Bonfire of the Goddesses

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  • joan811
    joan811 Member Posts: 1,981
    edited September 2012
    (((((Linda)))))  so sorry to hear of your stressful report.  I just hate this so much...Maybe some of us can jump in your pocket for awhile and share some hugs. 
    Sending thoughts and prayers your way today...
    Joan
  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 3,696
    edited September 2012

    Badger!!! Sorry to hear about your appendix!



    Linda... I am throwing all the images in the fire too!







    My sinuses continue to ache...Probably another sinus procedure once this acute episode mends. Good news from the gyno yesterday! Now that he got rid of that pesty polyp again, he's NOT alarmed by the hydrosalpinx on my Fallopian tube. So it's watchful waiting for now! We're going to wait and see if that polyp grows for a FIFTH time! If so, then the uterus is coming out along with the Fallopian tubes and ovaries!!!! Then my watchful waiting in that part of my body will be finally OVER! At least for the present moment, all is quiet... So I can do the toasting of the marshmallows for all you goddesses while my sinuses mend. The warmth of the fire feels so good....

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited September 2012

    Badger, appendix, really??? Geez, it seems we have enough to deal with without having that stupid useless appendage to our colon acting up!  Hoping for an uneventful recovery

    VR, sending you virutal vicks vaporub steam - just like my mom used to do when we were stuffy - I know it doesn't really do anything, and I think it soothes the spirit more than the sinuses, but I say use any little thing you can for even a little bit of comfort and/or love.

    Thanks for all the well wishes.  Now have a month full of scheduled health care visits.... I am supposedly off work this fall so I can REST!!!!!  It seems to me that in years past, a person would be put in the hospital, all the tests would be run over a few days, the patient would be passive but would be taken care of.  Now we have to arrange at least 4-6 hours for each visit to count travel time, waiting room time, consultation time, and then do it again multiple times to see the multiple docs, and you can't stretch out in a reclining bed watching TV while waiting for the next doc, and oh, yes, in between do the shopping, cooking, laundry, keep up with chores, etc......  Now I am not saying I would actually agree to be admitted for all this stuff (and actually signed out AMA a few years ago when they wanted to keep me overnight "for observtion" and testing for an unrelated event - ended up doing the multiple trips and visits with that one, too!) - I am pretty sure I prefer to NOT be in the hospital, but it seems like there ought to be a little more efficiency and less stress for patients through this process. Tossing in health care appoinntments and all the stress they cause and the time they suck out of us!

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2012

    I would like to burn (I mean really burn) this friggin diverticular disease...was in the hospital since sunday and now my gastro dr.wants to do surgery.....get this friggin thing out of me once and for all...so into the fire it goes....burn burn burn...do i smell smoke?????????

    Im pissed,annoyed and in a foul mood.

    hope everyone is in a betta frame of mind then I am !!!!!!!!!

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited September 2012

    Oh, GrannyD, you are so entitled to be pissed, annoyed, and in a foul mood!  Hope it settles down and you feel a bit better soon - one day at a time may not be adequate here - it may be only 30 minutes at a time - just remember we love you here and are sending lots of positive thoughtwaves your way!

  • Bluebird-DE
    Bluebird-DE Member Posts: 1,233
    edited September 2012

    GrannyDukes - so that's where you've been, been worried about you not showing up for so long.  Another surgery, gads, but if it will help and make you strong. LOVEEssa

  • badger
    badger Member Posts: 24,938
    edited September 2012

    GrannyD, one of the possible causes of my belly pain was diverticular disease but of course it was appendicitis but I can TOTALLY sympathize with you.  These issues are very painful.  Hope surgery is successful and you find some relief. 

    Linda, as the nurse was wrapping me in a warm blanket, I thought it's a shame I have to get sick to get this kind of treatment.  I must say my small-town hospital came through for me with flying colors.  But I didn't want to stay there overnight if I didn't have to, either.

    Went to work today and did OK but brought stuff home so I can work from home tomorrow.

    Tossing in pain & anxiety, batteries of tests, and bad bosses (thankfully, I have a good one).

  • joan811
    joan811 Member Posts: 1,981
    edited September 2012

    Badger, hope you are recovering well.  I'd tell you to take it easy for awhile, but sometimes i think work takes the mind of being sick.  Sending good thoughts your way.
    Linda, yup I agree that the endless appointments and tests are so exhausting.  And there is no comfortable place to wait - you are right.  But being an inpatient doesn't seem like a better choice!

    (((((Granny))))) have you made your decision about surgery?  Is it still optional?  I am soooo sorry to hear about your pain and now the stress of more surgery. 
    Hope you can find the right path to health soon.  Darn, I hate all this...as if BC isn't enough.

