Stop Smoking Support Thread
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I want tacos with a mango salsa....YUM...atta girl! I am doing ok, thanks for asking. I guess I just about hit a full 24 hours right now, not too bad. I do better alone, we will see how it goes when my dh comes home from work.
Michelle, how long have you gone now? I wish you could come float with me too, it stinks we all live so far (or at least I live so far, I am down hanging off the end of this peninsula all alone....maybe I can find some Cuban butt kickers...lol)
We made it through 1/2 the day ladies (or close), let's make it through the night.
Janzin, I am off to "hit" Jule's wall.
Ellie
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Wished we all lived close, we could have pool party at Fifish. If you DH breathes and you get annoyed, have a mango rum drink, lol.
Well leaned, did my toes to fight off that last urge. Now will try to make a flyer in the next hour. Hey, maybe everyone who quits should get a free BC Butt Fondler shirt.
Check in ladies, we need your support!!!
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Sending out smoke free thoughts to all of you!!
YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!
It would be so cool if we all could be at some resort stopping together and floating in pools.
((HUGS))
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Thanks Cleo!!!! Still having a bad urge. Cookie time!
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I am dying!!!!!! About ready to become a trash can digger.
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I NEED A F_CKING CIGARETTE!!!!!!
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I'm her Janet. You can get through this crave.
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Janet - sorry I wasn't here...you doing ok now??? Big Hugs and non nicotine positive vibes coming your way...
Ellie:62 days today...have been struggling more today then in then in the past few weeks...must be having sympathy cravings
Cleomoon: I would so love crashing at a big resort with my BCBF buddies, kicking it at the pool with mango rum cocktails...
<<<HUGS to ALL>>>
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Janet- talk to us.....did you go out for another walk. Sure hope you are hanging in there. I feel your pain and am sharing the same sentiment. Can you do some shoulder shrugs, slowly? Drink a glass of water? Chew some gum? Breathe in fresh air instead of poisons?
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Hi Fellow Butt Fondlers!
I am waiting for this last stinking drip to run out so I can go to sleep. I have to start at 6:00am and don't finish until 11:00 pm and I get so tired. Sorry I haven't posted. Went for surgery follow up today and am healing well. Got my stitches out. Their path report says no cancerous cells so I'm keeping my fingers crossed especially since chemo is no longer an option for me.
I started with that blab to try to get your minds off of lighting up. I am too tired to list anyone by name and I don't want to take the chance of leaving anyone out. This group has grown so much! You all are dear friends (fiends as Pat would call you). Smoking fiends. Lord, love a duck! We all need help in one way or another. Congrats to those who are Butt free and courage and strength to those who are still fondling. I promised a hideous lung story so here goes.
Most of you know that I have been smoking since I was a teen. I'm 55 now so on and off, that's quite a few years. It's even worse when you think about it in cigarettes smoked and two poor asthmatic lungs trying to fend off the toxins and still function. It caught up with me last month. I had just done my second round of chemo. Prior to this, I had been smoking more and more as I was nervous about how I was going to respond to the 2nd round. I got up to two packs a day. Some days even more. I was coughing and living off my inhaler but had convinced myself that I would quit after the chemo. More smoke up my own a$$. I did the chemo, I developed severe dehydration and pneumonia in my right lung. I was so cold that I brought out my Winter clothes, jammies, blankets and my fleece hats. I could not get warm. I called my onc's office after three days of this and they told me to come in straight away. I was put on an IV and oxygen and was transfered to the hospital. I became delirious with pain and fever and couldn't breath. They were slapping me with untried antibiotics because I am allergic to all of the more common ones. Nothing was working. Every day was filled with fluids, antibiotics, oxygen, transfusions and chest ex-rays. I was severely anemic on top of everything else. Two and a half weeks in and I had a total of six doctors trying to figure out what was wrong with me. My ex-rays showed clearly that I had pneumonia but it was so virulent that I was not responding to treatment. And there was a dark spot at the back of my lung. No one was giving voice to it until my sister asked. Yes. It might be cancer. I even had a doctor from infectious diseases asking me about my travels, and where I had been and who I had been in contact with. Even half-dead and delirious I knew they thought I had the Swine Flu. One doctor was drilling me as to my habits, did I smoke? I admitted that I did. Two packs a day. He kept going on about whether or not I had pets. Cats, dogs? Yes, yes? I finally broke and told him I had four cats but they DIDN'T SMOKE!! End of interrogation. He pierced my lung and drew off half a Mason jar of fluid. It hurt like crap but I have to admit he was darn good. He could have collapsed my lung or killed me. The fluid was examined and was full of infection but to this day, I can't tell you what kind. I'll have to wait for path for that. Will see my onc on Thurs.
