))) for you

  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited July 2009

    Aw Man mb!

    Hold tight until  you get all of the info.  For those of you that  believe in prayer chains, let's get one started now!  Everyone else, please send your healing thoughts and good vibes to mb.  We are here for you.  Good on you for not smoking!  Keep us informed and know that we love you!

    Nancy

  • o2bhealthy
    o2bhealthy Member Posts: 1,089
    edited July 2009

    Cleo:I started a thread earlier and lost the whole damn thing...It was really profound too! Lets see if I can recapture those thoughts...Positives of not smoking: I am no longer hostage to cigarettes, I can go out to eat and not worry about running outside between courses or rushing desert so I can get my nicotine fix.  I can have a movie marathon at home with my kids without pausing for a ‘break'...or go to the movie theater and not fidget after the opening credits (something about knowing your going to be stuck for a while used to cause me to start jonesing early). My car and clothes no longer stink. I am saving a small fortune by not buying cigarettes and fabreeze on a regular basis. I have more energy but unfortunately no place to expend it till I get the doc's ok ...

    MB: Wow, what a blow!  Don't you hate it how doc's just drop bombs like that at your feet! I am sorry your exchange is being delayed as well...sending positive healing vibes and you are in my prayers - big gentle hugs...19 days not smoking is AWESOME!!!

    Janiz: I LOVE your little girl...there is nothing in the world like unconditional love from a puppy...hope you are have a good day...

    Flfish: so happy to hear you are doing well and definitely getting your daily recommended serving of fruit...

    Pantafus:  I am soooooo happy you are back and look forward to your posts.

    Coffee:If you run out things to clean at home, you are more then welcome to come over to my house...I just wish I could do a deep clean but I am to scared of over doing it right now, so until I get doc's ok I'll just have to let go and accept my kids and DH version of clean Surprised

    REKoz: just wanted you to know I am thinking of you...

    Butterfly: How you doing?

    I went out and had my hair cut today...REALLY short pre-chemo cut.  I spent the last 10 years trying to grow out my hair and knew this would be really hard...I feel like Julia Roberts in Steele Magnolia's when she cut her hair...Don't get me wrong, I am glad I cut it and it is not a bad cut, but it is not me either. By the time I get used to this cut I will have started chemo so I am hopping this will make the loss less traumatic...I am so weepy and vulnerable right now...I am so glad I did this now because I cannot imagine how I would feel if I waited until it started falling out. I cannot figure out how to post pic's here without putting in as my avatar and I am just not ready for that yet (I did post on FB thoughUndecided).

    Hope everyone has a good night!

    Much Love and Hugs

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    Hi Ladies, I didn't make it pass the bar last night. Try try again today!! My legs are soooo sore from hiking yesterday that I am barely moving around the house. So a bed/computer day.

    MB, I am sooo sorry to hear your news. It must be so frustrating but it is good that you quit smoking and your strong not to smoke on that kind of news. We all need to do a group prayer for you, it seem to really help Pantufas and I hope it will help you. Sending your positive vibes, let us know what is going on. We worry about you!!!!

    Cleo, so glad you are here, you words are kind and supportive!!!

    Pantufas, how are you feeling today?

    O2bhealthy, you are beautiful no matter what your hair style is!! I am sorry you have to go through that. I hope your hair does well!!! I hear some use Mane and Tail to grow stronger hair, I might try it some time. I bet you are feeling better now without those drains. Maybe treat yourself to a nice dinner!!!

    Fifish, how are you hanging on? Hubby helping you better?

    Butterfly, did you start your quit day. And how are you today??

    Coffee, you still hanging in there? My urges are less strong, will join you soon. Maybe today!!!

    Candie, keep up the good work!!

    Nobleanna, Nervousknitter, Webbie, Lursa, AKA, and the rest of you, miss you. Hope you are still lurking.

    It's a group hug day!

    (((((((HUGS TO ALL)))))))
    Janet
  • cleomoon
    cleomoon Member Posts: 152
    edited July 2009

    Janet sorry the bar test failed. For me alcohol and cigarettes go right together. I also did not succeed in cutting back. Made it almost. Then got upset about something and whacked myself with smoke after smoke. Yep try try and try again.