    Hug to all,

    Joan

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited September 2012

    Grannydukes-----get it cut out---the setup is for future diverticular problems which can lead to a blow out----a leak ot blow out can lead to a reversable or permanent colostomy----been there ---woke up from surgergy and asked what I had.---sucks going to sleep not knowing outcome. Better to have it done when outcome is known. My risk said I had no risk of colostomy, so, low risk. But until they get in there they don't know. I knew that going in, by knowing too much.Sorry babe--giving opposite advise of others.L&H's sassy---based on OR and med-surg experience --you know that

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited September 2012

    SAS is right.... and as some of my surgeon friends remind me often: "A chance to cut is a chance to cure" - and in this case, they may be right!  Also, better to do this electively rather than emergently once one of those little suckers bursts (which, of course, may  never happen, but that's hard to predict, especially with all the other drugs and stuff we are onl).  Best wishes today and always.  One day at a time. Hugs.

  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 3,696
    edited September 2012

    Oy Granny.....I sure hope you're feeling better soon....What did Gilda used to say, "It's always something...." 

    BTW....For all of us Goddesses....They're now making JUMBO SIZE marshmallows!  I'm going to get a bag and start toasting them for all of us!

  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 3,696
    edited September 2012
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  • ridergirl
    ridergirl Member Posts: 94
    edited September 2012

    Yes ladies the jumbo marshmallows are awesome. Even the dog likes them :-)

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2012

    went to my internist today to see what she had to say about all this...of course she agreed with my gastro dr.get that shit out...but i thought laproscopically (cant spell for shit) was a 1 time deal....well its not..its 2 surgeries....and it must be done...4 yrs ago i had an abcess on my colon....no more chances,once this flairup settles down its surgery once again...like 3 biopsies in 1 yr.wasnt enuf....

    BTW tonight at 8pm there is gonna be a cancer special on all the local NY channels...2-4-5 and 7....lets see what they have to offer now that pinktober is comin...

    im sick and tired of being sick and tired....

    Thanks sistas for all your kind words.hugggs K

    ps.lets do that NYC reunion soon.the clock is tickin!!!!!!

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited September 2012

    Ahhh Grannydukes. I'm sorry. We sound the same, "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired".  We need you to get better soon.

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2012

    Thanks Veggy---this betta thingy is the same thing over and over again.

    And when?

  • joan811
    joan811 Member Posts: 1,981
    edited September 2012

    Granny,  I stumbled upon the SU2C show by accident and I was skeptical.  But I was very happy to realize the fundraiser gives 100% to teams of researchers that are already working on new approaches to all cancer treatment.  I was pleasantly surprised and did not notice anything especially pink at all.  The 'real people' testimonials were both heartbreaking and uplifting -- that's cancer.

    Granny looks like you are destined to get this new demon taken care of. 

    As Veggy said, we need you -- well!  That goes for you, too Veggy, hope your recovery is progressing as it should.
    Wishing all a good week end and positive thoughts.

    J

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2012

    I watched stand up for cancer too.it was very impressive and touching...just a little surprised it was run by American Cancer...BUT who ever runs it and all the $$$$ goes directly to finding a cure thats all that matters.Watching all those children fighting this giant monster really upset me.

    find a damn cure/or vacine!!!!!do something and do it NOW!!!!!!!

  • badger
    badger Member Posts: 24,938
    edited September 2012

    We will need HUGE mugs for our hot cocoa topped with giant toasted marshmallows!

    Last night, I signed up for the Love/Avon Army of Women.  They're looking for a million women to participate in research projects to eradicate breast cancer.  They're about a third of the way there.

    http://www.armyofwomen.org/

    'night all.  ((hugs))

  • ridergirl
    ridergirl Member Posts: 94
    edited September 2012

    Right at this moment i am begging for this world to let me go. I have nothing left to give i am so tired so worn out so frustrated there has got to be something better than this. Or at least nothing. I am not a believer so the afterlife is not what im thinking of, just somewhere without all the pain, the demands, the ignorance.

    But still, love and hugs to all around the bonfire.

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited September 2012

    Bagdger--pisses me off they entered your abdomen and didn''t take the ovaries and are doing watchful waiting. WTF. Get thoses puppies out!!!!

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited September 2012

    rider- babe-taking a chance here-  an a belief- you are in pain- I hear in your words that you want it over. I also, hear in your words, you don't believe in an afterlife. The after life is individual. But if you believe in science "energy can not be created or destroyed"  Eisntien when asked if he believed in God said yes. So, what we are dealing with is the unknown. So, if it is unknown give it a chance. ---what can hurt----if your right, then there is nothing. if your wrong there is something.

    If you slide to the side, there is nothing --you have nothing----no loss--nothing.

    If you slide to the side that there is something, could be something. Look at the universe. How could there be so much and there be nothing?

    Your energy goes someplace, came from some place.

    We on our small planet, can't be all that is? Hydrogen, oxygen, carbon. To assume in all of the galaxies, we are it.