A cardiothoracic surgeon was called in and surgery set for the next day. He sliced eight inches across the top of the ribcage of my right lung. My ribs were then separated two more inches. They have instruments now to keep from taking them out or breaking them. My lung had developed and orange peel covering which was literally scrubbed off. When he finished the outside, he did the inside. My lung was left raw and my pleura was raw. I spent the night in ICU and was brought back to my room the next day. I was entubed with buggers the size of two garden hoses which drained into plastic rectangular boxes that sat in the floor. My left arm was hooked up to IV's and my right side was encumbered with these things. I could not leave the bed. After one day of the bed pan, I taped the handles of the boxes together so I could carry them like a suitcase. I shuffled around to the other side of the bed and unplugged my IV's and carted my "cases" and IV pole to the bathroom with me. I can't tell you what these dangling tubes and raw lung felt like but I could not be confined without the use of a bathroom. I spent five days like this until the lack of drainage allowed the tubes to come out. Oh, joy! As I remember how exquisite the pain of that was. I felt as though a parasitic squid had been extracted from my lung. I was allowed to come home three days later. I must close here as I am hurting really badly and I need to sleep. Will post again when I can.
Love to all,
Nancy, Pat, Susan
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Wow Nancy, Pat, Susan, that is quite a story. I can't even imagine. I hope you know how glad we are to have you back. You did not lose your sense of humor because the line about having 4 cats but they don't smoke made me spit out my morning coffee. Try to get some rest. Thank you for sharing that with us.
Janzin....hey girl, you doing ok? Good grief we are similar in so many ways. I have done my toes twice in the last 2 days. First Sunday night and then again yesterday just to change the color to keep my hands busy. I did take another sleeping pill and I was in bed just after 8:00. So, here goes another day. Still no word from Jules?
O2bhealthy--62 days is awesome...is it getting any easier? I look forward to when it is not on my mind 24/7. Occasional cravings are fine, but right now I am still in the obsessed stage.....I haven't felt this obsessed since I was 24 and stalking my old college boyfriend...BAHAHAHAHA
MBscruggs and Cleomoon...how are you guys doing today?
Ok, off for my walk. Then I have some chores to do and then who knows? Maybe I will dye my hair since I don't feel like doing my toes again.
Here's to another smoke free day ladies. We can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ellie
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Argggg!! I hate when I post and I lose it. Ok my BC Butt Kickers, so here is my idea. We all want to be floating around sipping mango rum drinks, so..........let's put the money aside that we are not spending on smokes and within a year, we could afford an AWESOME vacation. We could even hit a smoke free resort in the Caribbean or a smoke free cruise ship. Fun....that reminds me, I need to renew my passport.
Think about it? I have saved over $13 dollars (actually $26 since my dh is quitting too) just since Sunday! I mean, it will be around $75-80 a week, boy that will add up. Who's with me?
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Where are all my sisters!?!?! Help, I am cracking. I wanted a smoke SO bad but so far, I have not caved in. I called my hair stylist and begged to get in to see her this morning and I cut over 6 inches off my hair....now I am home and I am dying it red. Won't my dh be surprised!!! Anything to keep me busy. Actually, my hubby likes my hair short anyway, says it makes me look younger.....anything that helps me look younger is a good thing.
All I am doing is craving a smoke, and the only thing on tv is Michael Jackson's funeral.....like I care about that?! Oh well, I will start cooking, I am not sure what I will be cooking but it will keep me busy.
Represent ladies, I need to know where my fellow Butt Kickers are and how they are doing.
Ellie
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Ellie- I am here, sweetheart.
