Single life after a mastectomy

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  • Simplicity
    Simplicity Member Posts: 723
    edited June 2017

    Gorgeous colors Artista! They are great pets. I have had Pepper and Prissy 22yrs. Tony, he is definitely a character

  • Artista928
    Artista928 Member Posts: 1,458
    edited June 2017

    Over 20 years, nice! I had mine 15 years. Someone stole my rosella when I rehomed him with my avian vet in his outdoor aviary when I was moving into my apt. They do much better in aviaries anyway. Picked the lock and he was gone. :( My green cheeks I gave to her as well when I had my major meltdown that sent me to the psych hospital. I couldn't take care of myself properly let alone them and the fact that they are very social, esp Chepeeka, and he was getting very depressed with me not being able to give to him like before. They wound up in a much better place so I put them first and let them stay there. That's the great thing with birds. Most live so very long. I had them in my will. That's also a downfall too in that they tend to be impulsive buys, as are guinea pigs, so people don't realize all that's involved and for how long. And the vet bills! My vet bills on those little birds is the same as my guinea pig and not much cheaper than a cat! So need to factor in the vet bills as well. I'm a big advocate on people becoming fully educated first before being able to adopt a pet, any of them, but esp exotics. They certainly are not kid pets as many people seem to think. Sadly people find out after the fact and you have shelters full of unwanted birds, some plucked themselves so badly. Ugh. If only I were a millionaire...

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    ahhhhh how I miss my Lucky green check Bawling

    Arista like you I gave mine away to so call a better place but regret it every day. One day the lady told me he past away and it just killed me. How I wish I had never done that.

    Thanks for sharing the pictures I love them.

    I wanted to tell you all I have been busy but also not having much fun with the hormones

    Hot flashes stopped and that is the good news

    Still no 100% normal.

    Hoping for better weather. Today was the first day of summer and on the cold side . Tmw it supposed to rain .

    Squirrels are driving me cucu lol my roses are spectacular but the rest are having trouble with the squirrels

    I finished 1 autocad class and finally now just have school 2 a week.

    Still have my eye out there for jobs.

    My papi is no well. It kills me to know all he is enduring. Hoping he goes soon. So he rest Bawling

    Yesterday it was 2 years of my sister s death and it made me so depressed. I still feel one day we will wake up from this nightmare.

    Symplicity I wish it is only scars and that it will be taking care of soon.

    Arista sept is around the corner soon you will be able to move forward.

    Bb miss you. Glad you are ok I think of you often.

    Good night

    Here is a picture I took this past weekend at a park where two snapping turtles were laying eggs lol

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  • Artista928
    Artista928 Member Posts: 1,458
    edited June 2017

    Cool photo E. I love animals more than most humans. Not sure if my birds are still alive or not. I'm guessing my rosella that was stolen isn't. Poor thing was probably sold and since he is by nature not a friendly bird, he probably was mistreated. If so, I hope he passed quickly. My green cheeks I never bothered to check on them after that first year. To complete the adoption process I had to sign a release of ownership. I did it by fax. No way was I going to go in person. Hopefully they are both alive and doing very well. I don't regret my decision since I've been worse off than when they were here. But I miss them tons and tons and think of them all the time. Wish I had better photos of them. Now with my guinea pig I have a ton of great photos.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    Arista I regret my decision because I learned that the lady who toke him was not honest so I never will know if he was neglected. Green check last almost 30 years and mine was only 4 so I don't know how or why he die. Is something that will hunt me till I die. I am like you I love animals too much and the reason I don't get another one is cuz I could not replace them. Plus the fact that I can get sick again is always there too.

    I will share some of my pictures I just don't have then in this phone

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

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  • Artista928
    Artista928 Member Posts: 1,458
    edited June 2017

    Ohhhhhhh E! What a cutie! I loved seeing mine take baths too. They would get soaked and look like wet rads. My heart hurts reading about your bird. I feel the same way about Roujie who was stolen. I'm sure he went before his time from neglect and or improper care. Rosellas are not easy at all, not considered pets really unless you they are in a large avair. Kiara liked lying on her back too but not Chepeeka. He would snuggle tight against my neck and say "the peek" "peekerpeek", offshoot names I'd given him. One thing I love about birds is they always look like they are smiling.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    Ya I still feel deep sadness and still have his favorite toys Bawling