    To assume anything without knowing is arrogant. Since we can't prove anything, yet have a belief and are seeking, by trying to go into space says that we believe someting is out there.

    Since the dawn of man, it has been shown by many sciences that each culture had a belief in something greater then themselves. This is documented by oral and written culture for thousands of years.

    Different cultures recorded by whatever route a belief. Regretfully, divergent beliefs have lead to many awful times in history, even to this present day.

    But beliefs have given to many -solace, strength, renewal, love, kindness, hope, giving, adjectives to many to describe.

    Rather than believe in nothing---which denies hope and love and again too many adjectives to describe. Why not believe. You come to us, believing we can give you something? Why did you do that? You believed. You believed we as other human beings , in your same plight , could offer you something in your time of need. Have we done this? Have we given you a place to be. Have we said Rider what ever your need is, we will be there for you? Have we said whatever you need to say/rant/vent. ---do it.

    None of us know, but we have beliefs, we hold unto each other. Don't let go of that sweetie.

  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 3,696
    edited September 2012

    Ridergirl....Here's a song by Guided By Voices sung by Glen Campbell that resonates with me whenever I go some place dark....It brings me back towards the light:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvZGU-5W2zs&feature=youtube_gdata_player

    And here's another popular Broadway song sung by none other than Donny Osmond that makes my day.  Every day.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTvRvo1YiBI

    Hoping you have a better day today.....

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited September 2012

    ridergirl, I sent you a PM. Glen Campbell is great, also try John Denver, maybe even a little Karen Carpenter. I don't have links to them, but will try to find some for you. And the other thing to try is to find your favorite sit-com or funny movie and watch it several times in a row. Get some belly laughs in - it is good for your physiology as well as mood. Extra hugs for you today.

  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,484
    edited September 2012

    Ridergirl - I just have to add to Linda and VR. I can't add links (tech challanged). Google "Today is Mine" by Glen Campbell.  I try to play it every morning before work.  Not a commercial success but easily my very favorite for inspiration.

    Not miniminzing that mere songs will relieve your pain, physical and psychic. Come here to rant, rave, bi**ch, cry, hugs. I SO much hope you have someone there for you in person. Read back you are close to your mom. Hope that is still so. Wish I still had my mom. I also read back to the groups hugs.  ((((((BIG HUG))))) for you.

    PLEASE check in with us. I care about you. And so do the others here.

  • badger
    badger Member Posts: 24,938
    edited September 2012

    SAS, I want to keep my ovaries.  My onc says they should go but I resist.  Compromised with him that I would take the BRCA gene test and have an ooph if I tested positive which I did not so they are with me still.  I'll have an ultrasound Weds at follow-up appt with surgeon and see how it looks then.

    ((ridergirl)) if you have nothing left to give maybe you should take for a while.  Be self-ish.  Indulge in things that replenish you.  Music works for me, so does a walk outdoors.  Yesterday, I watched a bumblebee harvest pollen from a thistle plant.  Amazing. 

    For sure come here and vent!  ((hugs)) to all

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited September 2012

    Rider- I care! We all care. We all hurt when we lose one of our sisers whether we knew them or not. Constant pain has been a part of me for 2 1/2 months and probably will be with me for a while. There have been times when I wanted to give up. The women here are wonderful. I've vented they listened and I have felt their genuine love and concern. 

    I have watched Carol Burnett videos on youtube and laughed. I try to find funny things to post. And then there are times that I just need to cry it all out. Please lean on us. We will do our best to hold you up. If we all lived closer we would be knocking each other out of the way to be with you.

     Sending you a great big hug!

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited September 2012

    Awww Rider...Im sooo sorry you feel that way...listen to our sistas(especially Veggy who called me a stinker)She has been to hell and aack and if you would meet her you would never know it......We all have different kinds of full plates...very full plates but we have to pick ourselves up,brush ourselves off and put one foot in front of the other and say F U cancer....im gonna beat the shit out of YOU>>>

    We are here for you...all the time...come often and get it out but never give up.

    Sing,dance.laugh,cry but most of all put your big girl panties on and fight!!!!

    And talk to us!!!!!We care...Oh yes we do.

    hugggs everyone.K

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited September 2012

    Grannydukes - nice to hear from you again. How have you been, sweetie? That doesn't sound like me. I tried to be nice and pleasant but its not me. It has something to do with the evening I am having. Would you believe that it has nothing to do with cancer?!! But somewhere near the end it did involve a little rum. I do mean a little. You're still a stinker!

    Hugs for all!

  • ridergirl
    ridergirl Member Posts: 94
    edited September 2012

    Hey ladies not feeling up to posting much but i am reading and it sure does help to know you all are here. Just wanted to let everybody know, i have reached the end of my rope, but i tied a knot in it and i am hanging on :-)

    Love and hugs to all