Do not give in to the craving......breath, walk it off, make a sandwich- anything but smoke. I am saying this because I just had a mini break down about 2 hours ago.....several unfortunate, sad, and stressful situations have happened here at my home the last 3 days. It just hit me so hard this morning. I took a cig outside, held it, but never lit it. Instead I just breathed in fresh air. Hang in there Lady
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Thanks mbscruggs, I appreciate you being here for me. I didn't cave in. I am VERY glad that I don't have any here at the house, so I would have had to run to the store, and I did not do that. Had I had some at the house, I probably would have broken down. If I remember correctly from the last time(s) I quit, the first 3-4 days are the toughest for cravings. I hope that is the case.
I am sorry you are stressed. Good job for just holding the cig and never lighting it. VERY strong of you!
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Ladies...my threads are not updating...
Butterfly137 last post is..july 2..8:39 am...Have not been able to keep up this way.
The quit smoking crap...yeah..it's crap for now...not going too good..DH..not doing good at all..I have to watch him go out and smoke..Thank goodness he is gone all day..Bought nicorette gum yesterday...was sweating and feeling like i had friggn' Dt's...It helps, but just like right now...I'm use to burning em' up while online..and yeah..they really just burned up as I typed...but I enjoyed em'..
still holding on to 4 cigs in a pack on the deck...pretty stupid...but after yesterdays episode..I may need a back up this week....trying not to..
Good Luck to everyone!!!!...Have a GR8 day ...jules
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Ellie: so proud of you...the first week is the hardest and then slowly be surely you start thinking less and less about smoking. My hair dresser left for a missionary trip 4 days before my surgery and won't be back until tomorrow...I have called and left three message for her to CALL ME asap I need to do something with this mop of hair (its too much to deal with right now so I am seriously wanting to go SHORT - unfortunately I don't trust anyone else to cut my hair short and my hair dresser would be totally bummed if I let someone else cut it).
Jules: missed you! so nice to see you back
sorry to hear you are having a hard time...Janiz: how you doing???
Sending positive non-smoking vibes to all!!!
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Thanks for the boost Michelle. I can't wait for the all consuming cigarette to leave my head, but, I have gotten through 48 hours (it sounds better than 2 days), so I will keep going, day by day.
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Ellie:all we can do is day by day, craving by craving...just know I am rootin for ya
<<<BIG HUGS>>>>
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Ellie,
The strength it requires to quit is incredible. You are digging down deep and doing it. I am so proud of you for getting through each crave. Sorry I was not on much earlier I am all backwards with my sleep schedule. Up at night and sleep during the day. Not a good thing.
Nancy,
I am so glad you are alive. What an awful terrifying painful ordeal you have gone through and are still fighting. I will reread that lung story over and over again. It is so sad what we do to our bodies with the smoking.
MB
I hope the stress calms down for you. Way to kick the butts!
Jules,
Still poisoning myself here. Keep trying to kick butt.
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Posted on chemo thread and am worn out. Just want you all to know I am thinking of you and wish so much I had a magic wand. Janzin, you and flfish seem to be having it especially hard and I feel helpless not being able to do anything for you. Just hang in there! Cookies and food actually sounds good. REKoz? How are you and your family? Miss you.
mb, malleme, Lursa, looper, 2New, o2b, jules, and cleomoon. I am enjoying your posts and thank you for the good thoughts, although some of you are MIA. Hope to hear from you soon so we know you are all right! I sure hope I didn't miss anyone. A perfect excuse for you to rag me about it. Good night to all and a flying fig to the " butt monster."
oodles,
Nancy, Pat, Susan
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A little whining first. I have a sore throat and ear infection and feel crappy. Best call my ear doc tomorrow.
How did everyone do today? I so want to join you in quitting. I have the lozenges which will give me nicotine, so I haven't figured out yet what is keeping me from giving it a go. For those of you who have been quit for a month or more share some of the positives physically and mentally that have resulted from quitting. I think that would help me.
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Well, here we go, another day. I sure hope it goes better than yesterday. My wonderful day of cravings ended with my dh and I SCREAMING at each other.....yup...nice fight....I needed that.
Cleomoon, I sure hope you feel better.
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I won't be able to access my computer most of the day so I am sending BIG HUGS and lots of positive non-smoking vibes to all today. Making the long trek to Phoenix for BS, PS, and look good feel better appointments today.