  • Artista928
    Artista928 Member Posts: 1,458
    edited June 2017

    Saw my pcp today. Pleased liver function values and cholesterol are lower, liver values are in the 20s. My lower abdomen discomfort in my uterus will be followed up on in Sept to see if fibroids are still getting bigger with another pelvic/transvag u/s. I also learned today that I may have diverticulitis. It's a strange coincidence that when I took the 2 strong abx for my rad breast infection back in May that almost immediately I got much relief from the area next to the uterus and up around the right kidney area. It was pretty much MIA until recently I'm getting some back though not as bad or frequent as before. So I am advised against putting off colonoscopy. Almost 3 years now I've said later. After Mon getting broken tooth fixed it goes till 7/22 for bs to check on my bmx/nodes for bc, assuming nothing comes up which so far seems it's always something..

    Heat relief tomorrow! 94 here and inland further is worse with 104. We in the Bay Area Cali are not used to this for a whole week. Counting it down. Can't wait to see my power bill as I've never used a/c so much as this past week! ah!

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    Wow Arista so much at your end.

    I have neck pain again on the right which goes to my rad side. I may try to book a massage next week. Also my period lasted long and I have been feeling a wierd pain on one side of my lower belly must be an ovary not sure. Also maybe just the gym I feel this past week is been my first 10 days back to exercises and maybe over doing it.? I am amazed how much my body have been able to take concidering all. Yes bb is right I need to stop and learn how to smell my roses. Is it I am rushing and pushing cuz I feel 2 years were or maybe 3 years were taken away from me and I feel I may not have much time left to do all I want to do? Hummm girls I am so lost these days honestly I have no define road. I feel so empty. Ya maybe depression has never left ?

  • Artista928
    Artista928 Member Posts: 1,458
    edited June 2017

    I would talk to your doc about your feeling of depression. Along with depression goes anxiety. Maybe meds would help. I'm on meds for it and feel better. I had the problem with it though long long before bc so it's a life saver for me to be on them.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    Bb when u have time watch this. No sure if I share it before. How I wish we all could go to this santuary in California. The lady has a place now where people go and learn how to be around the horses with no riding just been in the present and learning to be happy . After you watch the video check the links she has .if I had money I could pay my rent in advance take my car and go for 6 months ha ha ha


    JAZZ u ll also enjoy it .hum maybe jazz already watch it or maybe she is who gave it to me lol

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited June 2017

    Good morning friends- we have been in a wicked heat spell here but finally breaking. Going from a high of 104 F for days to upper 80s today, with the hope of some rain later and in the next few days. Our monsoon season should be starting soon that brings us afternoon rains and helps to keep things cooler and the fires down. We have fires all over the place now.

    I met my BCO sister on Thursday and had the best time. We originally connected around something in a city where we both went to college many years ago (although we were in different universities). But of course, the shared cancer experience is where the stronger bond is. We both laughed that if we had not had cancer, we would likely not end up being the kind of friends we are now. But I told her most of my closer friendships have come through the hard times in life. I may have connected with people around a job, or a hobby, but the real connections that forge and stay came through my families health issues, elder care, etc. The people that can stick together through the messy times with us are the keepers. We both commented we feel like we have known each other for a lifetime.

    I will see her again tomorrow, along with one of her friends who she is pal-ing around with during her time here. We are meeting in Old Town to do the museum and some walking around, then coming here for dinner on my patio. Today I am working on being ready for that. Dinner will include cold gazpacho soup, chicken fajitas and navaho peach crisp for dessert. Also making some rose sangria for a cool summer drink!

    Funny karmic moment last night. I was out with some friends to salsa night and saw my last BF there with a woman he was holding hands with. Now, I will say it does not bother me to see that, my goal now when I run in to him is to just avoid eye contact and any interaction whether he is alone or with anyone. Just disklike him, period. Anyways, the dance floor was jumping, and I was dancing with this very handsome fellow that was with our group and right next to them. This guy was swinging me around and around and so much fun. Pretty sure he saw us. Now that my friends is a perfect karmic moment!

    The old BF from TX days is supposed to be coming in another 10 days for his visit and although we have traded some messages back and forth about things, still have not gotten a lot of confirmation about the final plans. He seems to be in a lot of transition, which does not surprise me, but also moved recently and sort of wonder if the timing is not right for a visit. But that is up to him, because this is his idea and up to him to make the plane trip and hotel stay. The nice thing is that I am not too invested in this either way, which feels good. I think if he comes here and we can have a nice visit, that is fine and if not, will wish him a nice summer and catch up with him another time. I no longer allow myself to care too much in these situations.