  • REKoz
    REKoz Member Posts: 164
    edited July 2009

    Hi All-

    First and foremost....MB...Jesus H Christ! WTF? You don't have your original diagnosis in your signature. But for some reason, I thought you at stage 1 like me? Please give a little more detail about your situation. I can't believe this is happening to you. I am wayyyyy beyond so sorry. This is beyond acceptable!!

    Pantufus was right. I am not avoiding you, my sisters and friends. I have been running around crazy. The wedding is two weeks from today. I can imagine you guys are going to get really sick of hearing about this. However, I have to admit, this is the first time I can say I am REALLY excited. FINALLY, I feel like the mother of the bride!

    BY THE WAY, THIS NOT SMOKING SUCKS! I know it's a gift to myself...truly. But I'd rather another gift...a trip perhaps?

    xoxo

  • mbscruggs
    mbscruggs Member Posts: 72
    edited July 2009

    Hi Cuties.

    You are right, I was diagnosed at stage 1 for my breast cancer ( it looks like it is showing up on my signature -at least on my computer).  I am taking tamoxifen.  My oncotype score was low, so I didn't have chemo or rads.  We will have to biopsy the mass, but the initial thought is that it is a fast growing lung cancer, that wasn't obvious with my scans, mri, xrays.  I am hoping to get in with my onc Monday

    I appreciate all of the thoughts, prayers and well wishes from you guys.  Am trying to just keep in the day.

    And, I haven't smoked today ! : )

    xxoo

    mb

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited July 2009

    Oh mb, I am so sorry to hear this.  When are they doing the biopsy?  Good Lord, you are so very strong.  Please know I will have you in my prayers.  Good job not smoking!!

    I didn't do too well yesterday.  The weekends kill me, but that is just an excuse.  If I was stronger, I would stay away.  Oh well, failed again, so Monday I am back on the non smoking wagon...ugh.....

    Cleomoon, I am sorry your sleeping patterns are screwed up.  Mine too.  I blame the Tamoxifen for the night sweats which keep me up....miserable........

    Rekoz--you are doing great, keep it up!!

    Ellie

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    Hello!! I haven't done good either on my quit smoking but try again on Monday. Stuff myself yesterday and I swear it feels like I gain 20lbs. Is water retention a problem with menopause? Have my next surgery for August 10th so I want to have some non smoking time in.

    Cleo, sorry to hear that, we will get there and you have shown a lot of strength so it is just a matter of time.

    REKoz, you must be really busy with the wedding around the corner, so happy for you and your daughter. Have to post some pictures!!!!

    MB, you rock!! With everything going on you are still not smoking and that is so huge! You help inspire us! Worried about you and you are just a huge part of this group, I am wishing you all the best! Sending you hugs!

    FIfish, you are doing great! Monday I will restart with you. After all these months, we are finally really trying so it may take a few times. I tell when I quit, I will never start again because it's too hard, don't want to go through this again.

    Coffee and Jules, are you still there?

    Pantufas, are you still writing poems?

    Malleme, haven't heard from you in a while, miss you. Drop in a line!

    Have a sunny Sunday!
    Janet
  • nancypat
    nancypat Member Posts: 239
    edited July 2009