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cleomoon - I quit 6 weeks before surgery so I don't think I ever had a moment where I got to experience some of the positives physically and mentally that have resulted from quitting - my stress levels were through the roof before surgery and now I am just plain cranky from all the discomfort...I know there have been positives but I just can't think of any right now...except my clothes and car don't stink anymore 0
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Hi Everyone-
Still here and thinking of you all. My daughter was over for 2 days and we've been running around crazy. Her wedding is TWO WEEKS from Saturday!! It's definitely nitty gritty time
Now for those GD cigarettes.. I am done with puffing and like Ellie all I feel like doing is SCREAMING! So, when I log on again and post in all caps, you'll understand what that's all about! I have my pre surgical testing on the 17th and they do a nicotine test. There can be not even a trace of it in my system so I had to stop playing the puff games. I REALLY HATE the constant testing of cravings...and I am sure I do not have to "splain" to you all anything more about that! Yep, this is where our real courage is tested....
Thinking about you all and do so constantly during the day. It makes me realize I am NOT alone here and others are going through this so I can too! Pantufus, wonderful to see you posting again! What you went through sounds like hell but you did come out of it a non smoker! You know, it could have been most difficult for you. I mean, Nancy could be determined to quit but Pat not so much...triple the agony! Oh, alright I'll shutup. Just trying to think of ONE good thing!
I'll be BACK!!
xoEllen
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Well today is supposed to be THE day for me...but I have already messed that one up. First of all my roommate is decided of all times to be so damn ignorant it is not even funny. Then I got a migraine yesterday, had to stay home, which still isn't gone yet today. I am so frustrated and mad right now. Beyond that! I guess it's because I get wrapped up in myself, or i know it's because I do, but rightnow, Im just furious. And, I wish I hadn't picked today to be THE day!
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O2bhealthy--good luck at the doc.
Rekoz--you are doing great and just in time for the wedding. Good for you!
I can't believe the aggression AND depression I am feeling this time around. Then, when I get into such a bad argument (over nothing) with my dh, and then I start bawling and his answer to that is "what the hell are you crying for?"....um, thanks for the concern you insensitive JERK. I really wish I could have a month ALL ALONE so I can kick these damn things for good.
Sorry for venting, I am just plain miserable. This better get better SOON.
Hugs to all!
Janzin...you doing ok?
Butterfly--if you don't quit today, you just have to do it tomorrow, ok?
Ellie
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Flfish...im right there with ya...sorry today is such a miserable day! I hope everything smoothes out for you! And thank you for the encouragement!
Janz...where are you????
O2B...thanks for all your love and support to everyone on here...you are such an inspiration! Hope you are feeling great!
Pantufas...stay strong, hope you feel better soon and that you are out of pain sooner!
Much Love To All!
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Hi Ladies, did not do so good last Monday, Tuesday I had one. Really struggling. Though the times I do get through an urge, it feels good. Not giving up this time and I will keep trying every hour if need be, but it seems I need to smoke one a day. I am hoping that one day I will forget that one or have the strength to say no and get 24 hours in.
Fifish, so sorry I wasn't there for you. I am here now!!!! And you are doing great! It seems I get a couple of real hard urges every day that sucks me right in. Think I need to rent a cabin in the mountains all by myself. Sorry to hear about your fight. My ex and I had some good ones and sometimes he would open the door, see my mood and walk back out. You have to thanks them afterwards because they are with you during this hard struggle. I think a trip is an awesome idea!!!!
MB, thanks so much for the support!!! I am sorry to hear about your mini break down. Are you okay?
Jules, happy to hear from you, I was worried. I am still trying and I hope my bad urges come less and less everyday. Just going to suit up and do it. Feel like a weakling but FIfish is encouraging me for sure!!! We will get there.
2bhealthy, good luck with your hair, thanks for being here!
Cleo, hope it gets better for you! You must be tired so thanks for your support!
Pantufas, what a terrible ordeal you went through. Thanks for sharing your story as it SHOULD be an incentive to quit for all of us. I am so happy to have you back. I am sending you speedy recovery!!!!
Butterfly, did you start?
Wishing a sunshine smoke free/less day.
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