    BB- it is good to hear from you and hoping you are able to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

    E- I sent you a PM about something. The horse video is amazing, the part I watched.

    Simplicity- maybe instead of the bigger camping trips, you need to do some other shorter things that fit better with your weekend energy?

    June- hoping the new job is awesome!

    Lilly- thinking of you friend and hoping you are doing okay?

    Artista- hoping your weekend is a lovely one.

    Talk again soon sisters

  • juneping
    juneping Member Posts: 634
    edited June 2017

    hi ladies,

    wow you ladies have the cutest birds.....they are so beautiful.

    my new job was okay. still trying to adjust. the office is so strict, i was having multiple WTF moments....people are nice though...so.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    hi friends my papi past away an hour ago.

    I am very deeply sad about his last week I this world bit I am glad it is over and he is resting now.

    Here is us when I was 15 and my niece in his arms.

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    He was very strong

    He survived cancer twice.

    First In his face which almost killed him but got to live 15 years after that.



  • juneping
    juneping Member Posts: 634
    edited June 2017

    E - i am so sorry....(((hugs)))

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    thanks bb actually his cancer was in his beautiful nose and struggle .when the doctors had to take most away and build a nose using skin from his back. He was depressed and it was always hiding from camera. Yet he allow me to take a few . Here he is with me during my last visit. You can see the desaster they did and how he hate it .

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    Now I fear cuz my mami is alone and you and I know what that may turn out into.

    She is so precious

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  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    bb I am waiting for you to watch the entire video is such an amazing informative video.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited June 2017

    E- very sorry about your papi. May he rest in peace and may the memories you shared together comfort you through time sister.

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  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    I do I have many many memories and I know he knew how much I care about both of them. Here is another one I just found .

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    I remember mami was shock to see he was allowing me to take a photo lol after his face surgeries he refused cameras and pictures.

    I am waiting g to know what is the schedule fir his funeral :(

    Bb what did you think about the horse documentary

    How I wish I could go to rusia and see that trainer wow I was amazed by his techniques

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    ah bb. I am ok now that he is resting.

    Here is another video. It is a great one cuz she explain that the connection she teaches is not only with horses and it makes me so happy cuz I always thought my pets did not need any control from me yet they did a verything people never understood my way with my dogs or bird.

    Arista yo must watch this one too. I am sure you can relate and simplicity and anyone who had a pet at some point and had a connection.




  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    bb I wish there was a way to report the owner to humain society? We here in Canada have a hot line and we can report people who miss treat animals but yes I agree some people are no human they are animals themselves SickTired

    I love animals more than I love humans

    How I wish I had no debts so I could just offer my last year's as a volunteer in some animal santuary

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    ah bb lol I only like the video cuz of what the lady does with the horses and pets but I don't think about the vegan stuff cuz me I like you I now don't eat red meat but I did in the past and I must be honest I miss it but I don't cuz I am able to eat beans so I just do. also I realized last time I eat meat was at a Japanese restaurant and I made me sick

    No to worry I wanted to share the videos only cuz I know we love horses but we can't really have those animals. Is just that I once took English riding leasons I paI'd for 10 classe's and I only had 5 cuz I made me depressed to go and see the horses doing the classes all day and every day. And heavy people where taking this classes and all I could think about was the horses back I just wanted to share the video so you guys see how there are people who found a deeper connection with them . And no need to ride them. Lol

    Also thanks for mentioning beans lol I skipped lunch and I was wondering what to eat lol I ll make some lentils to eat with cuscus and quinoa.

    I must go and grab a few apples at the store downstairs before it closes ;)

  • Simplicity
    Simplicity Member Posts: 723
    edited June 2017

    O E, so sorry for your loss!! He had very deep eyes. Bet he had some stories. I'm with BB. I love faces with character. Unique. My hs sweetheart had been attacked by a dog as a child, and he had beautiful scars on his face (funny, I can see someone else's as beautiful...Pffft! whatever!).

    Love horses and wish I could get back into equine assisted therapy. It was really so helpful, and I could really use it these days.