    Yep. I'm here and I'm still writing poems.  Right now I'm about to write something about this stinking drip taking foreverfrikkenlong to finish.  GET BACK IN PAT!!!!  Sorry about that.  I know it's rare to see any thing other than my usual tranquil nature. BS!!!  PAT............Knock it off!  I want doggies, (you were right Janzin, my cat came back!) and fried Mexican ice cream, and long flowing dresses in shear cotton in colors of coral and azure blue and yellow.  I want MB to be better so she can have her surgery, and REKoz's daughter's wedding to go off without a hitch and hope your surgery goes off without a hitch too.  I want to hear from nobleanna and Lursa and looper and Deanie and yes, you too malleme.  We hope you all are well whether you fell off the wagon, or the wagon drove over you, or you jumped the wagon before it went over the cliff.  o2b, please don't fret about your hair.  It's easy to say I know.  I never really cried until I lost all of mine and then I knew the cancer was for real.  Mind you, I had already lost a breast but that didn't hit me as hard for some reason.  But there is light at the end of the tunnel.  My hair is growing back and it is brown and curly.  I was fooled by the first gray sprouts.  I thought it was going to be salt and pepper.  No matter.  It's hair!!!  I asked my ds.  How can I be dying if I'm growing hair?  How are you holding, Butterfly?  I see those biceps baby girl.  You work on knocking that bc on it's butt.  Candi, it would be nice to hear from you too.  How about it nervousknitter and webwriter?  How are you doing?   AKA, are you still cleaning smoke fumes?  flfish, I've been watching the hurricanes and thinking of you.  Hope you aren't having bad weather.  If so, just have your mangos inside and turn your nose up to the rain.  Strenght and courage to those trying to quit.  I was a living, breathing smoke stack and now it crosses my mind occasionally but it's a fleeting thought and gone.  I wish that for all of you.

    Well, I better say good night Ilene.  How many out there can remember that?  I guess I want to remember old stuff and look forward to new stuff.  Don't all of us?Laughing  That is my prayer for all of you tonight.  That we can remember and we can see more.  God bless us all!

    Nancy

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited July 2009

    Oh I missed you Pantufas...no one says it like you do! :-)

  • butterfly137
    butterfly137 Member Posts: 87
    edited July 2009

    Hello ladies.  mb I am very sorry to hear about your situation, but like Janz said, I am super proud of you for not smoking.  O2B hang in there, I am SOOOOOOO super proud of you for quitting, and I know cutting off your hair wasn't easy. flfish hang in there and stay strong!  Pantufas you crack me up! Janz first of all your pup is ADORABLE, and second of all the whole smokers cough watermelon all over the keyboard about made me shoot a snot-rocket! That was too funny!

    Well, I smoked my last cigarette this morning.  I hope I don't go buy a pack, I really don't want to, it's just the last vice I have left, and it's so damn good...which I am sure every one of you understands. 

    I hope everyone has a great day today...I really do...we can do this!

    Much Love To All!!! 

  • butterfly137
    butterfly137 Member Posts: 87
    edited July 2009

    Why is it I can barely make it a few hours before I am ready to go ape Sh**....I want to get a pack of smokes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • lisakaden
    lisakaden Member Posts: 5
    edited July 2009

    I quit smoking 7-8-09, smoked forever, this is hard, I am like you butterfly, I want to fly to store for a pack if smokesYellUndecided 

  • flfish
    flfish Member Posts: 309
    edited July 2009

    Well, I failed over the weekend and I smoked almost a whole pack, but I put them down about 6:00 last night, and so far so good.  I am completely convinced that as long as I am alone, I would be ok.  I think my husband makes me smoke......heehee......I will blame him.  I am not going to beat myself up too much since I smoked just over a pack in the last 7 days....I would have normally smoked EIGHT packs, so when I look at it that way, not such a failure.

    Hang in there Butterfly.  Janzin, how are you doing? 

    Hugs to all.

    Ellie

  • butterfly137
    butterfly137 Member Posts: 87
    edited July 2009

    Hi lisa...7-8-9 was supposed to be my quit date...obviously THAT didn't happen.  but KUDOS to you chicka!!!!  Hang in there and stay strong...

    and Flfish, you're right, one pack vs. eight is WAY better!

    Much Love To All!

  • Janzin
    Janzin Member Posts: 491
    edited July 2009
    Fifish hit it on the nose, no one says it like you Pantufas.

    Starting over today but feel weak. Was going through pictures for our website and came across my Ex and there is a part of me that misses him. That thought alone made me want to smoke. I have nothing here but butts, yuck. Well it's about getting pass those urges. going to be a tough day!

    Hope all is well with you ladies, sending out positive vibes to all.

    Kisses,
    Janet