    Prissy was my brothers bird, so she is very special to me :) And she definitely has some of his personality, hence the occasional name change to Pissy

    One of my single mom support group friends is trying to talk us all into buying an island lol It use to be a camp. Really not a bad deal and the dreams run endlessly!!! 17 acres. O....what I would give...Her and herhubby went and checked it out and posted pictures lol TEASE!

    Biopsy Fri and the Rad Dr took 3 samples. Put a marker in too and since it is very superficial, and just under the skin, I can feel the marker :( I have a lovely colorful boob right now :( Results next week and I told them just to call me.

    Very tired. Has been a very long week.

    Hope all rest easy tonight. Love to all <3

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    ah simplicity I am hopping for good results. Buying an island? Wow ya what a dream lol

    I ll check my lottery ticket tmw. I still play hopping one day we ll be able to get away somewhere peaceful

    The day here turned out beautiful. I only stept out to grab milk and eggs and carrots. Made lentils and I'll bring for lunch tmw :)

    I'm going to hope this week goes by fast I am off next week. And I was going to cancel it but now I think I do need the time to just be with nature I will walk around the lake which I miss a lot and I will check out the turtles nest I saw 2 weeks ago by the lake hope no animals didnt disturbed the eggs.

    I will try to do some cleaning and this time I am determined to get rid of many things I must make my place free. Life is not really about all this junk I aclumulated over the years I must get the place clean of things I don't even use cloth I don't wear etc. It ll be my teraphy next week.

    Wishing u all a good week.


  • Simplicity
    Simplicity Member Posts: 723
    edited June 2017

    I'm a Pisces. Love to dream (maybe a bit too much at times lol) but realistically, it's only 199000. If we could get 6-10 of us to put in on it.....my friend eggs this shit on lol She started it!

    BB, glad you got away a bit. I must have read over if you said where you went, either way, glad you did and glad you enjoyed it.

    That'll be good E. I have been doing the same for seems the past year or so. The past 13 years have been dealing with one disaster or another in me and the kids lives, and so much has just been put here n there. and I have NO clue how I accumulated SO many clothes! Anybody need any jeans 5-6, small tops? Seriously. And here I thought I wasn't one of the clothes types. Clearly wrong there haha

    I may have to cancel our next camping trip which sucks. I just remember, we are supposed to work that weekend. I hadnt cancelled yet because the last work weekend was postponed so I was hoping.....

    One of my new favorite songs

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  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited June 2017

    Well I am at work but mind so far away from here.

    Here is the memorial details I just got it .

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  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited June 2017

    Good morning friends- recovering from a busy and fun weekend. Spent the afternoon with my bco sister and one of her friends she is here with down in the historic area of the city yesterday. We had a great time, helping them find t-shirts and other fun gifts for their families. We came back here to the house to have dinner together. Just had the best time with them!

    E- I wish you were closer to be able to go to the services. I really sense you need to spend time with the family there so when you can get the time and money, go sister.

    Sending you much love today Heart

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited June 2017

    BB- physically decluttering helps the rest of my internal decluttering process, so I do get it. I am constantly going through things, purging clothing that no longer fits, is torn or stained beyond repair, broken things, etc. I find it to be a meditative process in many respects. As I get rid of physical stuff, I also find other things go in the process. Old belief systems, grudges I am unknowingly holding on to, grief, etc.

    When I made my career change to IT in my 30s, I had to use some of my retirement I had put aside to survive while I was making the transition with taking some classes, etc. I still think back to that time and wished I had not had to do so, as I would be that much better off for retirement now as I think towards the last 10 years of working. But sometimes it is just what we need to do to survive. No one wants to be in that place.

    Glad you have some things to make life a bit more comfortable.


  • Simplicity
    Simplicity Member Posts: 723
    edited June 2017

    Makes perfect sense BB. Im doing a bit of the same, and the physical organizing, cleaning too.

    Still having one under 18, Im finding time to do things for me, my mind, my body, my soulll, is more readily available....but, thinking of all the things to be done is much easier than doing.

    Onc says my fatigue is probably the blocker. Eh. I think its life!

    This freakin marker is, ugh, just right there! I'll have to try to get a pic in better lighting. Just at armpit and so annoying!

    I just came in from working outside. AC isn't working. They're here, again. N/C since it was donated. Feel so bad. This is like the 13-14th service call? I cant stand the heat like I use to be able t